Chapter 77 – Conflict (3)
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Carl rested his head on Sophia’s collarbone and sniffed. As Carl Leben’s inhalation and exhalation tickled down her collarbone, Sophia chewed on Carl’s words. “Did I hear it wrong? He just heard something terrifying.” Carl didn’t answer. It was so scary.
“Knife.”
A voice like ice. Carl raised his head and looked Sofia in the eyes. Their eyes met at a distance of about two fingers. Their breathing tickled each other’s nostrils. I also smelled a little bit of breath. The sword was on top, and Sophia was tucked under her. Carl asked. “Why?”
That nonchalant question made Sophia wonder if this situation might have been embellished. Carl often played mischief.
If so, this prank was of a very poor quality. Crossed the line. It wasn’t fun at all. It wasn’t fun. Lloyd, who would have joined in the prank, and Carl, and everyone else would hate it. If it’s not a joke, I tried to ignore the thought of raising my head inside.
Should be a joke It has to be. Very naughty, it must be such a prank. Soon Carl says it was all a joke, I get angry at him, Carl giggles and says he’s sorry, and after that he sees me with tears in his eyes, slightly embarrassed and eager to apologize. Such a daily life will return.
“Are you kidding?”
At Sofia’s question, Carl looked down at her for a moment. Then he got Sophia up and sat her down. Looking straight into his eyes, he said.
“No, it’s real. Four arms and legs. I asked the demons to cut it off.”
Sophia was speechless. The silence lasted quite a while. In a room filled with the sound of each other’s breathing without the sound of a clock, the two of them just stared at each other for an unknown amount of time.
Sophia didn’t know what to say. She didn’t know how to react. She didn’t know what emotion was going on inside her. What broke the long silence was a question that leaked out of Sophia’s mouth.
“Why?”
During her silence, Sophia accepted the truth of Carl’s words. I could feel that fact in Carl’s gaze. That he wasn’t lying, he might have known from the start. It’s just that she didn’t want to admit it.
Sophia felt like she was rotting inside. She groaned. It felt like my intestines had melted and all the blood, food remnants, and bones and flesh that were being digested were entangled. She even thought that it would have been better.
Carl didn’t answer. Sophia asked as if urging.
“Why did you do that? Why?”
Carl’s hands grip Sophia’s shoulders. Sophia’s gaze was tinged with fear.
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What should I answer? Carl pursed his lips. Sophia’s confused look gave Carl enough stimulation. He wondered if he might have taken out the fruit he saved too early and ate it, but it was okay.
As Sophia has been the first to speak up, she is something that will be revealed someday. She had no reason to lie and lie for a few more months. In fact, she never intended to lie to the end. She just wanted the moment to be within her own control. She is a bit irritable.
“Why?”
Carl threw a half question before giving a hasty answer. Sophia’s face is strangely distorted. Sophia’s shoulders were in the grip of the sword. Even if she learns the whole truth, there is nothing Sophia can do. Carl laughed. It was a bit of a self-deprecating laugh.
“I know. Really why?”
“Are you kidding me? Why did you do that! Answer me!”
Sophia asked in a growl. A bitter smile appeared on Carl’s face. Sophia’s eyes are bloodshot red. She had prominent thread veins, and her voice, which she drew as hard as she could, cracked slightly and spat out. Carl spoke in a soothing voice. “Sophia.” Sophia catches her breath.
“Love me?”
“I beg your pardon?”
“Love me?”
“I don’t know, now, I don’t know anymore! Can’t you just answer me? Carl, why are you doing this to me? Please! Jebaal… !”
“I see. I love Sophia.”
“Knife… I’m afraid of knives… “
“Okay? Are you afraid of me?”
Sophia’s sobs were heard. Carl slowly closed and opened his eyes. Why did I do that She wanted Sophia. She wanted to own Sophia. However, he has already prepared the elixir. He didn’t want to leave Sophia’s limbs cut off forever. He was also going to confess that he had cut off Sophia’s arms and legs.
Certain kinds of desire drive a person mad.
Carl’s hand wiped the tears from Sophia’s eyes. Sophia tilted her head back to avoid the knife’s grip. There’s no way she can really escape Carl’s touch, but Carl smiles slightly sadly and lowers his hand. She put on a slightly wounded face, so that Sophia could bear even the slightest pity for her. Even though it was he who really hurt her.
“Why?”
“It’s the third now. Answer me.”
“I wanted to have you.”
Sophia felt her breath choke on her. She was heavy she was far away It was as if the true nature of Carl Leben had been glimpsed for a moment. Carl Leben never said a word about how he fell in love or how he decided to cut off his arms and legs. He just shyly brought out the disgusting feelings he had been hiding inside of himself.
Craving.
Possessiveness.
Those things that everyone has. What’s bad Desire is not wrong. There is no choice but to be. It’s natural, and it’s normal. And by striving to achieve that desire, human beings develop and grow. However, there is only a type of people who are so honest about their desires that they do things that do not fit with the conventional wisdom of society. Carl is just such a person.
“Just because of that.”
“Sophia.”
“My arms and legs. You say you love me! My happiness!”
“I never wanted you to be happy when you weren’t by my side.”
“If so! Should have tried to have my heart! Not to cut off my arms and legs and put me in a cage! It’s not going to bother me and make me desperate! It’s not that I’m going to make you cry every night!”
“I’m sorry, Sophia.”
“I said I love you! Say you love me! Look at me and say you love yourself! But why, why, why! Why! Why!”
“But. If you let me choose again, I would do the same thing.”
Took.
Everything stops in an instant. As Carl finished speaking, Sophia’s lips closed as well. He listened to Carl even as he screamed. Even in the midst of screaming and pleading restlessly, Carl’s voice could be heard clearly. Sophia felt so terrified of this man in front of her eyes.
I thought I loved you, I thought I was loved, I thought it was a happy memory, but all of those things were shattered in an instant. Got dirty We learn that the affectionate whispers shared with the one we love were the language of submission to the rapist. “Under.” Sophia let out a laugh. “Haha.”
“Are you going to do it again?”
“Huh.”
“Why?”
“Because I love you.”
“… “
Sophia shut her mouth. The subtle madness in Carl’s voice slowly seeped into Sophia’s inner world as her hands gripped Sophia’s body. Carl brought her face to Sophia’s ear. Sophia flinched and dodged, but this time he didn’t let go of the knife and forcibly brought it to her face.
Carl’s face, which had been so lovely and handsome, was now just hideous, nasty, and repulsive.
“I can’t see you laughing and talking with another guy. I can’t even see you talking Another guy liking you, having a crush on you, another guy asking you to dance. Even touching your body. Even talking to you. Like squeezing your tits, touching your cunt? I will never see So it was.”
“Is my doctor not even necessary?”
“Did you want to be with another man?”
“I never once wanted to have my arms and legs cut off, at least.”
“Sophia. Our poor Sophia. You still don’t understand.”
Carl’s lips touched Sophia’s. Sophia shook her head and resisted, but Carl’s hand gripped Sophia’s chin. Sophia couldn’t move, and the knife slowly approached Sophia’s lips and then slowly removed his face.
Anger and despair intertwined in Sophia’s eyes. Sophia tried to bite Carl’s lip, but his chin was still caught in Carl’s hand, so even that didn’t work.
“It doesn’t matter whether you want it or not. It only matters whether I want it or not.”
“That is not love.”
“Maybe. It doesn’t matter though.”
Sophia’s eyes seemed to go dark.
“After all, you’re right here by my side.”
