Chapter 104 – Wednesday, April 30 7 PM (16)
Me: I don’t know why you’re curious about that
Sourang: Really?
Me: No, regardless of whether it’s real or not
Me: Does it make sense to wonder?
Sourang: Just… ?
Me: Just curious? Haha
Soeurang: You might be wondering
Me: Yeah well, you might be wondering
Me: It’s a video I watched with great interest.
Me: Even if it’s like me, if someone I know in porn comes out
Me: You must be very curious
With Soeu: Yes
Sourang: That’s right
Me: Do you feel that way too?
Soeurang: yes
Me: Yoona Seo
Soeurang: Meongmeong
Me: Our Seoyoon haha
Me: I’ve had a strange habit.
Me: That’s not very good
Soeurang: Why suddenly… ?
Me: The intention is so damn obvious, but asking in a natural way
Me: I understand who you want to imitate
Me: I wish I didn’t haha
Me: I feel bad because I feel like I’m floating
Me: Since your intentions were discovered in the first place, would you do anything but hateful things?
Me: How many times have I told you that honesty is best?
Soeurang: Uh
Me: If you’re genuinely curious
Me: You didn’t ask me, did you?
Me: ok just
Me: I want you to answer no
Me: You can clearly see it
Soeurang: .
Me: But wherever you look at it, it’s ‘just’
Me: I’m asking with clear intentions no matter who sees it haha
Me: Do you want to keep pretending so shamelessly?
Sourang: No, that’s it…
Me: and
Me: What if the answer is true?
Sourang: What are you going to do… ?
Me: Are you saying that listening to the answer will change anything?
Me: I’ve never talked about it in detail before.
Me: How many females do you think I’ve tamed so far?
Sourang: I don’t know
Me: Yeah well, to be fucking honest, there are only a few of them
Me: I don’t know if I’ll be able to hit double digits in my future life.
Me: But it must be more than what Seoyoon knows, right?
Sourang: I see… Joe?
Me: If you include love experience
Me: This is not a very large number
Me: You mean it’s going to increase anyway?
Me: Shall we add friends of the opposite sex since it happened like this?
Me: Then maybe a carton of eggs will come out.
Me: Yoona Seo
Soeurang: Meongmeong
Me: Knowing that makes any difference?
Sourang: I don’t know
Soeurang: But I care
Me: No matter how many times I said that?
Sourang: What… ?
Me: I won’t tell you
Me: I don’t have to
Me: You said it was when there was nothing good to hear
Me: Who can see this
Me: Maybe if both are applicable?
Soeurang: I still want to know…
Me: for what?
Soeurang: Rather than what to do
Soeurang: I just want to know
Me: What are you trying to do?
Sourang: I don’t know
Me: yes, I can
Me: I understand how curious you are.
Me: I don’t know
Me: I’m not angry
Sourang: yes
Me: But you know, Seo Yoon-ah
Soeurang: Meongmeong
Me: I get asked that question every time
Me: Think about how I feel.
Sourang: I’m sorry
Me: no
Me: I’m not asking you to apologize
Me: You don’t know what you’re sorry about anyway
Me: Just because I look bad
Me: It comes out as a reflex
Me: What would it mean to hear such an apology?
Soeurang: I think I’m angry… ;;;;
Me: That’s not it lol
Me: How can I explain this
Me: um
Me: yes
Me: Let’s say you’re right?
Me: She was the bitch I tamed
Me: Like Seoyoon, calling me master
Me: who monopolizes my affection and attention
Sourang: I don’t like it
Me: look at this
Me: come right away
Me: It’s not over yet
Me: haha
Soeurang: I don’t like it, what should I do?
Me: Why exactly do you hate it?
Me: can you tell me
Sourang: Uh…
Me: don’t you know?
Sourang: I think so;;
Me: Or is it not ‘why’ but ‘who’?
Sourang: That… I don’t think it’s anything
Soeurang: How do you hate people you don’t know?
Sourang: I don’t even know
Me: then?
Sourang: I don’t know
Sourang: Why don’t you like it?
Soeurang: But I just hate it
Me: yes
Me: You might not like it for no reason
Me: There are ugly bastards who don’t give anything
Me: But Seo Yoon-ah
Me: Does hating it change anything?
Sourang: No… Joe
Me: yes
Me: It’s not like you can visit and do hakoji
Me: You can’t even coolly wrap your swear words
Me: I just harbor a hateful feeling inside
Me: Is there nothing I can do but grunt?
Sourang: yes
Me: That’s why it doesn’t make any sense
Me: That’s why you didn’t answer me on purpose
Me: In fact, the answer itself doesn’t mean much?
Me: If I answer no, I’ll be relieved for a while
Me: But how long will that last?
Sourang: Well
Me: Do you remember what I said earlier?
Me: I told you not to trip over people you don’t care about
Me: That also follows in a similar vein.
Me: Look at how long it’s been since
Sourang: I’m sorry
Sourang: Master
Me: Let’s not use unnecessary emotions, Seo Yoon-ah
Me: There’s no use listening to it anyway
Me: That’s what I hate the most
Sourang: I was wrong
Me: not that I was wrong
Me: haha
Me: just think about it
Me: No matter how you answer, if the result is the same
Me: Wouldn’t it be better not to do it?
Soeurang: Yes, my master.
Me: Of course I understand you’re curious
Me: Of course you want to know
Me: yes
Me: If I get a new sub
Me: First of all, personality, taste, and preferred play
Me: From life history to small habits
Me: You have to understand everything to clear your intuition
Sourang: yes
Me: but anyway
Me: Who taught you how?
Me: You don’t even ask that far?
Sourang: Right…
Me: It’s good to want to know the other person
Me: not bad at all
Me: but how far
Me: Because you want to have a better relationship?
Sourang: That’s right
Me: But it’s okay if sediment remains
Me: It’s private life haha
Me: Even if I dig in, I only get hurt
Me: haha
Me: Haven’t you heard of that?
Me: Don’t ask about your lover’s past, bury it
Sourang: I haven’t heard of it.
Me: of course
Me: I just remembered
Me: Isn’t it punch line art?
With Soeu: haha
Me: that’s all
Me: I don’t want to get hurt for no reason
Me: just pretending not to know
Me: We’re comfortable with each other
Soeurang: Even though he’s not a boyfriend, he’s the owner… ?
Me: Well, it’s because it’s a male-female relationship
Me: How to deal with emotional lines?
Me: There is some overlap
Me: It’s quite different from the real thing haha
Sourang: I don’t know that
Me: haha
Me: yes yes
Me: But Seo Yoon-ah
Soeurang: Meong
Me: I’m curious as well?
Me: With a woman with a lot of experience
Me: No, it doesn’t matter if you’re a woman with moderate experience.
Me: Anyway, you have a relationship with a girl like that, right?
Me: But my skills are not as good as the previous owner.
Me: If you have any complaints about being tamed by me
Me: that’s great for me
Me: very
Me: what
Soeurang: Shameful?
Soeurang: Are you hurting your pride?
Me: no, it’s more miserable than that
Me: very
Me: um
Me: yes
Me: It’s just very fucked up
Soeurang: haha
Me: I can’t say anything until I hear it myself, but
Me: You can tell at a glance if you’re satisfied
Me: But again, it’s embarrassing for me to ask first haha
Me: I thought I would be seen as an obsessive and narrow-minded man
Soeurang: Uh
Me: Do you think that far?
Me: Then I was already swayed by the reaction of the other person
Me: The dignity of the owner has already crossed the water
Me: Either way, it’s a catastrophe haha
Sourang: I don’t care
Soeurang: What if you don’t have a bit of dignity?
Me: I don’t know
Soeurang: It’s true;;;;;;
Me: And even if the other person doesn’t care
Me: once you become conscious
Me: Because my confidence is shattering out of control?
Me: it’s true
Me: Where do I lack?
Me: Don’t you know the best way?
Sourang: That’s right
Me: There’s no guarantee that I’ll be a better person.
Me: Then I keep looking back at my flaws
Me: Because people are servile
Me: Does your mind get impatient because your field of vision is narrowed?
Me: Then, as if I waited, an accident will happen
Soeurang: Experiences… Isn’t it?
Me: well?
Soeurang: I don’t think the owner would do that haha
Me: look
Me: You also have the image of the owner you want from me.
Me: That image itself is majestic
Me: Maintaining that is charisma
Soeurang: Likely to know
Me: That’s why it’s nonsense to say I don’t care
Me: unless you’re not interested at all
Soeurang: It’s difficult… ;;;;
Me: yes
Me: I’m talking a little bit
Me: That’s why everyone keeps it inside
Me: I covered it well with soil and put it out of sight.
Me: What would you do if you had to take it outside?
Me: It must be all muddy and dirty
Sourang: I don’t know
Me: You don’t like being compared
Sourang: That’s right
Me: regardless of what kind of person he was
Me: I don’t like thinking about it.
Me: I wish I could just forget about it
Sourang: That’s right
Sourang: Really
Me: Talking about it, it somehow became like a love story
Me: In the end, it’s the same with Diet.
Me: The most important thing is mutual trust
Me: Without it, there is nothing different from a sex fan
Me: You don’t call me a lover just because you have sex, right?
Soeurang: The most distrustful of people… Lol
Me: Do you believe as much as you need?
Sourang: How much is that?
Me: at least more than you think
Me: Don’t worry because the strike zone is wide
Me: They accept most of the things
Soeurang: I believe in you, Master.
Sourang: It’s because you say so.
Me: believe or believe
Me: I’m not saying that lightly
Me: What’s the point of being satisfied alone?
Me: I don’t really care about the other person
Soeurang: I heard that trust is important
Soeurang: Is there a change of words right away?
Me: If it’s just a few words
Me: How comfortable would life be?
Me: After all, people are animals of distrust
Me: I live in constant doubt until I die
Soeurang: But why are you angry?
Me: me?
Soeurang: You were annoyed little by little.
Me: Are you not angry?
Me: The person right next to me doesn’t know what’s inside, so I’m nervous
Me: Let alone a person whose face you don’t even know
Me: Of course I would be anxious haha
Me: I would be too, so why would I get angry?
Soeurang: You said you don’t like unnecessary emotional consumption
Me: Think of it as something like a menstrual phenomenon
Me: no matter how obvious
Me: The moment I commit in front of people
Me: It’s obvious what kind of gaze will return, right?
Sourang: I’m used to it
Me: Have you ever peed outside?
Soeurang: I’m used to that kind of gaze haha
Soeurang: It’s boring, but someone says it’s boring
Me: ok whatever
Me: Seoyoon thinks that way
Me: I don’t think it’s that bad
Me: Because I think anxiety is a kind of deficiency
Sourang: Deficiency?
Me: It’s annoying to explain, so let’s just skip that
Me: When it comes to libido
Me: I have to assume that I slept all day
With Soeu: haha
Me: anyway
Better
Me: how do I finish this
Me: If the conversation is long, this is a problem
Me: I can’t see how to tie a knot
Soeurang: That video…
Me: yes
Me: Well, I’m sure you got it roughly
Me: Seoyoon will continue to have questions from now on
Me: Of course I will answer if necessary
Me: I’ll kindly explain
Sourang: Yes…
Me: But I didn’t answer
Me: I feel sad about it
Me: You don’t have to take it too seriously
Me: It’s not really a secret, so I’m not hiding it
Me: like I said before
Me: Seoyoon knows nothing good
Me: I don’t feel the need to talk about it
Soeurang: Yes, my master.
Me: Of course, there will be times when you just skip it because it’s annoying
Me: Because I’m not in a good condition or in a bad mood
Me: Because it might not be a situation where you kindly teach me
Me: In that case, just ask again next time
Me: Then I will answer you probably haha
With Soeu: haha
Sourang: yes
Me: anyway
Me: Yeah well, it’s not bad to be anxious
Me: how candidly
Me: The important thing is whether you can resolve it through dialogue
Me: That’s why it’s good to confess that you’re anxious like now
Soeurang: I won’t be annoyed… ?
Me: yes
Me: If I don’t accept it, who will accept it?
Me: there is no one like that
Sourang: That’s right
Soeurang: There is only the owner
With Soeu: haha
Me: Always suspicious and anxious
Me: I still try to believe
Me: Isn’t that lovely?
Me: I feel the value there
Soeurang: It’s crooked… Lol
Me: why
Me: what
Soeurang: You seem to be deliberately making people anxious haha
Soeurang: I’d rather just trust me because you belong to me
Soeurang: I think it would be better if I told you clearly.
Me: If there is someone who tells me to believe in myself
Me: I have to hit the bamboo stick and run away
Me: Otherwise, you will be dragged into multiple levels or religions
Soeurang: If you hit me, you’ll get angry
Me: When did I tell you to trust me?
Sourang: No… Me?
Me: why not sure
Soeurang: I thought it wouldn’t be strange even if I did.
Soeurang: He is a person who will be left behind haha
Me: well
With Soeu: haha
Me: But I won’t ask you to trust me
Me: I don’t even want to
Me: It builds up naturally over time
Me: What’s the use of asking me to believe in words only?
Sourang: That’s right
Me: So am I a trustworthy person?
Me: It gave me time to think seriously
Me: No matter what answer Seoyoon gives
Me: I intend to accept it without complaint
Soeurang: It’s a shame… Lol
Me: Won’t you tell me you’re considerate?
Me: Anyway, you gave me a chance to judge for myself
Me: If you decide to tame it by force
Me: There’s nothing I can’t do
Soeurang: Other than that
Soeurang: I don’t know anything about the owner.
Soeurang: Because you’re trying not to tell me anything
Me: Let’s go slowly haha
Me: Even if I hurry, I won’t see anything good
Me: Wouldn’t it be the greatest fun to get to know?
Me: It’s no fun when you run out of money
Soeurang: But why do I feel like I’ve been dug to the bottom?
Soeurang: There is no mystery or anything, already… ㅠㅠ
Me: It’s cute enough so don’t worry haha
Soeurang: I want to look more attractive
Soeurang: The owner can go out with friends
Soeurang: You can have a girlfriend if you like.
Me: okay
Soeurang: I think I’ll really cry if I’m compared
Sourang: Why?
Me: I can have a girlfriend if I want to
Me: I wish I could be that kind of person
Soeurang: haha
Me: Are you afraid that if you have a girlfriend, she won’t pay attention to you?
Sourang: Yes…
Soeurang: Master, something like that
Soeurang: You are very thorough.
Me: um
Soeurang: Behavior that can be misunderstood
Soeurang: I also said that I would not do it at all.
Me: ok
Sourang: If you think so
Soeurang: I’m just getting sad for no reason
With Soeu: haha
Me: But there is no sign of that for the time being
Me: I think I can be relieved?
Sourang: You don’t know that
Me: that too
Me: You don’t know people
Soeurang: haha
Soeurang: No, if you calm down, where is it?
Sourang: Is that important now?
Soeurang: You just have to say no
Soeurang: Why don’t you do that?
Me: Yoona Seo
Soeurang: Meongmeong
Me: Then you know what to do
Me: I need to be sure that it belongs to me
Me: If you want to find solace there
Me: Shouldn’t we show it with our actions?
Soeurang: You can take it off… ?
Me: yes
Me: off
