Chapter 57 – Saturday, April 26 02:00 PM (5)
Me: Do I only see that much of a human being?
Soeurang: It’s not like that haha
Me: He’s a fictitious me
Me: pretending to be loyal and barking like a dog
Me: At times like this, do you believe or not?
Me: I have no idea
Soeurang: Of course I believe it ㅠㅠ
It’s me
Me: It was a bit funny though Seoyoon haha
Me: It’s the first time I’ve heard that I’m tired of it because it’s so easy
Me: haha
Me: I’ve often heard that things have changed lately.
Soeurang: From your girlfriend?
Me: yes
Me: Are you aware that you are an easy woman?
Me: No, enough to feel easy
Me: What did we do? Haha
Soeurang: Okay so just say it
With Soeu: haha
Me: You’re an easy woman because you’ve opened your pussy once?
Soeurang: Oh, what!!!!
Me: haha
Me: ok
Soeurang: Did you tell me the reason and hit me… ㅠㅠ
Sourang: I don’t even know what the problem is.
Soeurang: That’s the only thing I can think of in my head.
Soeurang: Please talk and bully me!!
Me: why are you
Sourang: I didn’t do anything wrong.
Soeurang: Nang said it was the cause, but I can’t even guess
Soeurang: I don’t like to stop talking in the middle
Soeurang: I said it right above!!!
Me: that’s true
Sourang: Please explain.
Soeurang: If you keep doing that, I won’t be able to sleep tonight
Soeurang: I’m curious haha
Me: when I don’t talk to you
Me: Is it usually one of the two?
With Soeu: ?
Me: one
Me: When talking seems useless
Soeurang: Am I that unreliable?
Me: It’s not a matter of being trustworthy or not trustworthy haha
Me: I think I’ll be worried if I just say it
Me: If you don’t think you’ll get a proper answer
Me: Then what are you talking about?
Me: I’d rather not
Soeurang: Still, it would be nice if you told me everything… Lol
Soeurang: Nang-nim also said that talking to her would make it easier.
Me: It continues from there
Me: the other one
Me: It’s not something I can say to you
Me: When there is nothing to be gained by listening
Soeurang: Both seem to have the same meaning… Lol
Soeurang: What do you mean it’s not something you can talk about?
Soeurang: Is there something I shouldn’t listen to?
Me: well, that’s it
Soeurang: Like the story that Choco-nim went to visit?
Soeurang: He desperately hid it haha
Me: Aside from such chatty topics
B: Harm the dignity of the owner
Me: Because there is a fear of lowering the will of the sub
Me: There are a lot of things I refrain from
Sourang: Yes?
Me: Shall we give an example?
Soeurang: yes
Me: I put a leash on you
Me: Let’s say we’re going out for a walk naked?
Soeurang: I’m not wearing anything… ?
Me: Well, I have eyes to see
Me: I’ll put on a coat
Me: If you take a walk like that
Sourang: I know that
Soeulang: Outdoor Exposure Play
Me: yes
Me: Then of course you don’t think much
Me: Will you follow where I lead?
Soeurang: yes
Me: where is it
Me: You may be wondering where I’m taking you
Me: rather than where the place is
Me: what are you like
Me: You mean it’s going to be much more important?
Sourang: Probably so… Joe?
Soeurang: Going out naked is important.
Soeurang: I don’t think I’ll be particularly concerned about where I’m going.
Soeurang: Unless it’s in a very strange place
Me: From your point of view, I’m fucking anxious, scared, and ashamed
Me: What if people see it
Me: If the owner tells me to take off
Me: What, do you think so?
Soeurang: yes
Me: Of course
Me: Because it’s originally like that
Me: But anyway, it’s a game after all, right?
With Soeu: ?
Me: no, so
Sourang: I don’t know what you mean haha
Me: I’m not taking you to places you’ve never seen before
Me: Spending some time looking for a safe route
Me: Check how many people are going
Me: try a simulation
Me: Check the place where you can breathe properly
Me: Where can I hide in case of emergency?
Me: Because I have to check everything in advance
Soeurang: There’s a lot more to do than I thought… Lol
Soeurang: I thought I could just go out and walk around;;
Me: Of course there should be
Soeurang: Is that why you told me not to go out alone?
Soeurang: Because originally, it required a lot of preparation like that?
Me: yes
Me: That’s why it’s a bit difficult to be alone
Me: dangerous
Soeurang: The owner seems to be having a really hard time haha
Soeurang: How do you do all of that?
Me: It’s true that it’s annoying, but haha
Me: If I suffer a little and it ends safely
Me: It’s cheap, what?
Sourang: Oh
Me: But think of it as talking to the sub one by one
Me: I wonder if I’m showing condescension, so I’m going to wake up a little, right?
Me: I wonder if he’s bragging about his hard work
Sourang: Yes?
Me: yes
Soeurang: Usually, because of me, you suffered.
Soeurang: Isn’t it normal to feel grateful first?
Me: It depends on the person
Me: But even if you think like that at first
Me: If that conversation keeps repeating itself
Me: Nothing good at all in the long run
Sourang: I don’t think it matters.
Me: I said
Me: Diet is a role play after all
Me: As much as I want an obedient puppy
Me: It’s natural for the other person to ask for an ideal owner
Me: Then you have to do what you want. What should I do?
Sourang: It’s difficult
Me: It’s difficult
Soeurang: Don’t you think you’re losing money?
Soeurang: There are many things to worry about
Soeulang: I have to take responsibility for everything
Sourang: I have a lot to do.
Me: So sometimes
Me: what am I doing
Me: why are you doing this
Me: There are times when everything feels meaningless
Me: haha
Soeurang: haha
Me: I thought about hitting them all
Me: If you don’t contact me and go diving
Me: I want to get angry in a few days
Soeurang: Aye
Soeurang: But Nang-nim can’t do that
Me: Who really said that
Me: I’m just thinking
Soeurang: But the fact that I had such thoughts
Soeurang: Aren’t you being unfaithful to the other person?
Me: um
Me: I have nothing to say
Me: It’s too simplistic
Sourang: That’s true, isn’t it?
Soeurang: Think of your partner as precious
Soeurang: Because Nang said that haha
Me: yes
Me: it was
Me: you’re right
Soeurang: If you hit me for being annoying then
Soeurang: You can’t start from the beginning haha
Me: I know haha
Me: I just said it once
Me: You’re being very strict
With Soeu: haha
Me: I didn’t think so
Me: Seoyoon has a secretly tight corner
Me: When I get a boyfriend later
Me: Even if I just turn my head to a woman passing by
Me: Are you scolding me?
Me: haha
Sourang: Why?
I know
Me: you’re not that kind of person
Me: I’m going to grumble for a while haha
Sourang: No, that’s not it
Me : ?
Soeurang: You have a boyfriend, but why are you looking at other girls?
Me: um
Sourang: Then you can’t
Me: no, it is
Me: How about watching for a while haha
Me: I’m not trying to cheat
Soeurang: Is that so;;
Me: If you see a handsome man, you look back and do that.
Me: An idol is passing by right now
Me: Can you see the squid next to you?
Me: It’s similar to that haha
Soeurang: For me, when my boyfriend is next to me
Sourang: I don’t think so
Sourang: I’m sorry
Me: that’s right
Me: Let’s make some excuses for your future boyfriend
Me: It has nothing to do with loving you
Me: It’s because it’s an animal that was originally born that way.
Sourang: But you can’t do that.
Soeurang: They must be dating because they like each other
Me: Should I see this as dedication?
Me: Or should I say that I have a strong desire to monopolize?
Me: I don’t know lol
Me: no, but
Me: um
Me: well
Me: You said you would lend me money the other day
Soeurang: I won’t lend it to Nang.
Soeurang: Because it’s different from the owner.
Me: I don’t need money on my nose either
Soeurang: haha
Soeurang: I didn’t ask haha
Me: anyway
Me: Your boyfriend will have a hard time
Me: I will fight a lot
Me: lol
Soeurang: Did Nang do the same?
Nana?
With Soeu: Yes
Soeurang: Even though my girlfriend is by my side
Soeurang: Did you go around looking at other girls?
It’s me
Me: what do you mean
Me: I just glanced at it
Me: What are you looking through?
Me: I have one life and one girlfriend
Soeurang: haha
Soeurang: But what did your girlfriend say?
Me: If you’re going to look at me anyway
Me: At least he said to look at a girl who is prettier than him
Me: If you’re uglier than yourself, you’ll hurt your pride
Soeurang: Wow
Soeurang: Confidence is cool
Me: What is Confidence?
Me: I’m just saying don’t look
Sourang: Why?
Me: in front of my girlfriend
Me: How can you say that girl is prettier than you?
Me: It’s much easier to say that we should break up
Sourang: Oh
Soeurang: haha
Soeurang: haha
Me: anyway
Me: I don’t know why the story came this far
Me: What I’m not saying
Me: Because there is a good reason
Me: don’t be too curious
Soeurang: I’m still curious… ㅠㅠ
Soeurang: Really not?
Me: Did he even listen to what I said?
Soeurang: I’ll keep it a secret haha
Me: tell me honestly
Me: Are you curious about what it is about?
Me: just because I don’t talk
Me: That’s what bothers me now
With Soeu: haha
Me: We all like secrets the same
Soeurang: No, I’m not curious because it’s a secret.
Soeurang: What is Nang worried about… Lol
Soeurang: That’s what I want to know
Sourang: Do you know?
Sourang: Can I be of any help?
Me: my furrow
Me: I thought you had a light personality
Me: Are there any parts that are more persistent than you thought?
Me: haha
Soeurang: I don’t think it has anything to do with me haha
Soeurang: Unless it’s a state secret
Soeurang: Let’s talk haha
Me: Have I been pampered lately?
Me: Then, sooner or later, don’t cry because you’ll be tightly disciplined
Me: Let’s be careful when they look at us as moderately cute
Me: okay?
Soeurang: It hasn’t even been a day since I got scolded haha
Me: Is it the same as getting scolded for something you did wrong?
Me: Anyway, I warned Seo Yoon-ah
Me: Even if I didn’t listen and begged later that I was wrong
Me: You know it’s useless, right?
Sourang: I’ll be careful
Me: yes
Me: It’s nothing anyway
Me: that’s true
Me: what to do next
Me: I was thinking
Soeurang: Ohh?
Me: If you don’t tell me, I’ll beg you to the end
Soeurang: haha
Soeurang: But what do you do?
Soeurang: Are you talking about play?
Me: yes what
Soeurang: Something like a plan?
Me: rather than a plan
Me: Orientation?
With Soeu: ?
Me: I don’t have anything to say to you
Me: No, I really don’t want to
Me: Can’t we just move on?
Soeurang: If you’ve come this far, just give up haha
Me: Are you gradually becoming more like me?
Soeurang: I deliberately tried to imitate
Soeurang: haha
Me: yes
Me: what’s different about you
Me: It’s all the same haha
Sourang: What is it?
Me: no
Me: By the way, this is really tricky to explain.
Me: To be honest, it’s embarrassing
Soeurang: I heard that the owner won’t play unless he’s playing haha
Soeurang: But what if it’s a bit embarrassing haha
Me: Why are you like this today haha
Me: Is this the Seoyoon I know?
Me: Since a while ago, I’ve been stabbing myself in the middle
With Soeu: haha
Me: Actually, this is a bit like telling you
Me: It’s because I don’t know what to do with you in the future
Me: haha
Sourang: Why?
Soeurang: Nang, you have a lot of experience.
Soeurang: Can’t we just do what we normally do?
Me: Not much compared to the others
Me: In my case, I was lucky enough to meet a decent person.
Me: I was upset because it was difficult to take the initiative
Me: I didn’t have to teach from the bottom like you did.
Me: That’s why I don’t feel like I’ve been a bit fuzzy about education.
Me: I’m watching what you’re doing right now
Me: To be honest, I am acutely feeling my lack of experience.
Soeurang: Nang-nim who has no confidence haha
Sourang: It’s so good
Me: no shit
Me: That’s why I didn’t want to say it
Me: Why do I have to tell you this?
Soeurang: Don’t do that and do it until the end haha
Soeurang: It started anyway
Soeurang: So, won’t Nang-nim not feel bad?
Me: tsk
With Soeu: haha
Me: ok whatever
Me: Of course I know how to teach
Me: I know
Soeurang: Is your body not following you?
Soeulang: Or are you stabbed by your conscience?
Me: no
Me: not that
Me: Usually, when you start, you destroy your ego.
Me: You have to break your pride, even if you overdo it, so you can become compliant
Me: It’s easy to make them accept you as their master
Soeurang: Uh
Me : ?
Sourang: No, that’s… Lol
Soeurang: Before, whenever Nangnim told me about this
Soeurang: I was unfamiliar and nervous
Soeurang: Why did I tickle you today haha
Me: Are you still talking?
Soeurang: Yes haha
Me: Anyway, you have to break your pride from the beginning
Me: I won’t even resist later
Me: No, it’s at the level where you won’t be destroyed even if you rebel.
Me: You mean it’s good to gradually increase the difficulty level?
Soeurang: Shouldn’t I be like that too?
Me: But you call me master
Me: You didn’t have much resistance from the beginning
Me: Since I didn’t know anything in the first place
Me: You said that you have a romance to be treated like a pet
Soeurang: They say it’s when you don’t know anything
Soeurang: It sounds very old haha
Me: Is it because my original personality is passive?
Me: If you tell me, I follow you well.
Me: It’s rather difficult to progress
Sourang: But
Soeurang: Nangnim
Me: yes
Soeurang: It’s not usually the opposite… ?
Soeurang: Isn’t it difficult not to listen?
Me: Normally it would be
Me: But onplay is limited in what you can do
Me: Because we’re not meeting face to face
Sourang: That’s right
Me: It is not possible to give and receive feedback right away.
Me: Usually, I have to give up the part that I can fill psychologically.
Me: I need to fill the empty space with play contents
Me: If that happens, it will probably become too extreme
Soeurang: I think it’s okay to be extreme.
Me: can it be
Me: No matter how repulsive it is, still
Me: Seoyoon, the limit you can endure is very low.
Me: But what if you blindly raise the level?
Sourang: I can’t… Joe?
Me: yes
Me: If you try to take it off only with momentum, it will be ruined quickly
Me: The psychological part too
Me: Physically, of course.
Me: So, I have to adjust it without overdoing it.
Sourang: Well
Sourang: I don’t know;;
Me: that’s what I said
Me: Even if you heard it, it’s useless
Me: I’d rather say nothing than say nothing
Soeurang: It’s more serious than I thought… Lol
Me: Do you want to hear it for nothing? Haha
With Soeu: ㅠㅠ
Me: I was too anxious to tell you
Me: You don’t have to know
Me: I don’t need to know
Soeurang: Actually, among the things Nangnim told me
Soeurang: Except for the fact that there are few things that can be said online.
Soeurang: I’m not sure if I understood correctly… ㅠ
Me: I can’t help it even if I don’t understand
Me: Because I didn’t have anything to say to you anyway
Me: I don’t care if I just listen and forget
Soeurang: Nangnim just tied it with a rope
Soeurang: It’s not something you can hit with a whip haha
Me: How come it sounds wishful thinking?
Soeurang: It’s not even what I hoped for… Lol
Me: then?
