Chapter 153 – 153. Unlucky Day
It is said that dawn will come even if you twist the chicken head.
My head hurts like that and I wanted to cry, but when I woke up after closing my eyes for a while, it was morning before I knew it.
It is certainly true that sleep is the panacea.
It’s ridiculously refreshing, so I can’t even laugh.
Winter’s face, who is sleeping soundly, is also cute as usual, so instead a smile comes out.
Haha⋯.
Am I bipolar
“Winter. It’s morning.”
“Weekend…”
“Do you want to sleep more?”
“Yeah.”
How many times have you shaken the sleeping winter to wake him up?
Why do I never get tired of hearing that whining voice?
Why do you smell so good?
I heard that the body odor of someone who is genetically similar is repulsive.
Are we broken?
“I set the alarm again for 10, so let’s get some more sleep. Then.”
“Yeah.”
“Good night.”
“Yeah, I love you…”
With a clear mind, I embrace Winter again in my arms.
It’s warm, cozy, and happy, so I don’t have any bad thoughts.
Can I say something like this?
Can I, being cowardly, decide to destroy this happiness?
I can’t come back after talking.
Probably not.
I want to say something, the desire to shake it off is gradually washed away.
It sinks to the bottom of the water drop by drop.
“⋯.”
To hear this breath.
To feel this heartbeat.
What should I do in the future
“I don’t know…”
The answer is,
Never existed in the first place.
It’s not a problem made to be solved.
Conundrum.
Did you say that there are many mathematicians who have suffered all their lives because they touched unanswerable problems?
I may be similar too.
“You don’t know what, brother?”
If you stand still because you are afraid of the thorny wall, someone will solve it for you.
As I was so clumsy, the wall gradually came towards me.
It’s okay, there are still plenty of places to lie down and sleep.
But someday I’ll die of hunger.
Certainly.
Even if it stops without coming to the end.
I’ll stay locked up
“It’s a joke. I can’t sleep. I’ll stay like this until you sleep, so get a good night’s sleep.”
“Yeah.”
I hug her tightly until she falls asleep, and after making sure that she breathes out gently, I gently get out of the blanket.
Drinking cold water, showering in cold water.
After gargling meticulously, I go back to the bedroom with my head clear and refreshed.
Giving a light kiss on the cheek of the sleeping winter.
Then, hold her hand, which is far away from the side of her head, once more.
“⋯Can I do whatever I want?”
Winter holds my hand tightly without answering.
I put a pod in that hand, and I swallow it again as I try to say I’m sorry.
“Thank you.”
You said we shouldn’t be sorry.
Therefore,
Be thankful for another 100 years.
If only you
If only you don’t break down
I’ll try.
Because your brother
***
“Oh, the chicken ribs were delicious. Right?”
“Yeah, it was delicious, Mom.”
“⋯.”
“Why are you so bored, my son?”
“A little bit because I think about calories.”
“You can sweat and lose it. Since it has a lot of protein, it will turn into muscle when you exercise.”
An evening like no other.
It’s more shabby than lunch, but it can’t be helped that three of them are more enjoyable than two.
Still, I drank some Western water, and I had eyes for restaurants, my kids’ dad.
I will come to eat home-cooked food, not restaurant food.
It’s not that I can’t eat my rice because it’s tasteless.
“⋯Hey, Mom.”
“Yes, son.”
“What exactly did you mean by immigration yesterday?”
“Ah… That?”
“Yes.”
“⋯Did you hear about Winter from your brother?”
“Yeah.”
“Then sit down on the sofa, both of you. Let’s talk.”
I didn’t ask to think about it so seriously, but my son’s expression doesn’t look very comfortable.
I sang so much that I wanted to go out and live.
He even asked his father to buy a house for him.
I thought it would be okay if I didn’t live with my mother anymore.
“Um… Where should my mother tell me? Oh, I have to say that.”
“Which one?”
“Your dad has permanent residency in Canada, and he won’t disappear if he continues to live here.”
“Yes.”
“It’s like throwing it away, and you have to live there for several years… But it’s okay for Dad to spend it alone. We should live together”
I didn’t want to let go of the happiness I had once again.
It’s too harsh to live here with us for the rest of our lives.
He would have had his own life, he would have had colleagues, and he would have had friends.
Because of the guilt, I can’t even say that I want to give up all of that and just stay by my side.
That’s what I complained about once when I was young.
“I didn’t live there all my life, I lived there for several years. Even if I come back, I will live for several years. I thought I would have to go back and forth like that, so I asked you guys.”
“⋯If you go, will you come back often?”
“I have to come back. All of my mom’s friends and family are here. You guys are still young, so if we go together, we’ll make new friends there. Mommy can’t because she’s old.”
There’s nothing to do anyway.
When I listened to the teacher, I felt like I was doing something, so there was no time to be bored.
After retiring and clinging only to dramas, movies, variety shows, and TV, it feels like my brain is rotting.
Originally, I was going to open a cafe, but because of his corona.
“Are you sure you’re going, Mom?”
“They say I have to go back and live there within three years, but my mom told me to stay in Korea until you graduate. Your father.”
“Yes.”
“It’s like sending you guys to study abroad now. Mom should see you wearing your graduation caps too.”
If you leave here, make a library and read books thoroughly.
When I first met my dad, I fell in love with him while reading a book.
It wouldn’t hurt to look back on old memories together.
“Anyway, it’s not something specific. Dad has to go back around that time, so you should know.”
“⋯Yes.”
“If you guys think it’s better to go abroad and settle down, you can follow your mom and dad. If you like Korea, you can stay here forever. Don’t just ask your dad to buy you a house. Just live here Because I won’t sell it.”
Likewise, there are countless memories of this house.
It was a place I came in because it was close to the academy.
The kids go to middle school, high school, college, and the military.
Lived here a long time, really.
I can’t sell it even if it becomes expensive.
If I leave, I want to come back here someday.
“Mom, she will come and go often, so don’t worry too much about it. You have a lot of time, so take your time and think as you please. You still have a long way to go before you graduate anyway.”
“Yes.”
“If you live here and suddenly miss your mom, just get on a plane and come. Mom will come here if she misses you.”
“All right.”
So you don’t need to hear the answer just yet.
No matter what conclusion you draw
Whatever answer you find.
Whatever you think is more right
Since we’re family, we’ll always see each other’s faces.
Your dad will get over his fears someday.
“⋯Mom.”
“Why, son.”
“I’ll slowly think about whether or not to go to Canada.”
“Okay. Decide carefully. Whatever you like.”
“⋯And, can we do something we want to say?”
“What?”
My son too.
Also our daughter-in-law.
Someday you will be able to overcome your wounds and live a normal life again.
“Me and Winter will go out and live within this month.”
“⋯What?”
“⋯I want to live with my brother.”
All right.
Plainly.
Even if you can’t be straight on a date, only on the road well.
“It’s burdensome that Dad can’t come home because he’s noticing us. To be honest, I don’t even know what to do. Me too.”
“⋯Not in the second semester? Already?”
“Because I don’t think we’re ready to live together… If we go out, take us to Dad’s house. I will come and eat with you every weekend.”
⋯Ah.
I guess that’s what it means.
Yeah, it’s not the first time I’ve heard of it.
Originally, it was said that he started living on his own from the second semester, so there is nothing strange about it.
Gae-gae may look cold on the outside, but he’s a warm-hearted kid on the inside.
I’m trying to be considerate of my dad by thinking about it in my own way.
That must be what it means.
“Hey, where do you two live?”
“Since he was trying to live on his own, I’m going to find a room near Anam and live there.”
“Really?”
My son is so nice
It would take at least 50 minutes to get from Anam to Sinchon.
If you look at him conceding that he will be considerate of his brother.
He was raised in a unique and dignified manner.
A mother can trust her as much as her son.
“Uh, um. That. Our daughter.”
“Huh.”
“Isn’t it uncomfortable living with your brother?”
But my daughter-in-law.
I don’t believe it because I still look young.
I don’t see any male eyes.
There are a lot of times when I don’t look like I’m going to have a good time.
My hair is also soft, so I’m often afraid that I’ll get into an accident.
“I’m okay.”
“⋯Really?”
“⋯Because I like living with you.”
So no way
No way…
I can’t believe it.
It’s because I ate too much dinner earlier.
My stomach rumbles as if I had a stomachache.
“⋯Mom.”
“Son.”
“I will live with that winter.”
“⋯Son.”
“That winter…”
You also.
You too…
I made dinner wrong.
It was a mistake to put too much cheese in it.
If you eat a lot of that, of course you feel greasy and bloated.
Then, of course, he stutters…
It can be.
Enough.
“⋯That winter.”
“⋯.”
“I will live with winter.”
“Yes, go to bed together…”
“I will live with you for the rest of my life.”
Enough…
It can…
“⋯Mom.”
“⋯.”
“Please let us live together…”
Around the time my son was in training camp.
After receiving the first phone call a week after enlisting, I realized what it meant to cry sadly.
My son who hears my voice and cries sadly.
A mother crying sadly after hearing her son’s voice.
Hearing the voices of the two, the daughter-in-law cries sadly.
Just like now
Even if you don’t tell me everything
It’s all been told
What do you want to say
