Chapter 254 – Snowflakes Are Dyed Black.
Does the sky represent my state of mind?
Early moning.
Having trouble sleeping, I woke up rubbing my eyes at the sound of thunder.
What time is it. Now…
Stretching out my arms, I fumbled on the bed to find my phone and check the time.
[06:52]
It was still too early to go to school.
“Ha…”
I tried to close my eyes again, but I couldn’t fall asleep, so I decided to wake up and take a shower.
-Shuaaaaa
Whenever I drenched myself in warm water, I always felt good and tired, but today even this didn’t seem to melt my heart.
“…You can do it.”
A fairly weak self-talk.
Yesterday’s can and today’s can are pointing in completely opposite directions.
If what I needed when I visited Nayeon’s house was the courage to commit, the courage I needed today was the courage to rectify what I had done.
The cost of failure was devastating.
Ah… It’s the first semester of the first year, but taking a leave of absence…
I don’t even know what to say to my mother.
I was just going to say that it was too difficult to adjust to school life, but that would not sound very persuasive.
It was because it hadn’t even been a week since I called to say that I was enjoying school and that I was getting along well with the kids.
After showering and drying my hair, I opened the refrigerator and looked inside.
Like any other male self-employed student, the inside of the empty refrigerator.
I gulped down the milk I had bought for cereal.
“Haa… I’ll just have to go to school early.”
I felt like I would get more depressed if I just stayed in a room with no one around, so I put on just about anything and took an umbrella and went out the front door.
The sound of the rain seemed twice as loud as when I heard it inside.
It takes about 15 minutes to walk to school.
There were days when I took the bus on a rainy day, but today I thought that this unpleasant dampness suits me well, so I walked.
The whole world just seemed gloomy.
I felt like I was twice as depressed as when Nayeon kicked me for the first time.
Even when I just confessed, I thought I had a lot of courage, but yesterday’s action was because I wrought courage by putting my soul into it.
But it really failed unreasonably and ran away ugly…
In the meantime, I thought that the ending where I left my wallet was perfect.
You run the extreme of ugliness. Jaehyuk Choi.
It was so hard for me to comfort myself.
Arriving at school with my shoulders and shoes damp, I folded my umbrella.
I was going to go to the cafe and sit down, then go straight to the department office and say I’m applying for a leave of absence…
Ah. I don’t have a wallet
Not many places welcome people without money.
In the end, I settled down in an unreasonable rest area on the 3rd floor and started reading the webtoon I hadn’t read on my phone.
It was a webtoon that I thought I had fun with before, but now I just didn’t find it interesting at all.
After somehow passing an hour or so, as soon as 9 o’clock struck, I knocked on the door and went inside.
“Hello.”
“Yes. Hello.”
I don’t have a personal relationship, but I talked to the assistant who was familiar with the face.
“I… I want to apply for a leave of absence…”
“What grade are you by any chance…?”
“Ah. I am a freshman.”
“Have you consulted with your advisor?”
“Ah… Do I need to seek counseling?”
I thought I could just go and do it.
It seemed that even giving up on me required a procedure.
“Yes. You have to come after an interview with your advisor, so if you need it, visit the office once and we’ll take care of it.”
…Go and say something. Me.
[I tried to rape the motive I liked, but I failed and ran away, unable to overcome the shame and taking a leave of absence.]
I thought it was a solid explanation that only listed really objective facts, but I didn’t dare to say this at all.
Even my advisor was a professor who was famous for having a bad temper in the department.
I wonder if my seniors told me to avoid that professor’s lecture.
But when I say this, at once I’m like, ‘Oh. I see Take a leave of absence.’ I think he will tell you.
To the teaching assistant, the number and e-mail of the advisor. Having received the office number, I began to write an appeal letter for consultation.
It was a case by case, and I had never done it before, so I was confused about how to send a text message at a time like this.
[Hello. Professor. My name is Choi Jae-hyeok, a freshman. I want to apply for a leave of absence…]
Is this the right way to do it? Is not it? Are there other forms?
I was sitting at the table in front of the cafeteria on the 1st floor of the College of Business Administration, writing and deleting complaints over and over again…
What. Why is it so dark
A sudden shadow.
I raise my head because something seems to be blocking the light…
“Hi?”
It wasn’t a familiar scent, but it was a familiar scent.
No. Rather, it would have been strange to forget.
That’s right… That smell was just the scent of flowers I was intoxicated with yesterday.
“…Ah.”
A somewhat bewildered sound came out of my mouth like a monster that had lost its language.
Nayeon greeted me calmly as if nothing had happened.
No. Rather, it felt like he was welcoming me warmer than usual.
“Looks like you’re using your cell phone… Didn’t you see my text messages?”
A cold feeling runs down your spine.
“Ah… Sorry. I wasn’t in a good mood…”
It was gibberish itself.
The feeling that the thought circuit has stopped.
I felt like I didn’t even know what I was talking about.
“Huh~ Yeah…?”
– Dripping
Nayeon brought the chair next to me and sat down next to me.
Her hand wraps around my hand holding the phone.
“…Uh?”
I wasn’t immune to the sudden skinship, so I was so surprised at the moment that my hands gave out.
Nayeon confiscates her phone as if she was aiming for this.
Before I could ask for it to be returned, Nayeon quickly scanned the sentence on the screen.
Nayeon’s eyes turn wild when she notices my plan to take a leave of absence.
“Jaehyuk.”
“Huh?”
“Why are you taking a leave of absence?”
My legs are trembling.
I want to run away.
I really want to run away.
“That… That…”
It was just as I was about to answer.
Nayeon, who lifted her upper body, put her own hand to her ear.
“You didn’t want to take a leave of absence without taking any responsibility because you didn’t know me after doing that, didn’t you?”
Having been stabbed to the point, I hardened as if I had been hit by freezing magic.
“Do you really think taking a leave of absence from here will solve the problem? Wake. If I say one word, your college isn’t the problem, your life is over. Know?”
-Gulp
Saliva goes down the throat
His pupils moved quickly to see if someone was listening to this conversation.
After that, Nayeon let go of my ear and gave me a pretty smile that made it hard to believe that she had threatened her just before.
“Jaehyuk.”
“Uh…?”
“Don’t do that, go to school with me.”
A sweet voice added to the confusion.
Are you saying Nayeon wants me to go to school now?
She couldn’t read her thoughts at all.
What the hell is she expecting from me?
“Answer.”
Nayeon’s expression hardened coldly as I stared at her with her devastated face.
“Ah. Huh. I’ll go.”
How can I resist her here when she says she is ending her life.
One corner of her mouth went up.
“Jaehyuk.”
“Huh.”
It would have been better if I just told the main point, but Nayeon kept calling my name and making me nervous.
“Do you still like me?”
It could be seen as a romantic line that could come out of a movie, but it wasn’t for me now.
I felt eerie when she said that, but at the same time, I thought that her smiling face was so pretty that her heart was pickled.
“…Huh.”
It was true that I liked it.
Confession last time. All of that happening yesterday.
It was all because I liked Nayeon.
“I know that? That yesterday was my first time?”
First. Then yesterday was Nayeon’s first…
The more I thought about it, the more I felt that my brows were twisting.
“I was in a lot of trouble because you went away like that yesterday. Ehehe.”
Nayeon’s hand sweeps my thigh from top to bottom.
I didn’t know where to put my eyes on her, so I fixed my gaze on her desk, ignoring her as she struggled to get closer.
“Wallet. I left it you.”
Nayeon whispered in a low voice as if it was a secret.
At the word wallet, I had to listen to her in silence.
Anyway, I have to get my wallet back.
All of the items inside were essential items.
“Nine o’clock tonight. Come back to my house.”
It was exactly the same time I went to visit her last night.
“I need to find my wallet. Is not it?”
I nodded at her words.
– Dripping
Nayeon got up from her chair.
I tried to take a breather to see if this was going on…
“You know you shouldn’t make mistakes today, right?”
Nayeon whispered in my ear and kissed my ear briefly.
