Chapter 115 – 115. Rainbow Sky
The three of them follow them to the cafe where they worked at the beginning of the year without any conversation.
I felt like I would feel sorry if I saw the president’s face, but fortunately he wasn’t there today.
It wasn’t my normal working hours, so I didn’t know any faces.
Follow me to the corner where the story won’t leak,
I sat down side by side with winter, facing my brother.
“⋯.”
While I quench my thirst with unsweetened Americano, I wait for my comrade to open his mouth.
⋯ No way, no way, even when I came.
Seeing him scratching the table with his fingernails, as if anxious, makes me more and more confident.
I’m not sure who the target is, but…
Be like us
“Hey…, Sister Haneul.”
“⋯.”
“You are probably like us…”
“⋯What?”
⋯?
Incomprehensible reaction.
A motive that shows a displeasure that is absurd.
No, it’s what you said, aren’t you offended?
Of course, he is also a younger brother or older brother…
Did ⋯ belong to him?
It seems that there was a time when I said no.
Are you a cousin?
“⋯Wait a minute, what are you guys thinking?”
“My sister says we are similar…”
“Ha… No. Hey. You are really… No.”
Motivation to let out a deep sigh and die of frustration.
⋯Aren’t you the one who told me to follow me and then kept my mouth shut?
Of course, I know better than anyone that talking is not easy…
“Here it is. Why am I not you? Do you think he was interested in you?”
“Me?”
“Uh. You. I pretended to be close to you a lot.”
“⋯Isn’t that just what you were originally?”
“No. ⋯ It’s not like I’m just saying the conclusion. I will explain from the beginning.”
Then, the motive that thumped his stuffy chest and swallowed his saliva,
In order to clear up her misunderstanding, he began to reveal his weaknesses.
“Because the normal-looking kid doesn’t seem to be interested in anyone. ⋯Did you ever want to?”
A story that I feel like I’ve heard before.
Was it last year?
Probably a story that came out while the four of us, including her younger brother, were eating.
I can’t remember exactly when…
Wasn’t the conclusion very unpleasant then?
“It’s like the stories I hear from other people after you’re discharged. Even if we meet and talk in person from time to time. He must have had a boyfriend… But he didn’t have one.”
“⋯What?”
“Picture.”
It’s not that there aren’t any photos.
Because I can’t show it.
Leaving the water level
“So I’ve been floating so many times? But he never said he had a girlfriend. When I ask the part-timers again, they always say that they are going to meet your girlfriend. What is it? I wanted to.”
Doubt, which had grown closer to certainty, changes form.
In an unconventional shape,
Likewise, in a shape that does not fit the mold.
They look different, but they are similar.
It is the same that both are out of specification.
“So… I thought you were similar to me.”
⋯ No, that’s why we’re really close?
Because you think I’m serious?
“⋯I didn’t get along well with the people there. You don’t sound bad from what you hear. Even if we actually talk to each other, it seems like he’s just a normal person.”
“⋯.”
“I thought I could make a friend to talk about like this. ⋯Because I can’t make friends with people just like me.”
Exactly the same person.
Someone who has the same taste, communicates well, and is likely to feel like a human being.
⋯If you’re that kind of person, you’ll naturally feel romantic feelings.
So he probably wanted someone like him who wouldn’t feel those feelings.
Well, in conclusion… It’s very different, but anyway, the similar things were right.
“⋯Eon, sister.”
While I was chewing on my comrade’s words one by one, Kyeori grabbed my hand under the table while her whole body trembled.
⋯Ah, is that it?
I think I would be a bit uncomfortable if my friend said something like this.
“That, that… With the real country…”
“Hey, fuck. Do you want to go after Kim Winter?”
It exploded.
Even people who look damn nice explode if they cross the line.
No, winter
At this point, you should understand.
He’s just running around on the guard rail at the end of the road,
We’re swimming on the beach outside.
They are on the same level, but not the same.
“Amman, even if you are my brother’s friend, there are things to say and things not to say… Ha⋯. No.”
“⋯?”
“Didn’t I just say I didn’t have a boyfriend? And I said I had better circumstances than you. That fuck⋯. Things are not better. Isn’t it winter?”
Of course, to be objective, he’s in a better situation…
Worrying is always more worrying, but there is no less worrying.
Everyone has their own troubles.
Well… Subjectively, we might be better than him.
At least we’re two
“Ah! Ah… That’s right. I’m really sorry. Heavenly sister. After seeing Nara earlier, I couldn’t think of anything other than that…”
“⋯It’s okay. That’s not what I’m talking about. Because I also thought of your brother my own way. “
To be honest, it’s unpleasant for me to be misunderstood like that.
Originally, only what can you see with your eyes.
That’s how we looked in his eyes, and that’s just how he looked in our eyes.
But it wasn’t that my motive was trying to do anything bad to me with it.
I just needed a friend to share my concerns with.
If there is someone who is suspiciously hiding a lover, it might be.
⋯ Oh, no way?
Winter gripped his hand tighter and opened his mouth.
“Hey, maybe…”
“You guys really fuck, do you want to go after me? Really don’t cross the line Fuck⋯, I prefer people smaller than me. You guys are so fucking tall, I hate them both.”
“No no. I didn’t mean to ask that…”
“Then what is it?”
“⋯I wonder if Winter was thinking that way too. He also lied about not having a boyfriend.”
“⋯Honestly, I was a little suspicious. You can see it if you look closely. Gaeul Kim was suspicious because you had no interest in me, and Winter was not interested in me at all.”
⋯ No, I’m curious.
Assuming that my motive approached my younger brother with personal feelings…
Mmm.
I can’t accept that because it’s out of taste.
“Of course, I was very surprised at the time. ⋯ But it can’t be helped. It’s not even windy. It didn’t even hurt me.”
After reaching this point, the stories I shared with him come to mind one by one.
Were your cousins friends with him too?
He said that he became close thanks to his friend who informed him that he was having an affair with his older sister’s boyfriend.
Even now, thinking about it, it seems that one remote area is filthy and wide.
⋯Thanks to you, I got a lot of help.
“I couldn’t help it, so I was so frustrated. It would have been better if I had realized earlier. I realized after I grew up to a certain extent.”
“Ah…”
“I hate it in my head, but when I think of that hateful person as me…, I feel like I’m going to die.”
“⋯I understand.”
Not ethically
Morally wrong
It’s obvious, but being a crooked person doesn’t mean you don’t know that.
How do you not know how to feel?
More painful.
“So I wanted to make a ‘friend’ who suffered the same way and have a sincere conversation? But damn, worse than I imagined…”
“Yai-san, are you saying something in the same troubled situation?”
“⋯ So. I thought no one was more serious than me. When I met someone like that…, I was very worried. What to do.”
When I only knew it on a superficial level, I thought I was just an ordinary person who was lively and had many friends.
When I found out what I couldn’t reveal, I was a rough-mouthed person who showed emotions more radically than I thought.
But.
We live wearing a mask, but shouldn’t we be different people?
“I was going to pretend that I didn’t know at all, but… I thought I would be like that later too.”
“⋯.”
“Even if I meet a good person. In the end, I felt like I was going to explode because I was stuffy like you guys.”
If the,
Suppose we first found someone similar to us.
If you realized that the ending didn’t look very pretty…
What would you do?
To do something like him… I don’t think it would have been easy.
I would have felt sorry for him just by looking at him from a distance.
“So, if possible, I wanted you and your siblings to be well. I thought that if people who are struggling more than me live well, I will also live well.”
“⋯.”
“⋯ But maybe they’re both crazy, they’re hugging each other out of nowhere, and of course I thought they were going out, but then I sat down again and put a steel plate on her face and suddenly started a drinking game ⋯.”
“Shut up. A little. Fuck.”
⋯Why does he keep reminding me of his fucking memories after he says something touching?
Damn, how embarrassing was I earlier?
“Are you swearing at the life saver? If I hadn’t covered that, you guys would have been to the Han River by now. Really.”
“Thank you so please…”
I tried to leave, but my brother caught me.
So I wondered if he had something in mind, but he said he only believed in me anyway.
Winter says he believes in it, but how do you pull it back from there?
The drinking game was also brain freeze, so I just threw out random words.
⋯However, it went relatively smoothly because he accepted it well.
“I wish I knew. Anyway, I’m here. I will never say that with my own mouth.”
“⋯But isn’t that what you said?”
“I don’t speak openly like you. You guys… You have a closing party after some team play…”
“Hey, there’s a reason for that…”
“Then, is it because you deserve it? Do you know how surprised I was then? The two of them were stuck on the street, so I wanted to do something…”
“Ah! Stop it, sister!”
When I stopped trying to take out the freshly baked hot black history, it cooled down a lot more than that, but still took out the hot black history and hit us with facts.
⋯ Rather fortunate.
I’m really glad he’s like that.
No matter what, they are now holding each other’s weaknesses.
All three are safe, as the chance of hitting the annihilation button is zero.
“⋯I’ll stop, so can I ask you one last favor?”
“What?”
Our foreman, who played with people by lifting and dropping them,
Before the end of the team play, he made an important remark until the end, and once again began to dominate the emotions of our siblings.
⋯ Ha.
Actually, I don’t owe him one or two things, so I can’t listen to him no matter what he asks for.
“If I get a boyfriend later… Can I introduce you to your siblings?”
“Okay. Would you brag if you wanted to?”
“I’m fine too.”
“⋯Yes. Thank you.”
Well, we were half forced to introduce them.
I can’t refuse that kind of request.
If you don’t listen… Mr.
Are you angry and don’t know what to do?
We should help each other when we are walking down the dirt road together.
Well… Even though it seems like we’re not on the dirt road, we’re going through the jungle.
“Then really, today is the end. You both leave the cafe. Is this my aunt’s shop?”
“Hey, there’s coffee left…”
“You can take it out, get out quickly! How the fuck did you do this shameful thing…”
I ran away from Shin Ha-neul, who was beating us up again and again, and got out of the cafe holding hands with Winter.
Ha.
I feel relieved.
It’s a little different from the relief I felt before.
At that time, if it was a sense of relief that I felt after doing it alone,
Now it’s winter and just… And then the satisfaction I feel next time?
I must have drank too much.
My brain is weird
But, well, it was comfortable.
After just a few months…
It feels like a lot of the burden has been lifted from my heart.
