Chapter 384 – Chapter 384. I Believed in the Truth
“Still, my parents are my parents. How could I abandon that relationship? It’s ridiculous.”
I said.
Then Hyun Si-eun smiled helplessly and shook her head.
And she saw me
Hyun Si-eun, who was looking at me gently, smiled quietly.
“I envy you.”
I couldn’t immediately grasp the meaning of her words.
But right away, she immediately took her word for it.
“I don’t know, but I think you met good parents. Maybe that’s luck.”
After hearing her words, I thought about my parents for a while.
The father is rather harsh, and the mother is benevolent.
But, well, our house went well in its own way.
During the 20 or so years before I became an adult, nothing so unconventional happened while I was with my parents.
The trivial peace of the family might lead to a sense of peace for my family.
“Lee Jin-hyeok.”
“Uh.”
“If I ever get married, I want to be with someone like you.”
“Put. What’s like me?”
Hyun Si-eun listened to me and raised her hands and held my cheeks gently.
As she releases her hands, the towel she’s been wrapping around her body loosens slightly, revealing more of her breastbone and bra underneath the towel.
The bra is black.
Luxurious design lace.
She looked at me
I met Hyun Si-eun’s eyes.
Surely… Beautiful.
She used to be a high-class player in the entertainment industry, but now she is a pretty popular female cam BJ. At that time and now, her beauty enough to earn an income of over 300 million won was not uncommon.
And she doesn’t feel that way at all just looking at her.
Rather, it is a type of beauty that is more modest and pathetic than other ordinary people.
So, when she came to Cheonri Wall TV, she didn’t even know that she had the concept of an innocence series.
If you just look at it, rather than the feeling of an urban honorable beauty…
When I was in college, I met by chance in a liberal arts class, the older sister who is attending an arts college that buys food well? Would you say it feels like that?
She feels that way
Hyun Si-eun gently covered my cheeks while talking to me.
“Well… If it’s a style like yours… Should I say it’s the type with no wrinkles. It doesn’t suit this filthy, filthy world.”
I looked straight at her and smiled.
“This world is filth… I feel sorry for filth. At least filth misuses power, abuses power, picks out and eats the things below, and is still good? It doesn’t sound like a hypocritical dog. .”
“Pu-huh!”
She laughed.
Taking her hands off my face, she put her hands on her bed and put her face on my shoulder, laughing even more.
Haha! Ah, great. You unexpectedly hid your cider temperament.”
As she approached, I naturally put my hand on her shoulder.
Past the soft skin of her wing bones, I put her hand on the back of her shoulder, and I lifted my other hand around her face and leaned my face over her slightly, facing her and talking to her. Did.
“I know.”
She looks at me
The black eyes that seem to contain starlight, a passive characteristic of beautiful women, meet my eyes again.
“I know… You were there.”
Maybe she thought of me as a flower in a greenhouse.
I grew up without much worry, studied a little, and although it wasn’t the top, I got a university sign that others would envy.
Even though my situation was like this, I didn’t know that I came to know the power structure of this world a little faster than others through secondhand experience.
In my early 20s and up to my mid-20s, what my peers are most interested in is the opposite sex no matter what anyone says.
Men are frantic because they want to have sex with beautiful women, and women also have an infinite number of tails to seduce handsome men.
I reigned as the strongest in the hottest sex category of that age.
Most beauties accepted when I approached them, and rarely did they even need to.
It was because even in my daily life, there were many beauties who approached me before I reached out.
It’s like money
The more there are, the more there are.
If you say that the more money you have, the more you can be called out as financial income such as interest or assets such as real estate purchase.
But I saw
It’s not me who reigns as the strongest, but also the figures around me.
Friends, hyungs, juniors, everyone wanted to have sex, so there were many cases where there was no answer to the situation.
If I said that I was treated like a dragon in the love market, there were quite a few cases in which many of my acquaintances were treated poorly as grasshoppers, ladybugs, and mitochondria.
Statistically, in my experience, the highest number of complaints from acquaintances was that they confessed and failed.
Then, I was dumped while we were dating, and I was taken away by another man. Stories like this followed.
Confession failure, which was the most common case.
In that case, of course you can’t have sex.
This is because sex presupposes a mutually agreed upon mind.
There were many acquaintances who went further than being unable to do anything, and now faced with situations in which the face was even more difficult to see in the future.
Still, there were cases in which life became more difficult as they did not give up and chased after them, begging for affection, not realizing that the time for their own development was a waste.
There were quite a few acquaintances who called me to buy me a drink while grieving such a situation.
I didn’t understand at first.
Why did you confess and fail?
If you have a lover, of course it is understandable.
But even if that wasn’t the case, there were a lot of people around me who asked me to date a beauty who didn’t have a lover, and got hit by a harsh wind.
Why?
If she doesn’t have a lover, wouldn’t she be able to meet her once?
Why would you bother confessing?
It was a big question for me in the past, who had never met the opposite sex.
When I didn’t have a lover at the time, I wasn’t kicked if I liked me.
I thought everyone was equal.
And until I met him, I thought he didn’t know.
That thought has changed little by little.
I was an absolute strongman.
However, as I saw numerous acquaintances around me confessing, getting dumped while dating, and seeing this countless times.
It’s not like they broke up because someone made a mistake.
It can be wrong for both men and women, or both.
What I paid attention to was the power relationship.
Because I am maintained in the state of having power, I cannot notice it well because there is no change in the state of being free from it.
However, if you turn your gaze to the surroundings, and if you observe the countless relationships with your eyes wide open, you can clearly see them.
The handsome man had power, and the beauty had power.
The absolute majority of reasons were twisted for them.
And the unpopular class was thoroughly alienated.
As if the hearts of the handsome man and the handsome girl are diamonds, and their hearts are food scraps caught in the sink drain.
I was furious at first.
I strongly warned my friends and seniors and juniors.
Even if there are many people in the world who think of their appearance as power, they shouted out loud that there will definitely be people who will know the truth.
I was sure that warm-hearted people with no prejudice based on appearance would be able to develop beautiful relationships by sharing joy while learning the true value of that person once they met.
And after that…
My argument was broken mercilessly by acquaintances who failed endlessly one after another.
It wasn’t 100% like that.
Clearly there is.
Even the one who is sincere.
However, based on my experience and my data, only about 2% of such types existed.
It is realistically difficult to find the 2% heart wave.
Most sought power.
Rather, it was more than I thought.
Even power did not exist only in appearance, and there were many powers based on social status.
It came as a secondary shock to me.
Myriad powers…
Face, body, height, fashion sense, hair, job, house, car, family background, academic background, things like that seemed to be sitting cross-legged on a high place, laughing and giggling down at a guy called ‘Sincerity’.
And many people treat those who have more power than themselves when they are in the top position, but otherwise they treat them coldly.
It was something I couldn’t change.
Never.
What came after the anger was despair.
Ironically, even in despair that the world was like that, I was able to have sex with countless beauties because I was always in a position of vested interest.
In the meantime, I wanted to change.
If I can’t change the world, I want to make small changes around me.
When I realized the world, I started by arranging blind dates.
I had infinite reason around me.
Therefore, it was possible to make infinite introductions to acquaintances.
However, in most cases it has failed.
Rather, there were many cases in which my acquaintances went on a blind date, either 1:1 or many, and came back with serious heartaches.
It was also something I had never experienced before.
Another way was needed.
After the anger, despair, and those feelings passed, I regained my composure.
Next, I decided to use the strategy of carrying.
Then I went yaking, or hunting, with my friends.
It is my first page that concretely realized my wish that I would not only meet numerous people of the opposite sex and live a happy life alone, but that the people around me would also have a happier life.
If I were to write my life as a novel, I would like to write it as one episode.
As the leader of the party, I mobilized all the fashion items I bought from my part-time job, along with my teeth sharpened through experience, my innate looks, and my body that had been exercised.
The advantage of yaking is that the atmosphere floats.
If I could lead and control the atmosphere well, I could have made it better than making a lover around me.
I don’t care about the neighborhood, the club, the religion, whatever, but it was more advantageous to my friends.
So I was able to free our party a little more from suffering a humiliating defeat as much as possible.
Last winter, me and Minkyung, Juhwan and Dayoung, Jonghun and Seulgi…
Like this, the scene where three couples had sex in their respective rooms in a hotel room and moaning sounded like an orchestra was like my hard carry.
There were quite a few things like that in college too.
As I became more and more aware of those power structures, I naturally became more visible of social structures that were not heterosexual.
Society, culture, politics, law, everywhere, there was power.
Most of the ardent talkers talked endlessly of shit for their own gain, which fed me more and more.
I didn’t want to mess with them.
And I was drained from my mind.
Even changing the small world around me was that difficult.
The big world cannot be changed. With the thought.
After that, my dream was to become a 9th grade civil servant and live a simple life and build many memories with beauties.
I still have thoughts similar to that.
The only thing that has changed is to collect 4 billion won.
It is not to make simple memories, but to collect memories in economic freedom.
Hyun Si-eun said with her eyes.
‘Did you know? Aren’t you a kid?’
I also responded with my eyes.
‘Know.’
Gradually, Hyun Si-eun and I’s faces got closer.
And Hyun Si-eun put her arm around my neck and we ended up kissing.
“Zuk…”
“Tskuk… Umm…”
She is like a star
While hugging Shi-eun and kissing her, it felt like I could forget everything I knew for this moment.
