Chapter 165 – First, Sex_final Connection
First, sex_final connection
Drop, drop.
Water droplets running down the less dry skin were soaking the floor.
In the chilly winter wind, the cool feel of wet water droplets drying made me shiver from the cold just by standing still. Although it was said to be indoors, there were holes in the walls here and there, and the wind coming out of the cracks was very cold when wet.
All day today, my skin, which had been bleached by the cold outside wind, was now so pale that it was no longer white.
A soft cloth falls on me as I shiver pitifully.
Nothing special, just a common towel.
However, to me, who was drenched in water and shivering from the cold, it could be said to have been a very cozy and soft touch.
I leaned into the feel of the fibers that warmly wrapped around my skin.
… Being washed with a rubber hose, being wiped off while standing still like this, what can I say, I felt like I had become a pet.
The new feeling of how inconvenient it must have been to not be able to use one’s arms, and the desire to dominate that comes from somehow entrusting one’s control to someone else, slightly stimulate my heart.
Even walking and washing were all pawned by Anna, and I was in a situation where I couldn’t do anything on my own.
You might think it was just that, but when you actually experience that fact in this way, it feels strangely exciting.
A somehow delicate touch, a warmly rolled towel gently wiping away the cold skin soaked in water.
Her touch had a warm and friendly warmth, unlike Anna, who had shown a somewhat forceful and cold attitude toward me up to now, making me feel warm.
I feel like I want to lean into her touch and close my eyes for a moment.
Especially since I had been completely exposed to the very cold outside air just a moment ago, this warmth felt even more cozy.
Moisture is thoroughly wiped off from her head to toe, and even the water droplets that fall down her hair are gently brushed away.
Her own skin is soft and clean again.
However, the sight still made her aware of the fact that she was naked, and she felt a little embarrassed.
After a period of time that could be called a rest, the towel that had warmly wrapped her skin was thrown away.
I feel the cold outside again.
I couldn’t notice it because I was used to it until now, but maybe it was because I felt the warmth for just a moment? The wind passing over my pure white skin felt very cold.
Whether I was shivering from the sudden cold or not, Anna grabbed her leash and led me.
I was being dragged around like a prisoner being escorted by the pressure on her neck.
The dust from the floor gets stuck on the soles of my cleanly washed feet.
Checkpoint.
The black and yellow sprite-patterned barricade gives an intimidating feeling as if you are entering a space you should not enter.
Just that alone makes me feel a little intimidated.
As Anna swiped the employee ID card around her neck into the card reader next to her, the bar blocking her view went up.
Is it necessary to take security to this level? Unlike the thought of doing something like a joke or just a playful act of exposure on SEPal, it is a full-fledged… The realization that you are doing something a little dangerous arises.
Now I’m getting nervous again.
Really, something like this… Is it okay to do this? Hesitation.
I always feel it, but even though I end up committing it, the hesitation that inevitably exists in a corner of my heart is pounding at my heart.
That blocking bar that seems to be reaching up to the top and beckoning you to come in, looks like a cliff that is about to crumble, leaving a trace of fear.
Me standing tall.
And Anna looks at me with transparent eyes and gives a faint smile, as if she understands my current feelings to some extent.
“Are you hesitating now? Well, you might be a little worried when you think about going into the filming set.”
Eyes that seem to understand, as if looking at someone of the same level who has gone through the same experience.
Warm gazes of understanding, compassion, and sympathy surround me.
Then, before I knew it, he reached behind my back and unlocked the arm binder that was binding my arms.
Why?
I feel puzzled and at the same time feel a sense of liberation as my arms become free.
Perhaps because my arms had been fixed in an uncomfortable position for quite a long time, my shoulder blades were stiff.
And I was able to feel again how important the arm and the extremity of the body are to humans.
A black leather arm binder falling to the floor.
Something this big and hideous was hanging on my arm all the time…
I looked at the black lump of leather on the floor with strange feelings.
“… So, what are you going to do?”
Anna’s sudden voice.
I don’t know the meaning.
The reason why I released the arm binder that had been tied to my arm until now, and the reason why I am saying such things.
I couldn’t understand, so I just tilted my head and looked at her.
“Yes?”
“Hmm… “I think this might be my last chance.”
“Last chance?”
“A chance to get out of here. You may be wondering what I’m really saying now, but isn’t that just my own nonsense? Should I say so? Lastly, I will give Ha-eun a chance to choose.”
“Of course, I will miss out on the new AV actor I caught, and I will also be the one who ruined the virgin loss AV that is said to be very difficult to film, and I will throw ashes on the plans I had prepared and the actors I had recruited in advance. It’s no different from doing work, but still… Really, though, I’ll give you one last chance.”
Anna suddenly looks serious.
At this moment, it felt like she had somehow become an adult appropriate for her age.
Her voice contained a certain sincerity and concern of its own, so I was imbued with the air without even realizing it and started thinking a little more seriously.
“Ami, I’m sure a lot of things will happen once you cross this door. First, it may be obvious, but Ha-eun will lose her virginity and her chastity.”
“Oh, if you think about it, maybe that’s not a big problem. Looking at Ha-eun’s appearance so far, it was honestly hard to believe that she was still a virgin. And of course, Ha-eun’s loss of virginity and other indescribably shameful and obscene scenes will all be recorded, and all of them will be edited and sold as AV. They say her face is covered with a mask, but honestly, there’s bound to be someone who recognizes her, right?”
“Her face will sell, and many people will recognize Ha-eun. Her participation in SEPal will have a truly different impact. One day, one of her close relatives may suddenly bring in the AV that Ha-eun filmed and ask if it is true, and she may also be threatened by someone who finds out her identity.”
“And, again, for her Ha-eun from Xos… I really have something special prepared for her, Ha-eun. It’s probably something very special and fatal. There is no doubt that once you go through this door, you will be completely different from before. “Permanently, she will become irreversible.”
“… Still, are you going to go in?”
Her whisper quietly and calmly.
The sound comes from somewhere far away, making her dizzy.
Her words seem to show a cross-section of an ominous future, almost like a prophecy, that will probably, perhaps, definitely happen.
Until now, she had boasted a lot about this company, and had happily talked about her personality and how she had been treated, so her words were filled with very strong persuasiveness and truth. 〉
Her expression was too serious to be laughed off as a simple joke, and there was bone in the words she spoke.
It’s not just a joke, it’s a future with a high possibility of actually happening.
Of course, everything I’ve done so far is like that… It was full of irreversible events, but it seemed like this was also a very important crossroads.
Like she said, if I turn around and get out of this ruin… Maybe we can carry on as usual, as if nothing happened? I access SEPal and expose myself as usual as instructed. If it’s a little boring, it might get boring, but I compromise a bit and only follow trivial and simple commands that make me feel lewd. I also work at the café as usual, and talk to the friendly manager. They flirt and melt into everyday life like any other.
Well…
Perhaps, as Anna said, if we turn around and leave Studio 3, nothing might happen.
Little… I might not be able to keep my promise to myself, and now I’m afraid of falling down and doing self-destructive things… I might stop now.
Ordinary, just ordinary.
She becomes a girl called Lee Ha-eun, forgetting about how she lived for nearly 40 years, and just living a normal, monotonous and peaceful life appropriate for her age, sometimes happy, sometimes unhappy. A life like that.
That might not be a bad thing.
No, even if you look at it objectively, it might be a happier life than continuing this crazy behavior.
But, to be honest.
I don’t know the value of that in this world.
The people I know and the things I wanted to do.
My close classmates and friends.
The opportunity for promotion that I used to aim for,
Parents who had to show filial piety.
Even the small plants I grew as a hobby…
I left everything, everything behind.
I lost it
Is such a monotonous life important now?
There is no purpose, no meaning, no goal.
Then, you can just enjoy whatever you feel like…
Wouldn’t it be bad?♥
At the end, there is no doubt… I knew better than anyone else that inevitable destruction was waiting,
So what to do?
Already… Isn’t this life nothing but a bonus?
I feel sorry for Lee Ha-eun, who was originally the owner of this body, and it was a sad thing, but I… That was the only way to think about it.
There is no reason to work harder.
The purpose of making money.
Why you need to pay attention to what other people think
A world that doesn’t exist.
Some people might be able to create a goal and get back up again,
At least it wasn’t me.
If so,
This has already happened.
After entering a woman’s body and throwing it away
Wouldn’t it be okay to enjoy it♥
It feels good, isn’t it good ♥
Of course, it is shameful to be embarrassed,
A shameful thing was a shameful thing,
In the world, I was reluctant to do things that I shouldn’t do according to common sense, and things that were painful,
That was not grounds for me to stop doing this.
Anna’s words and her serious voice are also an extension of that.
There is no doubt that if you cross this checkpoint as she said, something irreparable will happen.
AV will also be sold,
Maybe his personal information will be revealed.
Also, you might encounter something suspicious during filming.
The chastity that Ha-eun has maintained for 20 years will also be easily destroyed for the sole purpose of satisfying the interests and desires of others, as if it were nothing.
That may be a pity.
But, so…
That’s why I get excited.
How far will it fall,
To what extent will it collapse and fall?
And how exciting and naughty is it?
Recent… I was able to feel interest and pleasure in the act of exposing myself.
It would still be very shameful and shameful if others found out or showed it…
At the same time, it was very thrilling and strange.
Same goes for this.
What kind of pleasure and strange stimulation will be given?
Something outrageous and something unspeakable and terrible is definitely waiting for you.
I was so excited about that fact that I ended up throwing it away.
Ah…
Yes, I’ve already done that.
I think it probably won’t get better unless I die again.
I’m sure I’ll regret, be sad, and be ashamed of what happens next.
Even though I know that fact very well…
As she said, I am here in the third studio
It was something that could not be escaped.
Rather than running away, I took a step into the studio and beyond the checkpoint.
Ready?
Rather than something noble like determination, it would be closer to resignation or the foolish decision of a foolish person who is just driven by desire.
A truly destructive act of losing a lot or everything just for the sake of momentary pleasure, without knowing what will happen.
That choice.
That sense of immorality
Always… I felt good ♥
It was thrilling.
Anna looked at me like she was looking at a helpless creature, and on the other hand, she sighed lightly and looked at me with a look of sympathy, as if she were looking at a fellow human being.
