Chapter 1193 – Do You Have Any Second Thoughts? (4)
Unlike usual when we chatted about various things while driving, I stayed quiet without saying a word, and Eunseol Yoo glanced at me as if she felt a little strange.
Still, he looked a little awkward, perhaps because he was the one to speak up first, but he didn’t speak up first.
I’m used to my side talking about things first, but it would be a bit prickly on my conscience to try to make the atmosphere friendly on my side first.
‘. Even though I’ve already done everything.’
Even though you have already committed an affair, your conscience is pricked about making your relationship a little better.
I already know that it’s entirely due to hypnosis, but every time I feel this subtle twist, I feel like I’m going to burst out laughing.
The feeling of guilt had already become so dull that I didn’t even know it was still there, and it was because I felt a slight sense of conquest at the thought of it being the result of manipulating the other person as I wanted.
I silently deduced Yoo Eun-seol’s psychological state and continued to drive in silence until I arrived at the motel parking lot I always went to.
And, unlike usual, when I first opened the car door and got out without telling him to get out, he got out of the car while looking at me as if he felt something was a little strange.
“Let’s go.”
“. Yes.”
Still, I thought it would be too blatant if I didn’t say a word up to this point, so I said a few words in a calm voice and walked away.
So we entered the building together, found a room, took the elevator up, and entered the room.
Tirik-
Hearing the sound of the door lock closing, I took off my shoes, walked into the room with great strides, and sat down on the bed.
“What do you want to do?”
“Uh, huh.?”
“You came all the way to the motel. You’re not going to do it?”
“That’s not true.”
If it were like normal, I would have taken the lead, whether it was attacking Yoo Eun-seol from the front door, dragging her up on the bed, or taking off her clothes together and going into the bathroom first.
When I asked him what he was going to do while looking at me without even putting a hand on me, I could tell he was clearly confused.
“I called because my sister wanted to do it.”
“Yes, but.”
In order to convey the idea that I have no intention of taking the first action until the end, I once again tease Yu Eun-seol, and she shrinks a little more and hesitates, looking at her.
‘Is this the extent of it for now?’
I’m not in a state of extreme sexual desire, and I’ve already relieved my desire a little by taking a break in the apartment, so there’s no chance of Yoo Eun-seol not being able to hold back and attacking me.
No, if you really think that it will end without doing anything, you may feel anxious and take bold action, but this may be the limit with a light attempt like now.
Even though he liked having sex with me, he felt a great deal of resistance to taking active action on his part due to his guilt toward his family.
A passive state where you want sex so much that it’s unbearable, but you also want me to take the lead.
That was the current state of Yoo Eun-seol and Lee Jae-kyung.
“Then what.”
You can’t make progress right from the start. He muttered that there was nothing he could do and stood up, walked towards Eunseol Yoo and stretched out his hand.
“Tsk.”
And, as he began to undo the buttons of his dress one by one, starting from the top, Yu-eun-seol, who had flinched slightly, lifted his head slightly and carefully examined his complexion.
If it were like normal, instead of taking off your clothes so politely, you would have grabbed your breasts or buttocks over the clothes, dug in, kneaded them tightly, and peeled off your clothes in a sticky manner as if caressing them.
I took off the dress by undoing the buttons one by one, and tried to take off the cute and sexy bra with a white background and flowing lace, which was different from usual.
“Over there.”
I guess I couldn’t stand the awkwardness any longer. As a result, Yoo Eun-seol spoke first.
“Why?”
“Maybe.”
Normally, when I have something to say, I like to convey the matter quickly and clearly, but when I want to guide the other person’s psychology, like now, I like to hesitate and say more.
Feeling nervous, shy, or sorry.
I liked the hesitation on his face and his inability to control his emotions like that.
And, the expression on Yoo Eun-seol’s face right now…
‘. Are you anxious?’
Although I felt awkward in an atmosphere that was different from usual, I didn’t seem to feel anxious as I didn’t show that I was particularly angry or upset.
Although I thought it was a bit surprising that my expectations were wrong, I looked into Eunseol Yoo’s eyes without saying a word, with my expression showing no emotion.
“Perhaps. Did I do something wrong.?”
She doesn’t ask what’s wrong, she asks if she did something wrong.
She seemed to be paying more attention to her than expected.
“Hmm. I don’t have anything in particular. Why?”
“If not, I’m glad. Because he doesn’t seem to be in a good mood.”
I just didn’t overtly show my bad feelings. Since he continued to keep a blank expression without saying a word, it was natural to think that way.
Still, it’s strange that they don’t just look at each other, but become anxious and take a low stance first.
I don’t know if there’s anything I can do to point out that I did something wrong. You probably don’t even have a guess yet.
“My sister didn’t do anything wrong.”
“Yeah.?”
Even though he clearly said no, he still looked anxious that he may have done something wrong.
‘No, this is enough…’
The expression goes beyond anxiety to being slightly scared.
No matter how much I think about it, I don’t think he was scared because of me, and if it wasn’t me…
‘. Is it because of lack of affection?’
Her relationship with her husband is not bad, and her family is harmonious, but the lack of affection caused by not being loved as a woman is the common attraction point of Yu Eun-seol and Lee Jae-kyung.
If someone else saw it, they might feel sorry for it, or it might feel annoying and uncomfortable, but at least from my perspective, as I was able to control those feelings, it just felt like a special point of attraction that could only be felt by these two people.
In any case, as she had already experienced being unloved by her husband for an unknown reason, she may have felt very anxious at the prospect of it happening a second time.
At best, it was just a hypothesis I came up with based on his watchful attitude and frightened expression, but in the current situation, it felt like the most plausible.
“Then. The reason I don’t feel good is.”
This is the watershed.
Even after hearing the answer that she had done nothing wrong, she couldn’t let go of her anxiety and tried to ask again.
Are you going to pretend not to know until the end and continue to make Yoo Eun-seol uneasy? Or, should you clearly explain why you feel bad and try to make him feel better?
Although that thought crossed my mind for a moment, it was easy to make a decision.
“. It wasn’t really my sister’s fault. It was just that I felt a little uncomfortable.”
Before I could say that, asking if it was true that I was in a bad mood, I interrupted the conversation first and revealed that it was true that I was not in a good mood.
Yoo Eun-seol’s expression, which had been frozen with anxiety, also changed as she slightly relaxed her expressionless expression and spoke calmly rather than emotionlessly.
Relieved that I was in a relaxed mood. And I still have anxiety about saying that it is true that I feel bad.
Seeing the older woman’s nervous expression, feeling both relief and anxiety at the same time as I said, I thought that she had chosen this direction well.
I like making women anxious and anxious, but I don’t like making them scared and anxious.
For the sake of the teaching assistant, I sometimes scare them, but most of the time, I tend to let things go on the spot.
I meet Yoo Eun-seol at most once a fortnight. No matter how much I thought about it, making me suffer from anxiety for an entire 15 days was not my cup of tea.
“. Did I make a mistake?”
I clearly told him twice that it wasn’t his fault. If that doesn’t relieve the anxiety, I ask this time if I made a mistake even if it wasn’t my fault.
The change in my attitude only happened in a short period of time between leaving the house and getting into the car, so it seemed like he thought he was responsible for anything.
Anyway, this was my first time being so actively interested in myself, so I didn’t feel too bad.
This time, with a slightly relaxed expression and a light smile, he reassures Yoo Eun-seol in a friendly voice with a little emotion.
“It’s not really my sister’s fault. You might think it’s funny, but I did it because I was a little disappointed.”
“You were sad.?”
“Can’t you listen and laugh?”
“. I won’t smile.”
With a light smile on his face, he looked a bit embarrassed and hesitant this time, but after listening to Yu Eun-seol’s answer, he continued speaking a moment later.
“So, there was a time when we left the apartment and walked together.”
“. Yes.”
“At that time, I saw my sister trying to walk away from me, so I felt sad.”
“Ah…”
Pretending to be embarrassed and embarrassed to say it directly. When I spoke slightly, she opened her mouth slightly and made a confused expression.
“I know I have to do that to avoid being suspicious of my neighbors. Even though I know it in my head, I can’t help but feel a little sad.”
“Well. Ugh. That’s right.”
Finally, when I clearly tell her that she understands, her blank expression returns to a hesitant expression, as if she doesn’t know how to react.
‘You seem to be in a good mood,’
As she clearly knows the truth, she seems relieved, but her cheeks turn red and the corners of her mouth twitch as if something tickles her.
He must be happy to know that the reason I was in a bad mood was the disappointment that came from my affection for myself.
It wasn’t my intention, but since I’ve suffered from a lack of affection for a long time, I guess it makes me happy to know that he likes me enough to show that I’m not happy.
If you think about the fact that the person you like is not your husband but the person you were having an affair with, your feelings may be complicated, but it seems like that is not what you are thinking about right now.
‘. So the lack of affection is the charm point.’
Even though he was much older than me, seeing the corner of his mouth twitch and his expression so happy that it was difficult to hide his expression made me feel good.
“Of course. Hmm, that could be possible. I should have thought about your feelings instead of just thinking about myself. I’m sorry sister.”
Even though I tried to control my excited emotions and speak calmly, the corners of my mouth trembled again, and I coughed slightly as I continued speaking. I, too, suppressed my laughter quietly.
Although he said he was sorry in words, there was a subtle feeling of joy in his apologetic eyes and voice.
“No. That’s natural from my sister’s point of view. I’m narrow-minded. I’m sorry.”
“Oh, no. I’m really sorry. Furthermore, I should have told you in advance that I would be walking separately.”
At this point, I was almost bowing down and receiving bows, but I succeeded in getting Yoo Eun-seol to apologize, just as I had initially planned.
Because she was so happy, it was hard to tell whether she was really sorry or not.
“I’m sorry. You were very disappointed, weren’t you?”
However, as if her verbal apology was not enough, I saw her come to my side first and apologize by gently hugging her body, and I was confident that she had definitely achieved her goal.
