Chapter 74 – Is It ♂️, Is It ♀️Ⅰ①
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“It’s rice, rice, rice~ rice~~”
I was getting a massage from my sister, and after it was over, the manager came in and invited me to have dinner with him.
The food he bought me was trustworthy.
Because the rice I ate last time was really delicious.
I thought I wanted to eat it again, but I never thought they would call me like that.
Could it be that I am blooming in life?
Should I say that I am the one who buys me food well? Anyway. I formed a relationship with someone who buys me food well.
“Is it that good?”
“Of course. Eating delicious food is the joy of life.”
There was nothing more unfair in the world than filling your stomach with tasteless food.
As much as I have that thought, delicious food is my #1 favorite thing in life.
I mean, I like delicious food that much~
“Heung~ Heungheung~”
The thought of eating dinner prepared by someone else, especially a top-quality dinner, made me feel better.
Since it took a while for the manager to bring the car, I was slowly heading out while humming to him.
Seeing her younger sister like that, Seoyoung smiled and followed Seohyun as she walked outside.
“It’s the manager!”
When we went outside, we may have come at the right time, but the manager was waiting in front of his car.
We stood in front of the vehicle driven by the manager, left the now-familiar automatically opening door behind us, and went inside.
“Kihya… It’s good…”
As usual, I sat down in my seat and buried myself in the sheet.
It seemed like no other chair could have the feel of the soft seats in this car.
Isn’t that what all expensive things are like?
You have to have sat on an expensive chair to know that.
Should I ask my dad to buy it for me?
I’ll have to tell you later when I get home.
Anyway, out of all the chairs I’ve ever sat on, this is the best.
“What was it like filming?”
I was burying myself in the seat, ready to pierce the floor of the car, when my sister sitting next to me asked.
I answered in the same position I was still in the seat.
“It was fun. I didn’t know acting would be so fun. I really felt like I was an assassin from the Joseon Dynasty.”
“You were immersed in the role?”
“Immersion?”
“They said it felt like I had become a real assassin. That was immersion.”
“Oh Hong. That’s immersion.”
I recalled the situation I was acting out.
The time when I sparred with the crown prince while wearing a court lady’s outfit at a filming location that was like a real palace from the Joseon Dynasty.
The setting was that she was wearing a court lady’s outfit so that even if people around her noticed, she could pretend that she was just watching from the side.
Similarly, even if he was caught by the client, it was a setup where he could easily get away with it by simply saying that he was planning an assassination angle.
While filming the sparring scenes, I felt as if I had become a real assassin.
I’ve gotten it before, but it was especially true at the end of the sparring scene.
Even thinking about it again, the scene where he blocks the crown prince’s sword with a dagger is so cool…
“It was reckless.”
“···Uh, huh?”
“Couldn’t you have avoided blocking the knife?”
When I said something, it seemed like her older sister was thinking the same thing as me.
At the end, the scene where I quickly took out my dagger and blocked the sword due to Jo Jin-seong’s mistake.
The difference is that I still think it was cool, and she thinks it would have been a big problem.
“If I were to bleed, I would have been hit…”
I’m probably 99.98% right.
In that situation, when I made the choice to dodge, the knife would have come down and hit me somewhere on my body while I was dodging.
What about the remaining 0.02%… You never know. I swish quickly. He might have avoided the sword while doing so.
Still, I don’t think the choice was wrong.
“At that time, all I could think about was that I had to stop it.”
“I see.”
“And now that I think about it… I think my body reacted earlier than I thought.”
“Body?”
“Yes. When I thought, ‘Oh, this is right?’, I was already blocking the sword with my dagger.”
“The body reacted first.”
“Yes. It was an amazing experience. But now that I think about it, there is only one thing I regret.”
“What is that?”
I recalled what happened after I blocked the knife.
“You said you weren’t going to kill him, but then you changed your mind… Anyway, why did I say that…”
“···Pushup.”
No, this sister…
I feel like I’m going to die of shame, but I’m laughing?!
“Sister…”
“Ahaha, sorry. I think that’s probably not because I was forcing myself to act, but because I was immersed in the role and the words came out naturally.”
“······I see.”
“Otherwise…”
“Or?”
“I guess my younger sister Seohyun got sick again in her second year of middle school?”
“······No, sister…”
I’m 22 years old, and I’m in my second year of middle school.
“That can’t be possible! The second year of middle school, that’s nonsense!”
My sister said with a grin at my words.
“You never know. Could it be that the second year of middle school has arrived now?”
“That can’t be possible…”
Naeun was once again about to refute that it couldn’t be that way, but suddenly remembered what I said earlier while filming.
‘You said you weren’t going to kill him, but then you changed your mind?’.
To me, it sounded like something you would say while wringing your hands and covering your face with one hand.
“······.”
For some reason, I felt like I was really suffering from a second year of middle school, and in an instant, my good mood turned gloomy, and I kept my mouth shut.
‘I can’t do this. I need to go home and play some games.’
If you hold on to even the games you enjoy, you’ll feel better.
Then, naturally, I will return to being the 22-year-old me again.
As ‘me’ who was a man.
When I think back to those days when we were fighting to the point of blood (in games, of course), I feel like I have a female body. The spirit can return to being a man!
While I was thinking that, my sister said something unexpected.
“But Seohyun… You’re good at saying ‘unnie’ now?”
“······!”
I was more shocked by those words than when someone asked me if I had a second year of middle school disease.
They say that you can ignore Symptom 2 because it is a disease that every man has experienced at least once, but this… I couldn’t just ignore it.
My older sister, no, my original older sister… I had thought of her as my older sister very naturally until now, and in fact, I have rarely said the word “Older sister” Out of my mouth since today’s filming set.
So… I have now become accustomed to her calling me her older sister to the point where I completely call her my older sister.
How can this be?
As my sister said, on the outside, she is my sister…, … Wait a minute…
‘I just thought I was your sister again…’
It’s definitely my older sister… But I’ve been calling her that for almost 20 years… Just because my body became that of a woman, the word ‘older sister’ was already stuck in my mouth.
As my older sister said, I decided to call her “Unni” In public, and I thought that I would never get used to the word “Unni” After that.
‘But…’
That idea was cruelly shattered in less than a month.
She looked back at herself calling her sister naturally.
I called her sister so naturally and thought about it again. Now that I realized that fact, I fell into deep frustration.
I feel like everything I lived as a man was being denied.
She calls her sister, who has never called her sister her whole life, her sister, she wears underwear she has never worn in her life and will never wear, and she applies cosmetics she has never applied to her face in her life. Decorated himself
I had lived a carefree life as a woman until now, but I could never be considered a man.
Now it seemed as if he, the man he was, had already disappeared into the distance. Maybe, he’s so far away that he can’t come back.
But I may have no choice but to accept myself as a woman now.
“······Are you okay?”
“······.”
“···Seohyun?”
“······.”
After I became a woman, I felt like things were going well, and there were a lot of happy things about being a woman.
This situation was like that now.
After a fun filming while performing acts that I could never have imagined when I was a man, I was traveling by car to eat a meal prepared by the CEO of my sister’s agency.
Things that would never have happened if I was originally a man, I experienced after becoming a woman.
Things went faster with my girlfriend.
From the moment I had sex, I became a body that I could no longer return to as a woman.
I also vaguely know.
Seol-ah did not hate that I had become a woman, but rather welcomed it, saying that it was good.
From then on, I may have gradually accepted myself as a woman.
* * *
Once Seohyun’s thoughts broke through, they continued to bite her tail.
To what extent it was so bad, it was enough for Seohyun to eat the delicious rice in front of her.
Seohyun, who said she had to eat even if the sky fell, did so… With the incredibly delicious Two Plus One grilled Korean beef right in front of her!
I was worried when I saw Seohyun sitting around eating and not saying anything.
I was wondering if he was doing that because he was shocked by what happened during today’s filming.
The only person who understood Seohyun’s true nature was Seoyoung.
‘I’m so sorry…’
Seoyoung was more and more shocked in her car and felt sorry for her younger brother, who had turned pale.
Seeing her younger brother not being able to eat properly, her regret doubled.
She naturally called me her sister, so she just said it out loud, but she was embarrassed because she was like that ever since.
Even this was a worry that I couldn’t share with anyone else.
Among these, the only people who knew that my younger brother was originally a man were myself and Seohyun.
Only a few people knew that Seohyun had become a woman.
Seol-ah, her younger brother’s girlfriend who knew she had become a woman long before her family or anything else.
‘·······I should talk to Seol-ah.’
Come to think of it, there was Seol-ah, her younger brother’s girlfriend.
I got your phone number after we slept together last time.
It’s true that she was his girlfriend, but it was also because she knew that Seohyun had become a woman.
“Seohyun, you still have to take a shower and sleep.”
“······.”
My younger brother, who I don’t even know if he had eaten, was in a dazed state both in the car on the way to work and after coming home.
‘Maybe she’s crazy because she called me sister.’
It may be a bit unfair to say that my brother was out of his mind, but there was no other way to express it.
And, it made quite a bit of sense.
I didn’t know that maybe Seohyun, a man, and Seohyun, a woman, were fighting with each other.
‘I can’t help it.’
It was nice to be called sister, but it was painful for me to continue to see her like this.
‘If things stay like this tomorrow, I’ll have to go see Seol-ah.’
With that promise, she took Seohyun, who was still in a dazed state, into her bathroom to wash up.
