LAN Line Teaching Record 226

Chapter 226 – Monday, May 26 5 PM (5)

Chocolate milk: I don’t know what’s good about it

Me: While passing the time
Me: With lingering feelings for each other
Me: Because I think I’m getting old
Me: honestly it gave me goosebumps

Chocolate Milk: So why is that a problem?

Me: It’s us, well, we’re used to it
Me: Even if others think it’s strange
Me: What’s weird about it?
Me: You don’t know what’s wrong

Chocolate Milk: Isn’t everyone like that anyway?
Chocolate milk: Must be good for others to see
Chocolate Milk: Should I like it?

Me: I thought so too until recently
Me: I’ve been thinking about that for the past few days.
Me: Originally, only trees can be seen in the forest.
Me: When only we laugh and chat and meet
Me: I don’t know what the problem is.

Chocolate Milk: Isn’t that enough?

Me: There must be something you can only see from the outside

Chocolate Milk: Do I have to notice others?
Chocolate milk: You don’t even have that kind of personality

Me: I don’t mean to look at others
Me: Maybe I’m wrong
Me: I need a chance to think about it
Me: Something that is too natural for us
Me: From the outside, in the eyes of others
Me: It may seem strange enough

Chocolate Milk: So?

Me: If I knew something was wrong, I should correct it

Chocolate Milk: You’re saying this is wrong now?

Me: Ordinary… Let’s say it’s not
Me: To my girlfriend who broke up with me a few years ago
Me: Even though it’s my first love haha
Me: I still have lingering lingering feelings
Me: To be honest, aren’t you insane?

Chocolate Milk: But you did well so far
Chocolate Milk: Come now, yes… Lol

Me: The meaning of doing well… Lol
Me: It should be written a little differently this time
Me: It’s true that we got along well
Me: In the meantime, with you and Gildong
Me: I don’t have much contact.
Me: Even though there is no resemblance haha
Me: I ate friends and had fun

Chocolate milk: no

Me: But it’s not because there’s really no problem
Me: You just put off the troublesome things lol
Me: Put away the cumbersome things into a corner
Me: How is it different from erasing it from memory?

Chocolate Milk: Was your sister uncomfortable and cumbersome?

Me: it doesn’t mean that

Chocolate milk: No, it sounds like that, but now

Me: You know that nothing good will happen if you put it off
Me: Don’t you have that experience too?
Me: I know I’m wrong
Me: I understand that it shouldn’t be like this
Me: Where the hell do I start?
Me: If you leave it alone because you can’t think of it

Chocolate milk: ok

Me: I want to believe that I wasn’t the only one like that haha
Me: If you code, there are always cases
Me: Does it feel more real to me then?

Chocolate milk: I don’t think there’s any

Me: yes

Chocolate milk: When I was in school too
Chocolate milk: When the professor gives an assignment
Chocolate Milk: Because I endured it until it was close

Me: I wish I had played until right before the report submission deadline
Me: I have to write even if I stay up all night lol
Me: I’ll sacrifice some quality, but
Me: Submitting even at the last minute
Me: It’s better than throwing it all away
Me: If I give up there, I’ll just leave.

Chocolate milk: Are you saying we’re on the edge too?

Me : ?

Chocolate milk: Is it right before the submission deadline?

Me: that’s what I think
Me: It’s already been 5 years since we met, right?
Me: In the next 5 years
Me: We are both over 30
Me: Don’t you think it would be really late then?

Chocolate milk: I don’t know
Chocolate milk: Is age a logarithm?
Chocolate milk: To be honest, among the customers who come to the store
Chocolate milk: I’m not polite even after eating over 30
Chocolate milk: You guys who didn’t eat rice
Chocolate milk: It’s enough to spill out of a truck.

Me: I’ve seen it a lot too

Chocolate milk: If I think I’ll be 30 soon
Chocolate milk: Are you getting really nervous?
Chocolate milk: I have nothing
Chocolate milk: I haven’t achieved anything.
Chocolate milk: I feel like I’m getting older
Chocolate milk: There are married friends around me
Chocolate Milk: There are some bitches who live happily

Me: yes

Chocolate Milk: I think I’m the only one who’s pathetic and lacking
Chocolate milk: Just thinking about it makes me very scared
Chocolate Milk: But even if you turn 30
Chocolate milk: I don’t think it will change much
Chocolate Milk: Work the same, eat the same
Chocolate milk: I’ll put on makeup and go to work and complain

Me: Honestly, I think so too

Chocolate milk: no

Me: It’s not like people change
Me: I don’t think it will change much
Me: I’m getting a little more tired
Me: becoming a little more stubborn
Me: The pain will increase more and more

Chocolate milk: increasingly realistic… It will be
Chocolate milk: I wonder if something will change in particular

Me: but that’s different
Me: The problem or weakness I have right now
Me: You mean bad habits don’t change

Chocolate milk: That… Right?

Me: So I want to solve it before it’s too late
Me: The next time you regret for the same reason
Me: Until now, nothing happened
Me: I will continue to live like this
Me: Before completely giving up and understanding

Chocolate Milk: But is that bad?

Me : ?

Chocolate milk: Everyone else lives like that anyway
Chocolate milk: Draw a line clearly every time like that
Chocolate milk: label and organize
Chocolate milk: sorted by category
Chocolate Milk: How many people are like that?
Chocolate Milk: Can’t you just say Yu-Ya-Mu?

Me: ok, not much

Chocolate Milk: Can’t we just live like that?
Chocolate Milk: If you still have regrets, can we be friends?
Chocolate milk: If it’s not ordinary to others
Chocolate milk: Is that necessarily abnormal?
Chocolate Milk: They’re not even responsible.
Chocolate Milk: Isn’t it enough that you and I are satisfied?

Me: um

Chocolate Milk: Or did you really hate it?
Chocolate milk: Is it because you’ve lost affection?

Me: it’s not

Chocolate milk: But why are you suddenly like this?
Chocolate Milk: Tell me if you’ve done anything wrong
Chocolate milk: Because my sister will fix it
Chocolate milk: I haven’t heard from you for a while
Chocolate milk: What are you saying suddenly?

Me: You’ve seen me too, so you know haha
Me: I’m not a diligent person
Me: It’s only after the lights in my feet run out
Me: I’m a slow-paced guy
Me: If you know you will definitely regret it
Me: At least you shouldn’t repeat the same mistakes

Chocolate Milk: You just said it was a mistake

Me: yes
Me: Actually, I said 5 years
Me: It didn’t mean much
Me: Turning thirty
Me: I can’t imagine
Me: I meant the Maginot Line

Chocolate milk: ok

Me: Anyway, when I was older than now
Me: I don’t know when that will be.
Me: After repeating the same mistake for the same reason
Me: Isn’t it terrible to think of having the same regrets?

Chocolate milk: Are you sure you’ll regret it a while ago?

Me: That’s why I didn’t tell you
Me: It’s not the first time.
Me: So I’m almost certain

Chocolate milk: You may not regret it

Me: in the same vein
Me: You can definitely regret it, right?

Chocolate Milk: That’s right… Ji

Me: Actually, it’s not like I didn’t have a chance.
Me: But whenever that happens, it’s always Eoyoung Booyoung
Me: Yuyamuya I just move on haha
Me: I didn’t act right
Me: And now that’s back

Chocolate Milk: You talk like a man today

Me: I might have been affected a bit
Me: I had a short phone call today too haha

Chocolate Milk: Would you like to clean up with me?

Me: I’ll tell you in case you misunderstand
Me: First of all, among those who know you and me
Me: No one ever said anything like that
Me: Rather, everyone is looking at me
Me: Why did you bother me so much?
Me: I was in a scolding position haha

Chocolate milk: what about furangi?

Me: Furang said to reconcile quickly
Me: I don’t know what’s going on
Me: I guess I was wrong anyway
Me: Because it gets harder when you’re late
Me: I heard you quickly get down on your knees and beg for it haha

Chocolate Milk: But what’s wrong with you?

Me: Before that, let me make one thing clear?

Chocolate milk: yes

Me: Can I tell you this too?
Me: I’ve been thinking about it for a long time
Me: You went to sleep at my house a while ago
Me: To be honest, my mentality was blown

Chocolate milk: I know

Me: yes

Chocolate Milk: That’s how it looked

Me: I thought we could get along well as friends
Me: I still have lingering feelings for you
Me: I feel sorry for the furry
Me: I have mixed thoughts
Me: I’m completely mentally blown up haha

Chocolate milk: yes

Me: I thought it would be best to cut off contact with you

Chocolate milk: I don’t even have the strength to get angry anymore
Chocolate milk: Go ahead, just
Chocolate milk: Yes haha
Chocolate Milk: Let’s see how far it goes

Me: No matter how many years have passed
Me: If there are any regrets left
Me: I just can’t see
Me: It seemed like the right answer
Me: Everyone said so

Chocolate Milk: That’s why you didn’t hear from me?

Me: You said it was for a different reason
Me: It has nothing to do with it
Me: I thought so
Me: I wish I could do that.
Me: You must have already turned your back on us when we broke up

Chocolate Milk: Even so
Chocolate Milk: So?

Me: Then I got scolded by the uncle

Chocolate milk: What are you scolded for?

Me: Just what, while you think about it alone
Me: How hard would the chocolate be?
Me: Even if you’re well-intentioned
Me: Because it wasn’t meant to be like this
Me: They told me not to cosplay as a victim

Chocolate milk: lol

Me: Why am I even talking about this?
Me: I’m not trying to make excuses lol
Me: I just want you to know
Me: how I feel right now
Me: And if possible, I want to talk with you

Chocolate Milk: What to do next?

Me: You felt the same way as me
Me: With the guy I just dated
Me: We can be good friends
Me: I wouldn’t have thought of it seriously

Chocolate Milk: You said you wanted to do that.

Me: yes
Me: It’s funny when you think about it now
Me: I’m tired of fighting with you every time
Me: Even though I said we should break up haha
Me: I don’t know what to do
Me: Is it the end if you just turn your back and go on your way?

Chocolate Milk: What do you want to say?

Me: I didn’t know what to do
Me: honestly, I didn’t want to break up with you
Me: It’s affectionate to the point of hatred haha
Me: Looking at your face all the while
Me: Fighting, reconciling, bickering

Chocolate milk: He said he didn’t like it

Me: Of course I didn’t like it lol
Me: who likes it
Me: But since we’re about to break up
Me: I’m afraid of the thought of everything disappearing
Me: A whole person disappears from life
Me: It’s strange to take it so easily

Chocolate Milk: Then why did you ask to break up?

Me: I didn’t unilaterally notify you
Me: If you’re going to be like this too, I’d rather break up
Me: Isn’t that what you used to say like a habit?
Me: I’ve heard that hundreds of times haha

Chocolate Milk: Of course I didn’t mean it.

Me: Actually, I don’t know if I was serious or not.
Me: It doesn’t matter much now
Me: At the time, it was like that
Me: let’s be friends
Me: It’s funny when I think about it now
Me: There was a sound that I didn’t like

Chocolate milk: It doesn’t matter, why not?

Me: Because it’s over now

Chocolate milk: Is it over?

Me: Whether or not you have any regrets
Me: Once we broke up
Me: That’s where it ends
Me: Isn’t that obvious?

Chocolate Milk: Then what about now?

Me: I can’t think of what to say
Me: I’m not sure we’re dating.
Me: Because we split completely a few years ago
Me: And we still have lingering feelings for each other
Me: It must be hard to even call them true friends

Chocolate Milk: Then what is it?

Me: I think

Chocolate milk: yes

Me: I think it’s just an afterword

Chocolate milk: ?

Me: An overly long review

Chocolate milk: Something from a novel?

Me: yes
Me: The story is over
Me: Because I didn’t cover the book
Me: I can’t let it go

Chocolate milk: You mean a samurai?

Me: I don’t want to say it’s useless though
Me: To be honest, I had a lot of fun with you
Me: I think we’ve become closer than when we were dating
Me: Because there wasn’t much to fight haha

Chocolate milk: no

Me: And if I keep my mouth shut here
Me: Because I know we can always be together
Me: Is it really okay to be like this?
Me: I’m still hesitating

Chocolate Milk: If you’re hesitant, that means you’re not sure yet.
Chocolate milk: Can’t you think about it and tell me later?

Me: Of course I’ll think about it some more
Me: I’m not trying to come to a quick conclusion
Me: what I think
Me: I’m saying this because I want you to know too

Chocolate milk: I can’t get my head around right now

Me: I suddenly said this
Me: I’m sorry too
Me: but if not now
Me: I don’t think there’s any chance

Chocolate Milk: Do you think I will ask you out?

Me: haha

Chocolate milk: don’t laugh
Chocolate milk: I’m not kidding

Me: No, I remembered that I said that before
Me: Maybe it’s me… I think it was
Me: No matter what, once the relationship is solidified
Me: It’s hard to write another name there

Chocolate milk: ?

Me: so my girlfriend
Me: I can’t be a girlfriend
Me: The opposite is also true

Chocolate Milk: Why did you say that to Furrang?

Me: Talking as carefully as possible
Me: Let’s decide what’s best… Would have been

Chocolate Milk: Why are you telling me that?

Me: If I was going to date you again
Me: I don’t think I would have regretted it there.
Me: just like before
Me: no, that’s it
Me: It’s kind of like this

Chocolate Milk: Didn’t you say it was because of the furry?

Me: But don’t get me wrong
Me: The furry complained
Me: never
Me: I think you’ll be misunderstood like that
Me: I deliberately didn’t want to talk about it
Me: After getting scolded by Daddy Never

Chocolate Milk: No, it’s useless to talk about it.
Chocolate milk: Anyway, the furry is the trigger, right?

Me: ok

Chocolate milk: My head hurts, really

Me: If only I kept my mouth shut at first
Me: You thought it would be okay?
Me: Actually it is haha
Me: Where is a person without a past?
Me: Unless it’s a mosol like furangi

Chocolate milk: What are you talking about suddenly?

Me: Some time ago, Furrang kept asking me
Me: Who have you met before? Who have you dated?
Me: Everyone just covers it up and moves on
Me: The problem of deliberately covering up
Me: Because I keep touching and wondering
Me: I wonder if it’s because he has no dating experience
Me: If you listen to that kind of thing, you’ll only get hurt
Me: I got annoyed when I told them a few times and it didn’t work

Chocolate Milk: What?

Me: But now that I think about it
Me: I think I was the problem
Me: I’m not a kid who can’t understand words
Me: I think I spoke well

Chocolate Milk: Because I keep asking?

Me: yes
Me: I didn’t know why he did that at the time
Me: I just thought you were a bit sensitive
Me: Because I’m not that trustworthy
Me: I thought maybe I was anxious

Chocolate Milk: Very affectionate

Me: To be honest, I’m not that sensitive
Me: I don’t know what the furry felt
Me: The touch of women… One say?
Me: I don’t think I’ll ever understand

Chocolate Milk: He must be sharper than a guy like you.

Me: yes
Me: I might be the problem
Me: Because I think so haha
Me: I’m very sorry

Choco Milk: Is this what you’ve grown up with?

Me: How I wish
Me: People don’t change easily
Me: That’s for sure haha
Me: I still go back and forth
Me: I’m still reflecting a lot
Me: I will have to work harder in the future

Chocolate milk: I can only sigh, really

Me: I think I just told you to understand unconditionally
Me: I’m very sorry.
Me: In the meantime, I told people
Me: how did you treat me
Me: I was so pathetic because it looked rough
Me: So I’m very sorry to you right now

Chocolate Milk: No, that’s okay.

Me: yes

Chocolate Milk: So?
Chocolate Milk: What are you going to do?

Me: First of all, that’s all I wanted to say
Me: That’s all the reasons I’ve been thinking
Me: Excuses… It might sound like
Me: I tried to be as honest as possible

Chocolate milk: Are you serious?

Me: yes
Me: I’m serious

Chocolate milk: You say very cruel things
Chocolate milk: I don’t know if it’s on purpose
Chocolate milk: Are you ignoring it at all?
Chocolate Milk: How did I feel during that time?
Chocolate Milk: Have you ever thought about it?