LAN Line Teaching Record 172

Chapter 172 – Thursday, May 15 6 PM (7)

Soeurang: I just don’t know… Lol
Soeurang: There is no one to ask
Soeurang: If you’re thinking about it alone
Soeurang: It keeps flowing in a strange direction

Me: That’s Seoyoon’s main specialty
Me: she didn’t say anything
Me: Shoveling alone and digging a grave
Me: Lying down in it haha

Soeurang: I will.

Me: Of course I didn’t do anything wrong.
Me: I have no intention of blaming Seo Yoon-il
Me: Being endlessly depressed
Me: It’s not a very good habit, is it?

Soeurang: To borrow the expression of the owner
Soeurang: Shoveling alone
Soeurang: It’s completely become a habit

Me: It’s hard to change habits overnight

Soeurang: I think it shouldn’t be
Soeurang: It’s not easily fixed

Me: sorry

Soeurang: Why are you apologizing… Lol

Me: Seoyoon’s mental care is also my role.
Me: If you were anxious because you neglected it
Me: Of course it’s my responsibility as the owner

Soeurang: I didn’t mean to get an apology from the owner;;;

Me: Did you think I didn’t care?

Soeurang: Rather than not paying attention
Soeurang: Of course, that too
Soeurang: What can I say more than that?

Me: yes

Soeurang: For some reason, I seem to be digging my eyes.
Soeurang: Do you feel like your mind is focused on something else?
Soeurang: As if I don’t care

Me: yes

Soeurang: Because the owner said no
Sourang: Of course not
Soeurang: I felt that way back then.
Soeurang: That’s why I was very sad.

Me: Of course I’m sad

Sourang: So, this story ends here.
Soeurang: Let’s pretend it’s my misunderstanding… Lol

Me: No matter how personal
Me: I can’t explain properly
Me: I just told you to understand
Me: I really have nothing to say to Seoyoon.

Sourang: Don’t do that haha
Sourang: I couldn’t help it.

Me: Apart from what I couldn’t help it
Me: My attitude toward Seoyoon
Me: there was something wrong
Me: You must have felt that you were keeping a distance, right?

Soeurang: Uh

Me: that’s why I apologize

Soeurang: It’s okay because it’s okay;;

Me: leave me alone
Me: Seoyoon was also disappointed

Soeurang: No, if the owner is like this haha
Soeurang: Because I can’t help it
Soeurang: You seem angry and obsessed, right?

Me: I don’t think so

Soeurang: I’m not that kind of girl.

Me: I’m going to continue what I said before
Me: Being anxious is not an obsession?
Me: Especially in this case haha
Me: for whatever reason
Me: I neglected Seoyoon
Me: Because that was the result

Soeurang: No, master

Me: Stay alone while I’m gone
Me: Wouldn’t you have just pondered that?
Me: My body hurts too much
Me: I must have been seriously depressed

Sourang: Yes, but
Sourang: Still
Sourang: Don’t apologize
Soeurang: Because I think I did something wrong

Me: Are you sure you’re doing something wrong?

Sourang: It was unavoidable.
Soeurang: Enough to waste it with something like that
Soeurang: I’m not a child either.

Me: If someone you don’t know sees
Me: I think Seoyoon is the older sister

Sourang: Why?

Me: You’re more mature than me

With Soeu: haha

Me ; There is an unavoidable circumstance or reason
Me: Even if she can understand it
Me: Understanding and moving on is another matter
Me: Isn’t that possible being an adult?

Soeurang: What I heard from the owner was that he was mature
Soeurang: I think this is the first time… Lol

Me: But Seo Yoon-ah

Soeurang: Meongmeong

Me: I’m not sure it’s good right now
Me: Holding back is not the answer
Me: So I don’t know if there’s a guarantee that it will get better

With Soeu: ?

Me: Of course, most of them tolerate it
Me: It’s not the right answer, but it’s the best
Me: Because I’m the least confident
Me: Now to Seoyoon too haha
Me: I’m not in a position to be proud

Soeurang: haha

Me: If I catch my breath and suppress my emotions for a moment
Me: I see a clue in a good direction
Me: At least there are many times when it doesn’t go to the worst

Sourang: That’s right

Me: Even if I get angry after I become an adult
Me: In the end, it only harms me

Soeurang: But, master

Me: yes

Soeurang: I think it ruins the atmosphere
Soeurang: I’m a little cautious.
Sourang: What you just said
Sourang: Where did you hear that?

Me: to never old man

Sourang: Ah, of course… Lol

Me: Are you too tired?

Soeurang: What the owner used to say
Soeurang: It feels different for some reason… Lol
Soeurang: I explain often, but
Soeurang: You smell like that
Soeurang: I’m not good at preaching.

Me: I will cry when I hear it

Soeurang: haha

Me: You can’t say it smells

Soeurang: Somehow, it sounded like something I didn’t like haha

Me: I know it in my head
Me: It’s the kind of knowledge that can’t be put into practice

Soeurang: That’s why I thought it was a little strange.

Me: But, well, it’s not wrong haha
Me: If there’s nothing to be gained
Me: Why would I be angry?
Me: Even if it only causes damage

Sourang: That’s right

Me: Because I can always endure like an adult
Me: If trouble can be avoided
Me: Would that be the best way?

Soeurang: Yes, my master.

It’s not me

With Soeu: ?

Me: never

Sourang: What is it… ?

Me: Didn’t I ask for this once before?
Me: I think I remember saying it once.

With Soeu: ?

Me: ok
Me: It’s not even a day or two

Sourang: What is it?

Me: Nothing will change if you endure alone?
Me: Especially Seoyoon should never do that.
Me: I have a passive personality from the beginning
Me: I’m already in the position of being submissive
Me: I must have endured a lot of things inside
Me: If you embrace unfair and sad things

Soeurang: Uh

Me: It explodes in the wrong place later

Soeurang: They said it would be a loss to get angry… Lol

Me: So, would you say it prevents more damage?
Me: Things I was sad about piled up
Me: If it explodes all at once
Me: I don’t think I’ll even bother to fix it.

Sourang: That… That’s the case

Me: Then, finally break the side
Me: You want to stick together
Me: Does Seoyoon like it that way?

Soeurang: There’s no way that’s the case;;;

Me: Both perfectly rational
Me: Because I’m a reasonable adult
Me: I can stand it even when I’m angry
Me: Because I can control my emotions
Me: If it is possible to solve it through dialogue
Me: That would be the best

Sourang: I like that too

Me: Aren’t we both adults like that?

Soeurang: Master is definitely… Lol
Soeurang: I don’t think I can stand it.
Soeurang: Because he has a very hot-tempered personality

Me: Look at Seoyoon like that

With Soeu: ?

Me: Seoyoon isn’t holding back because he’s an adult now
Me: They’re just keeping an eye out for fear of offending me
Me: If you really thought it couldn’t be helped
Me: You wouldn’t have even talked about it like this, right?

Sourang: Yes…

Me: Later in a quieter place
Me: I would have spoken calmly
Me: By bursting like this
Me: Didn’t Seoyoon want to do it too?

Soeurang: I cried for a moment

Me: I don’t say I endured that
Me: I must say it was buried shallowly
Me: I just cover it with soil
Me: To the extent that it can be seen when rubbed with one’s feet

Sourang: I was wrong

Me: I’m not scolding you, so don’t be scared haha
Me: I’m not trying to argue

Soeurang: I think I brought it up for no reason

Me: Let’s not say that.
Me: Seoyoon carelessly
Me: I didn’t make any mistakes
Me: Of course I wouldn’t be mad at that

Sourang: Are you not feeling well?

Me: why do I feel bad

Soeurang: It’s something even the owner can’t do
Soeurang: You’re whining that you didn’t pay attention, right?

Me: That’s why I said it a while ago
Me: Even if it can’t be helped
Me: I should have paid more attention
Me: It’s true that I was negligent before and after that

Soeurang: Yes

Me: Seoyoon has been having a hard time these past few days.
Me: Because I want to comfort you too
Me: Don’t be shy… Is that a bit strange?

Soeurang: It’s already burdensome… Lol

Me: yes
Me: it seems

Soeurang: To be honest, I was going to pass quietly today
Soeurang: I committed it because I was suddenly in tears.
Soeurang: If possible, I don’t want to do this with my master.
Soeurang: I want to spend time talking about fun things.

Me: Instead, Seoyoon is having a hard time

Soeurang: It’s okay because I’m used to it

Me: I can’t get used to it

Sourang: What can I do?
Soeurang: I shut my mouth alone
Soeurang: If you stay quiet
Soeurang: Everyone is not in a bad mood
Soeurang: I can just get over it

Me: I usually act childishly well
Me: Like kids in a good way
Me: I don’t know why I’m only persevering at times like this

Soeurang: Even if you don’t like it, bear with it
Soeurang: If you wait quietly
Soeurang: Because it passes anyway

Me: So that’s not the correct answer?

Sourang: Then what should I do?

Me: Anyway, let’s talk
Me: I know it’s difficult
Me: Or will it come back worse?

Soeurang: Do you know that I haven’t done it?

Me : ?

Soeurang: Because the owner hates it
Soeurang: I gave up too

Me: me?

Sourang: It’s something I can’t do
Soeurang: I keep wondering and asking questions
Soeurang: Being persistent
Soeurang: The owner hates you so much

Me: yes, I don’t like it

Soeurang: Except for the reluctant one because it was a wish
Soeurang: The last time and the last time
Soeurang: I brought up my ex-girlfriend
Soeurang: I was very scolded… Lol

Me: yes

Soeurang: Even if I found out, nothing would change.
Soeurang: Why are you asking me?

Me: So are you patient?

Soeurang: With something I can’t do
Soeurang: It’s useless to have complaints
Soeurang: Are you scolding me for talking about it?
Soeurang: It’s better to be patient and be loved

Me: But Seo Yoon-ah

Sourang: yes

Me: I’m sorry about that part

Sourang: What is it?

Me: No, I just suddenly had that thought.
Me: I thought you were very anxious

Soeurang: Come now?

Me: I have nothing to say even if I hear that.
Me: It’s true that I regret it now

With Soeu: ?

Me: I think I was overreacting too much.
Me: Because of that, Seoyoon
Me: I can’t say anything even if I’m sad
Me: If you think you have to endure it alone
Me: I think I shouldn’t have done that

Soeurang: I understood the reason why I was scolded;;;
Soeurang: You shouldn’t have asked
Soeulang: And about my ex-girlfriend
Soeurang: He said he wasn’t asking.

Me: usually
Me: of course
Me: I still haven’t changed my mind
Me: If you can bury it, that’s the best

Sourang: yes

Me: Let’s go through the grass with a twig
Me: What comes out of there
Me: There are only snakes and bugs
Me: Then it’s better to just pass by
Me: Do I really need to take the risk?

Sourang: No

Me: If I can forget it, I should forget it
Me: that’s right
Me: If you don’t think it’s possible
Me: You should at least bury it

Soeurang: But, master;

Me: If you just cover it with soil like Seoyoon did
Me: Even if you don’t like it, it’s easy to see
Me: No matter how much time has passed
Me: I want to take it out again because it’s a human heart

Sourang: I don’t know what you mean

Me: In the end, it’s like taking out your anger for nothing
Me: It’s not Seoyoon’s fault
Me: The diary I dropped in the middle of the park
Me: Can anyone get mad at me for opening it?

Sourang: Uh…

Me: Of course you can be angry with that person
Me: Because it’s against etiquette
Me: But I can get angry, but that’s it
Me: I can’t blame him for it
Me: After all, I have the primary responsibility.

Sourang: Master
Sourang: Are you okay?

Me: Usually when things don’t look right
Me: He asked me a lot of questions like that.

Soeurang: You haven’t been drinking, have you?

Me: Do you think you’re drunk?

Soeulang: Suddenly, he was just talking nonsense;;

Me: that’s right

With Soeu: ?

Me: My mental may have cracked a bit
Me: Seoyoon is taking a psychological test today.
Me: Because I asked too many straight-forward questions

Soeurang: I thought we’d see each other just for fun
Soeurang: Why is my mental breakdown?

Me: Yoona Seo

Soeurang: Yes, my master.

Me: sorry for leaving you alone
Me: I shouldn’t have

Sourang: Because it’s really okay;;;

Me: I’m not trying to make an excuse
Me: I didn’t know what kind of face to look at

Soeurang: Are you sorry for me?

Me: yes

Soeurang: Did you really do something wrong?
Soeurang: I’m not originally like this.
Soeulang: Why is my mentality exploding today?;;;

Me: Like Seoyoon said, I want to get drunk

Sourang: No

Me: yes yes
Me: ok

Soeurang: The three of us with Gildong last week
Soeurang: I heard that you drank all night
Soeurang: Do you know how worried I was?

Me: Are you worried a lot?

Soeurang: But the owner left only one message
Soeurang: I haven’t been contacted for two days haha
Soeulang: On the 3rd day, barely through KakaoTalk
Soeurang: I’ll call you at night because I have work.

Me: that was my fault

Soeurang: Of course, I’m not the owner’s girlfriend.
Sourang: I know you can’t do that.
Soeurang: I was really worried haha

Me: I’m really sorry

Soeurang: And while the words came out
Soeurang: I was very sad about this too

Me: I think I misunderstood

Soeurang: Master drank too much
Soeurang: I heard that her older sister took care of her.
Soeurang: You never said that to me.

Me: I heard you two talked on the phone?
Me: yes
Me: I heard

Soeurang: I had a brief phone call a few days ago.

Me: I said you were sick

Soeurang: I heard that you’re not feeling well.
Soeurang: If you feel very unwell, tell me
Soeurang: I’ll buy you something after work

Me: so?

Soeurang: Even the owner told me not to come.
Soeurang: Of course, I hate other people more.
Soeurang: I said that I would only be thankful for my heart

Me: good job
Me: yes

Sourang: Did you do well?

Me: I was polite
Me: Don’t feel bad lol

Soeurang: You can’t openly say you don’t like it.
Soeurang: But he’s a friend of the owner.
Soeurang: Otherwise, the owner will be in trouble too.

Me: um
Me: Yoona Seo

Sourang: yes

Me: Do you hate Kyeong-eun?

Soeurang: Why suddenly?

Me: It’s been a while since I’ve been calling you unnie
Me: I was thinking that we became a little closer
Me: Because you said you were polite because of me
Me: Because I don’t want to be directly involved, but? Want to

Soeurang: It’s not that I don’t like it… Place

Me: then?

Soeurang: I know you’re a good person
Soeurang: The thing I keep trying to take care of
Soeurang: It’s a bit annoying, but
Soeurang: I’m grateful

Me: and?

Soeurang: I am close with the owner
Soeurang: We know each other well
Soeurang: That’s why I’m sometimes envious

Me: again?

Soeurang: Why are you like this really… Lol
Sourang: What answer do you want?

Me: I want to hear your honest feelings

Soeurang: It seems like they are gossip behind my back.
Soeurang: I mean, I don’t like it.

Me: Are you talking about gossip?

Sourang: It’s not like that.

Me: tell me it’s okay
Me: I want to hear it

Soeurang: Are you really honest?

Me: yes

Soeurang: How far can I be honest?

Me: Closely to the limit

Soeurang: Uh

Me: I don’t mean to burden you
Me: just be honest
Me: What does Seoyoon think?
Me: I want to know that lol

Sourang: Then there is
Sourang: Master
Soeurang: Can I talk about something strange?

Me: It’s nice to talk about weird things

Soeurang: It must be a bit strange;;

Me: do whatever you want

Soeurang: I don’t want to talk about this in the first place.
Soeurang: For some reason, if it wasn’t today
Soeurang: I don’t think there will be a chance
Soeurang: The owner also tells me to be honest.

Me: Because the introduction is long
Me: what can I say
Me: Are you worried?

Sourang: Yes… ㅠㅠ

Me: I’m not going to get angry, so tell me
Me: literally
Me: Because I want to hear what Seoyoon thinks

Sourang: That’s it
Soeurang: I’m not talking about unnie.

Me: that’s fine

Soeurang: If I tell the owner
Sourang: That’s it
Sourang: So

Me: yes

Soeurang: The fact that there is another woman next to the owner
Soeurang: If you say you really hate it
Soeurang: Submissive is disqualified… ?