Chapter 180 – Volume 36 – I’ll Never Have Sex (5)
Utilizing semen deficiency here. Also, the seniors are great.
How far have you researched the ecology of the succubus, do you know such details?
Even if it’s just ‘Elf who dreams of having an affair with an orc is frustrating today’, I heard that the situation at Orca-senpai’s family is very similar.
Carly senior’s details like this made me goosebumps.
Of course, the exact disease name has not yet been revealed in the manga.
It’s obvious when you look at the style of painter Siwoo who doesn’t hide sex and the fact that there was never a sex scene in volume 1.
Here it was reasonable to assume that Lilith’s illness was semen deficiency.
“Now that trend has lessened, but in the past there was a lot of talk about bloodlines…”
In the case of the succubus, I heard that in the case of the higher-ranking succubus lineage, they lived with semen deficiency because of their strong magical power.
Because of that, the number of objects has decreased, although it is rarely seen these days.
Come to think of it, little by little hints were thrown out that Lilith’s lineage was that of a high-ranking succubus.
“Release…”
And the really vicious thing about seniors is that they just started talking about Lilith and Adam who are suffering from that disease.
As we progress through one story, we show a lot of happy images of the two.
Now that you’ve come and pushed the terrible reality, you’re going to dig into the pain.
I bit my lips and held back the tears that were about to spill out any moment, feeling like I was about to lose.
I would have known the situation better if Lilith had included the painful part in volume 1.
Whether it’s because of this imbalance of information, or for some other reason, the senior omitted that time period entirely.
When I looked back at Volume 1 and checked the differences, there was a gap of almost a year.
Lilith’s pain in that vacuum was a situation that even I had no way to know.
“Phew, he’s awake.”
But fortunately, the fallen Lilith woke up sooner than expected.
At this point, both Adam and I who nursed her couldn’t help but let her sigh of relief.
The reason why Lilith has been strange up until now must have been to hide the symptoms of semen deficiency, right?
“Ahaha, he must have been tired. Now, are you all right? Don’t worry too much.”
“Never overdo it. We’ll do our schedule as much as possible so that it doesn’t affect our stamina.”
“I’m sorry for worrying you.”
Of course, there was no way Adam knew that much about the succubus, so in the end, the case was settled to this extent.
Lilith said she didn’t bother to tell Adam her details about herself and her succubus.
Adam has a personality that doesn’t care much about the differences between races, and she’s a cool personality who doesn’t care if you don’t tell her.
It must have developed naturally to hide that fact.
“Whoa…”
The more I read the manga, the more frustrated I feel.
I can see how deep their love is and how beautiful it is.
Shall we say that the direction of the mind that has been dislocated from each other is approaching so affectionately?
To be honest, Lilith’s solution to all of these problems is that she has a simple solution: do naughty and accept her semen into her body.
It’s not that the person Lilith is dating doesn’t exist, and it’s not as difficult as there are.
However, for Lilith, who truly loves Adam, that becomes a very difficult task.
That’s partly because she was born with the blood of her high-ranking succubus.
To be honest, I’m surprised that you researched this kind of information.
If the mana is strong enough to cause severe semen deficiency that affects life.
This is because the too strong energy absorption caused by that magic is dangerous enough to cause death to the other spouse.
In the first place, the existing succubus were demons who exploited vitality and used it as their own power, not choosing the object they took as food, but as an object of love.
That’s why, at the point when the object is changed to the object of love, a succubus who suffers from severe semen deficiency is destined to suffer and die like that even if they find a loved one.
Recently, however, a magic that can alleviate the disease to some extent by drinking the semen of a loved one has been born…
In the first place, Lilith, who appears in the work, cannot use magic due to a symptom of magical power deficiency, so she does not qualify.
Even if it wasn’t that, it was a very recently developed magic, so there was a high possibility that it was a story before it was reflected.
So, I had no choice but to view the current situation as very negative.
「Lilith, isn’t it time to tell you now? You are really strange.”
“Rice, it’s nothing.”
“Being sick is also painful, and besides that, aren’t you hiding something from me? Do you have any other symptoms besides fainting?」
Certainly, as Adam said, it seemed that he had other symptoms.
At first, I thought only that the pain interfered with my daily life, but other strange points kept coming into my eyes.
In particular, there have been a lot of requests for dates and times lately, and he has repeated strange behaviors, such as choosing dating places he has already been to in a row.
“Wait a minute, this has something in common…”
And while I was roughly organizing the commonalities, I even felt afraid of the viciousness of the senior who pushed this whole nightmare-like situation like this.
In fact, right after I noticed it, I wonder if it was the point of explaining everything in the book.
He slowly begins to find out her secret.
A diary with a strangely detailed record of recent events and traces of frequent touches to the diary to the point of being tattered.
A memo telling you not to forget the calendar and check that marked today more clearly than usual.
A small note written to oneself in one’s belongings.
“I will never forget…”
Lilith’s body was breaking down due to the symptoms of semen deficiency.
The breakdown of the body was a little different from the usual direction.
Of course, the place where she gets damaged is none other than her head.
It was a very precious place to remember the happy memories of two people.
Now I realize that the title of the book I read earlier was ‘I will never forget’.
Lilith, who is losing her memories of her precious Adam, has to hide the fact that her own memories are evaporating.
She wrote down each and every one of her lovely memories, and she never forgot them and tried to live a normal life.
“Hey, Adam? Where are you?」
“Release…”
“Sorry, did I drink too much?”
“Do you know what year it is now?”
In the meantime, Lilith wakes up after falling down, and she doesn’t even recognize their lovely newlywed home.
Adam bit her lip and she asked the question.
As if it were natural, I hugged Lilith, who spit out the date before her move, and sobbed.
I had returned to the bright Lilith look I saw earlier in ‘I’ll Never Forget’.
The atmosphere she portrayed in her work was a very contrasting darkness.
The sadness drawn in that way was conveyed to me as I shared the story of the two.
“This is really…”
Of course, Lilith did not write down the name of her illness or the solution in her diary.
After all, she must have been concerned about the situation where she would be caught like this by her Adam.
Even though she was going to die, when she learned the truth, she didn’t want to create a situation where Adam would have ‘sex’ with her.
Fortunately, forgetting a large amount of memories entirely seems to be a temporary phenomenon, but as time passed, Lilith returned to normal.
It was rather bad news for Adam.
It was because Lilith, who was aware of the situation, absolutely prevented Adam from knowing the name of his disease.
“Ahhh…”
It’s a frustrating situation where we keep going out of sync and keep going out of line.
Because the love and affection for each other contained in that discrepancy is so beautiful.
I blamed myself, saying that I don’t know what kind of misunderstanding I had treated a senior who was drawing such a beautiful work as such a pervert.
No, if you think about it, such a pervert might be a better treatment.
How could a senior be such a cruel person?
Now I’m certain of Lilith’s illness because of my race, but what if a normal human sees this work?
The journey to find the truth that Adam is now drawing…
Everyone is watching the story believing that there will be a happy ending at the end.
If the truth contained there is Lilith’s sacrifice to protect the love of the two.
Could there be another truth so cruel?
“Why, can’t you remember…”
“Release…”
Although Lilith never tried to tell Adam about the name of her disease or the solution.
I was pretty tired of enduring the pain alone until now.
After Adam found out she was losing her memory, she was sometimes weak like this.
In particular, what she struggled with the most was the happy memories of her, which were written on her notes and could be known even by the vague senses.
Now it was only drawn blurry, and it was that it did not come to mind properly.
It pained my heart to see her struggling as she pointed out the events of the past, which she depicted as if they were barely visible in real life, and would not have been sad if she hadn’t known their existence at all.
“I’m sure it’s an episode from ‘I’ll Never Forget’.”
As it was a cartoon I had just seen, I felt like I knew what Lilith misses about the lost memories.
I was wondering if I could find out the original of the blurry picture over there, so I took out the comic book from earlier.
Obviously that scene…
“To…?”
And as soon as I held the comic book in my hands again, I felt like my thinking had stopped halfway because of the distinct sense of alienation.
Comic books, which I had enjoyed reading until recently, now feel very alien to me.
Not to mention the cover, even when you open a comic book and open any page.
The love story between the two that existed just a little while ago is nowhere to be found.
Only pure white blanks were filling my field of vision.
As if there was nothing there originally.