Chapter 103 – The Core of the Past (3)
Starchis slowly opened his eyes.
When I wipe my eyes, I get a stinky feeling
Tears wipe a little.
He was just ashamed
He feels lonely and cries.
The emotions I felt when I was dreaming
After waking up, I feel light.
Right after that, my thoughts were about the affair with Rose.
She said it was okay, but it was also because of her weakness of her,
He didn’t want a first experience like this.
It was too emotional.
It’s not just sex filled with happy feelings
There was also anger towards Russ in the corner of his head.
I was truly sorry.
“…”
My body was warm.
He turned his head and looked around him.
He fell under the bed.
The blanket and pillow were by his side.
‘Rose..?’
Did Rose do it?
She almost fainted at the end.
It was a rough night.
I felt the warmth of a person under the blanket.
I think it must be Rose
Lift the blanket
A sleeping Russ was in her own arms her.
Starch’s heart drops.
I was also surprised
In this way, Russ, who was difficult to face,
It was because of what I saw.
The scene of his old friend holding his naked body
It is awkward.
If you ask me if my anger is released
Not.
It wasn’t.
But if you ask me if I feel relieved by taking revenge
…Not.
It wasn’t even more
It was disgusting, unpleasant… And only regretful feelings remained.
He checked Russ.
There were dark tear marks from the eyes to the cheeks of his.
How many times I cried
Even when she sleeps, she breathes
He was breathing in irregularly and startingly.
The more I see her like that, the more her heart her becomes heavy.
As the day passes and the anger subsides
Even more so.
Really, yesterday was so emotional.
There was no such thing as this worst revenge.
Knowing what love feels like,
Knowing how Russ feels toward her
I grabbed that feeling and shook it like a weapon.
I did it, but
If I could go back to the previous day, I wouldn’t make the same choice.
Just like you did with Lily.
Control anger,
We should have talked about it later.
“Ha…”
He sighed.
Rose…Appeared to have disappeared.
He treated her badly all night long.
At some point, consciousness is lost
I was beaten like an animal.
Even if it was her taste,
I understand her feelings about her as she must have been resting in a comfortable place.
Had she stayed in the first place, she would have only been more awkward.
Rose’s choice is much cleaner.
There was a feeling that only the two of them shared.
Starchis tried to get himself up.
But when he moves, Russ hugs him.
It was an unconscious act.
The more she
Starchis only felt guilty.
It’s hard to believe and I still regret that I drew the line,
She loves herself, she says.
Love sometimes makes you do crazy things.
Starchis seemed to know now.
Did they do it as a group?
It reminds me of Lily and Russ apologizing.
Why couldn’t I be petty and accept their apology?
…I don’t want to accept an apology just now, but
I know how to act like an adult.
If you think about it, they act
He was more dedicated than anyone else.
Just like how everyone worked hard when they injured their arms
There are many things you did for yourself.
With those looks
-‘Sorry!! I was really wrong..!!’
-‘Please…! I was wrong…! Please forgive…’
I remembered Lily and Russ crying.
I’ll just let out a deep sigh.
Starchis looked around the room.
Judging from the fact that everything in the room was clean except for the bed linen,
And seeing Russ lying next to her,
She seemed to have done this tidying up as well.
He exacted his revenge on her,
She cared for him and still begged for forgiveness.
Did you wait until the end?
Hearing someone you love mingling with someone else
How do you feel?
Starchis thinks with the feeling of reverse.
“… Fuck… “
Cursing came out of nowhere.
He covers his face with both hands.
What the hell have you done?
It was nothing to do as a human being.
Perhaps it will remain as a lifelong trauma for Russ.
To put it bluntly, she was fed up with her own behavior her and ran away, but there was nothing to say.
So dirty and despicable,
It was an act that Starchis would regret for the rest of his life.
Her sorry her towards her covers her anger.
What was Russ thinking when she even finished cleaning up after her?
He carefully removes Russ from his embrace her.
After getting up slowly and coming out of the blanket,
I covered the blanket over Russ, who was soundly asleep.
“Yes…”
She moans in pain
Let’s pull the blanket off
Starchis waits for a while,
The blanket she pulled off was put back up to her neck.
She felt betrayed by her, but
But that does n’t mean that her affection for the past disappears all at once.
But now it was hard to look at her face for a long time.
Put on your tattered clothes again,
I saw it in the corner of my eye before leaving the room
I put on the necklace Rose gave me.
He goes into the kitchen and drinks a glass of water.
Wash away the emotions and thirst of the previous day.
One cup wasn’t enough, so I drank three or four in succession.
Afterwards, she sat down and washed her face dry.
Could it be because of the alcohol?
Was it because of the emotions at the time?
Thinking back, I hurt Russ too much.
Revenge would have been enough otherwise.
At that moment of anger, if the weakness appeared appropriately, it could have been an excuse if it was an excuse for that action.
Thinking that you can gain yourself with weak medicine may also have stimulated you.
The traces of tears from Russ lying next to him flicker.
“Ha…”
Let out a deep sigh,
He walks upstairs.
There are still things to sort out.
“…”
You enter the space where everything happened last night.
The events of the previous night are replayed in my head one after another.
Putting Rose on her shoulder, she dropped
Pick up the candle stand and the burnt out candle.
I hold my breath to pick up the rolling aphrodisiac bottle and throw it away.
He looked around the room once more.
On a table in the corner,
All the birthday presents he received yesterday are lying there.
Lily’s Magic Gloves.
Bien’s Forces.
Even Russ’ wrist guards.
I’ve talked to Lily and Russ.
I was getting it now.
It’s hard to believe, but the fact that they like you.
But what about Vienna?
That’s hard to believe.
Stachis had never looked at Bien that way.
It was as if she had been watching her sister her through the eyes her.
Even when she tickled, I just thought of it as her sister’s complaint to her.
However, many things seem different to the fact that even she has liked her.
When you’ve been making medicine for mana sensitivity,
As expected, I admired her kind heart her.
But it was because of his heart toward himself.
I felt emotions that cannot be expressed in words.
Was she still loved?
I never imagined that her lifelong wish her would be resolved in this way.
“…”
Starchis splits the energy team in half.
He put one in his mouth and sat down on a chair nearby.
And the final gift.
I saw Stion’s letter.
What was Stion trying to convey?
Stachis hesitated even in front of his letter.
Don’t forget, I warned you many times.
It was the first time I had seen something like that, so I must have heard the important information.
A letter is a birthday present.
His heart His is happy, but he is just as afraid.
“After.”
After he took a deep breath
Open the envelope
“… ?”
When I opened it, there was nothing to call it a letter.
It was a note.
A note with two addresses.
Starchis looks at his back his, puzzled.
“What?”
And his expression his crumples.
Doesn’t even unfold
A few short sentences completely ruined his mood.
‘This is the address of my parents’ graves. Come back once.’
Even in the words Stion chooses, there are words for his parents.
Shows no respect whatsoever.
But why do you know that?
“…Why am I doing this?”
I spit it out as a self-talk or as a question for my older brother.
The voice trembles.
He doesn’t even have to think
Tear the letter in half
Chow!
It’s the worst gift ever.
Stion doesn’t seem to understand the concept of a gift.
Stachis thought.
Even when I try to stay still, my heart keeps beating.
Even when you try not to think about it, questions come to mind.
Thoughts of Russ and the other women
Erased for a while
-‘Are the two of them dead?’
Shake your head.
-‘Would you have been happy if you abandoned me?’
My head keeps asking questions.
It’s a childhood trauma, no matter how much I try not to think about it
It doesn’t work out
It was the same even if he threw away his brother’s crumpled letter his.
Starchis continues to get stuck in the past.
Those dark feelings return,
Memories of that time are vivid.
The more I hated my parents.
Why did Stion give me this?
They must have hated their parents with a united heart.
But why do we know this information?
Unwittingly digging up their information
It seemed that he knew the location of the tomb as well.
Could Stion have been watching them for a long time?
Did you have a conversation?
…Did they not regret abandoning us?
For each question, Starches
Thinking for a long time
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Starchis still sitting in his chair
Snapping his fingers
Worrying
A lot of time has passed.
He doesn’t even hear someone approaching.
“… Is it Chis?”
A friend’s voice wakes him up.
He escapes from contemplation.
Russ swollen eyes
She looks at him with the blanket wrapped around her.
Starchis turned his head.
I’m not angry yet
I felt more sorry.
I was ashamed and couldn’t see her face.
How the hell is she coming to him
I couldn’t tell.
Like she said, she knew that her heart her towards him was sincere.
Realize more and more
If it wasn’t for pure love
I wouldn’t have been able to come and talk to you now.
“…”
When he didn’t answer
Russ flinched on the spot.
I was contemplating whether or not to approach him.
She took a deep breath in her heart
She started approaching him.
He looks different
He mingled with another woman
It looks different.
It’s scary that you feel like you’ve left yourself.
It feels so far away.
She watches his reaction carefully.
Approached very slowly.
If he’s offended by anything
It was my intention to turn back.
But until she gets to the end
He turned his head,
He makes no response.
The anger seemed to have calmed down much more than yesterday.
Russ was more than happy with that.
He sees another woman now
Does not matter.
He doesn’t hate himself.
It’s okay if you don’t give me love
Just don’t tell them to fall and go away.
I just need to be able to hang around her.
Russ approaches him
She puts down the blanket.
She and she slowly knelt down in front of him.
Starchis clenched his fists.
I have to apologize for yesterday’s revenge
It’s him, but Russ still apologizes.
“…Chis, I’m sorry..”
He whispers as she crawls.
“…”
She opens her mouth
She can’t find anything to say
What should I say?
What should I say so that he doesn’t hate me anymore?
I didn’t know well.
“…”
In the end, deep in the heart
Delivered a word
Come to think of it, words I’ve never said before.
It should always have been the first thing to say.
That’s too late.
“I love you.”
