Chapter 26 – Episode 26
“More than you think…”
Nayu hesitates in her words as if something is surprising.
The words that came out quietly and awkwardly in silence for a long time hesitated, making me even more nervous.
“Are you stupid?”
“Huh?”
Perhaps because she had been told that she was stupid, she asked back stupidly.
“Stupid… No, rather than stupid, um…”
“That’s good.”
“I’m not saying this to be nice.”
Isn’t it a bit too much for her to say it as if her dog’s behavior is bad?
“Okay, this is more like stupid or indecisive than good…”
“It’s because he’s nice.”
“Ugh.”
“No, I just…”
I feel really embarrassed to get the word out between two people talking about me.
Even so, I tell you again with all my heart.
“I just thought I should confess my mistake to the two of you.”
“…”
“…”
It’s silence again.
It’s already backlit, so I can’t see their expressions clearly, so it’s a bit burdensome.
After all, wasn’t he conveying his sincerity?
“… Anyway, let’s finish what I want to say…”
Nayu puts her hand on her head and suppresses the itching.
“Well, now, I have a question for you.”
“What should I do if my sister is nervous?”
“It’s noisy.”
Some questions are expected.
There is only one thing to ask in this situation.
I swallow nervously.
“Which one of you, me or Gahye, would you like to date?”
“…”
It’s difficult to answer.
I just said that both are good, but after hearing the question again and again, it’s really hard to answer.
No, can you answer?
“I just think it’s easy. “Who do you like better, Junseok?”
As if Ga-hye could sense my nervousness, she spoke up.
If you say things like that you can’t choose, both of you will get angry.
Even though I said that both are good, they are asking me to choose between the two.
So who should I choose?
Gahye? Nayu?
Nayu is looking down at me with her arms crossed.
Without saying a word, she just crossed her arms and pressed me.
But.
The temperature of that hand comes to mind.
The kiss we briefly shared also comes to mind again.
The only emotion I had at that time was that I was so happy.
There was no lie in that happiness.
I glance at Gahye.
Gahye just stood quietly.
He stayed quiet as if he wanted to show me some consideration.
This is a kid.
He is quick-witted and playful, and sometimes I don’t know what he’s thinking, but he’s basically a kind kid.
While she enjoys what she likes, she also cares about me.
He also did a lot for me.
Experiences that were embarrassing yet so good come to mind again.
If you think about it, is there anyone who enjoys drinking semen or spraying it on their face or body?
He must have done that for me.
Gahye and Nayu.
I have to choose one of these two.
It was that time.
My eyes, accustomed to the darkness, began to be able to see the faces of the two, little by little.
The expression that was invisible in the backlight and darkness is only slightly visible, like the warmth that remains even in winter.
Gahye is nervous.
I guessed it a bit from the fact that they already had their arms crossed.
I was nervous when they asked me in the first place.
That strong woman is nervous.
What the hell am I saying?
Nayu… Is she nervous too?
The very slight expression on his face seemed like he was nervous, although it might be my imagination.
At first glance, he is just smiling slightly.
But between the smiles, you can see just the slightest bit of tension.
I am waiting for the sentence as if nothing has happened.
They are both waiting for me.
No matter what happened, they left themselves to my choice.
The opinions of people like me are respected first and foremost.
Gahye and Nayu are putting themselves down for me.
Maybe they couldn’t choose themselves, so they left the choice to me.
Even so, I think I understand the feeling.
Absurd relationship between superiors and superiors.
This is the first time I have been in such a superior position.
No, I don’t want to be in this position of power.
But.
I don’t want to tell any lies to these two.
No matter what the ending is, I want to be truthful with these two.
My feelings about these two and what I say are all true.
“You know…”
Try your luck.
The two of them quietly wait for me to speak.
“I… I’m sorry.”
“Huh?”
“What are you sorry about?”
Even though I was pressured by the two’s reactions, I continued speaking.
“For now. First? First, it’s about emotions…”
It is very difficult to take out.
Even if you get slapped in the face by two people in a row, you won’t have anything to say.
But I have to say it, I want to say it.
“Both… Good.”
“No, I know that.”
“So I have to make a choice, right?”
“I said it was good earlier.”
“Wouldn’t one of the two be better?”
“No, really, I like both. My choice is both, hey.”
There is silence.
“When I was with Gahye and when I was with Nayu, we were both so good… It’s just that both of them were such an undeserved happiness to me… They were so precious to me.”
Desperately disrupting the silence.
“It wasn’t a long time, it was a short time. But that time was really happy. It was so lovely to see Ga-hye being cute to me. I was so happy when we went on a date together, and I couldn’t believe that such a pretty girl liked me.”〈 Br〉
Only my voice echoes in the wind.
“Nayu was also so lovely. The way she was often shy was precious to me. I was so happy to spend all the time talking and walking together.”
They continue to listen to me.
I continued speaking, trying desperately to control my mind so as not to become a heavy heating user.
“So, really, I like them both, I mean both of them are precious to me. The feelings I had for Ga-hye and the feelings I had for Na-yu were sincere. So, they are both precious people to me, lovers, and love…”
If you hesitate even just a little bit, silence reigns.
I hate that so much that I desperately add.
“So to choose between the two is… Impossible for me. “I love you both.”
Finish until the last word.
The silence that soon becomes established is no longer broken.
“…”
“…”
Yes, that’s right, it would be absurd.
It’s completely natural to have that kind of reaction.
No, it’s actually surprising that they didn’t at least slap me in the face right away.
This time, I will be waiting for the sentence.
“Wait a minute, wait a minute.”
Nayu puts her hand on her head again.
With those words, Gahye also breaks free from silence.
Gahye also tilts her head.
“Stay there, yes, stay there.”
Nayu waved her hand at me and walked away, taking Gahye with her.
After walking for a while, they stand alone in the distance and talk about something.
The wind brought fragments of the story, but the content was unknown.
I can hear people talking quickly.
“I mean… No… But… Is it okay…”
“Something… A little… Very… But…”
I had no choice but to sit quietly like a person who had committed a crime and was waiting.
It would take quite a lot of talking.
Since it’s cold, it would be better to finish it quickly.
As I look at the two with a pitiful expression like an abandoned dog, Gahye suddenly approaches me.
I was a little scared because he walked at such a fast pace.
“You.”
It looks like they came to some kind of bad conclusion.
The voice is a little scary.
“Don’t come home today.”
“… Huh?”
“Sleep outside.”
“Don’t come home? Really? No, wait, go sleep somewhere now.”
“Anyway, don’t come into the house.”
“It’s Junseok’s house. Can we do this?”
Nayu, who came with us, asks.
“What do you know about that?”
“Well, that’s right.”
Huh?
Gahye, what do you do then?
“I think we need to talk a lot today, so don’t come in anyway, okay? “Don’t come home until I call you, okay?”
“Uh… I don’t have anywhere to go right now…”
“Take care of it, you’re not a child”
After saying that, Nayu put her hand in my pocket and took the key.
“Okay?”
He pointed at me with one finger as if threatening me, then left me like that and walked away.
Gahye looks at me sitting blankly.
He looks apologetic, but then quickly turns into an expression that says there is nothing he can do.
Hye soon stops looking at me and runs after Nayu.
It’s like a dog chasing you.
Without having time to reflect on those sentiments, the two women disappeared from my sight in an instant.
“Oh, wait a minute.”
Really?
I really shouldn’t go in.
Still, there is something that bothers me, and I am the one who committed the crime.
Is it a sin?
Anyway, it was my fault, so I have no complaints about being kicked out of the house.
You’re really telling me what to do.
I was left alone in the park, unable to move, like a dog that had been chased away.
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… No, does that mean I can just sleep outside!
The conclusion reached in 30 minutes was simple.
I sat like an idiot for 30 minutes with a mixture of confused thoughts, twisted emotions, and excited hearts.
It was such a strange feeling that my feelings for what I did wrong were mixed with my feelings for the two of them, but I’m getting used to it now.
Thanks to getting used to it, I was able to organize my thoughts.
“If you don’t really go when you’re told not to come, that’s stupid…”
I stood up from the bench muttering to myself like a dead body.
That’s right.
It would be even more foolish not to go after being told not to come.
Tell me to stay somewhere else until you contact me?
So what if I am far away when you contact me?
Make me wait that long?
Timing must be the most important moment, right?
And.
If you tell me not to come and just leave.
Does that make sense?
With this mindset now.
I have these feelings about the two.
Guilt, and above all, not wanting to let go of both.
Both are mine, this desire that I can never let go of.
It’s bullshit, but to be honest, there’s no way I could go anywhere else with my love for them both.
I started to move quickly.