Chapter 175 – Begin Period 1 (1)
“Ha… “
Despair rising from below.
As always, I got up from the bed and let out a deep sigh.
“I already decided to do that, but… “
A feeling of pain in one side of the heart.
I knew it would end like this from the moment I connected with Kim Sang-soo, but life was very difficult.
The feeling of life being exhausted.
Of course, I met Kim Sang-soo with the thought that I had to get out of this game, but
That said, I couldn’t say I enjoyed the situation.
A situation that anyone would say they can’t understand.
But the terrible memories were eating through my memory like worms,
I still couldn’t get out of this hell.
I’m tired of everything now…
Please this life… I wished it would end.
I want to stop living.
Suicide doesn’t exist in this game anyway…
As if possessed by something, I slowly got up.
Since it was a game made with RPG Maker, Lee Ji-eun’s house was made with Japanese presets.
As a result, there was something like a hook on the ceiling to hang something on.
The state where the pillow cover was removed and knotted.
I connected it to the ring as it was to create a ring that could fit my head.
“… I want to be comfortable now.”
Is it my own words?
Or a situation where I don’t know what Lee Ji-eun is talking about.
But even that didn’t matter anymore.
Just…
I just want to get some rest.
Both body and mind were exhausted.
* * *
“Wake up.”
“Eww… Eww… “
A voice you’ve never heard before.
The voice opened my eyes involuntarily.
Familiar space.
A space I’ve always seen.
It was none other than a laboratory.
A man clicking his tongue next to me.
The man had no form at first, but soon he began to take shape.
Stripped hair.
There’s an unpleasant expression that looks down on me.
This was someone I knew well.
Supervising professor.
It was my advisor, Professor Jeon Il-tae.
“Did you do everything you were told to do?”
“… Yes?”
“I’m asking if you’ve done all the things I’ve instructed you to do.”
“… “
The situation made me look at my hand instead of the professor without realizing it.
In order to judge this situation, I had to check what I was like now.
“… Was it a dream… “
Familiar male hands.
Looking at the back of my hand covered with hair, not Lee Ji-eun’s weak hand… It felt like a real dream.
“Are you listening to me?”
“Crime… Sorry.”
Then, the advisor clicked his tongue.
He sighed and spoke softly.
“I can’t give you a good rating if you act so fiercely.”
“Crime… Sorry.”
“… “
My advisor looked at me without speaking for a moment.
Then he turned around and headed for the guidance professor’s office.
“I will finish it soon.”
“… Take it slow.”
Situation that is already too late.
I thought I was going to break a lot this time too.
“That’s why you can’t even follow your brother’s toes.”
A small sound then heard.
I couldn’t tell if this was the professor or my hallucinations.
“School… Professor?”
“Something?”
The professor turned his head and looked at me at my call.
The professor’s expressionless expression made me realize that it was my hallucinations.
“I’m really sorry. I will report to you as soon as I finish what you have entrusted to me.”
“… I see.”
The professor who went into the advisory professor’s office like that.
I thought I should wake up first to erase this uncomfortable feeling.
I thought I should wash my face in the bathroom.
With that thought, I left the lab.
Then, a hallway that looks familiar.
The labs that continued in the new white hallway caught my eye one by one.
“… Was it really a dream?”
The me who possessed Lee Ji-eun.
Things that I felt as if I really lived in that world… It was disconcerting to think that it was all a dream.
I was uploading at home cursing couples right away.
However, the place I am now is not at home, but in a university lab.
The moment when everything feels like a lie.
I tried my best to understand the situation, but to no avail.
“This… Let’s start by washing our faces and recovering.”
Toilet like that.
The time I possessed the game was a day off, so there was no one in the bathroom.
A restroom where silence flows.
And I went to the sink to wash my face.
“… “
My face reflected in the sink.
That face was not mine.
“… Lee, Ji – Eun.”
Lee Ji-eun’s face, not someone else’s.
I looked at my hand again, wondering if I was mistaken for the hand I had seen earlier.
But my hand is still a man’s hand.
I couldn’t figure out what was going on.
“Ha… Ha… Ha… ♡”
Where do you hear moans?
As if possessed by something, I slowly walked toward the sound.
A groan from the far end of the toilet cubicle.
That sound made me realize that this situation was somehow familiar.
“This… “
Taeyang Geum, the NTR guy I met when I first became possessed by the game.
It was very similar to the situation in which he had a relationship with the golden sun.
The relationship we had at school, of course.
But this is a university…
“Uh… “
The bathroom is starting to change before you know it.
I was taken aback, but regardless of my embarrassment, the bathroom continued to change, eventually becoming a familiar one.
School bathroom.
The toilet that had a relationship with Geum Taeyang.
“… No. It can’t be.”
Unknowingly, I turned and got out of the bathroom.
When I got out of the bathroom like that, the bathroom door suddenly disappeared.
“How did this happen?”
Obviously, the university is correct, but only the bathroom has changed to the school bathroom in the game.
Even when I came out of the bathroom, it disappeared as if it never existed.
Even…
“My current self is Lee Ji-eun… ?”
Incredible situation.
I tried to understand the situation, but I couldn’t.
“The professor I saw… ?”
When I reached that idea, I thought I should meet my advisor.
I went back to the lab where I was.
When I returned to the lab, I heard the groans again.
“Ha… Ha… Ha… ♡”
The exact sound coming from the advisor’s office gave me goosebumps.
“What the hell is this… “
Such a confusing situation.
Still, I knocked on the door of the advisor’s office, thinking that if I met the advisor, he might come back.
“Professor. I… “
A name I can’t remember all of a sudden.
I couldn’t remember my name, so I knocked and called the professor, but I couldn’t say my name.
“It can’t be.”
My Name.
What’s my name
“It can’t be.”
My Name.
My Name.
My Name!!!!!!
What’s my name!
“Aaaaa!!!!!”
A sound that burst out without me knowing.
I screamed at this frustration.
But the professor’s door was firmly closed despite my screaming sound.
The door was closed tightly and did not budge.
Thought at that time.
I turned the doorknob as if screaming at the thought.
“Professor! Please open the door! Professor!”
I thought the professor would know my name.
Upon reaching that idea, I felt that I should meet the professor before I completely forgot my name.
The situation where you keep turning the doorknob like that.
However, this doorknob began to get smaller as if by magic.
“No… No… I can’t. No!!!”
Now, the doorknob has become so small that it cannot be picked up by hand.
I slammed the door with my body and knocked on it with my fist to somehow open it.
However, the key is immovable.
I eventually started throwing everything in sight to break down the door.
“Fuck!!! Please!!! Open!”
A situation where even everything around you starts to disappear.
In the end, there was only one door and me left.
Now even the door was about to disappear, so I had no choice but to cling desperately to the door.
The door soon disappeared.
I ended up being left here alone.
Maybe my last chance.
“Please… Please… Free me from this pain… “
A very painful situation.
Without saying a word, I started scratching the floor with my hands.
“Huh… Black… Black… “
A state in which the fingernails crack and blood comes out and wets the floor.
Even in that state, I… She just scratched and scratched the floor like a broken doll.
* * *
New white ceiling.
Strange ceiling… Was
A beeping sound that tickled my ears.
At that sound, I tried to look away.
But my body doesn’t move at all.
My head is awake, but my body is not obeying my commands.
I wondered what had happened,
I didn’t know what state I was in right now, so the frustrating situation continued.
Then someone opens the door and walks in.
Her mother, who had brought a basket of fruit, caught her eye.
Lee Ji-eun’s mother, Park Eun-ae.
Let her see her I… I felt that I hadn’t escaped from this world yet.
A world that cannot be avoided even by death.
I was just stuck in this world.
Mom sitting next to me and forcing a smile.
Mom grabbed my hand and started talking hers out sobbing.
“Ji-eun… Mom is here.”
“… “
“I don’t know what you were worried about… I’m sorry mom didn’t care.”
The mother’s hand began to tremble slowly.
My body, no, Lee Ji-eun’s body didn’t move, but I could fully feel her mother’s body temperature.
A mother in this world, not a real mother.
But the mother started dripping thick water droplets for me and Lee Ji-eun.
“Mom… Mom… Sorry for being careless.”
In the end, the mother who could not hold back her tears and burst into tears.
I wanted to say something about her sadness.
It’s not because of my mother.
This is just… I wanted to say it was my problem.
My problem.
It was literally my problem, not Lee Ji-eun’s.
A being that shouldn’t exist in this world.
Being that kind of person, I was implicitly aware that I was suffering.
Death tried to escape this pain,
Rather, due to this behavior, only the mother was avoided.
I felt sorry for myself,
Was pitiful,
It was more pathetic.
I knew that death was inevitable, but
I am in so much pain that I have no choice but to commit suicide.
I knew it couldn’t be justified in any way.
But I chose that and ended up causing damage to those around me.
While I was trapped in Lee Ji-eun’s body and digging deep into my thoughts.
Mom, who had let go of all her tears, carefully stroked my forehead and said,
“She will do better as a mother… My daughter… Please open her eyes… “
“… Mom… “
A single word barely escaped my mouth.
At that letter, Mom stopped her tears and looked at me.
“Ji-eun?”
“… Mom… Mind… “
“West… Teacher! Teacher! Nurse!”
At those words, the mother opens the door and walks around screaming.
The last time I saw the mother’s back, I fell asleep again.
