Chapter 126 – Always His Portion (7)
“What about the party members?”
Starchis set down his glass and wiped his mouth.
Strangely, the beer tasted bitter today.
“…”
Starchis remembered what happened with Lily the night before.
If it was long, it was a long night, if it was short, it was a short night.
He came to see his brother because this bothered him too.
If it was in front of Stion, he didn’t have to wear a mask.
Back then he pretended to be strong.
Boldly. Without panicking.
At the words of an eternal parting so sudden,
He closed his emotions.
He knew that if he broke the party he wouldn’t be seen often,
He didn’t think it would last forever.
Occasionally, he thought that when he had time, he would occasionally meet him and ask how he was doing, reminiscing about the past.
I decided to break the party not because I didn’t want to see them.
He didn’t have to risk his life where there was no will, so he was trying to break.
However, the cost was greater than Stachis expected.
A complete breakup with Lily.
If Vien decides to become a saint, she may as well be Vien.
“…Ha…”
Stachis didn’t answer the question, sighed and looked at his scars.
She recalled vividly the time when Lily had her own arm repaired with the materials she had received from her master her.
He did not know that she was her material, which she had risked all of herself.
I kept seeing traces of her love her.
And how many more are hidden?
‘That’s not love.’
He echoed her words as they came out of her own mouth her.
He would have made the right choice.
Starchis’ own feelings aside,
Her feelings of her and circumstances of her at the time made it impossible for her to be hugged.
Lily was in despair.
It was as if she had abandoned herself.
Even if she was hugged, she would have left a bitter aftertaste like what she said back then.
Starchis slowly stepped on his memory of her.
Lily’s crying face lingered.
“…After..”
Then we said goodbye.
She was right about it.
What the hell are you talking about there?
No matter how much she thought about it, she had nothing else to say to her.
She said she had to choose herself and not go away.
She’ll love you so don’t go away?
That doesn’t make any sense.
That is to be just like her father her.
As long as you choose Rose,
She can’t even love Lily.
I shut off the negative emotions that flooded in.
Because I couldn’t have said anything else anyway.
It was a shock to see her go,
I couldn’t show it off in front of her.
So calmly, I said goodbye.
Even the emotions I had been angry with had disappeared in embarrassment, but I pretended nothing was wrong.
Stion’s arm touches Stachis’ arm.
“..Starches? What are you thinking about.”
“Uh?”
“What are the party members going to do?”
“..Ah.”
While reminiscing, I forgot the older brother in front of me for a while.
The question itself was also difficult.
It was difficult for him to decide, so he came to Stion.
The things to be done were clearly stated like an answer sheet.
Disband the party, and they have to live on their own.
It is so clear that Starchis announced to the people gathered at the church to disband and came out.
But he seemed to speak
…Thinking of Lily’s face, Vien’s face, and Russ’ face, my heart felt tight.
“…You don’t know too well, do you?”
“…Ha…”
“Starches.”
“Do you have more drinks?”
“Are you here for this?”
“…”
Starchis rattled his empty glass.
His head his was so complicated that he couldn’t keep his hands still.
Stion looked at his glass and said.
“…Wait. I’ll bring some more. In the meantime, clear your head.”
Stion picked up the glass from Stachis’ hand and stood up.
After drinking the remaining beer in his glass, he left his room.
While he went to get his drink, Starchis cleared his head once more.
It was not a long time.
Stion reappears shortly after refilling his glass his.
“Now, here.”
Taking the refilled glass, he looked at his brother.
It was time to be honest without hiding anything.
“Therefore? Are the party members worried?”
“Right.”
“What’s wrong?”
Starchis let out a big sigh and put his head down.
“Ha… Brother.”
“…”
“My party members… They all said they liked me.”
“I did. I know. These days, it shows a lot.”
“But you know what? It was all because of me… That I became a gatherer. He was at this party because he wanted to be loved by me. I never wanted an A-grade party.”
“…Therefore?”
“Brother, I… Don’t want to be like my father. I don’t want to go around poking at this woman and that woman. Now my party members have their goals, but I can’t fulfill their goals.”
“…”
“I will only love one person, but what about the rest? Do you have to risk your life to become a gatherer for a purpose you just can’t achieve? Isn’t that too dangerous and stupid? Should I watch it? And then someone gets hurt… It’s impossible not to feel responsible for yourself. It’s a dungeon that comes in because of me…”
You don’t even have to look far.
Just thinking about their last act almost killed both Lily and Stachis falling off the cliff.
It’s not just about them,
Even the party of Reckd, a veteran B-class gatherer, was very dangerous.
As such, collecting activities were risky.
You never know when you’ll lose your life in an instant.
Stion listened to him without speaking.
Sometimes I nod my head,
Sometimes I even drank beer.
“Leaving aside my loss of enthusiasm… I don’t understand why my party members enter dungeons… ”
“…Okay. There is nothing wrong. But why are you worrying? I am so sure.”
“Hyung, I saw you in front of the dungeon today, so you know?”
Stion recalls the moment he came out of the dungeon.
A large number of people came to mind.
“…That saintess?”
“Bien.”
“Why is she… Come to think of it, if you disband, you can just be a saint.”
“Ah… I mean I hate it.”
Starchis pressed his eyelids as he spoke.
This is something I couldn’t show off in front of Bien as the parting was approaching.
His head hurt so badly that he fell down.
“She wouldn’t like to work as a saintess?”
“…I don’t like meeting people. Unless the kids.”
“…”
“… Again, Lily noona. You have a wizard.”
“The kid in the cave with you?”
“That sister… Sacrificed herself to fix my arm.”
“…What are you talking about.”
“They said they made a bet to get the materials they used when their arm was healed. If you get my choice, there’s no problem… If you don’t get my choice, you’ll have to live like a slave from now on…”
“…Huh..”
Stion then crossed his arms and leaned against his backrest.
He closes his eyes faintly and falls into trouble.
“…”
“…”
There was silence for a while.
It was very quiet as the two did not speak.
The entire Ade building seemed to be under a silencing spell.
Stion didn’t say anything easily.
It was a difficult and careful matter for him as well.
The two did not speak, so they sipped their drinks.
It was only two beers to drink on an empty stomach, but it seemed like I was getting drunk.
“Russ.”
It was Stion who broke the silence where only the sound of the beer going down could be heard.
“Russ why?”
“What about Russ?”
“…”
Russ… He’s the one who followed him.
He gave up his job as a kingdom guard and came to work as a gatherer.
Of course, the reason was Starchis himself, but…
She was the one she followed though.
“I haven’t talked to you yet. My head is complicated.”
“…”
Then Starchis asked on the contrary.
“But why Russ?”
“..No. What…”
Stion washes his face dry.
She pushed the beer glass to the center of the table.
It seemed like he didn’t want to eat anymore.
“… I’m leaving today, and Russ says he’s worried about you. Did you see how Fioren asked after Russ earlier?”
“…”
“How long are you going to keep lying about having a girlfriend when the party is already ending?”
“I already told you.”
“You don’t have a girlfriend?”
“Uh.”
“…”
Stion got on his knees and stood up.
She moves slowly and looks around her room her.
And as if passing by, I checked.
“…You said you don’t have a girlfriend?”
“Okay.”
“Didn’t you say anything?”
“Now that doesn’t matter.”
“Right. Right.”
“…”
Sion, who was showing her her back her, only turns her head.
“What do you think Russ?”
“What?”
Stion then scratched her head.
“Sorry. Did you get drunk? It’s none of my concern.”
“…”
“…But if you miss Russ, I’ll regret it.”
“Uh?”
“… I don’t have to talk about lovers. Just… Just being by your side.”
“…”
“Under. But I get your point. I always said that life is the most important thing It’s not like collecting days are a joke. What about quitting?”
“…”
“I can’t give you any advice, Stachis. This is too difficult for me.”
“Ha…”
When Stion can’t answer, Stachis’ heart continues to grow heavy.
I was about to dump all the beer to wash away my stuffy mind… He, like Stion, pushed the beer glass to the center of the table.
I was afraid to get drunk even more because I felt so uncomfortable.
Stion continued.
As much as he was concerned, he was sincere.
“…Worry a lot. Let’s make a choice that will make us happy.”
