Chapter 7 – Episode 7. Dignity of a Good Man -1
(The Dignity of a Good Man 1-5 are flashbacks from Ha Eun-seo’s point of view.)
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“Uuuuu…”
Ugh
I can’t do any more.
I feel like throwing up.
“Whoa~.”
I got up from my chair and took a deep breath.
Stuffy.
I stood up and looked down at the monitor.
There, the video I paused for a moment is stopped.
What I do as a job is to receive orders from internet broadcasting BJs, receive permission to download full videos of broadcasting details, and take those videos to make short and interesting videos for upload to YouTube.
To put it simply, he is an Internet broadcasting editor.
At first, it started because I liked it.
Originally, as a hobby, I did a little research and made it once in a while.
The object of making the video was a fan video about a handsome male cam that I like.
When people saw that I made a fun video for the purpose of attracting some kind of aggro, most of them responded positively.
People commented that my videos were fun to the point where there were overflowing haha’s, and comments were also full of saying that there were no bad comments and that it was fun when I made videos as a hobby.
I was excited about it.
But I thought this would be a job.
After becoming a job, it’s not that much fun again.
If you look at BJs, what BJs who play games as their main content say once in a while, they say that it is difficult.
I don’t have much game skills, but when I see BJs who make money while playing games, I honestly think they are full.
However, he is very good at games and is a ranker, but when he sees him working hard in the game to sell game money, or selling games to win prizes in game competitions, the game also seems difficult.
Video editing is like a game.
It’s fun when you make a video for fun like a fun game mindset.
But when you’re trying to make a video that’s really well-planned and sincere, like becoming a ranker in a game or having to go to a tournament, it’s certainly more difficult than fun.
“Eww!”
-Widely!
I closed my laptop screen.
That’s all for today.
If you work for 12 hours and finish, you can lower the shutter a little earlier than other days.
But really, if I do a little more video editing, I feel like I’m going to vomit.
‘Shall we go to the bookstore?’
The rest of the time is spent at leisure.
I worked from 7 to 7 without eating anything, so I was a bit hungry.
Go to a bookstore, search for interesting books, and buy one if you find something good.
I bought a book and packed something to eat on the way home.
It is better to go to a restaurant with a book than to pack food and go to a bookstore, so we decided to visit the restaurant first.
So, when you come home and read a book for dinner…
Whoop whoop. Is it so good
‘Gogo!’
After closing the computer, I go straight to the bathroom to take a shower.
Take off all your clothes and turn on the water.
-Shoot it…
The moment when warm water surrounds the body by thin streams of water pouring in dozens of layers from a shower head plugged into a high place…
So good.
No matter how much I am a telecommuter now, even if I become a disabled person, when I go out, I give some strength and go out.
While taking a shower, I immersed myself in miscellaneous thoughts that I had put off due to work.
Ah… Long time ago…
In high school, I made a bit of a name for myself as a public ulzzang.
It was hard for me to study because of my real appearance.
The popularity that started in middle school did not stop until the third year of high school.
I didn’t study for Ha-ra, and I had troubles from time to time because of the guys who came to my girls’ high school and said they would see me, but… Thanks to that, I gave some strength to my nose.
After that.
Even in college, all the male seniors treated me like a queen, so I had a very enjoyable time.
Black…
But it’s all past.
I have reached an age where I could have entered society before I knew it.
Twenty six.
If it’s like the other kids, someone is in their third year of employment at the earliest.
If it’s faster, the Kakao Talk profile picture is a baby.
Compared to him, I feel a little slow, but I don’t have much intention of meeting and marrying a rich man.
Because that money is not my money.
Nothing is free in this world.
My opinion is that if I am not spending my money, even if I am spending my husband’s money, I can’t use it without paying attention.
So I work like this to welcome a more free world.
Maybe you don’t know
Hmm…
I was getting a video of a certain BJ made to order, and while that BJ happened to collaborate with me, he grew up and became a major BJ who earns over 500 million a year. You might even be offered a million dollars each.
…
Is it delusion
What if it’s a delusion?
Even if I apply for a company that seems to have a tolerable amount of welfare anyway, in the first document review, the cover letters I painstakingly wrote for 3 nights and 4 days are torn to shreds in three seasons.
Company.
I will be more successful than you guys!
I started this work ambitiously.
After taking a warm shower, I left the bathroom.
“Ugh~, that’s cool.”
After wiping myself with a towel, putting the towel in the washing machine, tilting my head slightly and rubbing the towel through my hair, I find a hair dryer to dry my hair.
What’s the first thing you do after drying your hair?
1. Get dressed
Ding.
Cell phone check
Maybe something ticked off while I was taking a shower.
With an excited heart.
After drying my hair, I lay flat on the bed with my phone and looked at the phone.
“Uh, what is it?”
It has the number ‘3’ stamped on it.
Feeling slightly excited, I lay down on the bed at random and spread a towel instead of a pillow to check the call.
I see…
Nam Gyu-deok received several messages.
[Eunseo]
[I got 2 movie tickets, but there is no one to go see]
[Would you like to go see it together? Lol]
“…”
It was not pleasant.
“Shit…”
I have no ill feelings toward Mr. Gyu-deok.
But this doesn’t seem to be the case.
Nam Kyu-deok.
He was originally my customer.
He is the BJ of a minor internet broadcast with 10 viewers, and is 13 years older than me.
Face value is 20 years older than me.
In other words, Mr. Nam Kyu-deok is 39 years old, but he looks like he is in his late 40s.
I’m 26 like a 20 year old.
I wanted to cry.
Why did I become like this
Please…
Don’t I have a taste too?
Let’s go see a movie together
Even if it was only when I was in college, these bastards wouldn’t have been able to say a word to me, but my situation was miserable.
“Ha…”
Still, I don’t know when I’ll be entrusted with video editing again.
I want to tell him to quit, but I try to refrain from doing so, reject it appropriately, and continue to maintain the relationship.
I sent a reply message while lying down.
[Like.. I’m concentrating on my work, so going to the movies is a bit like that!! Try it with someone else ^^]
[If you have something to edit the video, please let me know! I will do my best to make it!!]
Okay.
Let’s meet with work.
It was that kind of relationship.
I sent out a flick of anger and exhaled a hook and exhaled.
Soon after, Nam Gyu-deok gets a call again.
[Huh.. You’re really working hard]
[So, how about a drink while resting? I could turn off the broadcast and meet you.. Haha]
[There’s a completely open pork rind restaurant, and it’s really delicious haha]
…
Drinking because there is no movie?
What concept is this
In addition, the story of turning off the broadcast and meeting seems to be a story of responding in private.
‘Under… Chewing and spitting it out, it looks like a pork cutlet that has rotted at room temperature, and to a 13-year-old me…’
I gritted my teeth.
Then he sent a reply message again.
[Alcohol is a bit… Because I don’t drink alcohol at all.]
[Have a nice drink with your friends~~]
[If you have something to edit, let me know haha Go on broadcast! ^^]
Actually, I like movies and I like alcohol.
It’s just that the target should not be a middle-aged BJ with 10 viewers, but basically a good-looking guy, whether it’s my age or middle-aged.
Hyeonta came to me for a while after I sent a reply.
“…”
It seems that Mr. Nam Gyu-deok was not completely blind.
After I sent the message here, Mr. Nam Gyu-deok said that he would understand in this next reply, and he finished the talk moderately.
-Wheein-.
By the time I finish the talk with Mr. Nam Gyu-deok, another talk comes like a relay.
A text appears at the top of the phone, and a preview that a talk has arrived is displayed for a while, and I also check the talk from someone else.
This next talk was from Yeocam, one of my clients.
[Hello editor~~ Thank you for editing the video so well! ^^ It’s all good~~ The background music from 1:24 onwards is too old, so it’s a bit like that. Also, the mukbang scene from 2:48 onwards seems a bit lacking in sound effects. The tension seems a little lacking. It would be nice..^^ It may be difficult, but can I ask you a favor?]
The saliva passed by itself.
– Knock.
I’ll talk like this… No, it would take a few words to give a lesson, but it takes quite a bit of time for me to edit to reflect those words.
My precious few hours just fly away.
Maybe a day or two will fly by.
Tell me in advance That’s when I sent the middle video.
After showing the finished product, it really brings tears to my eyes.
I send a video for interim check like Conti before starting work.
And we talk about it together, and if you tell me at that time, you don’t have to completely change it.
But if you do it this way after it’s all over, you’re almost doing the first job twice.
If the original hourly wage was 10,000 won, this would make it 5,000 won.
Under…
“Ha, fuck. If you’re going to do this, just make it yourself. Bitch bitch. I want to pull out all my hair. Ah… As long as I earn money, I’ll go in as a viewer of this year’s broadcast and give you a mission to get a shave. Fuck bitch. I’ll even shave my eyebrows.”
But I couldn’t really swear.
The female cam that has been contacting me for a long time now is a customer I recently contacted, and it gives me a lot of work.
This month, the video production fee entrusted to me by this female cam is worth 480,000 won, so it is a large percentage of my total income.
Okay.
It’s not like I go to a karaoke bar and get on top of a table to play the tambourine, and it’s not like I’m going out for a drink with a man who looks like he’s over 20 years old…
I decided to put up with this level of humiliation to the female cam who gave me almost 500,000 won.
Actually, I didn’t take it all off, but I worked for a day at a karaoke bar where a man next to me touched my breasts, but I ran out after not even a day there.
And actually, I also tried the female cam for a very short time.
But for both of those things, people like Nam Kyu-deok who want to sleep with me always seduce me.
Rather, the editing I do now is more comfortable for me.
Even if I can’t earn up to 200, I’m still earning enough to live on, and I think I have more potential for development in the future.
I got up from bed
“Laughing…”
This time, as if I were squatting on the edge of a bed, I sent my reply carefully while sitting with my legs and hands slightly together.
[Wow~~ You saw it!! Thank you so much for watching the video.]
[As expected, it’s so pretty.. I think it’s because I had a lot of fun when I edited it, so it went in ^^]
[I will make it again and send it to you as you said in the chat~~]
‘Ah, sir… Foot…’
Cringe so much
I tend to keep a little line with men.
I try to be kind to women as much as possible.
Customers love it too.
I quickly typed the next message as well.
[Originally, it’s not possible to do it again after it’s finished. I’ll do it specially for this month!! Next time, if you suggest it during the midterm inspection, I will make it as it is ^^]
[It will take about the same amount of time since I will start working again from the beginning to the middle.]
I did say that I should do the work again, so I shouldn’t say it later, in a detour as much as possible.
I’m pretty used to this now.
A reply comes soon from the female cam BJ.
[It’s pretty, there are a lot of people who are prettier than me. Next time, I’ll be sure to tell you in the middle.
Slowly?
Fuck.
If you believe that word and do it really slowly, you will suffer from constant pressure.
Under…
But, well, I had to do it again from scratch, so I made sure to put in the nails, so I earned enough time.
I really can’t work anymore today.
If you give them a little more work, they will strike.
…
I strike me…
Anyway, let’s go outside first.
Hungry.
I’m hungry!
As for the makeup, I decided to go out with a bare face makeup that is perfect for me.
Get out of bed and come to your desk.
And sit naked.
-Left!
I spread out the contents of the pouch on top of the desk, where I had just been working, just as tajja lay down a playing card.
“Ugh.”
I then reach in and pull out the desk mirror that is tucked away at about the top of the desk.
I’m okay with the base, but I’m on the side of doing some research on makeup.
My main specialty is a natural star makeup such as bare face makeup, natural makeup, and water glow makeup, or a slightly charming style called hangover makeup and rabbit makeup.
I prefer the style of makeup that men like because I want men to be a bit scared when they see my beauty, rather than a style that is attractive to women.
After putting all the effort into makeup.
After that, I didn’t have any clothes, so I thought about what clothes to wear from among the clothes on two double-tiered hangers, set them up for about 30 minutes, and then finally went outside.
