Chapter 106 – The Core of the Past (6)
“…There is?”
Lily asked as she opened the base door.
There was no reason why she, a member of Barefoot’s party, should be so cautious, but she seemed to have to be herself.
“…”
There was no response from inside the building.
She couldn’t decide whether to be fortunate or unhappy.
I was thinking of praying for my hands to wear out again in front of Starchis.
She knew that in the process she would have to taste his wrath, and that the moment would be too difficult for her to bear.
Lily said she was afraid to face his wrath.
Perhaps that’s why, after confirming that no one was there, she let out a short sigh.
She was complex and subtle.
She wants to do anything for him until he gets down on her knees and forgives him.
Relief that I will meet him a little late.
It meant that there was still time to harden her heart a little more.
She imagines all manner of apologies she has repeated in her head hundreds of times,
Among them, it was an opportunity to check again to see if there were any words or actions that would offend him.
But again, just in case.
It could be that Stachis, angry with himself, is simply not responding.
Still remaining at this stronghold, he did not know that she might be watching her doing what she is doing.
Lily walked slowly to Stachis’s door.
-Smart smart.
“…There is? It’s my sister.. I want to apologize..”
For some reason, I was already crying again.
“…Came.”
She seemed to have hurt her so deeply that she was about to burst into tears.
He’s wronged, he knows there’s nothing as ugly as crying and blowing himself.
Let’s not cry when apologizing, she promised several times,
I was already doing this in this situation where I didn’t even know if he was there or not.
But it had to be.
He only told me happiness, but he doesn’t seem to be able to do that himself.
Is there anything more painful than hurting someone you love with your own hands?
“…”
The building was still silent.
No chuckles or anything.
He didn’t seem to be here.
Slowly, her strength was released, and she crouched down on her and covered her knees.
“…After…”
It calmed her heart for a moment.
Even the tears that clung to the corners of her eyes her rubbed away on her lap her.
“… ?”
For some reason… I felt like I could smell Russ from sitting in this position.
But it was a very weak scent, and she hadn’t had time to pay attention to it yet.
She got up again
I know that this is not something that will disappear by postponing it.
She wanted to talk to Starchis.
.
.
.
After a while, she arrived in front of his lodgings.
She was also worried that she might not like to come.
You will definitely hate it.
He wouldn’t even want to see it.
Still, she couldn’t help but pray.
I remember the smile on his face her without regret.
She laughed as if she would abandon herself.
She had to go this far because nothing was as frightening as that.
“Ah! It’s been a while.”
The inn lady, who confirmed Lily’s face her, greeted her.
“…Hello.”
“Looking for that bachelor?”
“..Yes. Are you inside?”
Lily hardens her heart again.
“Um… Isn’t there?”
However, the answer that came back took the wind out of her heart once again.
“…No?”
It was unexpected.
If he wasn’t even here, where the hell would he be?
When he hears that he is not even at the dorm, anxiety sets in.
I started to worry about whether he had already lost his affection for Barefoot and disappeared, perhaps because of our breakup yesterday.
“…Uh… No?”
Lily checks her answer again.
“No. She came in briefly in the morning and then went out again? I remember her because her face looked sad and sad. I’m not even going to skip breakfast.”
“…”
Her heart her feels heavy when she hears that her face her looks sad even to others.
It seemed she would have to find him quickly.
“Uh… Do you know where you went?”
“I didn’t tell you… Why… Did you ever have a problem… “
Seeing Lily’s expression darken, her inn aunt’s expression her also seeps into her expression of concern.
Even Lily did not know the answer to the inn lady’s question.
She quickly lowered her head and said.
“… First of all, thank you. I’ll tell you more later.”
And with an impatient stomp, she stormed out of the base.
She started running towards her commissioned station.
I wonder if he may have requested to disband the party.
Could it be that the three party members who hurt him didn’t want to look bad, and the dream of having an A-class party died together?
It was quite possible.
It seemed that he could hear the lines that he would never say now vividly.
-‘Get out of my way.’
“Haha…!”
No matter how vigorously he shook his head, I could still imagine his chilly figure his.
-‘…Is this the answer to my favor?’
“Ugh..!”
-‘..Please.. I don’t want to see you again.’
“Oh!”
As she fantasizes about him, she trips over a rock in front of her feet.
Her knees her rub against the floor, her clothes tear and blood begin to flow, but
There was no time to care now.
The priority was to find Starches.
By the time her imagination of running again bites her tail and becomes unbearably painful,
She let out her breath.
“…No…! This…For now…”
There was no need to worry about the future that hadn’t even come.
Meet and talk
She raised her head.
The commissioning office appeared in front.
Hurrying inside, she found the receptionist, Marshall.
He was flipping through the documents in the same spot where he always sat.
“..That… Over there!!”
Lily ran up to him and raised her voice.
Marshall raised his head calmly.
“Ah. Lily from Party Barefoot… Is that right?”
“…Yes. Right.”
“What did you come for?”
“That…”
She knew that this was a strange question.
Still, I had to do it.
“..Ho.. By any chance Starchis came and asked to disband the party.. Didn’t he?”
“…Yes?”
Marshall looks up at her as if she’s talking about something.
That gaze was sweet.
He wanted me to let him know he was talking nonsense.
“… Yes, nothing like that happened.”
Marshall quickly agrees with Lily’s words.
“Ha…”
I grabbed the table in front of the guides and bent my legs.
I was able to let go for an hour.
Huddling strained her legs and she got up.
“..Have you seen Starchis?”
“No. I didn’t see you today.”
Marshall still looked at Lily with a puzzled look.
“What happened?”
“Yes..? Ah…”
Lily couldn’t answer.
Even if it’s a lie, saying nothing happened
It felt like I was rude to Starchis.
“…Yes.”
“Well..”
“..That..! If, by any chance, Starchis comes here later, please send a letter to Barefoot Base…!”
“…All right.”
“…Ah…And…Could I know the address of Ade’s base…”
“Are you talking about Stion’s party?”
“Yes.. I’m going to check if Starchis is there.”
“Did Mr Starchis go missing?”
“It’s not like that… I want to find Starchis quickly, but I can’t find it anywhere..”
“…All right.”
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It wasn’t until Ade’s base was reached that Lily was able to calm down.
Stachis heard that he had gone somewhere with his brother.
It may take a few days, but it will come back.
Lily returned to base and took a break.
It was the first time he had left without a word.
I was afraid that this represented his anger.
But since she said she’d come back, she wasn’t the worst, and that alone was enough for her to think about.
She runs hard and now checks her own dirty clothes on her.
Her skinned knee didn’t hurt as much as she thought.
It’s been a long time since I’ve been buried in the pain that comes from her chest.
It was shabby for her girlfriend to pursue a man she already had, but she couldn’t help it.
She didn’t know that she would become something like this.
I heard that she was pretty wherever she went, and I thought she was a person with sufficient abilities.
When she learns from her teacher about being in a romantic relationship, she remembers having only that level of appreciation, something she hopes to experience someday.
However, the reality was very different from what she had been told.
I met a man whose heart almost stopped,
She did so many strange things that she couldn’t understand why she was doing this.
She learned firsthand the feeling of jealousy and the desire for exclusivity that she hadn’t been able to learn.
And the man who made me feel that way…
Hurt and missed
What should I apologize for?
How can I soothe his anger at first?
He could listen to anything except tell him to go away.
“…”
The more he sits still, the more his thoughts fill his head.
Lily had no time to be apart from Starches.
When she moved away, her head she turned towards him.
Where did he go
How disappointed he is in himself right now.
Will he be able to forgive him?
To him… Love.
No, can I get a smile now?
Somehow he seems to do everything he does only make it hard for him.
He seemed to have to get away from himself in order to be happy.
But that was… He couldn’t bear it himself.
Even if someone cursed at me for being selfish, this part was never conceded.
Lily got up from her seat and looked around the base.
When she sits still, her imaginations haunt her.
Previously, thinking of him made her happy and thrilled,
He was guilty now, and he was ugly and painful.
His touch was felt in many rooms.
Some rooms were empty,
Some of the rooms were nicely decorated.
I was able to figure out who was thinking of making it.
Starchis told him to choose a room in the base, but he was already preparing to greet them to some extent.
The more this happened, the more Lily throbbed, as if someone was squeezing her heart.
She was the one who cared for them even in invisible places.
The expression on his face her that kept getting hurt lingers in her head her.
“…Ha…”
Lily realized that her own steps her were heading towards Starchis’s room her.
Even when she realized it, she did n’t turn her feet into her.
He’s already missing
I miss his voice his, his body odor his, his laugh his, his heart his.
-Kiik..
She quietly opens his room and enters.
She was used to the room she had been in the day before.
She looks at the place where she prayed as she knelt down and rubbed her hands.
The scene from yesterday seemed to come back vividly.
“…Wait a little..”
Lily apologized to Stachis and headed for his bed her.
For a moment, I lay in his bed to heal.
– Fluffy.
She lay down on his bed helplessly.
“… ?”
But, along with the scent of Starchis, a different smell comes up.
Could she be mistaken?
Bury your nose in the bedspread and inhale the smell.
“…Uh?”
She could not be mistaken.
As she was familiar with the scent of Starch, she could easily figure out that it was a mix of other, unfamiliar scents.
One person comes to mind.
Elsaine.
She had none but her.
Lily knew what it meant to smell the scent of two lovers in bed.
Moreover, the day before, Stachis, Russ, and Elzain decided to sleep at the base.
“… Ah… Isn’t it?”
It was confirmed through the magic eye that Starchis did not have sex.
At one time, I thought he had an affair with Elza, but
Turns out, it was just Russ’ moaning while masturbating,
Nothing had happened for her to worry about.
But now.
I wasn’t as sure as now.
Then she noticed something odd.
It’s not just Starchis that can’t be seen now.
Russ and Vienne would also have wanted to apologize to him,
They are not even shining a peep.
She shook her head.
It could just be that Elsaine slept alone in this bed.
The reason why the scents of the two mixed together must have been because she slept in Stachis’s bed.
Then a thought found her.
She lifted the blanket.
And on the blanket,
There were traces of red bloodstains.
Just as she blinked her eyes and was about to shake her head,
Visit is open.
Startled, she looked at her door.
I was so distracted that I hadn’t heard anyone enter the base.
There, Bienne and Russ, who had grown emaciated, stood there.
Before even asking how they were doing, Lily couldn’t help but ask.
“…What happened last night?”
I didn’t want to cry, but
Tears ran down my cheeks.
