Chapter 94 – Wednesday, April 30 7 PM (6)
Soeurang: These days, it keeps coming up
Soeurang: I don’t think it will last long
Soeurang: Are you sure you want to quit?
Sourang: I think you’re saying that.
Soeurang: I’m a bit anxious… Lol
Me: uhh
Soeurang: But I’m the only one who thinks so
Soeurang: You don’t have to worry about Nang haha
Me: Are you really that worried?
Sourang: Me?
Me: yes
Soeurang: Originally, I have a timid personality.
Soeurang: I have a lot of worries, but haha
Soeurang: You’re not asking that, are you?
Me: yes
Sourang: Well
Soeurang: Because it’s not a big deal
Soeurang: I get depressed easily
Me: For example?
Soeurang: There is something that Nang often says to me, right?
Soeurang: I’m going to go crazy haha
Soeurang: It’s an obscene year
Soeurang: Well, things like that
Soeurang: Of course I know it doesn’t mean that.
Soeurang: But I really want to look like that
Soeurang: I keep thinking about it… Lol
Me: huh
Soeurang: No, I’m not asking you to be careful.
So-Eul-ah: That’s why Nang-nim joked and laughed
Soeurang: It’s okay because I remember everything haha
Me: It’s the style of digging alone, right?
With Soeu: haha
Sourang: That’s right
Soeurang: I’m shoveling alone
Me: I have nowhere to complain
Me: The more I think about it, the more depressed I get
Me: lying down and scratching the floor
Soeurang: But these days
Soeurang: Because I was flirting with Nangnim
Sourang: It’s gotten a lot better haha
Me: I’m glad
Soeurang: Before, I stayed in my room alone
Soeurang: I cried until I collapsed from exhaustion
Soeurang: I’ve been waiting for you lately
Soeurang: I don’t want to lose energy for nothing.
Me: Is it because you have a lot of hard work?
Sourang: It’s not really like that.
Soeurang: Doesn’t everyone have times like that?
Soeurang: Even though I’m not doing anything
Soeurang: I feel like I just want to cry haha
Me: um
Soeurang: I don’t think Nang has ever been like that… Lol
Me: Everyone is different
Me: How to relieve stress
With Soeu: Yes
Soeurang: So until last year, I cried a lot.
Soeurang: Even if I saved only half of the three years I cried
Soeurang: He must have been 5cm taller haha
Me: Did it shrink because the moisture escaped?
Sourang: Don’t you think so?
Soeurang: It doesn’t seem to have any effect at all.
With Soeu: haha
Me: well
Me: If you had a hard time growing up
Me: I think it might be
Me: I don’t know lol
Sourang: That’s right
Me: but last year
Me: Yoona Seo
Soeurang: Meongmeong
Me: that
Me: I don’t want to answer, I don’t have to
Me: Maybe you were in high school
Me: no
Me: no
Me: okay
With Soeu: haha
Me: I know I shouldn’t ask
Me: I can’t even make you think of it
Me: But Seo Yoon-ah
Me: I need to hear this one
Soeurang: yes
Me: Is it possible to leave scars on the body?
Me: It’s good to feel safe
Me: My heart sinks while watching that
Me: Isn’t that so?
Soeurang: Because I hate being sick haha
Me: yes
Me: I’m glad
Soeurang: I think I’ll cry just being pricked by a needle
Soeulang: How can you hurt yourself because you’re scared… Lol
Sourang: It’s not that serious.
Me: ok
Me: I’m sorry
Soeurang: Do I look mentally unstable?
Me: no
Me: not like that
Soeurang: Too much haha
With Soeu: haha
Me: I asked because I was worried
Me: I heard earlier that you like leaving traces on your body.
N: Maybe like that
Me: what is it
Me: I wonder if it’s to find peace of mind
Me: otherwise
Soeurang: It’s different from that… ;;;
Me: yes?
Soeurang: The owner says he owns it
Soeurang: Leaving a mark
Soeulang: The fact that I hurt myself recklessly
Sourang: How do you feel?
Me: that too
Soeurang: Nang-nim, is it okay if you scratch your things?
Me: haha
Me: yes
Me: That’s the way you think
Me: got it
Soeurang: So even when punishing
Soeurang: Mentally touching
Soeurang: While I said that haha
Me: but it’s a little strange
Sourang: Where are you going?
Me: Am I the standard of action?
With Soeu: ?
Me: no, so
Me: Usually thinking or doing something
Me: Do you worry about whether or not I hate you?
Sourang: A little?
Sourang: no
Sourang: A little too much?
Me: yes?
Soeurang: yes
Soeurang: If it’s not the owner’s idea
Soeurang: Because there is nothing to do haha
Me: haha
Sourang: Is it weird?
Me: no
Me: rather than weird
Me: If you do that every day
Me: I wonder if you’re not tired
Sourang: Haven’t you ever thought of that?
Soeurang: Nang, you’re not that picky.
Soeurang: I don’t ask for anything
Sourang: Oh
Soeurang: You say that you usually notice the owner
Sourang: What are you trying to say… ?
It’s not me
Soeurang: Nope lol
Me: I just don’t understand
Soeurang: Nang-nim is paying attention
Soeurang: Do you really hate it?
Me: yes
Me: that too
Me: Not really for that reason
Me: I’m just sorry
Sourang: I know that too haha
Me: Certainly for kids with problems like you
Me: It seems that my heart is used
Me: This makes people upset
With Soeu: haha
Me: Do you cry a lot these days?
Soeurang: Since I started living alone, what?
Soeurang: You don’t have to look at your parents’ faces
Soeurang: Because I don’t really get involved with people.
Soeurang: Emotional ups and downs
Sourang: I’m not very depressed.
Soeurang: I’m not that excited lol
Me: Not a very healthy life
Soeurang: That’s right haha
Sourang: I think so too
Me: It’s nothing to laugh at, Seo Yoon-ah
Soeurang: But if you live like this
Soeurang: Nang-nim seems to know for some reason… Lol
Me : ?
Soeurang: I’m not motivated.
Soeurang: I want to lie down all the time
Soeurang: You really don’t want to do anything?
Me: Are you depressed?
Sourang: It’s not like that.
Soeurang: I just can’t move my body haha
Soeurang: Should I say that I have no desire to move?
Soeurang: Because my body is heavy like wet cotton
Soeurang: Eating is also bothersome
Soeurang: Because that state continues
Me: Isn’t that depressing?
Soeurang: Are you depressed… ?
Me: At least I don’t look happy
Sourang: I don’t know
Sourang: I just have no idea
Soeurang: Killing time blankly?
Soeurang: haha
Me: that’s a big deal
Soeurang: But these days, thanks to Nang, I’m fine hehe
Me: So if I don’t come
Me: You scratched the bar like that?
Soeurang: haha
Soeurang: It’s overpriced haha
Me: I was scratching until the side gourd broke.
Soeurang: It’s because I’m not sorry at all
Soeurang: I’ve been waiting all day
Soeurang: It seems like I was the only one waiting… ㅠㅠ
Me: uhh
Soeurang: And I mean I’m bored haha
Soeurang: I am like everyone else
Soeurang: What happened today
Sourang: What did you eat?
Soeurang: Such trivial things
Soeurang: I want to do it with Nang… Lol
Me: Are you angry because you didn’t come after waiting?
Soeurang: I feel sad haha
Me: tsk
Soeurang: That’s why it seems like you keep grumbling haha
Soeulang: If Nang-nim doesn’t come, leave your laptop on
Soeurang: Because I waited all day
Me: Do you eat well?
Soeurang: If you want to eat something simple?
Soeurang: Well, if I’m alone, I’m not even hungry.
Soeurang: It’s too troublesome to make one serving at a time.
Soeurang: Lay down and keep sleeping haha
Me: hmm
Soeurang: At least Nang-nim connects around the evening.
Soeurang: Get up and clean up haha
Soeurang: If you don’t eat, I’m afraid you’ll worry
Soeurang: I make rice and eat it.
Me: Do you wash?
Soeurang: haha
Soeurang: Because I don’t want to go around messy
Soeurang: I wash twice a day
Soeulang: Wake up in the morning and once
Soeulang: After going to school, one more time
Me: yes
Me: good job
With Soeu: haha
Me: I heard that only home school and home school are repeated
Me: I was just wondering if you like being at home
Me: That sounds like a troubled life
Sourang: I think so too… Lol
Me: that’s a big deal
Sourang: Where are you going?
Me: I think you need some maintenance
Me: today
Me: what
Me: 30 days?
Me: fuck
Me: A month has already passed
Soeurang: haha
Me: time goes so fast
Me: anyway
Me: Was it next week or the week after that?
Me: I don’t think I’ll be able to come in for a day or two.
Soeurang: Because of the reservists?
Me: yes
Me: I’m thinking about how I’ll be doing while I’m gone
Me: I think it will be a big problem if I leave it alone
With Soeu: haha
Me: What should I do with you?
Sourang: When are you going?
Me: when
Me: I think it was around the 11th.
Me: I’ll check the details later
Me: I can’t remember where I got the notice
With Soeu: haha
Soeurang: Organize and live
Me: so
Me: but first
Me: um
Me: Yoona Seo
Soeurang: Meongmeong
Me: Slowly think about what to do with you
Me: First of all, what I want to say to you
Soeurang: yes
Me: Don’t be fooled by what I’m saying
Me: It doesn’t mean much anyway
Me: If it’s really important
Me: Because I’ll tell you properly haha
Me: please don’t take it seriously
Sourang: But there is
Soeurang: Didn’t Nang just want to quit?
Soeurang: Whenever I say that
Soeurang: Do you know that I am very anxious?
Me: why
Sourang: Actually, that’s right… Lol
Soeurang: If you are very pretty or have a good style
Soeurang: I wasn’t worried about this either haha
Sourang: But it’s not.
Soeulang: My personality is very lively
Soeurang: It’s not fun when we’re together.
Me: um
Soeurang: Right now, Nang-nim says it’s my taste
Soeurang: Because I do naughty things as I am told
Soeurang: I deliberately take the time to play with you.
Soeurang: Actually, I don’t have any particular strengths.
Soeurang: If you think it’s not strange when you get tired of it
Soeurang: I’m getting anxious, so… Lol
Me: once
Me: Yoona Seo
Soeurang: Meongmeong
Me: listen
Sourang: yes
Me: Why am I saying that
Me: I’m not really trying to get you out
Me: You don’t know what’s going on with people’s work.
Me: right?
Soeurang: yes
Me: I see you here every day
Me: The service could be shut down suddenly
Me: Not very realistic lol
Me: Or is it because Seoyoon is busy studying?
Me: You might lose contact for a while
Soeurang: Uh
Me: that’s what i’m saying
Me: I don’t really like you
Me: That’s not what I’m saying
Sourang: I know… Lol
Soeurang: I’m still anxious
Soeurang: I keep trying to keep my distance
Me: uhh
Sourang: I’m sorry
Me: I’m not sorry
Me: I’m just sorry
Me: What can I do to be less anxious?
Sourang: I don’t know… Lol
Me: I don’t know what
Me: I know everything inside
Me: so to speak
Me: I’m just taking it out
Soeurang: haha
Me: right?
Soeurang: I think Nang is really right
Me: right what is right
Me: hit?
Soeurang: No haha
Sourang: It’s not like that
Soeurang: How do you know everything like that?
Soeurang: It’s great, really
Me: Because you’re so easy to understand
Soeulang: I was born, so it’s easy to know
Soeurang: Do you know what I first heard from Nang?
Me : ?
Soeurang: It’s true haha
Soeurang: I don’t know what everyone is thinking
Soeurang: Why do you look so gloomy?
Soeurang: Are you talking about being a good person next to me?
Me: ok
Me: stop
With Soeu: ㅠㅠ
Me: let’s go there
Me: Yoona Seo
Soeurang: Meongmeong
Me: I didn’t ask
Me: Why are you digging through your wounds alone?
Me: What’s the atmosphere like?
Me: I was barely recovering
Sourang: I’m sorry I didn’t notice
Me: I’m going to cut that thorn
Soeurang: haha
Soeurang: Sometimes it’s okay
Soeurang: Because I am always the only one who suffers haha
Me: Even if you die soon, you won’t see any loss?
With Soeu: haha
Me: ok well, that’s not important
Me: anyway
Me: If you want something, you should tell me
Me: otherwise I don’t know
Me: I’ll pretend I don’t know
Sourang: I know;
Me: keep your mouth shut
Me: I hate that as it is Seo Yoon-ah
Soeurang: Don’t say no
Me: It doesn’t mean I hate you haha
Soeurang: Yes
Me: done
Me: say something
Me: Let’s hear it
Sourang: That’s it
Me: yes
Soeurang: You know what Nang said the other day?
Soeurang: I kept thinking about that
Me : ?
Soeurang: Why don’t you call me Sub?
Soeurang: Looking at me, I communicate well.
Soeurang: The things you do are cute… Lol
Soeurang: But I’m afraid I won’t like it
Soeulang: I can’t draw a clear line
Sourang: You said so
Me: I think it’s slightly different from what I said?
Sourang: Yes?
Me: It’s not because I’m afraid that Seoyoon won’t like it.
Me: I’m afraid I won’t be able to say I don’t like it later
Me: I’m afraid I won’t even think of disliking it at all
Me: I don’t think I should jump to conclusions
Me: Didn’t you say that?
Sourang: What’s different?
Me: Even if I don’t hate it right now
Me: I’ve been through a lot more
Me: When time passes and you cool down
Me: I wonder why
Me: Couldn’t you regret it?
Me: what’s the difference
Sourang: I don’t know;;
Me: You don’t think you’ll regret it, do you?
Soeurang: yes
Me: It’s the most dangerous when you think like that
Me: That’s why I’m trying to leave other options available
Me: It’s a matter that doesn’t need to be decided in haste.
Soeurang: Nang-nim doesn’t need me… ?
Me: Why does it continue like that?
Soeurang: I feel like I’m the only one who’s not happy all the time ㅠㅠ
Soeulang: Nang-nim always gets out of the way
Me: I
Me: um
Me: I don’t know how it sounds to you
Me: Just tell it like it is
Sourang: yes
Me: I met a girl with a submissive personality
Me: To enjoy once or twice and finish
Me: You haven’t tried it?
With Soeu: ?
Me: listen to the end
Soeurang: yes
Me: But there are women like that
Me: um
Me: what should I say about this
Me: No matter how hard I try
Me: After all, you mean the enjoyment opponent?
Me: It’s like a one night stand
With Soeu: ;;;;;
Me: No matter how pretty the girl I met at the club
Me: As if I couldn’t see her as a girlfriend
Me: no
Me: I’m done talking about this
Me: Anyway, I tame them to my liking
Me: I can’t help but love and beautify you
Sourang: I see… Joe?
Me: If I was looking at you like that
Me: I already made them call me master
Me: I took out all my personal information through videos or photos
Me: After immobilizing
Soeurang: Uh
Me: In the bed you are sitting on right now
Me: Seoyoon must have been piercing it, right?
Soeurang: How did you know I was sitting on the bed… Lol
Me: yes?
Soeurang: yes
Me: ok whatever
Me: But what I want
Me: take as long as possible
Me: Because it’s a partner I can match
Me: Can I be honest?
Sourang: yes
Me: Because I want Seoyoon to obey me?
Me: By subduing and dominating the body and mind
Me: only follow my orders
Me: Showing affection only to me
Me: craving my attention and affection
Me: I want to tame her like that
Soeurang: The nape of my neck is tingling ㅠㅠ
Me: But it’s not in a hurry haha
Me: I want to be as careful as time permits
Me: I want to give you enough time to think
Me: It’s hard to finish once you start
Me: The sense of loss is great when the relationship is over
Soeurang: It’s not because I’m lacking, right?
Me: yes
Me: You can teach me what is lacking
Me: I’m not worried about that.
Me: Instead, Seoyoon
Me: um
Me: what
Me: interpersonal relationship
Me: Because I lack a lot of social experience
Me: I’m asking you to think a little deeper haha
Me: Is it really okay for me to be the owner?
Me: If you were to receive a teaching assistant in the future
Me: Are you confident enough to endure it?
Soeurang: You won’t believe me even if I say it’s okay… ?
Me: yes
Me: Of course not now
With Soeu: ㅠㅠ
Me: I’ll wait for you, so think about it slowly
Me: I have a lot of time, so what’s the rush?
Sourang: Then I’ll think about it.
Me: yes yes
Soeurang: I’ll seriously think about it.
Soeurang: Nang-nim shouldn’t say anything else later either.
Me: ok haha
Sourang: I say I’m fine
Soeurang: If Nang-nim changed his mind, then
Soeurang: I’m really going to cry
Me: no
With Soeu: haha
Me: Yeah well, I think I got a rough answer
Soeurang: But you know, Nang-nim
Me : ?
Me: why
Soeurang: It’s a bit much to say instead
Soeurang: Can you please do me one favor?
Me: what
Sourang: That’s it
Soeurang: It’s fine until the owner accepts it
Soeurang: In the meantime, I said that I belonged to the owner.
Soeurang: No, it’s going to be owned by the owner.
Sourang: Please indicate more clearly
Soeurang: I think I can be much more relieved.
Sourang: Can’t I… ?
