Chapter 408 – Chapter 408. Get a Secret Offer
(This is the protagonist’s point of view again.)
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“What are you so hesitant about?”
I was a little puzzled
Jieun averted her gaze a little and seemed to say something.
Speaking of Ji-eun, whom I usually see, I haven’t seen much hesitation.
It’s hard to say that Ji-eun is so extroverted or anything like that, but when she’s talking about something, she’s the type to speak her opinion confidently.
There were a lot of health-related topics, such as essential vitamins in the body, cholesterol levels, sugar intake, and GMO foods, but I tend to talk confidently anyway.
So when I called for work, Ji-eun finally answered me.
“Um, brother.”
“Ah.”
“Come over here for a second.”
Jee-eun grabbed my wrist and tried to leave the one-room building.
I was drawn to her, first of all, out of the hallway of her one-room apartment, and then with her out of her one-room building to talk to her in front of the wall a little further outside her fence.
There is a collapsed wall at the three-way intersection that leads from a row of one-room buildings to a shopping center.
After the wall collapses, the remaining lines are low, making it like a long chair that is good for smoking once in a while.
From the side of the wall, which can be seen as the boundary of the one-room village, there is a road leading to the shopping district, so from there, the road becomes brighter with signboards.
Since it’s near the studio where we live, I walked out to the area in front of it for a while.
There were people walking around from time to time, but it was late, so there weren’t as many crowds as during peak hours.
In Gosichon, there are many people who drink until late, but there is also a peak hour at night.
The time Jeeeun and I came out was a little beyond those peak hours, so there were few people.
Jieun seemed to want to talk in a quiet place.
I sat on the crumbling low wall.
And Jieun stood by my side for a while.
I tried talking to Jieun.
“What do you want to say?”
At my words, Jieun hesitated a little more.
Then, after spending some more time, Jieun spoke to me.
“Brother.”
“Hmm.”
“I like Yunkyung.”
“Hmm.”
I didn’t care what Jieun said.
Because it was something I already knew.
Ji-eun got along well with her Yun-gyeong.
Hmm…
For some reason, Jieun was usually on good terms with everyone else.
When we went out together for volunteer work in the past, Jee-eun seemed to get along very well with others, and Yun-gyeong-i, who had a war of nerves with Kwon Se-ah, and Ji-eun somehow got along well… Just overall, I thought she was the type to get along well with people.
So, I thought it was only natural that Ji-eun said that she liked Yoon-gyeong.
Then Ji-eun said to me who answered insignificantly.
“Not like that.”
“Hmm?”
“Not as a younger sister that I like. I like Yunkyung differently.”
“Hmm…”
I didn’t quite understand what you meant.
What does it mean to like differently?
I suddenly started thinking about the definitions of liking.
To like someone is generally divided into six types when viewed as a psychological concept.
Love also has a concept.
1. Eros.
Eros is physical love. Looking at it, it can be seen as similar to lustful love, close to wanting to fuck, lick, suck, touch, and have sex.
Perhaps most people think that only this burning love is real love.
However, I think that other types can also be encountered in daily life.
There is no denying that hormonal instinctive attraction is a very passionate kind of love.
But I never think that this is all.
2. Agape.
In a way, it seems that the concept of love located in the stark opposite of eros is agape.
This is unconditional love of the heart.
It may be that God loves man.
It may be that our parents love us.
You don’t want anything, you just like that person.
If eros is a passionate feeling, agape can be seen as a sublime feeling.
3. Ludus.
Ludus is thinking of love as a game.
Ludus is the love of clubs that I went to in my early 20s and now I have stopped visiting, or the love of going to entertainment that many people are looking for although I do not go.
However, I also saw someone who deeply sympathized with those things.
I don’t go to entertainment, so I don’t know… A brother I know had something like that.
A hyung I know went to entertainment one day, and I met my ideal type there. The older brother himself had a good job as a professional, and his family’s economic power was more than his own social status, so he could afford it.
I have heard that in such a situation, he fell in love with a member of the opposite sex who enjoyed the entertainment and visited there often, and did not have sex, but said, ‘I want to make you feel a little more comfortable’ and came out after sleeping for a set time.
So, even if it was originally thought of as a game, there could be a platonic element attached to it.
4. Storge.
Personally, I like this side.
It means a crush similar to feelings caused by colleagues or compassion, of course it’s my taste, but I really like meeting and fucking like this.
For example, there is a sense of fellowship with Nam Jae-eun, whom I occasionally meet as a colleague while doing internet broadcasting.
As a colleague who went to a large civil service school together with Yoon Kyung when he was preparing for the civil service exam, he has that feeling.
Should I say that having a company relationship feels better than a regular relationship?
Perhaps because there are many people who pursue these feelings, isn’t it that there are a lot of office works in any genre?
I like this stroge type the most, but this is a love that is a bit difficult to achieve in reality.
This is because this is a matter related to the battle of drawing or crossing the line.
For example, some unpopular guy may want to have sex with her pretending to be a friend because of her growing camaraderie, but eventually the friend line is drawn and she has sex with another guy. It can come to an end and come to an end of what can only be seen from afar.
But my case is a bit different.
As a respectable man, the choice is on my side, and there are many cases where many women approach me pretending to be friends and eventually want to have sex.
So I tend to like this a little bit.
For some reason, it seems that there is something tasteful about being co-workers at first and then having them fuck each other later.
5. Mania.
It is close to possessiveness or monopoly.
I’ve seen a lot of cases like this too.
In the case of this side, the jealousy is quite severe, and in some ways, such as contacting and trying to restrain the other person, it can be a little stronger.
This also seems to be thought of positively to some extent.
Even if the person you like is too cool, you feel empty.
A certain amount of obsession seems to show that the other person has a little more heart for me.
6. Pragma.
This is real love.
It can be seen that it is related to seeing the opponent’s condition.
What is your job, how much money do you earn, what is your educational background, what is your family, and so on.
I wonder if this is the most universal way of love in this world.
Revealing money, being a snob, it may seem like this, but in the case of Eros, it can be seen as revealing appearance, so it seems difficult to see that Frogma is that bad.
As I thought about these things, I felt that it was still difficult for Ji-eun to think of the definition of liking Yun-kyung in a way other than as a younger sister who knew her, and asked again.
Haha, if you don’t like him as a younger sister you know, why do you think Yunkyung is sexy in a rational way?”
I actually asked as a joke.
Then Jieun replied with a serious expression.
“Yes.”
“Hmm?”
“That’s right.”
The more I listened to Ji-eun’s answers, the more I felt like I had questions.
Then, Ji-eun spoke to me while sitting next to me sitting on the low, collapsed wall.
“Didn’t I say how about making a secret together?”
She said her
“I think I can talk to my older brother. If I’ve seen him so far, I think he’ll be able to understand my taste.”
It wasn’t until after Ji-eun spoke her words that I could understand what she was talking about.
Ji-Eun seemed a bit distant from talking about the romantic camaraderie.
She could see that she was talking about Eros.
As I listened to her words, I immediately fell into thought.
‘Then, the reason Ji-eun was not particularly jealous of many people around her…’
The reason seemed to be clear now.
The reason why the author is not jealous of women.
I guess it was because she liked women.
In fact, I don’t have the feeling that Jieun’s taste is not good.
As for what men do, I think it’s okay for them to do it freely and freely, but I’m in no position to want to do it.
The reason is because it is an academic theory that the probability of various infections due to blood is higher than that between the opposite sex when men do it.
I can’t say who it is because it’s a secret thing, but among my acquaintances, there were men who did it, and I don’t know if it was by chance, but there were some diseases related to that side.
Of course, there may be cases where this is not the case, but it seems quite risky.
I definitely think that they can do it because it’s their freedom, but in my case, it’s not my taste, and because of the risk, I’ve never done it until now, and I can see that I won’t do it more firmly in the future.
There’s no particular meaning to thinking about what women do because I’m a man, but I tend to see that as their freedom as well.
Also, there is an opinion that it is relatively safe to do it between women because there is no such thing as an increase in the probability of getting a disease due to blood flow compared to doing it between men.
Maybe women are safer than heterosexual couples.
Of course, there is no blood coming out, and since intercourse is mainly done with fingers, without even inserting objects and spraying semen, I think that the intensity of intercourse is more safe.
And there were cases like that.
Among the many beauties I met and got to know while fucking, there was a beauties whose original taste was toward women.
In such a case, it was also quite unusual for her to have feelings for me.
At that time, I had also asked such a thing in my previous experience.
He said he likes women, but why did he have sex with me?
The answer I heard there was ‘because I am a handsome man who is more beautiful than women’.
“If you like Yun-kyung and that’s your preference… Why me?”
“Because my brother is more beautiful than a woman.”
“Ah.”
“I don’t have feelings for men at all. I like women. But it was my first time seeing someone like you. Oppa is my first man.”
Ji-eun also seemed to be in line with a case I had experienced before.
Originally, I like women, and I have no interest in men, and I am the one who likes women thoroughly, but also likes me.
I think this is a bit out of common sense, but it can be easier to understand if you change this from the position of liking women to the position of liking men.
I once asked a gay friend I met as an acquaintance of an acquaintance, whom I could never disclose.
“If a man likes a man, is it possible that a woman of great beauty will not be attracted at all?” Called.
It was quite curious for me.
If you are a woman, you really like a handsome man, and if you are a man, you really like a pretty woman.
But the answer was very surprising.
It was different from what I thought.
My thoughts were that the mind naturally does not arise.
But it wasn’t.
His answer was:
He said that he doesn’t have feelings for women at all, and that he doesn’t have feelings for pretty women at all, but beyond that, he has a desire to fuck a very pretty woman.
You may see it a lot on TV, but in reality, there was only one woman like that.
It’s the same if you change it.
Even a woman who likes women, originally has no interest in men, but she has a beauty that transcends his own standards of beauty.
So, since I had already experienced a case like Jieun’s, I was a bit surprised when I first heard it, but after thinking about it, it was so shocking and I didn’t even go to that extent.
I said to Jieun.
“Don’t worry. There were some girls around me who liked girls. I won’t even tell you who they are.”
“I thought that would be the case with my brother.”
“Hmm.”
“Brother.”
“Hmm?”
“So, I want to do it with Yun-kyung, but I want to do it with you too. Next time, when will you catch me. The three of us…
