Chapter 174 – Chapter 174. Don’t Live as a Respectable Man -1
(This is 2 days and 1 night of Koo Ho-chang, a life that contrasts with the main character, ‘I (Jin-hyeok)’.)
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Hochang watched Sae Ah go down.
Sae Ah passed him and left a faint smell of perfume as she descended the stairs.
Her scent, which seemed to sweep through her, remained as a faint reverberation and shook her heart for a while.
It was a failure again.
Ho-chang sighed lightly at his helplessness at being unable to do anything other than smelling and passing by the woman.
“Ha…”
I was still sleepy from playing rolls all night yesterday.
Even so, she rubbed her sleepy eyes and returned home midway through the academy class without sleeping.
It was only with the intention of having sex with Se-ah Kwon in a motel room from tomorrow until the day after Christmas Eve after successfully confessing to Se-ah Kwon today.
But the result was this.
‘How many times have you failed this year already? Oh, I’m going to be sleepy, but I’m going to go home and sleep after studying. I took classes for no reason.’
Even if I missed the academy, I went out every day before the start of the academy.
There are fines… More importantly, it was because of the women I could meet at the study.
It was because of the thought that if you manage their image, you don’t know when the opportunity to fuck them will come.
When I think about that, I feel nervous, so I seem to have worked hard in the study.
Each lecture on one question was also wonderful.
And as her leader, Hochang thought that he also showed dignity by leading the team members every day.
The purpose of the study was the same, and first of all, he came almost to the brink of sex right away, but thoughts of Kwon Se-ah filled Ho-chang’s head with the thought that it had become distorted.
Even before Kwon Se-ah, he tried to hit a lot of women and failed…
I don’t know how many times this year has already happened.
In addition, the afterglow of defeat was even more significant because he was almost certain of success this time.
It was the same before that.
No matter how much I wanted to date a woman, it was useless even after I became an adult and worked hard for several years.
It’s like when I was in college, and even after I came here to gosichon, there are a lot of women.
But everyone else seemed to make quite a few couples, and Ho-chang was very upset about why he couldn’t.
After standing in a daze for a while, Hochang slowly climbed down the stairs on the stairs where the academy professor’s office was located.
– Tak, Tak…
Go down the stairs to the first floor.
She got out of the academy.
When I came out, the chill came like crazy.
‘Eww! Wind!’
Winter in the city automatically made me shiver cold.
Outside, let’s eat even in this cold weather. The footsteps of people walking through the alley were similar to usual.
Among them were couples.
Even if it’s not, I’m cold, but when I see a couple, I’m like, ‘Ah, fuck…’ … The two of them will go around like that for a little while, and then go in together at night and fuck each other, right?’ My stomach churned at the thought.
I thought it would be nice if everything was broken.
‘Oh, I thought I could do it too. I thought I could fucking have sex with Kwon Se-ah, but where did I go wrong…’
Fucking and passing the cold streets for a long time.
Walk and walk again
Since the gosichon is not large, it did not take long to return to the goshiwon where they live.
However, because it was so cold, it felt like it had been a long time.
-Tak, tatak
Take off your shoes and enter the gosiwon.
It smelled dry and damp.
It seemed that the smell of the gosiwon itself and the smell of the countless shoes emanating from the entrance were mixed together.
Even though there are CCTVs, can the head of the gosi do this?
I didn’t like that the head of the kosi had to take off all his shoes at the entrance to save the cost of purchasing an entire shoe rack.
Hochang frowned as he recalled the head of the high school.
Well, other gosiwons are in a similar situation.
The shoe closet is not a problem compared to the crampedness of the room.
Every day here was like hell from one to ten.
It was difficult to live in a difficult condition for one of the food, clothing and shelter.
Steps into the room were not so light.
‘Jinhyeok said that he got the part-time job so fucking easily every time. I must have been lucky.’
Hochang didn’t really save part-time job.
This is Gosichon.
The number of apprentices is very large.
Of course, there are many shops such as restaurants, but since there are far more students looking for a part-time job, if you go to a place with a part-time job, you often have to overcome the competition of more than 10 to 1.
My friend Jin-hyeok only thought that he was lucky many times that he was able to easily find part-time workers.
‘If I had worked part-time, I might not have lived in a gosiwon…’
However, when I recalled the experience of working part-time jobs in the past, I felt like I would never know again.
Working part-time was hard work.
There was no easy way to get money anywhere.
No matter where I worked, there were always dog-like things everywhere, and I got rid of them without fulfilling the period I said at the beginning.
If, like Jin-hyeok, I was lucky enough to get a part-time job easily and easily, would I still have been able to choose a more comfortable one?
If it wasn’t to the extent of choosing like that, it made more sense to choose a job that could be done for a long time when it was already difficult to find anything.
-Sureuk, sereuk…
After entering the gosiwon, Hochang walked through the hallway, dragging his socks, toward his room.
This gosiwon was an old gosiwon that was built quite a while ago.
After entering the front door and going through the hallway, if you look to the left, there is a group bathroom/toilet with yellow stains.
And if you follow the corridor that continues from there, there are many rooms on the left and right.
This place was like an anthill.
If you enter the anthill-like hallway and take the right hallway, you will find the room you are currently living in.
When you arrive, open the key and enter.
– Kiyi…
Hochang entered.
Then he went in and quietly closed the door.
After making a door noise and going in, a ‘thump!’ From the next room. It’s because I’m going to hit the wall like I’m going to break it.
You don’t even have to turn on the lights.
It hurts my eyes when I turn on the lights, and I will be working on the computer all the time anyway.
There is a bed on one side, and there is a respectable space on the side that can take three or four steps.
And in front of that space is a desk.
The room was warm.
Take off your outerwear as soon as you enter.
If you take off your outerwear, even if the zipper makes a loud noise, you can hit the wall from the side again, so take off your outerwear carefully.
Then, immediately sit down at your desk.
And boot up your computer.
-Ugh…
The monitor lights up, and the room brightens slightly.
It’s right behind the bed, so it’s not easy to get a space to remove the chair.
The keyboard, mouse, and earphone strings are tangled up on the desk.
And there are government officials’ books and practice sheets that were thrown away because they didn’t look closely, and there are forgotten snack bags and empty cans.
Put earphones in both ears.
Then, turn on the roll.
-Tae-aeng!
The moment you pick a character and press lock-in is the moment you walk away from this dog house and shitty life.
I was thinking of playing the game by adjusting the volume of the earphones as low as possible so as not to leak out.
Get up from the chair
Then, after getting up, he takes out a piece of bread from the bookshelf attached to the desk of the gosiwon.
It’s a chocolate bun.
I cracked open the plastic wrap of the bread.
-Thud!
Eventually, I hit the wall in the next room.
Anyway, if you’re not paying attention even for a moment, the next room will come hitting the wall.
As soon as the sound of the vinyl sounded, it was as if he was waiting for the sound to be heard.
‘…’
Hochang carefully took out a chocolate roll from the bread bag.
This bread was what I usually ate when I was in school.
At that time, I thought it was something I ate as a snack after lunch… I never thought I would eat it as a staple food 10 years later.
It’s not a stock, it’s a specialty.
Originally, I would go to the rest room of the gosiwon and eat the rice and kimchi provided at the gosiwon, but now I am eating something much more delicious than that.
Hochang was going to eat something delicious for a while, but frowned at hearing the sound of a wall being pounded, and plugged earphones into both ears.
-Uh-woong-, doo-dung, doong, doong-.
Loud music blaring through the earphones.
Hochang started playing the game with immersed himself in the monitor.
Pick up the freshly peeled chocolate rolls into the bin with unwashed hands.
Chew a bite.
The sweetness was more than enough to make me forget the bitter taste of reality.
Hochang spends an overwhelmingly more time playing games than studying, which is why he has all the characters.
He even buys all the former champs with points he can receive while playing the game and has leftovers.
And until right before his eyes closed, Hochang was completely immersed in the game and became one with the monitor.
In the meantime, Kwon Se-ah, who refused to confess, was frustrated by this cramped kosiwon, and was able to walk through the canyon as a hero in a place where no one was present, even in the next room where he hit the wall whenever he had a chance.
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‘…’
I fell asleep while playing a game and woke up again.
-Uh-uh, uh-uh, uh-uh…
The only time in the day when sound is allowed in the goshiwon is in the morning.
Hochang woke up to the sound of his phone vibrating.
In the morning, I don’t knock on the wall from the next room unless it’s too loud an alarm clock.
Hochang still wanted to knock on the wall with his fist again because he heard the vibrating sound of his cell phone in the next room, so he got up and turned off his cell phone alarm just in case.
When I turn off the alarm, the date appears on my phone.
‘December 24th.’
Christmas Eve.
The day has come.
Hochang rubbed his eyes between the hard bed and the cheap blanket.
The room was still warm.
And the room was full of darkness.
My eyes were adapted to the darkness, and I could see the entire landscape in the room.
The very narrow and cramped room seemed to squeeze my chest as soon as I woke up.
When I woke up after running the game until dawn, I terribly hated waking up.
Still, Hochang thought that if he got up and went to study, he would be able to manage the image of the three study members, Yoon-kyung, Hye-na, and Eun-hee, who did not know when the opportunity would come.
Hochang raised his upper body.
And she groaned and stretched herself.
‘Nice-.’
“Ah~.” I couldn’t imagine doing the same yawn.
If it did, it would look like a wall at first glance, but it was sure to be smashed against the wall in the next room where it was blocked off with boards.
-Sue…
Ho Chang cautiously stood up.
Last time, there was a time when a blanket brushed against the boarded-up wall, although the wallpaper had been applied to it, and the next room had hit the wall.
In this kosiwon, you have to pay attention to all sounds.
‘Oh, it’s Christmas Eve.’
When I opened my eyes, I thought of Kwon Se-ah.
If it had gone according to the original plan, today, I would have had to spend two days and one night taking off my clothes, hugging and fucking, spending a frenzied night with Kwon Se-ah at the motel I had booked in advance.
But it was black.
Just yesterday
‘Ah, sir… So today… Are you saying I can’t?’
Hochang was unfair.
On Christmas Eve, couples were supposed to fuck all over the country, but it was so unfair and resentful that only they couldn’t do it.
I felt a bit down, so I decided to lie in bed a little longer.
There was still some time before going to study.
As soon as I woke up, I kept thinking about Kwon Se-ah.
The only thought that ran through her mind was that she could fuck her and she couldn’t.
So, Hochang picked up his phone while lying on the bed in the cramped gosiwon.
