Chapter 282 – (Abduction) How Are You, Bitch?
The image is blurry.
The husband’s face, who had said something shocking to me, spreads again and again with the water around her eyes… The shape becomes blurred.
It’s like pouring water on a dry painting.
The shape of the husband I knew is scattered, spreads in all directions, and becomes disheveled.
My dear darling loses her form.
Okay. After all, this is all because of me.
Those days when I succumbed to Mr. Choi and lived in a twisted desire.
I was the worst wife who sold, abused, and harassed my husband, and used it to satisfy my lust.
The act drove her husband mad and lost his sense of self, and he came to regard everything as a dream.
However, the reason he was able to endure even in such a worst nightmare was because there was Sung-ah pretending to be the me of the past.
That kind-hearted child… The good child who looked just like her husband, didn’t let go of him and kept looking at him… Giving him the strength to endure even while playing me.
So my husband was able to endure those hellish days.
In a terrible nightmare, I was able to lean on a small support called Seong-ah.
“Everything…It’s all because of me…Everything…”
My most precious person
The person who always supported me there and looked at me.
An indispensable, very precious person to me.
I betrayed that person, and eventually made him change.
He, who thought he would never change, ended up having a wrong desire.
In the end, he ended up becoming a person with twisted desires like me.
“It must have been… Shocking. But this is my honest feeling.”
A husband who calmly conveys his sincerity.
He said he saw Seong-ah while hugging me. The husband who says she misses the child’s warm embrace.
Said the husband.
“Okay. Crazy shit But I think about it several times a day. The hardest time… The time when he was comforted by the child and felt alive… Excitement keeps coming up when I think of that time. Even with this age, my erections do not subside. I keep thinking that I want to be comforted by my precious daughter once again. I will never forget the time when I poured mine into that child.”
…Everything, everything is my fault in the end.
Because I abandoned him… My husband has changed.
My filth, tainted by corruption and lust, was buried by my husband.
“Honey. I know he’ll be very surprised. But I just want to consult with you. Just because you have this kind of desire doesn’t mean that your self-control is gone. It’s just my personal desire, I don’t want to hurt Sungmin and Sungah.”
“…”
However, the reason why her husband honestly revealed his desire was not because he wanted to realize it.
It was a story that came up to discuss with me in order to solve it correctly.
“That’s not what I want to do with Seong-a. I brought it up to tell you everything honestly and to find a solution.”
…The wrong desire to lust after one’s children.
In the end, my husband was in the same position as me.
He also wanted to resolve this desire and go back to the past.
“So be honest with me too. I am ready to accept.”
A husband who wants me to tell you my secret as much as he told me his big secret.
I brought out a secret I had kept calmly, hoping he wouldn’t be hurt.
“…I am just like you. I’m lusting after Seongmin…”
“…”
However, the expression on her husband’s face after hearing the truth… Was as if he had heard an unexpected answer.
He looked at me with a blank face, as if he had heard a completely unexpected answer.
“…Seongmin? The person you lust after is… Seongmin?”
“…Huh.”
“I thought it was Mr. Choi…”
Husband at a loss for words.
Apparently, I thought that the object of my lust was… Mr. Choi.
After a long silence, he looked me in the eyes and said.
“Then why you left and why you traveled around the country with me like this, is it all because of that desire? Because of the desire that you are lusting after Seong-min…?”
“…Huh. With you… I want to undo everything. Just like when we were dating, I thought everything would come back when I was with you… So I decided to go on a trip…”
“…”
Husband takes a moment to organize his thoughts.
Then he said
“You still haven’t figured it out? For a year… Even though you were with me.”
“…”
How should I speak out?
I am so afraid that my answer will hurt my husband.
I am so afraid that he will leave me after hearing my answer… That he will feel entitled to himself.
“Hey, honey… I think we can fix it. I-, when I’m with you-“
“I thought it was Mr. Choi.”
At that time, my husband intercepts my words and conveys his thoughts.
Then he raised the corner of his mouth bitterly and said.
“I thought the person you lusted after… Was Mr. Choi. If it was that bastard, I’d be able to work it out somehow.”
“…”
“But if it’s Sungmin, I can’t do anything about it. If it’s Mr. Choi’s bastard… I somehow…”
…Husband clenches his fists while talking behind his back.
Apparently, my husband thought he could correct my wrong lust.
I’m not sure what the method was, but it seems that he tried to undo everything that way.
So he must have been honest about his desire…
“It’s a mess. You lust after the son, and I lust after the daughter.”
A certain certainty in her husband’s eyes was gone.
It felt as if some of his thoughts, which he thought were a solution, were fleeting.
It seems that he prepared something diligently in his own way to reverse everything, but it all seemed meaningless the moment I spit out the wrong answer.
“Honey.”
Then, my husband called me with an infinitely cold voice.
His shoulders trembled at the chill.
I carefully looked up at my husband.
“Let’s spend some time with each other. I need time to organize my thoughts.”
“…”
The accident was stiff.
My mind wandered and my focus blurred.
“Muh, what are you talking about… Time… Let’s take it.”
“In this state… Traveling is hard. I need time to organize my thoughts.”
“Oh no, honey. It’s okay, it’s okay. I’ll do better. Huh? I can solve it. If we stay together like we used to…!”
“Previous?”
At that time, my husband looked at me with cold eyes.
My heart was throbbing-thumping-thumb.
My heart breaks when I see his expression for the first time.
“You, lusting after your son, and I, lusting after your daughter, can go back to the past?”
“…”
It’s crumbling
Because of my wrong desire, he, my nest and shelter, is crumbling.
He who always gave me a warm smile is moving away.
“…Frankly, I don’t understand you. Why are you Sungmin? Even if I became like this because of the memory of being comforted by Seong-a, why are you?”
“…That, that’s… Hey, honey…”
“I thought that if I resolved your desires and returned them to their former selves… Everything would return. I… What I miss is the old you. Because it’s your old self that Sung-ah played.”
“…”
“But now I don’t know. What should I do…”
What do we do.
What should I do?
How can I get my husband back…
“Let’s stay away for a while. I need some alone time.”
“Heh… Heh… Honey… I’m sorry. Because of me…”
“It’s okay. Don’t cry. Crying won’t solve anything.”
A very strange look.
Husband getting out of bed and getting dressed.
He said while wearing his pants.
“Honestly… I am so angry. How long will you be like this? I want to go back to normal somehow, so I adjust everything to you.”
“…”
“I am so tired now. There are limits to accepting you. If you still have a fuck and Mr. Choi’s regret, it’s going to be somehow by showing the cubs. Why are you Sungmin? Why!”
It was the first time.
What he yelled at me.
The expression on the husband’s face is so unfamiliar.
“Do it in moderation. You accepted everything. You just decided to ask everything. I will ask you all about what you have done to our family…”
Husband talking behind his back.
Then, the husband throws a nearby object on the ground.
“Fuck! Fuck the dog! Why! Why are you all the way!”
…That was a mistake.
It should have been hidden until the end.
I shouldn’t have told my husband.
If only I knew it would be like this…
“Ha…Ha… You… Do you know what they call a girl like you? Fuck, what the world calls a woman like you…!”
My heart… My heart felt like it was about to explode.
My heart felt like it would explode when I saw that gentle and kind husband so angry.
It was so painful that it was difficult to breathe.
“Like you… Like that…”
A husband who can’t bear to talk behind his back and lowers his head.
After a while, my husband put on his coat and told me.
“I will contact you later. I wish I hadn’t contacted you before then. Don’t even come to me.”
“Huhhhhh, honey… I was wrong. I, I was all wrong Sorry!”
“I’ll go.”
“Honey!”
Can not be done.
Looking at him like this, everything seemed to collapse.
I jumped off the bed and knelt down in front of him.
“Sorry! I was all wrong! Huh? Think again, just once…”
I begged for his two hands.
She servilely clung to her husband and begged and begged.
-Months. Months. Months. Months.
“I will do better! I’ll do anything you ask me to do! I only have you I can’t be without you…”
Caught her husband’s leg.
He didn’t care if he was covered in tears like a child, or if his nose dripped.
I can’t be without this person.
“… Let go.”
But.
But her husband’s heart has already left.
She only showed a cold expression she had never shown before.
Now the man I knew… Is no more.
“…”
Slowly … His hand was relaxed.
My last strength in holding him was gone.
His hand fell to the floor without resistance.
My love turned its back on me.
– Beep… Beep… Beok…
And, as it were, proceeded toward the door.
Leaving me alone in this empty room, I head towards the exit.
– Knocked up.
Put on your shoes and open the door.
I look at his blurry back.
Soon, thump! A sound is heard and the door closes.
I sit down on the floor in a shabby naked body, just staring at the front door he opened and left by himself.
“…Sorry…”
Like that, he who seemed like he would never change left.
After that, he didn’t contact me once for a month.
***
“Master. It looks like something went wrong.”
The day after Jung Hyun-jae left.
Jeong Seong-min hears a report from his subordinate that Jung Hyun-jae has left the motel, leaving Lee Shin-ah alone.
Jeongmin’s expression hardened.
“The reason is?”
“…Looking at the picture here, my father’s expression looks quite angry. Maybe you didn’t fight…”
Jeong Seong-min looked at some of the photos his subordinate handed him over.
He said, rubbing his forehead.
“Look out.”
“…Yes.”
Vacant load.
Jeong Seong-min trembled with his hand and brought the whiskey next to him to pour.
Now that he has become accustomed to drinking in broad daylight, he takes a shot of whiskey and bangs the glass! Put it down
“I think I’m going crazy.”
When Lee Shin-a returns to her home, her family accepts her.
I thought everything was resolved.
I thought the only thing left to do was to be happy.
However, incidents do not stop happening.
– Ugh…
Then, a vibration echoed from inside the pocket.
Jung Sung-min took out his phone and looked at the caller.
It was Elena.
-It’s sweet.
“Uh. Honey.”
It is already Jung Sung-min’s heart like a desert, but he imitated a friendly voice with all his might.
In response, Elena spoke in a hasty voice.
“Honey, are you very busy?”
“No. It’s time to talk.”
“Yes. Nothing else, our Yerin is there.”
“Uh.”
“Maybe he is a genius?”
“…Haha. Why?”
“Well, are you already able to read Korean clearly? It took me a while to learn too, but it’s not normal for a child to have better pronunciation than me. I asked one of your subordinates, and he said it might be a good idea to look into a gifted school!”
Jeongmin thought.
You can read Hangeul at the age of 4 at the earliest, and you are the only one who can’t understand Hangeul.
And the gifted school is just flattering.
But-
“Okay. She is also our daughter.”
Jeong Seong-min matched Elena’s mood.
She didn’t want to hurt her innocence.
“Hi-Hi. Go look like you. You’re tall, you have a great body, you’re handsome, you’re smart, you’re fucking charismatic, you’ve got a big cock, you’ve got sex—”
“Honey.”
“Huh?”
“I can’t use such sublime words in Korea.”
“…Yes.”
“You’re not supposed to be sleeping in front of Yerin, are you?”
“…”
“Right?”
“…Everything, of course!”
Judging from the ambiguous answer, it seems that he just spit it out without a filter.
Jung Sung-min smiled and said to Elena.
“I guess I have to go to work anyway.”
“Yes. When you have free time, come see Yerin. He wants to see Dad.”
“Haha. Okay.”
“Yeah, then I can hear you after work. I love you♥”
“Me too.”
-Beep.
Jeong Seong-min, who was talking on the phone with a soft smile.
However, that faint smile gradually faded away.
Jung Sung-min poured the whiskey into the glass again and drank it in one shot.
Then, with an expressionless face, he gazed at a point in the air for a long time.
Slowly, slowly, the image of Lee Ha-young, who had bid her last farewell to herself, shimmered.
He recalled her with no news from her until a year had passed.
– Squeak…
Jeong Seong-min poured whiskey.
***
“Khehehe. It feels like this.”
Dark room.
Lee Ha-young, who was staring blankly into the air and swallowing soju with her bare feet, muttered that.
She was squatting on a bed in this cramped one-room, drinking her soju, remembering the splendid moment with Jeong Seong-min.
“For my mother, this is how it felt.”
At the time, he had only guessed.
She could only guess what kind of sadness and pain she must have felt when she had to forget someone dear to her.
But now she knows.
Ah. It’s such a pain to never get back something precious.
Life can be so futile
There is no reason to live to the point where you think it’s okay to die tomorrow.
“Puhaha. Same. Me too.”
In the end it is.
No matter how hard I tried, there was something I couldn’t escape.
No matter how hard she worked, met people, and tried to love others, in the end, this was not where she belonged.
There were some things I couldn’t change no matter how hard I tried.
“Nevertheless, I must live.”
However, you must not let go of this life.
If you take your own life like this, the words you spit out will lose their meaning.
Therefore atonement.
We must live with this pain with an atoning heart.
Little by little, little by little… You have to forget the person you loved.
“Now.”
So late morning. She went to sleep
She had things she needed to be clear about, and those things held her life together.
-Beep.
14:00.
She set the alarm and closed her eyes.
Now that her job is to listen to someone else’s complaints and tip her glass, she needs to get a good night’s sleep to listen.
So she fell asleep.
***
A building in a good place in Gangnam.
The entire building belongs to Lee Ha-young.
It became Gatmulju, the ultimate upper class that humans can climb.
So all she did was open a cocktail bar on the fifth floor and crack open the nogari with her customers.
All she did was listen to the complaints of old men and young men who were fascinated by her beauty, and smile at their lamentations about their circumstances.
It was an interesting pastime for her.
“I mean…If it wasn’t for that son of a bitch…My business…Wouldn’t be so damned. “
Today, I was listening to the story of a man in his 40s who started a business at the age of 33 and achieved great success, but ended up ruining his business due to a friend’s betrayal and became a salaryman.
Lee Ha-young was preparing to send him away, as it seemed that the truth was slowly showing.
“This. Must have been hard.”
“Kuh-kuh… That’s what you mean. Shivaal… I, at one time, never stopped having girls like you…”
The guest, showing signs of the truth, grabbed Lee Ha-young’s hand.
However, Lee Ha-young did not show her discomfort once, and she gave him the drink she poured and said.
“Whoops. Suffering must be relieved with alcohol. It’s a service, so drink it all the way.”
Sleeping pills. And Lee Ha-young, who gives out alcohol with drugs that cause diarrhea and abdominal pain.
She tickled the back of her hand with a smile on her face.
“I think a man who drinks well is cool~♥”
“…”
A man looking at Lee Ha-young with a flushed face.
As Lee Ha-young intended, he took one shot of alcohol and then slammed his head into the table.
Lee Ha-young smiled and took expensive alcohol from her shelf and poured it all into her sink.
Then, 2.5 million won was added to the man’s bill.
“Oh. Grow up too. Thank you, guest~”
Lee Ha-young whispers into the sleeping man’s ear.
She pulled her wallet out of the man’s pocket and swiped her card.
The amount came out as a lump sum of 3.2 million won.
“Take it away.”
She then ordered her men who followed her to clear the truth.
The man left the cocktail bar, being carried on the back of his men with a burly physique.
“Whoops. It’s nice to see her still a bitch.”
Then, a familiar voice heard from somewhere.
Turning her head, she saw Lee Hee-yeon, who was approaching this place with a proud gait.
Lee Ha-young looked at her face with a blank face.
“How are you, bitch? What if you withdraw from our Taoyuan Resolution without saying anything?”
As soon as Lee Hee-yeon finished her words, beauties rushed towards the entrance of the cocktail bar.
While the eyes of the men in the cocktail bar were focused, Baek Ha-yoon, Ahn Ji-yeon, and Elena were walking one after another.
