Chapter 181 – Volume 37 – I’ll Never Forget (1)
The moment I witnessed that unusual situation, I looked around the inside of the dormitory in surprise.
Wondering if Cocoa was playing a prank on her, she checked there, but all she could see was that she was in a similar situation to me and was perplexed.
I couldn’t feel any flow of magical power in the first place, so is this possible?
“What is this…”
Obviously, a book that was fine just a moment ago, why did it change like this?
Lilith lost her memory, so her memory in her comic book is gone?
It wouldn’t be impossible if it was magic, but there was no way for magic to activate.
“Ah…”
First of all, I thought that it might be possible because it was the senior who prepared for this situation.
It was not easy to focus on the contents of the cartoon again just because this work was passed.
She stopped reading manga because she wanted to find out what those memories Lilith couldn’t remember.
Actually, that memory has become something I can’t understand now.
Of course, I probably remember it in more detail than she did, but I still feel this stuffy.
It was a very strange feeling, as I understood a little bit of Lilith’s despondent and painful feelings.
As if possessed, turning through empty pages and praying that there is at least one remaining…
I was full of lingering feelings.
“That day was the first day we shouted our dissatisfaction from the cliff.”
“Dissatisfaction…?”
Adam explained to us what had happened with a teary expression.
Even I, who should have memorized the contents of the book, had no idea at all.
I was very scared because I felt like I had erased not only the book but also the content in my head.
The precious Lilith and Adam’s happy times, memories that should never be forgotten.
Suddenly, Adam alone knows, and we can’t follow the story properly.
That terrifying gap was making Lilith and me very tired.
“Whoa…”
But even so, Lilith did not stop at preventing Adam from learning the name of her illness.
So Lilith, who had so many things to take care of, added more stress to her, and it started to aggravate her illness.
With constant headaches and intermittent memory loss, not only the memories of the past, but even the present are not able to be enjoyed properly.
Even in the middle of a pleasant conversation, I forgot what I just said and the conversation cuts off.
After forgetting and repeating what she said, she is taken aback by Adam’s hug when she sees her and bursts into tears.
If it wasn’t for Adam always being by her side, she might have collapsed a long time ago.
“Release…”
“Uh? What’s the matter?”
“No. Anything…”
In fact, it was only a matter of time before Adam found out the truth.
No matter how far in the past she vowed to hide her truth from her Adam, even if she had forgotten her recent memories of her.
Even so, there was no choice but to have a gap as it was out of the normal state.
There was nothing to stop her Adam from tricking her into losing her memory, meeting her other succubus and hearing her explanation.
Of course, if she thought she had to prevent every chance of Adam finding out, she could have.
When she was still in a state where only memories from before the symptoms started, she wasn’t that careful at all.
“Really?”
“Adam, that’s…”
“Why didn’t you tell me? You knew that Even though I knew everything, why did I…!”
“Adam…”
When Adam realized the whole truth about her, the first emotion she felt was bitterness.
After all, she made this choice because she loved herself.
His heart, which was guilty of not being able to do better for her, became even more guilty as if he had made her this way.
The only thing that saw a ray of hope in that despair was that there was only one solution to that terrible disease.
As Lilith predicted, Adam began obsessing over the solution.
That’s when Adam started demanding sex from Lilith that he had never thought of before…
‘Of course, there’s no way that Lilith will do it.’
I don’t know if Lilith doesn’t know anything, but Lilith knows more about semen deficiency than Adam.
If the two of them had sex and the semen was supplied to Lilith, there was a very high probability that Adam would die from being sucked up by Lilith, who was out of control.
When she died, she died, not Lilith who would let Adam die.
But having another man have a relationship with Lilith was hard for Adam or Lilith to accept.
Even if it wasn’t that in the first place, sacrificing an unrelated person was an option that they couldn’t choose.
Then, in the end, the only thing left was for Adam to sacrifice himself, so only the heartbreaking result of sacrificing each other remained.
‘This part is actually the biggest problem.’
Even though it was an expected situation, I felt the love between the two people, and my heart ached.
He doesn’t care if he dies, so he wants the other person to live…
Because it wasn’t a question that someone could easily take sides by saying the correct answer.
Originally, it was normal for Adam’s mood, which is the main point of view of the work, to be the main one.
It’s a work that makes you understand Lilith’s feelings of trying to save Adam, even as she loses her happy and beautiful memories with Adam right away.
It was a difficult situation to raise either side’s hand.
“I knew it would be like this. That’s why I didn’t tell you!”
“Then what do you do! Then what about me? I want you to just watch you die!?”
Because I love you, I want to protect the big life of the other person rather than my own small life.
That’s why the two fought, raising their voices and pushing their arguments.
However, these battles, which happen over and over again, were stopped by Lilith’s bright smile, who forgot that they were even fighting.
Her Adam, who couldn’t control her emotions, converged to the end of her hugging her and crying.
“I feel this after a long time. This stuffy feeling.”
It’s not a very long time ago, but it’s a feeling I’ve often felt in senior Carly’s works.
I’m afraid to open the next page because I’m weighed down by the heavy atmosphere, but I’m afraid to stop as it is now, so I have no choice but to turn the page.
As I turned each page, which felt very heavy, I had no choice but to watch things unfold in the end.
「…」
“Hey, Adam? Do not do that. Yes?”
Adam, who couldn’t bear it any longer, gave up on persuading her to release.
That didn’t mean she had given up on seeking Lilith, however, and had decided not to ask her permission.
In short, Adam decided to rape Lilith.
「Kyaaak!?」
“I’m sorry, Lilith. Don’t forgive me forever.”
“No, this isn’t it. Please, don’t do that!」
Normally, I would have complained that this lewd and erotic situation was too much.
Even in a situation where it seemed that Adam would attack Lilith at any moment, he didn’t feel that kind of feeling at all.
Rather, the sight of Adam risking her life to rape her Lilith, even looked pious.
Of course, the senior’s picture perfectly depicted Lilith’s beautiful nude body, as if that situation didn’t matter.
Although the scene itself, where Lilith covered only part of her torn clothes and burst into tears, was very erotic.
The worries and affection for Adam contained in it were eating away the eroticism of the scene.
“Stop…!”
Damn!
Lilith, who was about to be attacked by Adam at any moment, shot Adam hard in the cheek.
When Adam came to his senses, he saw Lilith, who was covered in tears, and his movements stopped.
As soon as Adam’s rape stopped, Lilith pushed him away and ran into another room.
“Lilith, what am I supposed to do…”
They were a pretty couple who loved and cared for each other more than anyone else.
At some point, you have to defy the other person’s opinion and push your own opinion…
Every time they met, they became opponents to fight.
He even made his opponent cry when he tried to force himself to make his choice…
“Should I apologize too?”
Even so, it wasn’t that I really wanted to disregard her opinion and violate it.
I was very uneasy with the comments that kept walking parallel lines and the condition of Lilith that was getting worse.
The accumulated anxiety eventually gave way to a runaway.
Adam, who had managed to control her feelings to some extent, bought Lilith her favorite flower, a flower, and prepared it as a gift for her.
Even if it was small, she thought to hold an event, where she apologized and cheered her up.
Of course, Lilith would rather have Adam give up than that, but since she had no intention of doing that to him, an apology like this would have been the best.
“Uh…?”
However, the expression on Lilith’s face when Adam shyly accepted the flower was a little strange.
She still wasn’t angry, nor was she delighted with the sudden gift.
Rather, it was an expression that was closer to being extremely confused.
「Oh, what? What is it? What’s not good?」
“…I’m sorry. You’re not mistaken for a person, are you?”
“What?”
In fact, I could have predicted it because of the strong anxiety that came from that expression.
Still, as soon as it became a reality, I couldn’t help but feel dizzy for a moment.
All I can say is that it’s really too much until the end.
“I-I mean… Who are you by any chance? Where is this place?」
“Ahhh…”
“There…”
「Aaaaagh!」
Lilith said that she often mentioned in her diary one of the situations she feared the most.
If her memories of herself continue to disappear like this, she eventually wonders, ‘Couldn’t she lose all of her memories of meeting Adam?’
And the worst that she feared so much was now a reality, unfolding before Adam’s eyes.
