Chapter 320 – Volume 64 – I Don’t Want You to Be Happy (5)
“Ri, is it Rika?”
“Huh, huh…”
A dark night with the lights off.
The time when she fell asleep while listening to her brother’s voice in her room.
These are pictures that come to mind one by one from the stories I heard back then.
It seems like the image I was imagining became a painting.
I thought that the people I loved so much were slowly fading from my memory.
Right now, my eyes were looking at something so perfect that it made that memory clear.
“Now, wait a minute. I didn’t think you would cry.”
“It’s okay… I’m just a little surprised.”
I knew it.
There is a high possibility that the artist Siwoo is her older brother.
To be honest, it’s strange that you don’t notice at this point.
But my brother left home like that.
I never thought I would draw memories of those days like this.
To be honest, I couldn’t even imagine it.
“Ah, this headband…”
And sometimes, when I liked the character my brother portrayed, I would ask questions about the details.
As I give an example, I ask him if he feels like this.
My brother adopted that design or made other detailed settings, saying it was okay if we had different ideas.
This story started to help me sleep when I couldn’t sleep well at night.
There is no way there is such a detailed and perfect setting.
My brother probably added it that way to protect me.
“You remembered…”
And the settings created due to my curiosity.
In these paintings, everything was realized without exception and had a perfect appearance.
Even for me, it must have been memories of a time that are now fading away.
‘No.’
Rather, I remembered most of it accurately.
I just didn’t want to remember it.
Because it’s a time when I can’t go back even if I think about it anymore.
“Yes, sister.”
“Huh.”
“Did you always help me when I was young and in pain because I was weak?”
“It did.”
“Because I was sick and couldn’t sleep, I told stories to my nanny every day.”
“…”
Every time I heard my brother’s story, I was sure I could be saved.
I felt very reassured while listening to it.
Because I was able to forget the pain I felt in my body, even if just for a moment.
Many stories that happened outside, told to me, who was weak and could not go out of the house often.
Events filled with the love and emotions of countless adventurers.
Even though they were stories made up of creations and lies, they were so warm and beautiful to me.
“Aren’t you stupid? No matter how much you like your little sister, there’s no need to work that hard.”
“Carly is a bit of an idiot.”
“That’s right, you’re such an idiot…”
That’s why my brother was very precious to me.
To the point where my brother goes beyond being nice to me and starts relying on me and obsessing over me.
So, as soon as my brother couldn’t look after me, I hated him so much that I hid.
If my brother is having a hard time, it’s natural for him to not care about me as much.
I didn’t know that and kept making impossible demands.
I just kept hurting my brother.
“Sister, do I have any qualifications?”
“What?”
“I hurt my brother so much. Is it right for me to be next to him?”
“Of course it’s okay.”
My sister said it as if it was obvious.
Of course, considering my brother’s personality, I would accept a country like this.
The question was whether it would still be possible.
“I would rather say so.”
“Huh?”
“Carly hates herself for giving up on you.”
“…”
“So, if you come back to Kali, I think you can erase one of Kali’s worries.”
My brother was that kind of person.
He deserves to feel guilty, even for things that aren’t his fault.
…That’s why it’s better for me to go back instead of running away.
I felt like I knew what it felt like.
“And are those things important?”
“Yes?”
“I’m going to be unhappy. Without Carly by my side.”
“…”
And I’m really grateful and it’s nice, but I feel a strange sense of discomfort every time something like this happens.
Strangely enough, Rosaria resembles me in some ways.
Because he often says things that seem to see right through my insides.
“I’d rather be unhappy. You may feel like you want to run away.”
Unless it’s to that extent.
I must unconditionally be by my brother’s side.
My sister was definitely talking about that.
“Why do you care so much about me?”
“You’re my precious little sister, and when I look at you, it feels like I’m looking at myself, which makes me anxious.”
“Is that so…”
“And I told you before. After all, for Carly to smile, you have to come back.”
“That’s right. Rather, I’m not being honest like I am now…”
This could be a bad thing for my brother.
Since I think that’s definitely the case, I feel at ease.
It would be better to apologize for the parts that can be honestly apologized, and to point them out boldly.
“Ruler.”
“…Huh?”
“Go right now.”
“Uh, huh?”
When I came to my senses.
I had already been kicked out.
『In a world where erotic comics are legal』
Knock knock.
I heard a knock on the door.
Thinking that it was of course Rosaria, she answered lightly.
“Yes, come in.”
“…”
I hear the door slowly opening.
Before looking there, I focused on the picture I was drawing just now.
Since there isn’t much left, we just need to finish it quickly and respond.
In the first place, Rosaria probably knows that I am working on it.
She even brought it up a little while ago saying she wanted to see my work.
So, I guess you’ll understand if I just focus on the picture for a while.
“Hmm…”
“What?”
But the voice I heard right next to me gave me a very strange feeling.
The tone was completely different from what I expected.
Surprised by that, I slowly turned my head.
“Rika?”
“This is the sherbet kingdom. If you look at the picture like this, it looks incredibly sweet.”
“…Huh.”
To be honest, I was a little embarrassed.
I think you spoke harshly to me just a little while ago.
I can’t believe you’re here and talking to me now.
‘By the way, you still remember.’
The work I am currently working on for a game is an idea.
It was originally based on a similar old story she told Rika in her childhood.
Still, I recognized something that had only been said in words, as soon as I saw the picture.
To be honest, I thought I would barely remember it because it happened so long ago.
It seems it was my mistake.
…It’s a precious memory, and I’m thankful that people remember it.
“What!?”
“Ah, it’s a cold volcano with strawberry-flavored sherbet flowing down. The red ice dragon you have to catch there was incredibly strong.”
“Now, wait a minute, Rika.”
Rika must have been too focused on the picture.
It almost seemed like it was clinging to me.
The strangely thin fabric did not properly cover the soft feel of my breasts.
I couldn’t help but be very embarrassed by the sudden sensation.
No, now that I think about it, why did she suddenly come wearing a kimono?
From what I’ve seen of the design, it seems to be Rosaria clothes.
It suits you very much when you wear it like this.
‘If you think about it, you’ve grown a lot.’
I always thought that he was younger than me and that I needed to protect him.
I didn’t even realize it had grown this much.
He came to me with a slightly wet body and wearing clothes that showed off his entire body.
It finally dawned on me that I had become a grown up girl.
Perhaps because I had just showered, it smelled faintly nice.
…Rika’s body odor, which she has been comfortable with since her childhood, is also strangely mixed.
It feels like something like a barrier in my heart is being torn down, so I can no longer refuse.
Should I say that I want to keep doing this…
“Oh sorry.”
Rika must have noticed that she was getting too close to me.
She slowly released her weight that was weighing me down.
Fortunately, the painting was finished, so I slowly got up from the chair.
“…”
“Rika?”
“Ha, I really can’t open my mouth.”
“Uh?”
“I can’t do it either.”
“Huh?”
As Rika thought to herself for a while, she groaned.
She started glaring in my direction.
Have we gone back to that atmosphere again?
I was sitting on the bed and watching Rika’s thoughts.
It started to slowly approach this way.
As soon as he stood in front of me, he suddenly screamed.
“Oh, I don’t know!”
And at that moment, Rika suddenly bit her lip tightly and jumped into my arms.
At that moment, I was panicking because it was difficult to understand what was happening.
Naturally, I was pushed by Rika and ended up lying down on the bed together.
“Ri, is it Rika?”
I was really very embarrassed.
I thought he would get angry or annoyed at something.
The choice to suddenly jump into my arms.
Even when I got close to being pushed away earlier, it was difficult to calm down.
I was pounced on by Rika as if I was being hugged.
I felt like I was dizzy from so many unexpected sensations.
No, when did her breasts get so big?
Because I was under a heavy weight, it was more difficult to think normally.
Should I say that she shouldn’t have these feelings for her younger brother, but that she can’t help it because she’s a man?
“As expected, I can’t do it. I want to apologize and say this and that. But if I stand in front of you, I can’t say anything.”
“…Rika? Ugh!?”
Rika said almost in tears.
It felt like it was hugging me tightly.
No, this feels…! It’s good, but it’s too dangerous!
“I like you oppa.”
“…Uh?”
“I want you to tell me about your adventures before bed like you used to. I want you to pet me every time you get the chance. I want you to hug me tight when I’m crying.”
“Rika…”
The moment I heard that trembling voice.
I felt like my other senses were disappearing.
…It’s been a long time since I saw Rika crying with such a weak expression.
“I’m sorry. My brother couldn’t do that for you.”
“That’s not it.”
“Ah…”
Only then did I notice.
This kid didn’t want my apology.
“So, shall we sleep together for the first time in a while?”
“Huh…!”
At times like this, I hugged Rika, who had changed, tightly.
He gently stroked her head.
“Today’s story is…”
Reproducing stories that were told a long time ago.
