Chapter 833 – [Side Story] 13. Loneliness
One day, about three years after I lived happily with Shinyoung.
She looked at me and spoke seriously.
“Seongcheol, let’s talk.”
Usually, when I start talking like that, it means I did something wrong.
My heart aches without even realizing it. And I turn my head. What on earth did I do wrong?
No matter how much I think about it, there is nothing. Therefore, she sat down in front of the table with a rather confident expression.
Shinyoung smiles brightly when she sees me like that.
“You didn’t do anything wrong. So don’t be scared. How on earth did you get this all over her face like that?”
“Hey! If you sing like that, anyone will be scared! Do you think it’s just me? I guess all men are like that.”
“I understand. I guess I was too serious. It’s not a serious story, so relax.”
After saying that and seeming to choose her words for a moment, she slowly opens her mouth again.
“First, I want to say that I have no complaints about my life now. I don’t lack anything, and I’m really happy living like this with you.”
“Hey. I’m even more scared if you lay the groundwork like that. Why don’t you tell me the main point quickly?”
“Ugh. What’s so urgent? I’m just saying it with a lot of thought.”
I pride myself on having a lot of patience, but I just can’t stand something like this.
This anxiety creeping up in my stomach. Because I want to put this to rest quickly.
Moreover, Shinyoung’s mood today is a little different from her usual mood.
Perhaps my anxiety arises from noticing that.
“Ascension and soul extraction. You said you can still do it, right?”
“Suddenly? Why is that?”
Shinyoung remains silent for a moment again. And she’s looking out her window.
Cherry blossoms are in full bloom outside.
At her request to see cherry blossoms, I moved a bunch of good ones from all over.
Cherry blossoms in full bloom. A scenery that is so beautiful but somehow makes you cry.
“I like being with you. So don’t get me wrong, listen. I want to meet people. A real life. A world without skills or coins. Instead of a world where people start thinking about killing each other, I just mix with people normally. The world we live in, you know what I mean?”
“What… This is a very serious story.”
Know. I understand.
She lived in that world until she was twenty.
But all my life, and now. She is alone.
Even though I was there, she was always alone when I wasn’t around.
Even now, back then, the only people around were dogs.
She misses people. Humans are social animals, right?
From that perspective, Shinyoung is a social orphan.
I am in a pitiful situation where I am the only person I can talk to comfortably.
In fact, it is said to be an unavoidable situation in this ruined world… She is tired.
In the loneliness of being alone. That I am the only one who can fill it.
“You don’t plan on becoming a manager? Really?”
“Yes. I won’t. I told you. Furthermore, I like pleasure without responsibility.”
“It’s fascinating. Why? Normally, when an opportunity like this comes, you have to want to do it right away, isn’t it normal?”
“There are people like me. If I trust you, and you don’t abandon me, then I can live as happily as I want in the world you created, right?”
“No, I’m grateful that you said you trusted me, but how could I abandon you?”
“Look. So there’s no need for me to be anxious.”
“Don’t you feel uncomfortable that it’s a fake world?”
“So now? What about the world I lived in before?”
“… When you say that, I have nothing to say. No. No. Think about it. If you become a manager, you can get rid of that awkward feeling. You can get rid of the feeling of being played under someone’s thumb.”
“I don’t think so? You said that, right? There are things you don’t know yet? You, the top administrator of a universe, are also playing into someone’s hands?”
“Yeah… That’s true. But that and these are a little different!”
“No. It’s not much different. It’s just a difference in scope. And I have no complaints as long as that grip is yours.”
It seems like it’s becoming something philosophical and metaphysical.
Anyway, one thing is certain: she has no intention of becoming a manager.
I just want an ordinary life, a life in an ordinary world.
“Ha. Okay, okay. If that’s what you think, there’s no need for me to try to break your stubbornness. All I can do is do whatever you want.”
“Look. If you can’t win, why are you fighting so hard?”
A woman smiling with a triumphant expression. Ah. That’s disgusting. I hate you.
From the beginning, I was very curious. I was very excited. Ugh.
“Do it now? Or do I need to get ready?”
“It doesn’t matter. Even if you use that, you don’t feel like there’s a void in me? Aren’t I just waking up in the world you created?”
“That’s right. That’s right.”
“Then what preparations are there? There’s no need for that. This world will disappear anyway.”
“That too.”
It may seem a bit nihilistic and pessimistic, but there’s nothing wrong with what she says.
The only thing preserved here is her soul.
In the end, you won’t be able to take anything with you.
Seeing as you understand that, I don’t think it was something you brought up impulsively.
“What about your brother? What about the dogs?”
“It’s okay. There’s no need to do that. You’re not going to die completely anyway. It’s a world that can be recreated at any time.”
“That’s true too. Because there is a backup. Rollback is possible at any time.”
“So it’s okay. You can use it right away. When I think about it… I don’t know why I was so hurt by you killing my brother. Of course, I didn’t know anything about this at the time, so I couldn’t help it.”
If you listen to Shinyoung’s tone of voice and thoughts… She feels a little liberated.
Liberation, transcendence, awakening… Something like that.
Although she is a finite being, she thinks like an immortal.
Although immortality is possible only with my help, I have no doubts or worries about such things.
The way he naturally believes in me, as if it were natural.
When I saw that… For some reason, I felt it was amazing.
“In order to extract your soul, I need to make you happy first? Hmm…”
“It’s okay. You can do it right away. I’m always happy.”
Then he looks at me and smiles.
Faith without a single doubt.
As was the case in the previous conversation and even now, this woman firmly believes in me.
No, it’s not just a little while ago.
I think she’s been like that ever since she got her full memory back and told me about it.
That’s right. When I think about it, yes. She’s an amazing woman.
It’s as if he wanted to do that for a long time but was disappointed that he couldn’t do it.
“Oh, no. Wouldn’t it be better to create a happier situation?”
After saying that, he got up from his chair and came towards me.
What is he doing here? I was just looking at him, but he immediately pushed the table aside and sat down on the chair, facing me, on my lap.
Shinyoung looks at me and smiles. She immediately presses her lips together.
Well then. It’s a kiss after all.
But I react naturally to her kisses. Now the tongue goes out like a conditioned reflex.
Actually, I like it too. Sometimes it’s a bit excessive, but basically it’s good.
Of course.
Shinyoung’s lips parted, and she smiled seductively at me.
“Okay, now write it.”
“Huh? Like this? No more?”
Since you are sitting on my lap, you must be feeling my erection.
But Shinyoung just smiles and says.
“Let’s continue this in a peaceful world.”
“Ah. Why? Isn’t it a bit too much to cut it off like this?”
“This is how you prepare the world for me with a little more care.”
“Hey. It’s a moment for you, but it takes a long time for me. I still have a long way to go before I can kill all the people in this world.”
“Then you’ll be a little more motivated. Finish it quickly and come see me.”
“Anyway… It’s not good. It’s not good.”
While grumbling like that, I wrote an ascension letter to Shinyoung.
Then she kisses me lightly, this time on the lips.
“See you later.”
“What happens next? You and me later. Soul extraction.”
Just like that, Shinyoung disappeared. All I have left is beads in my hand.
Ugh. Bad girl. If I leave like this, who will comfort my poor brainchild?
Anyway, following Seon-kyun, Shin-young also became her soul bead.
It was earlier than expected, but there’s nothing we can do.
Now all that’s left is Seunggyu’s family.
The problem is that Hayul is still young, so it will take a little more time?
Ah. First… Let’s go to the Maldives. I’m going to get some coins too. Let’s go and think.
Maldives.
When I appear, naked, fascinated women flock towards me.
Ah. I did it, but honestly, it’s a little scary.
Ugh. I need to do this in moderation and dispose of it quickly.
So I take off my clothes, lie down on the bed, and think about what to do next.
In the meantime, there were women who attacked me wearing a mirror and women who climbed on top of me.
It’s hilarious that Jeong Se-hee is among those women.
He was waiting for his turn to somehow insert my dick into his vagina.
It’s really pitiful. Poor guy. Ugh.
Hayul thinks, ignoring the coins coming in and the women panting above me.
Now only four years old. Hayul is about the same age as when I first met her.
At least 11 more years. You have to wait that long.
I didn’t know Shinyoung would leave so quickly. There’s a setback in the plan.
Still, there’s nothing you can do about it. Because that’s what you wanted.
It was a bit of an unfortunate situation for me to be caught in.
Hmm. Is there any way? There must be a good idea.
Lying down like that, it feels like it’s some kind of semen dispenser.
A cock that won’t lose its erection. Women who put it in their pussies and shake their bodies vigorously. And circumstances.
Then that woman goes down, and the other woman comes up.
We’ve carefully selected all the women with matching faces and bodies.
Jeong Se-hee is probably the ugliest person here. Because I didn’t carefully select him.
After about six people, something suddenly occurred to me while I was writing state regression.
State regression. This is a skill that returns my body to the past.
And vice versa, state growth. A skill that can make you the age you want to be in the future.
Okay. What if I write this to Hayul? And what if you use perfect memory recovery right away?
Memory at a four-year-old level. If you build the body of a 20-year-old in that state, you will end up just a grown-up kid.
I won’t be able to speak properly or even move my body.
It would be difficult for a four-year-old baby to handle his suddenly grown body.
But what if you use perfect memory recovery? All the memories of my past life will come back, right?
Then there is no such thing as confusion, right? Your body will adapt right away, right?
Anyway, the memories of this life aren’t that important, right?
Umm… Good idea. It’s a good idea, but… I’m not sure.
In theory, there is no problem. However, it is questionable whether this will work properly.
Above all, I don’t really want to do something like that to Hayul.
Forced growth. I’m not very reluctant. I feel like I’m doing something I shouldn’t.
I wonder if there is a sample I can test somewhere, so I can check its stability… It’s not easy either.
There are several children who lived on the ark for a long time. There were kids around Hayul’s age.
If you look for those kids, they’ll be out there somewhere by now… It won’t be easy to find it.
I can’t even guarantee that he’s still alive.
Let’s quit. Just wait.
Hayul waited for me for decades, but he couldn’t wait for more than 10 years, so it’s a bit pathetic to think of such a shortcut.
It’s better to just wait patiently.
No, wouldn’t it be much better to create a better world for Hayul to live in?
You saw Shinyoung’s example, right? People must live in harmony with others.
Even though he has a father and a mother, Hayul is sure to be bored.
So you’ll need some friends to keep you company.
This is where you will leave anyway, but it won’t be a bad thing if you see a lot of good things while growing up.
Because I can do that. Hmm. Okay. That would be better. That’s a little more constructive.
“Okay, that’s enough. Everyone stop.”
The women were very disappointed when I told them.
Moreover, the funny thing is that the next person in line was Jeong Se-hee.
He looks very disappointed because he couldn’t have sex with me.
Ugh. It’s really pitiful. It’s so sad.
But that’s it. I have no intention of being interested anymore.
Something came to mind, so I should try it. It might take some time, so I’ll have to be diligent.
