Chapter 104 – The Core of the Past (4)
“…”
What kind of feelings do Starches feel right now?
Can’t make a decision
The day before, there was only anger.
Whatever comes out of her mouth
I was angry.
Now that I have let go of my anger and even took revenge,
I don’t feel the emotion of anger now
I felt many emotions hidden in anger.
“..I really love you..”
She says, trembling in her voice her.
“…Stand up.”
Starchis answers.
Accepting an apology or accepting love
Don’t talk
It’s just a matter of standing up.
Russ shook her head.
“It’s the year I’m going to kill. Sorry sorry…”
“Russ. Stand up.”
Starchis turned her head and looked Russ in the eye.
Look up
The two eyes exchange gaze.
In the morning, through the exchange of gaze,
Emotions are so different.
Russ can’t disobey Starchis’ words.
Slowly bend her knees and stand up.
She awaits the word of his sentence her.
“…”
“…”
“… I’m sorry too.”
Starchis apologizes.
First of all, I have to convey these words
Seemed to do
“Huh..”
Russ purses her lips and she bursts into tears.
Last night was so painful.
It was too hard to bear.
There is not even a formal ‘It’s okay’ following the word ‘I’m sorry.’
It was too much. It was too much.
It felt like her heart would break.
I wanted to cry in Starches arms.
But she knows she doesn’t deserve it.
He did one thing too much,
He did more of what he did.
At least Russ thought so.
Stachis was the opposite.
She thinks what she did was worse.
Incomparably, she has done despicable things.
“Uhhhhh..! Hhhhh?
Russ tries to hold back her tears
I can’t stand it.
Without covering her face
With only her lips biting and her eyes fixed on Starchis
Sniffles like a child
When he says he’s sorry, she feels sorry for him
A sense of relief for no reason,
Her self-confidence comes like a tidal wave.
“… For now, Russ. Let’s talk later.”
This work takes time.
We need to calm each other down.
I should have said this yesterday.
As with Lily,
She should have acted like this.
Russ nodded at her, holding back her tears.
The two exchange glances.
Starchis looked at Russ’ dry lips of hers.
Look at each other like that
Russ turned her around first and started to leave.
The girl who turned her back on Starchis
She walks away, wiping her eyes.
Starchis should speak or not
I’m worried.
Eventually, she decides to speak up.
“… Drink a glass of water downstairs and go.”
How many times have you cried
My eyes are swollen and the tear marks are clear
Lips are drying up.
Is she the one who cried
I have no right to worry about her,
I don’t care if she doesn’t deserve it.
It’s okay to be selfish and hypocritical.
It was just a word I wanted to pass on.
“Huh!
Russ’ cries intensify.
She nodded her head with her money back
She left the restaurant.
****
“Is the bachelor here?”
Starchis returns to the inn.
The inn lady greeted him.
For some reason, it felt like I hadn’t seen him in a long time.
“Came.”
“Um… Are you worried about something, bachelor?”
“Yes?”
“Your face is emaciated.”
“…No.”
“…Okay?”
The inn lady notices her strangeness
She didn’t ask anymore.
She asks with a nice smile.
“Do you want to eat? I’ll make it delicious.”
“My heart is grateful. But right now I have no idea.”
“Okay. Go up and rest Can you tell me when you’re hungry?”
“All right.”
Starchis goes up to the room.
He opens the door, goes in and throws himself on the bed.
I keep hearing the cries of Russ and Lily.
My heart is pounding.
There were so many things to think about.
Happy until yesterday
He was only thinking of partying.
Congratulations on the new base,
Congratulations on the B-class party,
Congratulations on getting better,
He was about to celebrate his own birthday his.
After that, it’s a mess.
His head is complicated by learning the inconvenient truth.
What emotions do you feel when anger passes?
It’s still hard to realize.
Besides, a gift from my brother.
A story about parents.
That’s as much as the feelings of Lily, Vienne, and Russ.
It’s on his mind.
I tore up the letter and threw away the address.
I shouldn’t have regrets anymore
That thought keeps coming around.
Why did the older brother ask me to go see the dead?
I don’t even want to see
He’s already dead
What do you ask the dead people for?
I don’t know what emotions you want to feel.
Are you making fun of them?
Is it to spread a curse?
With the feelings I feel right now, there is nothing else to do.
The Starchis hated him throughout his life
There are no people.
I wonder why Stion made such a suggestion.
Why does Stion know their tomb?
Ask yourself the unanswered question again.
This has no answer
Starchis stood up.
He seemed to have to go see his brother.
Depending on the answer
He even finishes preparing for a big fight with him.
****
“Did Starches come?”
Let’s go to the base of the Ade Party
Seira, the manager, greets you.
“What about your sister or brother?”
“I haven’t gone to work yet. Are you coming soon?”
Inside the base, the spearman Fioren also approached.
“Are you here?”
“Do you know when your brother is coming?”
“I don’t know. But Starchis?”
“Yes?”
Fioren asks with a smile.
“What about Russ?”
Starchis looked at Fioren.
Russ gains experience at an ade party
She seemed to have a lot of friends with them.
Knowing Russ’ mind
Stachis understands the meaning of Fioren’s question.
Fioren already knows Russ’ heart.
The only thing she didn’t know about Russ was herself.
She was stupid
She just trusted the line they drew.
But I guess it was too obvious for others to see.
“…I don’t know.”
Starchis answers.
She is still judging her feelings towards them.
When the emotions subside a little more, it’s time to think about it slowly.
Now I have to bury it in her chest a little longer.
“Did something happen?”
“Sister, later.”
When Skewer Fioren asks,
Starchis lines her and cuts them off.
Fioren shrugged her shoulders
She sits back in her chair.
– Kik.
The door opens.
“Saira~ I’m here!”
As always, Stion comes in.
Starchis looked at his brother his.
Okay.
If you gave me a letter like that and didn’t come today
That is absolutely nonsensical.
Stion looked at Stachis.
“…I thought you’d come.”
****
Lily is wiping away her tears in her room.
Whether her master sees her or not
Crying no matter what
This is her now
‘I was dumped by Starchis.’
Even though it conveys the meaning of
She doesn’t stop
It made no sense to hold back the tears in the first place.
“Stop your tears, Lily.”
Master says.
“It’s just a momentary feeling.”
Lily ignores her.
The teacher’s words that make fun of emotions
I had no intention of accepting it.
“I knew things would turn out like this. Didn’t I say that hypnosis is not omnipotent?”
“…Huh…Huh…”
“I should have been a little more ruthless. If it were me, I wouldn’t have chosen the means and methods even more.”
“Stop..! Please stop…!”
Lily wanted to be alone for this moment.
It reminds me of the moment Starchis was angry and disappointed in himself.
His terrifying smile his that seemed relieved and without regret
Her expression haunts her.
Her heart aches and she is nervous.
What if he really pushed himself away?
She never thought of a future like this.
Her future was always with him.
I didn’t think of myself without him.
But whatever you think now
There is no him in her own future.
Remember his voice
-‘… Did you play with me?’
“No!!”
Lily exclaims.
With or without a teacher, the sincerity she is saying now
I shout with the heart that I want it to be delivered.
-‘Why do you hurt me unnecessarily…’
“Ahhh…!”
I remember his wounded expression of her.
His heart His still ached.
He was wounded
Because of himself, he was hurt.
In Lily’s ear her, who had been crying for a long time
Master’s voice echoes.
“… It hurts my heart to see you cry, child.”
Lily looks up at her master her.
Her tears flow endlessly.
If she’s given her way, she does.
If she tells Starchis how to apologize, she does.
But the Master speaks coldly.
“… Even so. Didn’t you lose the bet?”
“…Yes?”
Lily catches her breath.
“You promised to follow me if he pushed you away.”
Master speaks coldly.
Am I really falling for him now?
Lily’s heart aches as if it will break.
Can’t you see him anymore?
“A promise is a promise, Lily.”
Lily shook her head vigorously.
He didn’t even apologize properly.
We can’t part like this now.
He didn’t push himself.
He said let’s talk next time.
He hadn’t told me to quit yet.
I was driven to the edge of a precipice, but
He didn’t fall
Even if it’s ugly and soggy
She has to
She has to drop all her pride to her and apologize to him.
This cannot be my last memory with him.
In a few days, he will get sick in his heart and die.
To the one person I loved
With only the memories of hurting and ending
Can’t live a lifetime
It was still.
It was still.
