Superhuman Delusional – Are You Able to Live a Daily Life？ 51

Chapter 51 – My Hero

Why, why, why…?

Only questions floated in my head.

Why were Rent and Noah kissing…?

It didn’t make any sense at all.

Since when? Rent and Noah were…

“Hoo… As expected, kissing Rent… makes my body heat up quickly. Hehehe, then let’s get right to it, Rent~.”

“You’re especially proactive today, Noah?”

“I can’t just keep getting dominated like yesterday… Th-this time, I’m going to win.”

Noah started taking off her clothes.

Why are you taking off your clothes, Noah?

Don’t tell me, you’ve already… with Rent… and yesterday too…?

“Haa… haa…”

My chest hurts.

My breathing is getting ragged.

“Umm, Rent.”

“What is it, Noah?”

“Actually, I want Rent to undress me like yesterday. I think I like that better.”

“Okay, Noah.”

Rent smiled at Noah.

It was a different face than when he was talking to me.

A slightly blushing, shy, yet happy face.

Rent’s hand reached for Noah’s clothes.

Rent’s hand slowly began to undress Noah.

“Ugh!”

After that, I couldn’t watch anymore.

My chest hurt, hurt, it hurt so much.

And… I couldn’t bear to watch that scene to the end.

I didn’t want to see that scene.

When I came to my senses, I was hurriedly leaving the door and going down the stairs.

“Ugh, why am I cleaning the bathhouse… Oh, Elsie?”

Tina seemed to have come out of a door that wasn’t usually open and called my name.

I didn’t have the composure to respond to Tina’s words.

I wanted to run out of the inn right now.

But if I left without saying anything… Tina might worry about me and go into Rent’s room.

Rent and Noah might come out of the room.

I didn’t want to see Rent and Noah’s faces right now.

“Yes, what is it, Tina…”

I barely managed to answer, suppressing the pain in my chest.

“It’s rare for Elsie to come down at this hour.”

“I just… wanted to take a night walk.”

“Is that so?”

“Tina~ What are you doing~ Hurry and bring the cleaning supplies~”

Miranda’s voice came from a room that wasn’t usually used.

“Okay, Mom!”

Tina answered Miranda and headed to the kitchen.

Seeing Tina enter the kitchen, I ran outside.

I ran, ran, and ran without a destination…

When I stopped, exhausted from running, I was in the park.

“Haa… haa… haa…”

I stopped and caught my breath, but the pain in my chest didn’t go away.

“Why… since when…”

The questions wouldn’t leave my head.

Since when did Rent and Noah become like that?

Since when…

No matter how much I thought and thought and thought, my aching chest and throbbing head couldn’t come up with a proper answer.

Without finding a clear answer, a new question arose in my head.

“Why…”

Why does my chest hurt so much?
Why does my head hurt so much?

“Hic, sob, sniffle, hic!”

Why are tears flowing so much?
Why am I so sad?

Why, why, why.

The questions kept coming.

But I could find the answer to this question quickly.

When I was with Rent, my heart fluttered.

When Rent was by my side, I felt at ease.

When Rent smiled at me, I was happy too.

I had been unconsciously following Rent with my eyes.

And the moment Rent smiled at Noah with a smile he didn’t show me.

My chest hurt.

“Ah, I am…”

Yes, I am…

“I was in love with Rent… That’s why I’m… hurting like this.”

I had realized my own love.

And that love had been shattered, and that’s why my heart was hurting.

“Rent and Noah were like that… And I didn’t even know… “

It was only because I liked Rent that I didn’t like Noah clinging to him.

I was just foolishly interfering with Rent and Noah’s displays of affection.

“I’m so… stupid. Me… Ah, I see…”

When Rent said at the temple that he would come with Noah next time, he wanted to pray to Solisin with the Noah he loved.

He wanted to pray for their happiness to Solisin with Noah, not me.

“Of course… In the sacred temple… with the person you love…”

My chest hurt even more.

“Rent…”

Without realizing it, I was calling Rent’s name.

“Rent…”

Now I could understand.

“Rent…”

From the moment my life was saved.

“Ren… t…”

From the first moment I saw Rent.

“Hic, sniffle, Rent…”

To the hero who saved me.

“Sniffle, haa, hic, Rent…”

I had fallen in love with Rent.

But.

Rent was not my hero.

“Huu, sniffle, huuu…”

I wanted to cry loudly.

I wanted to unleash my sadness with all my might.

But my chest hurt too much.

My heart hurt too much.

I couldn’t even scream, I could only cry silently, holding my breath.

Rent is kind.

Rent is definitely a kind and wonderful person to me and to everyone else.

I had made a mistake somewhere.

That Rent, who was kind to me.

That Rent, whom I loved.

I had unconsciously thought that he loved me the same way.

I had been deluding myself.

But that kindness was equal to everyone.

And the person Rent chose was Noah, not me.

Come to think of it, it was obvious.

I wasn’t as proactive as Noah.

I didn’t show my affection to Rent directly like Noah did.

Rent must have come to like a woman who showed him affection like Noah.

There was no way Rent would like someone like me, who was just shy and couldn’t move forward.

There was no way Rent would like a woman like me, who rejected Rent’s offer while thinking about him on my own…

My chest tightened even more.

Why did I make a mistake and not move forward myself?

My hatred for myself was swelling.

But it was already too late.

The hero’s saint… I, who was not chosen by the hero… was just an ordinary companion to Rent.

Rent’s love… I couldn’t receive it.

I couldn’t become the hero’s saint.

“Hic, sniffle.”

Tears fell and soaked the ground.

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How long had I been crying in the park?

I was still sitting on the bench, crying pathetically.

But after crying for a while, I was able to calm down a little.

“Sniffle… I should go back.”

Staying outside like this wouldn’t solve anything.

No, it wasn’t even a matter of solving or not solving anything in the first place.

I had been deluding myself, and I was just sad after finding out the truth.

“From tomorrow… what kind of face should I show Rent… what kind of face should I show Noah…”

Noah is a precious companion.

But what kind of thoughts would I have when I saw Noah now?

Noah had simply achieved her love proactively.

It was too selfish of me to hate or dislike Noah.

And I didn’t want to hate or dislike Noah.

If I felt that way the moment I saw Noah…

And if I ended up hating Rent for not choosing me…

I really wouldn’t be able to forgive myself for becoming so ugly.

If I ended up feeling that way, I definitely wouldn’t be able to continue the party.

Being together would be painful, sad, and maddening… I would definitely become as ugly as possible.

In the worst case, I should just… leave the party myself.

I like both Rent and Noah.

I don’t want to hate or hurt them with my selfish jealousy and envy.

With that resolve, I got up from the bench.

“Hmm? I didn’t expect to find a fellow believer out here in the middle of the night.”

At that moment, a man entered the park.

Not a male novice, but a formal priest’s robe.

He was a priest who served Solisin, just like me.

“Ah, hello.”

I bowed my head, trying to hide my eyes, which were swollen from crying.

“Hello. What brings you here?”

“I, I was just… taking a night walk…”

“Ah, I see. A walk. Yes, that’s good. A habit of taking care of your health while walking. I think that’s very good.”

Actually, I was so sad that I had just run out without thinking.

My heart ached at the fact that I had lied.

“Yes…”

“But it might be better to refrain from night walks at this time. Recently, there are some scary people called newbie killers, so you should be careful, as fellow novice priests might be targeted.”

“Ah, th-thank you for your concern.”

“Hahahaha, no problem. It’s nothing. It’s only natural as a fellow believer who worships the same Solisin. Haaahm…”

The priest looked very sleepy.

“Excuse me…”

“Hmm? What is it?”

“You look very sleepy… What brings you here, priest?”

I didn’t know why I asked that question myself.

Maybe it was just because I was worried about the priest who had been kind and worried about me.

“Ah, you mean me… Actually, I didn’t want to wander around at night either… but I had a request from a colleague. I was just wandering around looking for something to move.”

“Something to move?”

“Yes. My colleague has a unique hobby. Well, I also have a similar hobby, although in a different direction, so I sometimes cooperate with his hobby and enjoy it together.

But to enjoy that unique hobby, you need unique items.
Recently, it seems like we haven’t been able to enjoy that hobby much, so he’s been nagging me to enjoy it again soon. Hahahaha, he’s a really troublesome friend.”

“Yes… I see.”

What kind of item would you be looking for near this park?

I was going to return to the fox’s den, but I was still a little scared to see Rent and Noah’s faces.

Maybe that’s why, maybe it was just a way to kill time, but I wanted to help the priest who had worried about me for a while.

“If it’s okay, could I… help you find the item?”

I wanted to do something to organize my thoughts a little more.

“Ah, you don’t have to worry about that. I’ve already found the item.”

“Is that so?”

The priest nodded with a kind smile.

“Yes. It just so happened to appear right in front of me.”

“Huh?”

What on earth was the priest talking about?

I didn’t understand.

Was there something he was looking for behind me?

I turned around, but there wasn’t anything in particular.

The priest burst out laughing.

“Hahahaha, it’s not behind you. Hmm, what was your name…”

“Ah, it’s Elsie.”

“Ah, is that so.”

The priest bowed his head slightly and introduced himself.

“I am Gabida. Elsie, let me say again, the item I’m looking for is not behind you. That’s because…”

Priest Gabida pointed at me with his finger.

“The item I’m looking for is you.”

“Huh?”

What on earth was Priest Gabida talking about?

“To be precise… it’s a weak and innocent-looking novice adventurer like you, wandering around at night like this. Wow~ I’m so glad. I’m so glad you’re so beautiful.

If it’s someone as pretty as Elsie, we can really have a lot of fun.”

“Wh-what are you…”

“It’s been really difficult lately. The Adventurer’s Guild has created some strange magical tools.

So, after enjoying this time, we were going to have to come up with another method and go into hiding for a while…

I’m so glad that someone like Elsie, who is so perfect for having fun, has appeared this time.”

Magical tool.
Item.
Hobby.

As the three words and Priest Gabida’s words combined in my head, one word popped out of my mouth.

“Newbie killer…”

“Hehehe, I’m really looking forward to hearing what kind of sounds you’ll make when you’re violated.”

Priest Gabida’s lips split like a crescent moon, and he gave a wicked smile.

“Hii!”

I had to run away from here right now.

I had a feeling that if I was caught here… I would never be able to see Rent or Noah again.

When I turned my back to Priest Gabida.

“Ah, by the way…”

“Ugh!”

Someone covered my mouth with a cloth.

“I didn’t wander around alone. I’m in charge of inducing carelessness… and the capture is done by someone else. What do you think? Wolf. Isn’t Elsie beautiful?”

“Yeah, she’ll make an artistic target. Her voice sounds like her screams will be pretty too.”

My consciousness was fading.

“Hehehe, I think Wolf will be satisfied too.”

“Haaahm… Then let’s take her quickly. I want to move her quickly and get some sleep.”

My eyelids were getting heavier and heavier.

“Me too. Seriously, no matter how urgent it is, Wolf is so selfish. He’s probably sleeping alone at the hideout by now, right?”

Rent… Noah…

“It can’t be helped, he’s the strongest among us.”

Unable to overcome the drowsiness, my consciousness was cut off.