Chapter 209 – 6. Dear Demon.(12)
A girl with jet-black hair was sitting in a daze in the oriental-style interior.
Her strange eyes, which weren’t out of focus but didn’t seem to be looking at anything in particular, didn’t even contain emptiness.
The girl, who had been absent-mindedly with her cold black eyes as if they had been made of well-made pieces of glass, was led into her bathroom by the golden foxes who supported her and helped her stand up.
There was something bizarre about the fox beasts shooting and washing her girl.
The insensible figure, which seemed to have no emotion at the same time as if it did not belong to the public, looked like a doll, but nevertheless looked much more human than the dark-haired girl they were washing.
The fox beastmen took care of the girl and dressed her up.
Feed them, wash them, and help them defecate.
However, today it felt like putting more effort into the leader.
Normally, only two or three foxes would come to take care of the girl, but today, why did all the foxes in the building gather? Dozens of foxes began to decorate the girl with inorganic eyes around them.
Like that. After the dark-haired girl was seated in a chair, elegantly decorated, guests entered the building.
The elder Taesang of Baekryongmun, Jincheong Lee, and the precious guests from the West Station, allied with Baekryongmun, entered the room through the door opened by foxes from the left and right.
Lilith.
Lilith, who was once the queen ant of Crimson Ant and the body of Gremory, a duke-level demon, sat there blankly, looking like a doll, or even more like a doll than a doll, lacking even the word empty.
Yuria looked at Lilith again, but she no longer seemed to be touched by her demonic touch.
She looked more like a doll than a doll and didn’t seem alive, so she wondered if her soul had disappeared during the process of purification, but that wasn’t the case either.
At that, Yuria thought about how she came to be like this.
If during the process of purification there was a change to the extent that the race itself changed, the structure of the brain also undergoes a physical change, and even the chemical formula that occurs in the thinking process within the brain changes, so it is not able to adapt properly and thinking stops.
Or is it that literally all memories have disappeared and only instinctive actions remain.
No, it was too much of a puppet to say that only instinctive actions remained.
If he had all his instincts left, wouldn’t he have to look like a baby?
“…”
In other words. The first case seemed more plausible.
The way the soul moves the body has changed, so the body cannot move because it cannot adapt, and is trapped in the prison of the body.
If that were true, the way to solve the problem wasn’t too difficult.
Seeing YuRia, who was gripping her tightly and electric current was rising from her hand, her Jincheong and Loa flinched greatly.
However, Yuria didn’t care how they reacted, her hand on her temple as it was. One hand of hers rested on the pit of the stomach and continued to generate electrical discharges.
“!…”
The psychic electric current that rode through the nerves throughout her body made Lilith’s body flutter, the muscles on her face moved at their own pace, and her entire body convulsed.
I wondered if it was necessary to dry this up and down body, but I waited patiently for a moment thinking that Yuria would do something vile.
Lilith, whose whole body was shaking as she stretched out like that, at some point, finally, a scream burst out of her mouth.
“Keep, blah, blah! Blah! Blah blah?! Blah blah? Blah! Blah?”
As Yuria’s screams came out of her lilith’s mouth, she removed her hand from her body and then looked at the lilith, drenched in cold sweat and drooping, looking so disheveled as if she were not a doll. Looked up
“Huh, heh… Heh heh… Heh heh…”
“How is it? Do you understand how your body moves now?”
Lilith, who had been gasping for a while, wriggled so awkwardly as if she was moving her body for the first time, and she barely nodded her head.
“Yuria, what happened?”
At Roa’s question, Yuria just shrugged her shoulders.
“Hmm… Do you feel like we corrected her body’s inability to move due to the separation between her soul and body?”
On the surface, it looks like an electric torture, but it was a very sophisticated job.
Because they were works that amplified and connected electrical signals from the body that would not normally be felt.
It’s not wrong to look like torture either.
This method was inevitably accompanied by considerable pain.
“Ugh, uhhhhh!!”
“Uh…?”
“Muh… Mm…!!”
Lilith, who had been stuttering her words for some time, soon her tears were dripping, and she wept loudly like a child.
“Uhhhhh!
“Yu, Yuria! V. What the hell are you doing…”
“Ah, no, it’s definitely a bit painful, but…”
After a while. After barely getting used to the way to move the new body to some extent and realizing that ‘I was scared’ because of the true Lilith meant that I was scared of those days when I was trapped in the prison of my body and not able to do anything, not Yuria’s method of treatment. Did I do something? My face grew hot at the bruise and I couldn’t raise my head.
Rather, Lilith was so grateful to Yuria for bringing her out of that scary prison and giving her freedom.
Rather…
Under that expressionless expression, Lilith said that she was always crying because of the fear that she couldn’t move at all.
Absolute restraint where you can’t even think at will, let alone move your body.
However, on the other hand, it was ironic that it was Yuria who created the situation, so Yuria awkwardly scratched her cheek as her heart was pricked by Lilith’s gratitude.
Of course, still then, she couldn’t forget that day.
I don’t know what method she used, but she enchanted the loa and mixed her body with the loa. She did what she tried to kill Loa.
It was heartbreaking to see Roa and her bond, but it didn’t make him angry.
No. Was it a little… ?
But. If you really like Roa. And if it was done because Roa liked it.
If he had told himself about it in advance, he could have been a bit, no, very upset, but he could have accepted other women for Roa’s sake, so even though it was difficult to have an affair with another woman, he could not tolerate it. Could have
It’s just that I can’t forget that day that I dared to trick a loa into taking her loa’s heart and take her loa’s life.
Come to think of it, she also had her own heart stolen that day.
Thanks to that, when she thinks of Loa and herself having to go through such a great hardship…
“…”
However, it was ridiculous to argue about it now that I couldn’t tell from where and how much it was done with Lilith and with Gremory.
“Lilith… I want to ask you something.”
“What, what… Is it?”
“What happened to the Loa affection you got from Loa?”
Right now, the only variable Yuria missed was that one.
She just had sex once to provoke herself?
No it couldn’t have been
Obviously, the hero’s genes themselves were the purpose.
“That, that’s…”
Lilith’s face also turned red, as if she had remembered that day.
Seeing that, YuRia thought to herself and clicked her tongue inside her.
Now that the malice had disappeared, this child was just an innocent girl.
“It’s important. Please let me know.”
“… That, that”
She glanced around for a moment, then Yuria lightly beckoned her and signaled her to stay out for a while.
As her party moved away for a while at Yuria’s beckoning, Lilith hesitated for a while, embarrassed, then opened her mouth.
“Ah, I’m still… Hungry.”
“Yes?”
For a moment, Yuria couldn’t accept Lilith’s words.
Bae, are you hungry?
“That, so…”
A violent earthquake occurred in YuRia’s eyes.
Oh, no. That wouldn’t be it…
“He… Is still carrying his child. With her slowing down.”
I stumbled and the ceiling spun.
Uh, lie…
This must be a lie…
“Ah, ah!!”
As soon as there seemed to be a commotion inside, people rushed in again from outside, and at the moment Lilith was wary of doing something at the sight of Yuria sitting on the floor sloppy, Yuria weakly lifted her hand and looked at the people. Has stopped
“It’s okay… I didn’t mean any harm.”
“Yuria… What is it?”
YuRia, who stumbled and stood up holding Roa’s hand, sent her resentful eyes with a somewhat sullen look.
“They said they had a child”
“Huh? When?”
Roa hugged him very carefully, as if Yuria had become a glass doll.
“Not me…”
“Yes?”
Until then, Loa, who had not understood the situation, stiffened and stared at Lilith for a moment.
“Ser, can’t you…?”
“…”
“…”
Both Yuria and Lilith were silent, and her party fell into silence.
* * * * *
“I am 3 months pregnant”
At the words of the clinician who diagnosed Lilith, Roa sighed as he wrapped his head around her with an expression as if the sky had collapsed.
3 months…
“But that day when I was tricked…”
“The devil did something to delay the birth. That’s because the child started to grow normally because of my purification.”
Probably not I thought it might not be Roa’s child and I tested her child with her ability, but the child was definitely Roa’s child.
“So… What are you going to do?”
I said ‘you’, but I wasn’t talking to anyone.
Loa and Lilith. It was said to both of them.
With that said, Loa too. Lilith couldn’t say anything either.
“Really… If it’s because I love you, I can give you even a step.”
Yuria only said that far, but Roa too. Lilith could also understand what Yuria was saying.
Lilith. You and Loa didn’t have children because you were in love.
Yuria’s hand was shining blue.
“If it’s still 3 months, you can have a baby without putting too much strain on the mother’s body.”
“That, that’s…”
“So, choose. Will he leave the child alone and meet a new man? Or will he put the child in shackles and remain under our watch?”
No matter how… Even if it is a loa seed, it is a child born from Gremory’s plan.
I couldn’t help but wear any shackles.
“Joe, just a little… Give me a little more time to think”
“One week. I’ll give you just one week. Anything longer than that is dangerous for you.”
After removing the blue aura from her hands, Yuria felt dizzy.
No matter what she was, she was a loa’s child.
If it was a child born out of love, I would be happy to bless it even though I would be jealous if it wasn’t a child born with a stomach ache…
No love YuRia, who did not know what purpose she was made for, was very distressed.
Of course.
From the point of view of Lilith, who has changed so much from before, this problem must be too big.
I can understand.
Becoming a mother that she loved or didn’t love is really an experience for a woman that turns her into herself.
The moment she has a child, her woman has all her own priorities reversed.
She is not herself to the child
Because she had experienced it herself, Yuria could also understand that feeling.
Of course, the case was different for Lilith and herself.
Even before her child, Yuria was already more precious than her own life. She had someone she loved so much, and she had a very weak self-love that she cherished herself from the beginning.
The narcissism that Yuria cherishes is actually due to her Loa.
Loa, whom she loved so much and was so precious to her, was precious because she was herself.
Yuria’s self-love was like that.
But even YuRia had a child. The birth of a child of Loa, whom she loved, was a huge event that shook her life and her perspective in many ways.
It’s like being in her own life before and after admitting and accepting her love with her Loa became a completely different life. Having a child was the same experience for her.
Yet, back then she hadn’t accepted Loa. Wasn’t that one of the things she tried to deny her loa for?
In fact, it was next to impossible for her to give birth to her loa’s child.
Now she was trying to erase Loa’s child, although she herself was not mine.
Of course, deleting her child would be completely up to Lilith’s decision, not my will, but as Yuria it was bittersweet, I wanted Lilith to make the choice to erase her child.
The child born to Lilith will never be blessed.
Although she was a child born to someone who would not even be a competitor, her instinct as a creature spoke.
The child born of that would be a competitor to block the future of the child born of me.
I have to step on the buds of survival competition that will block my child’s future.
In this situation, there is no way I can bless that child.
I will never be able to treat that child sincerely.
I will live with a seal for the rest of my life to prevent the devil’s tricks from being displayed. For the rest of my life, I will live discriminated against children born to me and Loa.
No matter how fair I tried to be, it was a law that could never be helped.
Hypocrisy and pretense.
It was the only gift I could give him.
It hurt so much.
If born, that child is also a child of Loa.
It broke my heart that I might curse the blood of a loa I loved so much.
Next day.
Lilith came to see me.
Lilith, who came to Yuria with the support of her food spirit handmaids on her left and right, which her Tamamo created with her own hair, finally told her of her own decision.
She said she would erase the child.
It was the answer she wanted so much, but YuRia, who felt so bitter, closed her eyes tightly and quietly placed her hand on her stomach.
Felt
A small life born inside her belly.
Half of that life she felt so clearly that she belonged to someone she loved so much that her heart was full.
Please. Return to the River of Souls painlessly.
For some reason, Yuria, who suddenly cut off the connection between her fetus’s body and soul, felt her heart break. And her head hurt so much.
Lilith also felt something different about the feeling of her child in her belly, ah, ah… She did and she groaned a little.
“Sorry…”
“… No. This, this was my choice.”
YuRia quietly placed something on her hand.
Something very small that is getting cold.
Lilith saw what it was for the first time, but she knew instinctively.
Holding it in her arms, Lilith let out a cry close to hers.
The little baby quietly disappeared with a simple funeral without even being named.
When Lilith was depressed at the sight of even the last traces of her baby disappearing, Yuria quietly placed a small gray jewel in Lilith’s hand.
“This…”
“It’s a jewel made of your child”
Yuria, who made a gray diamond by adding a bit of carbon to the ashes that cremated the baby, and strongly compressed it, placed it in Lilith’s hand quietly.
“I don’t know how else to comfort you other than this.”
“…”
Lilith quietly took the jewel and held it tightly to her chest.
“Afterwards, if you are really ready to let go of your child, burn that jewel. Because that jewel is a jewel that burns.”
“…Yes”
Yuria once again hit her Tamamo with her shikigami and went to find her Tamamo.
Is it because Tamamo isn’t dead yet? Although not all of Tamamo’s memories came to her, Yuria had most of her memories of Tamamo, so whenever she looked at Tamamo, she felt as if she was looking in a mirror, and her body would startle.
She is herself.
It’s just that each other’s time is different.
“Have you come my afterlife?”
“Just call me by name”
Tamamo nudged her fox ears in response and gently closed her eyes.
“Her daughter-in-law doesn’t have a hobby of calling herself in her third person. Isn’t she avoiding calling her by her first name as much as possible because you are the same?”
“…”
What Tamamo said was true, so Yuria didn’t answer him anymore.
“What does it feel like to confess to me?”
“She is the original daughter of Heaven, so she will listen as much as she wants.”
At those words, Yuria finally laughed.
“Really… I really don’t know. Of course, since I lack self-love for myself, it was only natural for me to love Loa more than myself with even the smallest amount of love, but since when did my heart become so heavy?”
The first thing she had for her loa was not her love, but rather the thought that since she saved her, she should repay her kindness.
She was also a child living alone at a young age, and a child is so precious in these dangerous times. She and she generously bestowed upon herself her superlative potion, which could be called her own extra life.
At that time, she was giving up her own life anyway, so she didn’t just commit suicide. She lived with the thought that if she lived, she would live, and if she died, she would die, and since it was a life she took so lightly, she thought she would spend her life on this child who saved her.
The little boy became a boy. The boy became a young man.
This innocent young man who grew up ignorant of sex had grown up before he knew it and could no longer behave as before.
If it had been metastasis, even if he saw his naked body, he would have been a bit ashamed, but he wouldn’t have felt much emotion, but now he’s practically like an adult. No. By the standards of this era, when she showed herself naked to Roa, who was an adult, her heart pounded, wondering if she was crazy.
Perhaps… He may have already had some feelings for this young man.
That’s why she must have answered seriously to the boy who had proposed to her one day.
She can’t bear children, so he tells her to find another woman.
We, obviously, each other will hurt each other so much.
“…”
Up until this point, Yuria had never thought that being violated by others would be so painful.
After almost being raped by someone for the first time, if it was going to be like this, I’d rather give my first to Roa, but Roa saved me.
It was only at that moment that Yuria realized what her heart was.
Maybe it was an impulsive decision.
Lamenting that she had become so weak in her other world that she could not exorcise one such primordial life, and that her chastity was threatened.
However, in such a crisis, the first thing that came to mind was Loa.
And the loa who saved her in such a crisis.
Giving myself to him wasn’t just an impulse.
After that.
He obviously loved Roa dearly, but it was closer to half than her current love.
If you allow this body, I’d rather Loa and her love that she wants only one person. A love that wants to repay Loa for saving me twice.
That’s why at that time, even though it was to save the soul of the young lady Baran, who was in a very pitiful situation, she was able to think of giving her body to someone other than Loa.
Even though it is such a painful choice.
So what now?
“I can’t…”
If I’m dead, I’m dead. If it’s not to save the life of a loa, I can never give my body to someone else of my own will.
Everything she had belonged only to Loa.
As the years go by. As the years of embracing Loa deepen.
The more you engrave pain into your body and soul, the more happiness you have with Loa.
This feeling for Loa grew bigger and heavier.
Get married with Loa.
Pregnant with Loa’s child.
While giving birth to Loa’s child.
My heart for loa peaked and peaked, but it continued to grow.
From that day onwards, in my heart toward Roa, it was no longer the two hearts of love and reciprocation of grace, but one heart. With pure love for Loa.
“That heart… It can’t be easily faded. It’s a longing that only grew even after waiting alone for 10,000 years.”
“That’s right…”
Now, even the longing for Tamamo was added to her heart, and it was difficult for even herself to fathom the end of her heart for Roa.
“So… What do you really want to say?”
“… I heard you”
“We are the same existence, can we hide it?”
Yuria lowered her gaze with her remorseful eyes.
“I… Erased such a loa child with my own hands…”
