Chapter 413 – Chapter 413. In the End, the Only Way to Change
“It looks like it fell.”
The relief window said.
“Have you tried the grading?”
“It’s okay… No.”
It seems that there was no hope.
Original psychology seems to be like that.
If something is expected, I am so curious that I immediately check it, but if there is no answer at all, there is no reason to watch it.
“Okay. We’ll take a break and start again, right?”
If it hadn’t gone down yet, it probably would have.
Civil service exams are held at intervals of one year, but in fact, many civil service candidates do not study all year long.
There are people who do it with pool.
But when I saw it, there seemed to be more cases where it wasn’t.
In the case of me and Yoon Kyung, etc., I worked part-time for half a year and studied for the other half.
And if you look at other cases, you have to do pain work at the same time… Or there are cases where you study while playing.
As soon as the exam is over, there aren’t that many people who devote themselves to studying as if they were coughing up blood from the same day for the exam one year later.
Among the many people in the goshichon who are now immersed in, there are cases where they were repatriated to their homes like that, but there were also cases where they came back after a short break.
I think it’s okay to combine work or rest.
However, if it becomes long, it can be seen as a situation where time is quite wasteful.
When I asked if I was going to rest for a while, the relief window answered.
“I actually just want to go home?”
“Hmm.”
“Don’t rest, completely.”
“Really?”
Hochang answered my question again, pulling a simple cart.
“Uh. Even if I’m here anyway, I don’t study, and there’s no reason to stay. I always pay the rent for the gosiwon. But, my dad said he must pass the civil service exam…”
I thought I could understand the psychology of the relief window a little better.
Gu Ho-chang doesn’t like studying itself, but basically, her father’s will to challenge this civil service exam itself was not her own will.
I think this is a pretty big problem.
In my case, I studied with my will while preparing for the civil service exam a few months ago.
Even though my parents told me to pass the exam, it was my determination to start preparing for the civil service exam.
At that time, when I became a civil servant, I still had a little more time than many other occupational groups who work overtime, so I wanted to meet beautiful women and make memories at that time, and that purpose made me immerse myself in studying a little more.
Purpose is important.
The stronger the motivation for that purpose, the stronger the performance will be.
However, in the case of the relief window, there was no such thing.
There is no purpose that he dreams of, and although he is a parent, he is doing what he was told to do, not by his own will.
In this way, it seemed that it would not be easy for me to achieve results.
For example, no matter what kind of business you do, the boss will think about how to make this business more exciting, but the part-time job thinks about how to pass the time and go home.
It was pitiful.
If you think like that when you work part-time job, it may be more universal, but you are living your life by telling yourself to live your life.
‘It’s for the money.’
I thought so.
Because of money.
Parents are, of course, the most grateful people in the world.
However, sometimes parents force their children to live according to their will.
It is also an ambiguous value judgment in some cases.
From the perspective of Gu Ho-chang’s parents, they must have done it out of the hope that Gu Ho-chang would do well.
If you become a civil servant, you can become economically independent, and it is not easy to live so splendidly, but you will think it is good because you can secure a great deal of stability and receive a lifetime pension.
And if he doesn’t pay, it’s hard to force Hochang to say, “Earn your money and prepare for civil service,” But “I’ll give you my money, so prepare for civil service as I tell you.” It is easier to do than the former.
I think the answer is there.
I think the answer is to gradually develop the habit of making one’s own money.
Of course, I also had a time before making money.
Before becoming an adult.
At that time, I didn’t know how to make money, and I didn’t know what it meant to make money.
But later, when I started earning money myself, I found out.
As for work, I tried quite a lot of things before, during, and even now while preparing for the civil service exam, but in the end, I think I can earn this only if I earn it all the time.
To put it in a word, Hochang’s current state can be a bit like a flower in a greenhouse.
I know that he also has experience of working part-time.
However, the feeling of doing that is completely different from doing a little to earn pocket money for a while, and continuing to survive on your own while earning your own money all the time.
So, in order to overcome this problem, I actually thought that Hochang had to earn money.
I wondered if I could make money, rather, I would end my life of escaping to games like now and start challenging the ‘road’ that I will have to do for the rest of my life.
With that in mind, I spoke to Hochang.
“How about becoming financially independent from your parents?”
“Now?”
“If you can afford it, I think the sooner the better.”
But when I said that, Hochang shook his head.
“No. I can’t prepare for the civil service exam as my dad wants, but he doesn’t seem to be working either.”
The road we were walking on came to a crossroads on the main road for a while.
Cars passed, and we paused before crossing the crosswalk.
Hochang spoke to me.
“There are no more days where we can play like this, right?”
“Hmm.”
“The juniors I know play like shit even if they don’t study at all, and then later take over and become president of my father’s business… Fuck, I’m destined to work only for the rest of my life. Besides, I can’t do slavery like that, so I have to beg to be hired.”
There is a point in that statement.
As Hochang said, many people may die of old age after being born, studying hard, and working hard.
Therefore, maybe there is no time to spend all of ‘me’ time other than the present time, which can be seen as the time in between, the time to study and work, and the time in between.
After all, life is really short.
I think it’s better to say it’s tight rather than short.
Humans live in competition throughout their lives.
Who are you competing for?
Is it really right to live to make others rich all your life?
I gave myself the answer to that.
I also accidentally found my aptitude.
Using the merit of handsomeness in broadcasting was more powerful than what I imagined, and it was possible because he was literally handsome, far beyond ordinary handsome.
I made myself the owner of my life with it, and I was able to choose to live to become rich rather than living to make others rich.
And even if it’s not a broadcast like this, I thought that Koo Ho-chang must have something outstanding, no matter what talent.
And…
You may accidentally discover such an outstanding talent, but in the end, you are the one who discovers that talent, and you are the one who nurtures it.
Some families with gold spoons can spend astronomical amounts of money to give their children a coach with excellent skills in the field at the national team level.
It will definitely be beneficial.
However, I think that if you have talent above the middle level, depending on how interested you are in it, it is enough to catch up with you as long as your opponent is not only top-notch.
It is true that it has been predicted for a long time that, as time goes on, more and more people will be kicking up the ladder in high-ranking positions.
But even so, it is only you who can change your destiny, such as making the ladder in a creative way and climbing it.
“Yeah. The world is so crazy. But… The only one who can change that is you.”
“I may be able to change it, but I may not be able to change it. And, I don’t know what to change first.”
I also understood Hochang’s feelings.
Even if you want to change, you need to know in which field you have talent and interest so that you can dig into that field.
The world is cold
When income comes in, it is a caution to take taxes thoroughly, but to find and develop things that can generate income on their own.
I think the company is a fairly harsh system that is the purpose of profit pursuit.
And the state is seen as a shield that protects each individual in such a cold reality.
But sometimes, looking at this, maybe the country seems to be cold too.
At least in a place called a company, if you go into a decent place, there are things that teach you in situations where you can’t adapt to work.
However, looking at the state’s main use of taxes, it is not so easy to find things for young people.
I feel it more on my skin than on any news.
You can see a lot of elderly people wearing vests of the same color and doing something these days, but for young people, even such a temporary, national job doesn’t touch me so directly.
If you look at the people in the surrounding goshichon, of course, most of them are young people.
Competition is fierce even for positions such as the secretary of the gosiwon, who try to pay as low an hourly wage as possible under the pretext of giving a seat or providing a lodging.
There was even a place where the general secretary position was 17:1 in some decent places.
At least in my experience, nothing really hits me like that.
But I think so.
Like what I said to Gu Ho-chang, I wonder if the only thing that can overcome the situation and move forward is only one’s own will in the end.
Hochang and I crossed the crosswalk and walked from where we met to the studio where I live.
In front of the studio where I live, books are still piled up.
After this came out like this, there are so many people who pick up paper in this goshichon, so it is collected quickly.
It could be seen that Hochang was lucky to be able to take this well.
I helped the relief window and put the books on his cart.
And, I walked around a bit more.
Both me and Hochang were familiar with this area.
So, among the crowded residential complexes, I managed to find a couple more places where books came out.
The cart wasn’t that big and could be pulled around like a simple cart, so I couldn’t load that many books, but I managed to get enough books to satisfy my appetite.
After collecting all the books, Hochang told me.
“Ah, Jinhyeok, aren’t you kidding about the number of views these days? Doesn’t that make a lot of money?”
“Um. That’s right.”
“Then, I’m thirsty. Buy me a juice.”
“Okay.”
Ordinarily, you might refuse.
Ho-chang is overly frugal, and he rarely spends money on the people around him.
And even in the case like now, in fact, I came to help the relief window, so in fact, it is right to buy the hochang.
However, I thought that I would be able to see Hochang for a few months at most.
I was taking a profit of almost 150 million won while I was on the air for almost 4 months from 3 months.
I’m used to living in a gosichon now, and I’m living because I don’t have any problems with a one-room apartment as a space where I live alone, but according to my current plan, by next year, if I work for about 9 months, about 500 million won will gather, so I think it’s okay to move. There was
500 million is a lot of money, but there are female cams who make more money than me.
In the case of female cams who receive pickled radish at the highest level on Cheonri Wall TV, they earn about 1.7 to 1.8 billion won a year.
Even if you compare it with me, there are people who earn about 3 times more than me.
Anyway… I’m thinking of moving out of the goshichon around next year, and in the case of Hochang, my classmate, I wanted to buy him something because I thought I’d only be able to hang out once in a while for the remaining months and I wouldn’t have much time to meet him after that.
Since I’m a handsome man, when I have some spare time, I have to look over the contacts of countless beauties and pay attention to some level of care, so it’s difficult to spend a lot of time with Hochang here, but it seems like I’ve made time for it.
There are quite a few fresh fruit juice shops nearby.
Over a fresh fruit juice, we talked a little more, and then went back to our separate lives.
