Chapter 179 – Begin Period 1 (5)
I was full after eating tteokbokki.
Looking at me like that, Siwoo smiled.
“The author is cute even when he is chubby.”
“… What… What is he saying now.”
“Why? You say cute is cute.”
“… “
Now, Siwoo openly expresses himself positively.
Being possessed by Lee Ji-eun’s body, I felt burdened to death, but it seemed that this body’s original owner, Lee Ji-eun, was not.
Jieun Lee, a student.
So, I was already slightly inclined to see Siwoo’s actions.
Of course, looking at Siwoo talking like that while looking into my eyes,
To be honest, I thought I was a little trustworthy.
Again, Siwoo in the first or second episode were the ones I couldn’t even meet my eyes properly.
I’m sorry to Siwoo at the time, but I didn’t believe it.
But this episode Siwoo… It’s hard to say, but he was a reliable presence.
A trustworthy Siwoo.
This expression is a bit strange
This was the look I was hoping for.
“What do you think?”
“… I didn’t think anything of it.”
Siwoo flirting in front of me.
Even when I saw him smiling, I thought that this was a complete idiot.
When I was a man, I sometimes saw handsome guys doing what they did.
It was something that men who were popular with women usually did.
I don’t know about women, but even among men, there were a lot of flirtatious guys.
When men are around, they stay still, but when women approach, they suddenly show off their muscles…
Or the guys who pretend to play games and pretend to play games while pretending to be casual with girls all of a sudden.
Knowing all of this, I was just embarrassed to see this to Siwoo this episode.
Siwoo has changed a lot.
Perhaps because of his handsome appearance, he has become a Siwoo whose trust (?) Has risen significantly.
A little dark night.
Of course, it was still only 6 o’clock in the evening, so the sky was slightly dark.
Siwoo and I started walking half a step apart under that sky.
His footsteps keep coming closer to me.
Each time, I had no choice but to put my toes up to be half a step ahead.
“Why are you so ahead of me?”
“Because you are following me.”
“Can’t I follow you?”
A word from Siu.
It was hard for me to say anything about that one word.
“… Why are you trying to come next to me?”
“Did you forget what we talked about at the Tteokbokki restaurant?”
“… I’m serious?”
“I don’t know why you’re avoiding me like that, but I just want to walk by your side right now.”
“… “
A word that shows Siwoo’s sincerity.
With that one word, I stopped walking and turned to face him.
“Park Si-woo.”
“Huh?”
“I honestly don’t trust you.”
A word that contradicts Lee Ji-eun’s heart.
I don’t know why I’m doing this, but this one word jumped out without my knowledge.
Siwoo now has absolutely nothing to do with it.
So now Siwoo was not guilty of anything.
Nevertheless, I pushed him away because I was beaten by Siwoo from another world.
I couldn’t figure out why I was doing this either.
My words have already escaped my mouth.
“… “
Siwoo staring blankly at me.
I shook my head apologetically.
“Thank you for visiting the hospital every day.”
Siwoo is still looking at me.
I looked at him and continued his words.
“I know you don’t understand what I’m talking about at all.”
Other people may see me as a very bad person, but
Unfortunately, I was a person who had been disappointed by Siwoo many times.
Siwoo in this world is different.
It is a completely different entity.
I know this in my head, but
It was difficult for my heart to accept this.
Much better now.
But apart from that, I was honestly afraid to suffer again in this world.
A mind that is swayed not by my will, but by the will of others.
That was the exact location of something fragile and fragile in my body called Lee Ji-eun.
To get out of this, he chose someone other than Siwoo.
The state of collecting money through the last round.
But in the end, my condition didn’t change drastically.
After all, I am a subordinate to this world.
My will was nothing more than a puppet designed to be thoroughly controlled by Siwoo.
I know all this
However, it was clear that Siwoo, standing in front of me, would look like he was just complaining.
After committing suicide once, the state of self-delusion worsened.
I was guessing that other people would think this way.
“… Sorry.”
“No. Are you okay.”
Siwoo came to me.
Siu carefully reached out his hand and took my hand.
The hand I handed to him without my knowledge.
I looked at his hands to meet.
“I don’t really know how you made such a bad decision.”
Siwoo, who never once asked me why I chose to commit suicide.
He was talking to me as if I had never attempted suicide.
“I’m really sorry if I had any influence in making that decision.”
“… “
Siwoo speaks to me with a look of sincere apologetic expression.
His words made me feel sorry for Siwoo.
Siwoo in this episode did nothing wrong.
I was just overlaying Siwoo from another world.
Just because I was hurt, I said that I couldn’t trust Siwoo, who had nothing to do with me.
My mistake.
My fault.
In a way, it was my fault, but he said he was sorry.
“… Mi… Sorry.”
The trembling words that came out of my mouth.
I couldn’t control my emotions and ended up in tears.
“Mi… Sorry. Siwoo.”
“… “
“It’s not your fault… Me… I’m so dark… Black… “
I have no idea why I am doing this.
Tears came out of my eyes, but I had no idea what was causing them.
Feeling emotionally ruined since the suicide.
It felt like it was tilted to one side, as if the left and right sides were out of balance.
A being that can do nothing in this world.
As if the only thing allowed for such an existence was to shed endless tears…
I was just crying out loud.
Siwoo carefully embraces me who is shedding tears.
Unknowingly, I held him in his arms and cried profusely.
* * *
It was dark all of a sudden.
It was time to turn on the lights on the streetlights installed next to the park benches.
Me and Siwoo sitting on the bench.
I couldn’t look at Siwoo out of embarrassment and looked the other way.
“I cried a lot earlier, but now I’m like before again.”
“… City… Never mind.”
“Is it because you’re shy?”
“That… Isn’t it like that?”
Siwoo’s words make me angry without even realizing it.
It was embarrassing to pinpoint why I was behaving this way so precisely.
“You cried a lot when you were little.”
“Flaw… Joy. I cried less than you when I was younger.”
“Huh? I don’t think so?”
Siwoo provoking me.
It’s not my memory, but in Lee Ji-eun’s memory, I remembered Siwoo crying quite a lot.
So, without realizing it, I looked at Siwoo to talk about this.
Then Siwoo looked at me as if he had been waiting.
I tried to turn my head thinking that I had been attacked again, but this time Siwoo didn’t let go.
“Are you trying to run away again?”
“… “
“I expressed it like that, but can you trust me now?”
“… Monster… Sorry for bothering you.”
In a way, it was a state of bullying Siwoo.
I bowed my head in apology.
“That’s not the story.”
“That… Then what is it?”
“Since I expressed it like this, now you are asking for an answer.”
“Radish… What answer?”
“I like you. I said I love you, so I have to give you an answer.”
“What… What?”
Siwoo’s active words.
Understanding the meaning of those words, I couldn’t help but blush.
In a word, it means dating.
I asked again, wondering if I might have misunderstood.
“Me… Do you mean you want to date me?”
“I knew.”
“… “
Shameless Siwoo.
Rather, he was staring at me with his eyes twinkling and proudly telling such shameless stories.
I was so confident that I couldn’t even speak.
So in this situation, I have to be the one to bully…
“… Why… Why me?”
It sounded like this.
“Why?”
“That… So uh… Which part do you like? You’re asking if I’m speaking confidently.”
I don’t even know why I’m saying this.
She was behaving like a girl this age.
“Because I’ve known you since I was little, I know very well how thoughtful and lovable you are.”
“… “
Siwoo praised openly.
Seeing that, I felt like my face was about to explode.
“In addition, I can swim well and get along well with my friends… “
Siwoo paused slightly.
From his actions, I guessed what he was going to say and snatched his words.
“Go… Are your breasts too big?”
Haha… Under.”
Siwoo doesn’t say no.
If it was Siwoo in the first episode, then I would have thought so, but
When Siwoo now said this, I believed in it.
Siwoo doesn’t lie and speaks honestly.
Even when he looked me straight in the eyes and said this, I couldn’t help but believe it.
“… Tooth.”
“Aren’t you upset?”
“… Don’t you honestly have to say no then?”
“That… It’s just that, but it’s hard to lie that it’s not.”
“… It’s good to be honest.”
Siwoo staring blankly at me.
I looked at him and sighed.
“Are you sure you won’t regret it?”
“… Huh?”
Siwoo with a confused look on his face.
I looked at him and spoke seriously.
“Are you sure you won’t regret it?”
“What are you talking about?”
“Honestly, I could act like I did to you a moment ago.”
“… “
“And you can be picky sometimes.”
“You know that.”
Siu smiles.
I looked at him and shook my head.
“And… “
“And?”
“Go… I get lonely sometimes… “
“… “
“Write… You have to stroke it too.”
Words that came out of me without my knowledge.
The words that Lee Ji-eun’s heart was pressed came out.
“Ah… Otherwise… Don’t date me.”
Lee Ji-eun said, and the embarrassment is mine.
I only blushed in shame.
“Our author is cute.”
“Ear… Don’t just say that you’re cute. Answer me!”
Siwoo smiled at my words.
He just pulled my arm.
His sudden action.
I couldn’t resist and was dragged away by that action.
It came right in front of Siwoo.
Siu, slightly taller than me, kissed my forehead lightly.
A warm feeling on the forehead.
I stopped for a while at the touch.
“How is it? Would this be the answer?”
“… “
“Why is it not enough?”
Siwoo tries to kiss her on the forehead again.
At his action, I immediately pulled myself back.
“My… Say what I want… It was a verbal answer… !”
“Your actions speak more to you than what you say.”
“That… That’s it… Ah… No, that and this… It’s different from this one.”
“Okay? Then you have to do it until you change your mind.”
“Under… Don’t do it!”
Me and Siwoo bickering like that.
The two started dating on a bench under a streetlight.
