Pretending to Be a Girlfriend？ 93

Chapter 93 – Truth and Fury (1)

Starchis’s expression was not visible.

The two of them now get up from their chairs
I was standing in the middle of the room.

Stachis pushed Lily’s shoulders with his arms her,
He looks at the floor

Why are you reacting like this?
Lily was afraid that he hated her so much.

“…”

“…”

It hurt that his reaction to her was not positive.
I expected it, but it was difficult to face it.

After bumping into the whole heart to the person you love
The feeling of being denied.

The mana in the body moves dizzy here and there.

Lily wonders if he’s doing this because he doesn’t like her.
Or he wanted to know if he was going to say no for Elzain’s sake.

Starchis was also dizzy.

From the moment I entered the room with Lily
I have no memory, and when I wake up, I sit in a chair
I received a confession while holding Lily.

I thought it was some kind of joke.

But Lily’s expression when she confessed
Told me it wasn’t

The current silence also reminded me that Lily was serious.
Woke me up

‘…Unless it’s a lie.’

Starchis breaks the long silence and asks.

“…Since when?”

“..After Tiger Wolf.”

“…”

“…”

“…Haha.”

That means he has been loved by Lily for a long time.

Is it a dream
Unexpected things happen one after another.

“I have never liked anyone else.”

Lily nailed it, saying it was no joke.

The more he did, the more Stachis’ heart only grew heavier.
If you confess, no matter who the opponent is
I thought it would be a feeling of gratitude.

Accept or reject
She thought she would be positive no matter what.

As expected, even when Rose confesses
It broke her heart to have to refuse
There was an inherent gratitude underneath.

But now…
Something was bothering me now.

“…Then that’s why you took me everywhere before?”

“…Yes?”

“There are days when you called me for a long time. Was it because you liked me that you called me that much?”

“…Right.”

“Why did you take me here and there without a single day’s rest?”

“Starch-“

“- But noona was chosen. Like you don’t like it.”

“I’m not saying you don’t like-“

“How do you like it? You say that.”

“…”

“Didn’t you draw a lot of lines?”

“…Right.”

“Why did you do that then?”

Starchis’s voice grew louder.

“…Sorry.”

Lily had nothing to say except apologize.
I can’t say anything about the treaty at all.
But what he wanted to hear wasn’t an apology.

“…Haha… Older sister.”

Starchis calms down for a while
I try to bring the atmosphere lighter than now.
Because today was a day for blessings.

But it wasn’t easy.

“…”

He bit his lip once.
He still pondered whether he should speak or not.
I was worried that it might look too narrow.

However, the more I understood the situation, the more it was difficult to do that because of the emotions that burst out.

“… Every time my sister drew a line on every little thing… Honestly, it was hard.”

“…”

“My self-esteem is going down. I wondered if he hated me enough to give me attention so many times.”

“…Starchis..”

“Don’t get me wrong.. I’m not doing this because I like it, so don’t get me wrong..! Whenever I heard these words, I laughed and passed them off at first, but every time I met them for several years, so later on, I wondered if I was that weird…!”

My self-confidence plummeted as if my clothes were getting wet in drizzling rain.
It must have been the aftermath that I started not decorating after that.
Because I thought I might decorate it.

I don’t know if someone who has nothing to do with me pushed me away.
Starchis says the only girls he’s seen over the years are Barefoot party members.
I wondered if there was something wrong with them because they pushed them all away.

The more you speak, the more specific your thoughts become.
Emotions intensified accordingly.

“… Did you play with me?”

Starchis asks, trembling in her voice as if wounded.

Lily’s hair went white and her heart ached.
She hurt someone she loved.

“No!! No!!”

She wanted to hug him when he was hurt.
She tried to express her regret with her whole body her.

However, Stachis continues to grab Lily by the shoulder and pushes her away her.

His arm that always held her
Does not bend

“Why not…? I thought it was because noona originally had no sense of distance, but I didn’t know that she had intentions. If you act like you like me and push me away with your words, if you’re not playing with me, then what?”

“…I mean it…I really don’t mean-“

“Do you know that I have no heart? Me too…”

He admits biting his lip.

“Me too… In the past, when my older sister hugged me, I was thrilled. He said his heart beats when he crosses his arms her. But he said don’t be mistaken… He said don’t cross the line. If that’s not playing with my feelings, what is…!”

“…Huh..”

“Did you enjoy cutting my self-esteem?”

Starchis raises the blade and asks.
It was something I didn’t want to do.

“Or was my reaction funny?”

It was so scary to see someone who wasn’t angry get angry.
It felt like crossing a line that had been generously drawn.

“Please…! It’s not like that..!”

“Why do you hurt me unnecessarily… I’m not all right… “

Lily realizes her own mistakes her.

I didn’t know that the sufferer could have this kind of pain.
He was smiling all the time, so he never thought much of it.

It was a feeling I couldn’t express.
Her love her for him should have been buried deep in her heart her.

Her own ugly heart Her was undeserving of love.
Once again, she feels she made the wrong choice.

“Sister… I just… Thought you thought of me as a porter.”

“..G..Jim-“

“But that is fine. It’s just… You just have to think that noona has a lot of things she wants to do.”

“…Ah..”

“-On the contrary, it was easier to understand if he was someone who could not be understood. But this…”

Tears flowed from Lily’s eyes her.
Than her own heart was rejected
It was more difficult to see Starchis hurt like that.

“…All. That this was all a calculated act…”

Tiger Wolf was a long time ago.
It means that these are actions that have been going on for a very long time.

Once again, Lily approaches to fall into his arms her.
But as she was, she didn’t even budge his arm.

Through that strong force, once again, how much he
He finds out if he lost to her.

“…For taking me through such a hard time. Strangely, he pushed me away when another woman approached. It’s strange that he was interested in my love history..!”

Lily gets down on her knees.
I couldn’t think of anything else.

She hugged him and couldn’t calm him down, so she had no other choice.

“I… Didn’t I say I wanted to try to love like that, sister?”

His eyes are red

Starchis even when she gets down on her knees
There was no great reaction.

Lily had never seen Starchis so angry.

It is hard to dare to judge from the calm tone and sometimes rising voice of her.
She felt angry.

“I did, but you push away the other girls who approach me, and draw a line with me?”

Lily put her hands together and began rubbing them together slowly, like a child.
As long as he is not angry,
When he did, he didn’t know what to do or how to release it.

But no matter how humiliating
I could have done it if he just let go of his anger.

“I was wrong. I really-“

“Haha…I was lonely…I thought I had a problem…”

“…Eww..”

I didn’t know he was hiding this pain inside.
If possible, Lily wanted to be his support her,
He acted like an older sister and wanted to be a reliable person
I guess I couldn’t because I kept pushing him away.

It was heartbreaking to see a strong man show his weak side of him.

Starchis may have been lonely and she wanted to make more lovers.
Because the older brother was busy with his own business and the three women did not see themselves as men,
There was no one to whom I could pour out my deep feelings.

“-I was really wrong..”

Starchis wanted to cover his ears.
It’s not what he wants to hear.

Tall.

Starchis’s body his stiffened.
He clenched his fists
Scratch his head

Lily, on her knees, looks up at him through cloudy tears.
Every next moment was fear.

Dump.

A thought pops into his head and unleashes his legs.
He sat helplessly in his chair.

“…Couldn’t it be… Are all the other kids like noonas?”

Lily swallows her saliva.
She couldn’t answer

“…Wow…”

It is not the past that would have been maintained by Lillyman’s actions his.
The three of them had made an appointment by going back in time to each other.

If so, they all had the same intention.
Stachis recalled the three women pushing him away.

Russ, her old friend her.
He speaks harshly, but he is soft.
Up to Lily right now.

I’ve been fooling him all this time.

What were they thinking?
What was the reason for drawing the line while liking it?
No matter how much I thought about it, I couldn’t figure it out.

It’s okay to draw a line against Rose now.
It’s so hard.

What on earth were Russ, Vienne, and Lily thinking?

“…Huh..”

Starchis can’t follow his words
He continued to exclaim in admiration.

Stion had been seeing through everything from the beginning.
I was complaining to his older brother that he was wrong, but it was me who was wrong.

Starchis is drawing the line, so he’s been saying he couldn’t be,
His older brother had a better grasp of the situation.

Because these women liked him, they told him to pretend to have a girlfriend.
And that’s why they became quiet after that.

Come to think of it, the problems back then
It wasn’t something that could be solved by working hard.

If they hadn’t deceived themselves, there would be no reason to lie.

…What if.
If none of these guys had played with themselves.
It may have taken time, but it might have been connected and I wouldn’t have to lie like that.

As a result, you choose to lie
The regret and guilt I felt for that choice was unfair.

For a long time he showed them sincerity.
Until recently, I did my best without cheating.

So when you lie about having a girlfriend, she
I struggled with the guilt of being sorry, ashamed, and not being honest.

However, Starchis has suffered from them for a really long time.
Didn’t they feel guilty?

He was not angry at having toiled on his own body.
If there’s anything that upsets you,

His priority His was partying,
It was said that the rest of the members were barely paying attention to the affairs of the party.

In the past, the reason why party members took themselves like that
He thought it was for stress management.

After she relieved her stress, she thought it was her intention to work harder on her collecting activities.
In any case, it’s life-and-death work, so stress comes with it.

So, even when it was difficult, he persevered and listened to their demands.

But that wasn’t the case, it was a stripe between them.

I was devastated.
I feel betrayed.

What he had worked so hard for had nothing to do with party activities.

Were they too much?
Was I a fool?
It was terribly empty.

You can’t trust the people you trusted
I hated this moment so much.

I was hiding such a big secret
I’m afraid of what lies again.

…But that might be the same for him as well.
Because of the lie about having a girlfriend.

Lily crawls slowly into her lap
Grab his leg his lightly.

Tears were still flowing.

Starchis was surprised at himself.
Certainly, it was as if Rose had awakened something within herself.

Lily, who was always like her older sister her, is doing this
It seemed that her anger was relieved by her honest heart.

“…Ha…”

Starchis clears his head.
I decided to keep it as simple as possible.

The more you think about stress, the more complex and difficult it becomes.
It has a characteristic.

If you think about it, it’s not too bad.
…Probably so.

Their fault was that they pretended to dislike it while liking it.
Because that’s all.

Action is their choice.
You can’t be angry because you didn’t tell your heart.
The secondary things that followed after that… You shouldn’t think about it for now.

“…Sorry. Am I being too sensitive? I don’t think it’s anything to be angry about… I keep getting frustrated.”

“No… It’s something to be angry about, Starchis. Be angry as much as you want.. I was wrong..”

I hate to play with emotions,
He had no interest in them at all.
Would have been irrelevant.

People who don’t care whether they like you or not
What do you mean know

But I feel so angry with them,
It seems that he had a heart for them without even knowing it.

So, I feel a greater sense of betrayal.
It’s also heartbreaking.

And why are you talking now?

Now that I’m getting serious with Rose.
Why do you confess your heart now and make it difficult for yourself?
It’s like playing with yourself.

‘Tiring?’

Starchis shook his head.
Not hard, but complicated.
It must have been complicated.

So maybe it’s your own fault.

While singing pure love
My fault for not paying attention to just one person.

Now that she has Rose, she only has her heart for her
It might be possible to spill it.

Of course.
Even if you’re not really dating her.

“…That’s Okay. Just get up.”

Cheeky, Starchis laughs.
He held her by Lily’s arm her and pulled her up.

“…Uh…Yes?”

Lily, wiping her tears, is led by Stachis.
Woke up.

Is he already forgiving?
I knew he was good, but
Enough to easily subdue even the anger he had just shown,
Are you a ridiculously good person?

I look at his expression with difficulty.

‘Ah…!!’

And then despair sets in.
The strength of the whole body is released.

A smile that seems to have no regrets.
A tremendous rage was visible beneath it.

Stachis was on the verge of losing his affection.
Lily was on the verge of becoming irrelevant to him.
From now on, it seemed that he would not share even a handful of warmth.

Instinctively she noticed it.

“I…I was really wrong..!!”

She gets back on her knees.
She grabs him by the crotch of his pants and pleads.

She wraps her arms around his left leg and hugs him tightly.
Put her ass on the soles of his feet her,
Her breasts are as close as possible.

“Do whatever you want with me..! Anything that eases your anger… Ughhhhh… Please don’t abandon me… Please don’t abandon me…!!”

Wooddeuk.
The smile of Stachis, who had maintained his composure his, broke.
The sense of betrayal I felt as I bit his teeth hard
Express a little

“I can’t do without Starches…! I really can’t..!!”

Putting down her older sister-like tone, she begged.
She felt the same way as when she was hypnotized earlier.
It feels like you won’t respond to anything I say after that.
It was so scary and terrifying.

Starchis felt awkward with her like this.
If there was a heart like this, why was it before?
Wouldn’t it have been a little tea?

Rather, this look is false.
Once her trust in her is broken, her perception of her in her changes.

He took a deep breath.
Emotions are so intense right now.
Even if you pretend not to, even if you try to control your heart, it’s the same.

I don’t think pretty words will come out.

I need some time.

“…Sister. We’ll talk about it later. Now is..”

I forcefully move her hand to contain my anger.

If you don’t give Lily false reassurance
It seemed that this would never end.

Starchis stroked Lily’s head, which was hanging from her leg.
Treating her like an adult like this
It was a really strange feeling.

“…What. We only hurt each other’s feelings. OK?”

He puts a little strength on his leg
Remove the lily

“Oh!”

Lily’s hand her hovers in the air.

Starchis brushed off his clothes her,
He walked towards the door.

He opens the door

“I’ll stay up.”

– Clap.

“…”

But the door is locked and won’t open.

“..Ah..”

Lily regrets it, but it’s already too late.

“… Whoa… “

Stachis looked at Lily with cold eyes and then said,
Opened the door and went out

-Thud!
The door closes with a sound that is neither small nor loud.

-Tuk. Toduk.

Tears gather on her chin and pour down.

“…Ah…!”

It looks like he’ll never come back.
I’ve seen him get angry,
The subject has never been himself.

It was hard to bear.
I wished it was all a dream.

He shouldn’t have confessed.
It is the punishment for being greedy for him until the end.

And yet… She knew.
Even so, she couldn’t give up on him.
So now it hurts even more.

“Ahhh!!!”

Lily banged her head on the ground and pulled her caught hair back.
She started biting off.