Chapter 14 – Gas Light
13.
“Hey Carl, actually that’s it. Hmm. Should I say that our relationship isn’t that far yet… Uh, a bit of a burden… Because it works.”
“Oh yeah?”
I was in the middle of preparing dinner. While Sophia, who was sitting next to her, spoke in a rather cautious voice, Carl quietly listened with a smile on his face. Oh, I see. You’re trying to run away.
“Yes yes. It’s a bit strange to suddenly live together… “
“Huh? Are you living together?”
It was understandable that the barriers in Sophia’s heart were broken, but it was too sudden for her to allow that much. Carl said in a playful voice.
“I just invited you to dinner? I don’t know what Sophia expected. Haha. Living together Did you want to live together?”
“Yes? Ah, well, then, to stay like that before—”
“Really. Sophia, the. Don’t notice You’re pretending not to know I don’t even remember what happened earlier.”
The atmosphere cools down in an instant. Sophia felt the cold air. Carl was always friendly, but he was very scary when he got angry sometimes. He was like that now Sophia’s eyes went wide in her fright. In a situation where nothing could be done, Carl became angry. I don’t know why you’re angry. Sophia’s limbs twitched. However, there was nothing she could do with her limbs, each of which had only halves left.
“You can just pretend you forgot and pass it on, right? Something like that pretend to forget Pretend you don’t remember. As if nothing like that had happened before.”
Carl’s words are scary. No. The emotion in his words is frightening. Sophia felt a stone on her chest. Thud. Carl was angry. However, the target was not Sophia. Carl was angry with Carl Leben himself, and at first glance it seemed sad. Or, he didn’t know if his sad face was showing his anger.
“Knife… ?”
“Could you be quiet for a moment?”
“… Yes… “
Carl’s tightly closed lips did not move. The cook brought out an appetizer. On the left, we prepared a caprese salad, and on the right, you can eat Genen Beef Cutlet with prepared vegetables and sauce. Snug. Carl cut the Caprese into small pieces and put them in Sophia’s mouth. Then he took a bite of himself too. Well well.
The two of them didn’t say anything while they ate all of the amuse bouche. Carl seemed to be concentrating on eating, forgetting to even talk. Carl put it in his Sophia’s mouth first and then ate his own. Sophia was slightly offended that they were using the same fork, but she readily accepted it.
Carl did not hold out his hand as nonchalantly as the caregiver did. Sophia is in a good position to eat, enough that she can eat it with just a nod of her head. There was nothing on Sophia’s lips. Sophia liked those little considerations. Things that were taken for granted before are no longer so, so every little thing has become precious.
Before the next dish. Carl finally opened his mouth.
“It is true that I am a little angry. Hmm. I was happy. You know how they cry when you give them a ‘toy or something’ and take them away, right? That kind of feeling. You still haven’t gotten over acting like a child.”
“Yes? Ah… “
“That too. … Sophia didn’t have that thought, but I feel sorry that I forced her into it. I also wondered if I couldn’t do it. I’m a bit disturbed.”
“Yes? No Carl, it’s not like that… “
“I confessed and kicked several times. It was true that I wanted to succeed this time, but it was as expected. Haha. Sophia must not have been looking at me as a man. It’s not like that between us. Sophia, you know what? We’ve been together for years There is nothing new about living together.”
“Carl, wait a minute. Misunderstanding. I don’t mean that… “
“It’s okay, Sophia. I have nothing to be sorry for. I know you’re not good at rejecting things because you’re weak-minded. That’s why I’ve been forced to pretend I don’t know. I was bad I don’t mean to blame Sophia for leaving room.”
“Knife?”
“Still. I wasn’t that attractive.”
“Karl, are you crying? That, oh, that. Really, oh Listen to me. It’s really not like that!”
Sophia was restless. Carl smiled inwardly. Sophia is basically an easy-going woman. If she pretends to be a little hurt, she gets restless and says no, it’s not like that, she’s sorry. It wasn’t difficult to seduce Sophia. Of course, the intimacy built up over the years probably played a big role in that.
“I like knives too. But is cohabitation sudden? That’s right, we haven’t even dated yet. That… She did show some embarrassing places, but it was unavoidable!”
“Okay.”
“Yes that’s right! So slow down. Huh? Like other people do-“
“Sophia is selfish.”
“Yes?”
Carl’s eyes were red. Sophia was flustered, and she unknowingly spewed out this or that sincerity, but her sword’s reaction to him was cold. Sophia is selfish. At Carl’s words, Sophia’s entire body froze. Her tongue didn’t move. A chill that seemed to stop her heart.
The first dish was simply asparagus topped with mullet roe. You can cut it into the size you want, and we have prepared two types of sauce, so you can enjoy it as a side dish. Carl grilled Songi along with the abalone you mentioned. You can eat it with a sauce made from goose liver.
Carl’s horses hacked Sophia to pieces. Squeak. Asparagus sliced. Carl took the sauce without asking Sophia’s doctor. I put it in Sofia’s mouth and took it out. The knife’s hand felt a little rough. It was the same knife hand as before, but it felt the same.
“Sophia. I’ve been telling you for years that I like you But you definitely didn’t reject it, and you didn’t accept it either. I know you have a hard time accepting rejection. But haven’t you thought about how that would have felt to me?”
“That.”
“It can’t be. Because you’re smart, Sophia. I was playing with my heart.”
“Karl, it’s not like that… “
“Under. Pretending to be nice to the end.”
“Heb.”
Carl held out the asparagus again. Sophia hesitantly accepted it. A cold smile crept across Carl’s lips. Red eyes, cold smile. All of that was just unfamiliar to Sophia.
“Did you say love? Holding his hand kiss him Let’s go on a trip somewhere together. Looking at the stars, that’s you, this is me I even talk about it in a tickling voice.”
Sophia nodded her head. She really hoped that she herself. I couldn’t even guess why Carl was reacting this way. Carl’s words suddenly turned cold… It was brutal.
“Sophia, dating is between equals.”
“… “
“You look at me like you don’t understand. Hmm. Something like that. The leap may be a bit harsh, but love cannot be established between a master and a slave, Sophia. It is the same between the rich and the beggar. One side is playing with it. If someone wants it, the other side just adjusts to that side. Did Sophia want that?”
Dory dory.
“I’m sorry for calling you selfish. But there is no change to that thought. Sophia. I like you, but to be honest… He has no limbs.”
It was strange. Carl’s words were terribly self-inflicted, but there was a tenderness in Carl’s eyes. He was sad That was Sophia’s last hope. While he said something nice to hear, Carl’s gaze was friendly, unlike the gazes of others who looked down on him.
Sophia decided to think so. Ah. These are the words Carl speaks for me.
In fact, she didn’t have the confidence to endure if she didn’t think so.
“Even though everyone who went on the journey together did. Everyone is a little slow to grasp reality. I thought you were different, Sophia. Sophia. You have no arms and no legs. Shall I tell you what I need to do to be in a relationship with you?”
“I always have to drag my wheelchair around, I have to feed him all the time, and I have to clean up my poo and urine like last time. Is that love, Sophia?”
“You are selfish.”
“Well, what if I said it was a little selfish? So pretty, cute, lovely. Right?”
Why does Cal’s friendly words sound like sarcasm?
“Sophia. You trampled on my heart.”
“I-I’m sorry.”
“So I said something harsh without even knowing it. Sorry.”
“No, no, no. It’s all my fault. That’s the knife.”
Don’t smile so faintly.
“Cohabitation is… Let’s do something that didn’t exist. Sorry. I don’t think I can wait. I’m a bit sick to my stomach.”
“No, Carl. Excuse me. I am.”
“But I can’t kick you out at night. … Go to bed for the night no. Do people like me hate sleeping at home? I guess so. Even so, he’s just a thief. It would be difficult for a precious saintess to stay and go anywhere because it would be shabby.”
“Carl, why are you saying that? I am black, I am… It’s not like that… “
“Crying doesn’t change anything, Sophia. It’s childish. We all felt that fact keenly during our journey, so why do you keep crying?”
Sophia seemed to be able to somehow understand what Carl had swallowed in her mouth.
Plaguy.
It’s a strange thing. Up until now, it was so much fun that I couldn’t be happier. How did it come to be like this?
Did I make such a big mistake? I think I pushed the knife too far. Oh, because it looks like playing with a knife. My heart wasn’t like that. – No, maybe it was. I must have been a selfish bitch. Ah. Ah. Carl, I’m sorry, Carl. I can’t do without a knife.
The aroma of asparagus lingers in your mouth. It felt like it was soaked in bitter water and then drained.
The next dish is –
Carl didn’t touch his own cooking.
As much as Sofia’s cooking, he quietly put it in his mouth until the end.
That fact hurt Sophia’s heart.
*
Pleasure.
Overwhelming pleasure.
Carl had to concentrate all his nerves to hide his rising laughter.
