Chapter 38 – Despair (3)
Situation just over.
It’s clumsy, but I swallowed a sigh while looking at the condom wrapped around Siwoo’s things.
Since it is the size of a little finger, it is unavoidable that there are condoms left that fit the golden sun.
However, the difference was so great that the role of the condom, which is contraception, could not be properly performed.
I had no choice but to pull the bottom of the condom to make a knot and then fix it.
I felt an indescribable feeling while watching this.
I knew Siwoo was small, but…
This… Too…
“Energy… Sorry to keep you waiting. You… I’ll put it in.”
Siwoo is excited and wants to put it right away.
But my body had cooled and dried up from waiting for him.
A situation that requires caress.
But the clumsy Siwoo tried to put it in without even knowing it.
“Ruler… For a moment.”
Siwoo is taken aback by my words.
Seeing that expression, I thought that I had no choice but to endure this pain.
“Wife… Because it’s the first time… Fat… Will you take it easy..?”
Unavoidable smoke.
Hearing that, Siwoo nodded his head broadly as if he was more excited.
The desire to put in somehow.
It was not an emotion that I, originally a man, did not know about, but his clumsy behavior disguised as clumsiness was difficult to cover with politeness or kindness.
Siwoo has no idea whether I’m excited or wet or if I can put it in now.
Golden Sun knows this…
‘What else am I thinking… ‘
A situation you want to miss.
For a moment, I wondered if I might be expecting too much from him, who was the first one.
Everyone has a first time.
I relaxed my mind and looked at Siwoo with the most excited expression on my face.
“Ji… Ji-eun… Am… Can you feel it?”
“… “
An embarrassing situation.
I was dumbfounded and didn’t know how to deal with this situation.
Stupid Siwoo shaking his waist even though he didn’t even put it in.
Not even finding a hole properly, he just wandered around and was aroused by himself rubbing against the flesh near her pussy.
I didn’t know how to react to this.
It was an ambiguous situation even for me to tell the location by hand.
I didn’t put it in, but I couldn’t even feel it.
Fortunately, Siwoo noticed it quickly.
That he was in the wrong place.
At that point, he blushed, lowered his head, and searched for the hole again.
A few minutes like that.
Just when I thought about going home like this, thinking that there is a level of sluggishness, Siwoo finally found a hole.
Siwoo puts his cock in the hole silently as if he was sorry.
I finally feel the cock come in…
“Ji… Ji-eun de… At las… We are connected.”
“That… Okay.”
“Me… Therefore… I you… “
A cold heart.
I thought more about whether this was really the best thing than this stupid guy who was about to confess while having sex.
Siwoo’s ungainly dick that I can’t really feel.
He didn’t even know it had entered my entrance.
It was about the size of a little finger, so I thought it would feel like masturbating, but it wasn’t even that much.
I’m sorry for Siwoo…
I didn’t feel anything.
This is a situation where you can’t even reach the hymen.
I came with the determination to give him a virgin unconditionally, but I couldn’t go back with only this displeasure.
A situation in which I had to move.
I pretended to be excited and hugged him.
“Ji… Ji-eun?”
Siwoo suddenly trembled at my sudden embrace.
I knew instinctively that he had ejaculated, but I couldn’t help but keep going strong.
Siwoo hugged me.
Lee Ji-eun’s body, which had been working out for a long time, was slightly larger than Si-woo’s.
“Me… At las… I’m connected with you… “
Siwoo stares blankly at my words.
I pretended to be as excited as I could and looked him in the eyes and said softly.
“Thank you Siwoo for taking my first.”
Siwoo’s eyes widen at those words.
Then he trembled again, then sagged again.
Two absurd consecutive ejaculation.
I didn’t even feel the condom swelling, let alone my body.
Siwoo tries to pull herself back.
I knew all too well that he was tired from the circumstances.
Still, I have no choice but to show him that he took my hymen.
Even though I was in this painful situation, I had no choice but to hug Siwoo and not let go.
“Ji… Ji-eun me… “
“Ruler… Can’t we just stay like this for a while?”
“Mi… I’m sorry Ji-eun.”
“… “
Siwoo couldn’t stand it even for a moment.
I had no choice but to let him go in the end.
Siwoo released from within me.
He sat on the bed with an exhausted expression on his face.
A situation that makes me angry.
I was even embarrassed and even annoyed.
The feeling of being insulted worse than the insult I received from Taeyang.
I felt like I was being cut down as a man, but I also felt like the part of Lee Ji-eun, a woman, had been shaved off tremendously.
Siwoo, who only enjoyed his own pleasure and stretched out.
Even though I only used one condom, I fell asleep on the bed on my own.
“… “
An unknown feeling shaking inside me.
I tried my best not to be dominated by these emotions.
Siwoo, the person I chose to get out of this game in the first place.
Besides, I knew very well that Siwoo was such a person because I made this game.
Kind and kind… Be polite…
And…
“And… “
A word I spat out without even realizing it.
I had no choice but to end this unfinished excitement with masturbation.
Why I masturbate
Just this clumsy sex… No, in a way, it was a situation that a couple having sex for the first time would go through, so there was nothing very strange about it.
But… Golden Sun is just a slightly different existence.
“Whoa… Whoa… “
I had no choice but to comfort myself.
My love liquid made like that.
I carefully applied the liquid to Siwoo’s body.
Unavoidable situation.
Unavoidable situation.
An unavoidable award… Sulfur…
I tidied up the room, talking hypnotically to myself like this broken machine.
* * *
Siu opened his eyes.
He later found out that he fell asleep without realizing it.
A dreamlike relationship with the author.
Siwoo couldn’t stand the first feeling he felt as soon as he put it in and ended up ejaculating.
Here’s the author’s shy confession.
Siwoo couldn’t stand it any longer at the voice of the author who whispered while hugging Siwoo with eyes that seemed to have fallen in love.
Originally, even masturbating once a day was too much for Siwoo.
In such a state, he ejaculated several times at once, and his body could not stand it.
Eventually fell asleep.
Siu hurriedly came to his senses and looked around.
Exactly the same situation as before you fell asleep.
The difference is that Ji-eun was also dozing in bed, probably because it was her first relationship.
Then, without even knowing it, Siwoo felt relieved.
He sighed cautiously, fearing that the author would wake up.
And Siwoo saw the condom attached to his belongings.
I could see something dark red on top of the dry, white condom.
Health education learned in school.
I knew right away that it was the virgin blood mentioned in the education, that is, the blood that came out when the hymen was broken.
Although the amount is small, Siwoo clearly sees that it is blood.
He felt happy in spite of himself.
The existence that took the beginning of the author.
The meaning that she took the beginning of Ji-eun, who had wanted to marry from a young age, meant something special to him.
It feels like she is one step closer to her dream of being with the author.
She still has a long way to go to get there,
Siwoo felt good because it felt like he had taken that first step.
“And… The author seemed to be in a good mood too.”
She feels proud without knowing herself.
She felt recognized as a man for making the man she loved feel good.
In fact, Siwoo already knew that his stuff was small.
So he was frank, and she was terrified when the author told her to have a relationship.
Maybe the author will be disappointed.
She wondered if the author would hate her.
I wonder if the author will look badly at his unattractive things.
These thoughts
Contrary to my thoughts, Ji-eun accepted the item with a really beautiful smile.
It feels like a sweet relationship between lovers.
In particular, the last memory of her before she passed away due to her two consecutive ejaculations came to my mind.
The look on her face when the author hugged her and told her that she felt good.
The author who made that expression was really beautiful.
I wonder if she is sleeping so lovingly in bed right now.
She was sleeping hurrah like her habit when she was young so she was very tired too.
Author taking off her clothes.
Siwoo, without realizing it, started to get excited again when he saw Jieun’s chest and armpits.
“Aw… “
Then the pain you feel.
Today, his alter ego, who had been overworked, complained of pain.
A situation where you can’t help but be satisfied with just looking at it.
Siu had no choice but to be satisfied with what he was seeing now.
A body that has become wet.
At first, it smelled so I thought I should wash it first.
As soon as I thought that, my sexual desire suddenly disappeared.
Siu was able to regain his sanity.
The author is completely naked.
She covered me with a blanket in case it was cold.
“It’s still the same.”
A smile on Siu’s face.
Seeing Ji-eun’s mischievous face, who protected her as a child, Si-woo felt relieved without even realizing it.
While Ji-eun was a member of the swimming club, Si-woo thought that the distance gradually grew apart without realizing it.
And seeing Ji-eun, who is not the Ji-eun he knew, but Ji-eun, who becomes more feminine every day, Si-woo was unknowingly frightened.
In particular, the beings that hover around the author.
He even despaired of his helplessness in not being able to drop such beings.
However, the relationship between the author and her self has become clear today.
The author was still with her,
I’m sure it will be like that in the future.
“Thank you. Ji-eun.”
A word that does not reach the sleeping author.
However, Siwoo was able to muster up the courage to say this one word that was deep in his heart.
After saying that, I feel a little relieved.
Siu carefully opened the door and went outside, fearing that the author might wake up.
The room where Siwoo left.
Lee Ji-eun, left alone in this silent room.
Lee Ji-eun then confirmed that her Siu had left and took out her cell phone hidden under her blanket.
Jieun Lee is sending someone a message.
Lee Ji-eun’s eyes, sending her message, were shaking.
* * *
“Oh fuck… Damn… I’m annoyed… “
Golden Sun who is spitting out swear words.
She has already set her self-discipline, but the old school people dare to call a committee and hold the golden sun for a long time.
I was very annoyed with what happened yesterday.
Even today, Ji-hye was absent, so it was clear that only Si-woo and Ji-eun would study today.
Everything is annoying right now.
It felt like it would explode if someone touched it.
“I… Sun… ?”
“Who is this?!”
Golden Taeyang heard someone calling him.
He looked nervously in the direction that had called him.
“Mi… Sorry.”
“Ah… That’s wisdom Sorry. It’s sharp because of the discipline.”
Disciplinary committee today.
Since it happened at school, I had no choice but to come face to face with Wisdom.
“Ah… No. Are you okay.”
“… “
Wisdom with surprised rabbit eyes.
Geumtaeyang wanted to avoid this place because he could not control his anger.
The cell phone rang then.
Seeing that, Taeyang smiled involuntarily.
“Womb… Sun?”
Wisdom, a third person looking at it, was taken aback.
Taeyang, who was angry until just now, is smiling.
Ji-hye thought that he might have been shocked by the discipline for a moment.
