Chapter 908 – #97. Lanna (68)
It is an exceptionally hard time.
Compared to Joanna and Mei Lin, she did not fit in easily with her husband’s family.
It wasn’t easy to adapt, and embarrassingly, I ended up receiving a lot of consideration to see if it was obvious.
‘There’s nothing better about me than just my appearance or social position that is revealed on the outside.’
Afterwards, I couldn’t keep talking to them even though I was sorry.
Maybe it was to give themselves strength, but they were willing to share their secrets.
But from the listener’s point of view, it’s uncomfortable.
‘It would have been uncomfortable to say. How can you trust me when you see me for the first time and willingly tell me about yourself?’
If I stayed still like this, it seemed that one by one they would take turns telling their story.
So, after asking her husband’s understanding, she went into her room to rest alone for a while.
“I want to see the kids…”
As soon as I entered the room, the first thing that came to my mind was that I miss my children.
Calculating the time difference, it seemed that the children were about to wake up.
I called the nanny to ask if the kids were awake, and I was able to speak to the first one who had just woken up.
“Did you sleep well?”
– Mom, when are you coming?
“Yeah, Mom, I’ll be leaving soon.”
-I miss you. Come quickly
“Okay. Mom will be there soon. She’ll wait a little bit.”
Traveling with her friends was fun, but she thought that a normal life with her children was more precious.
I was very worried about whether the triplets would be doing well without their mother.
My husband told me to believe that he had a mother and a nanny, so I came, but I couldn’t stop worrying.
Are you eating well, are you sick, are you not crying?
There were a lot of things I wanted to ask.
However, the first one was that her mother had been whining about missing her, and she quickly became spirited as if it hadn’t been before.
-Huh! But I went to see animals with my grandfather yesterday! I saw a tiger there!
First, I started to brag excitedly, wondering if I had a lot of memories of the day I went to play yesterday.
She could see that she was worrying unnecessarily.
“Seeing the tiger, riding the rides… Must have been fun, right?”
-Huh! And again…
The first was busy bragging about her to her mother throughout the phone call.
It seems that her mother and nanny took her children out to play, not wanting her children to feel her absence without her.
“Lanna.”
How much time had passed between her first and her phone call, her husband came into the room where she was.
Her husband, who was flushed with displeasure, had his eyes wide open, probably drunk.
“Are you talking on the phone?”
“Yes. With my first one. I must have been hanging out a lot lately. His voice seemed tired, but he was very excited. He said he wanted to see me, but I don’t think he ever really wanted to see him.”
“So you’re sad?”
“It’s sad. I’m dying to see them, but they look happy.”
“You still want to go back soon, don’t you?”
“…Yes. I miss you.”
Her husband came behind her and began rubbing her shoulders.
“You worked hard today.”
“Are you done drinking?”
“Only people who like to drink remain. Originally, people who chat all night long when we meet.”
“Should I go out too?”
“It’s easy to rest here. You don’t have to come out.”
Thank god.
A breath of relief came out.
“Did you have a hard time today? I’m sorry. I didn’t expect it to be this hard.”
“Everyone treated me comfortably. It’s because I’m hard-headed. Who else in the world would show me that kind of consideration first?”
He is the husband who interpreted his lovers’ willingness to reveal their private affairs.
Because I was a person who knew all about her situation, Ran I sighed in shame.
“I think being considerate can come as a burden to you. Everyone will understand that much. So don’t be too disappointed.”
“I think I’m the only one who’s so eccentric. I didn’t want to do this…”
“We get closer slowly. We have to introduce them to the kids, and when our dadungies grow up, we all go on a trip together. Everyone’s time to get closer is different, and I don’t think you’re wrong.”
If you need time to get close, her husband comforts her by saying that it’s okay to spend that time slowly.
She had no choice but to pour out her angular feelings as her husband was also considerate of her.
“I’m not sure how everyone can be so casual. After all, they and I share you.”
“Um… That’s right.”
“I couldn’t organize it easily. So I didn’t feel good, but they accepted me so easily. How could that be? Am I narrow-minded? Am I a weird person?”
The reason why today’s meeting was particularly uncomfortable was that it was not easy to acknowledge her husband’s lovers.
Especially the sight of her husband Joanna and her familiar lips to hers shocked her.
Everyone in her seemed to have a slight sense of blow from her, but she didn’t seem to be as shocked by her as she was.
“I can’t be still. Aside from the fact that they’re nice people, they’re never going to be comfortable with me.”
The more she loved her husband, the more she could not get along with his family.
She knew what her husband wanted was to be friendly with her family, but she couldn’t afford it.
“I can’t. I don’t think I’ll ever get used to this. I’m sorry.”
Her husband’s expression darkened grimly.
She must have been disappointed to hear that it seemed impossible to be together even though she knew they were good people.
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“I was being selfish. I shouldn’t have thought that just because I was fine up until now, I would be like that in the future…”
“No! You asked me to introduce you in the first place. I thought I would be okay.”
Expectations and reality may be different.
It was probably embarrassing because seeing me with other women hurt me more than I thought.
‘Conversely, it’s not something to laugh about.’
Imagine that a situation arises when my woman laughs hahahoho with another man and casually makes contact with me, but I have no refutation.
It is an eye-opening event.
I’m going to get a fever and clenched my fist first.
Even meeting someone who is not used to this situation will be painful.
“It can be done. If it’s difficult, you don’t have to. How can I force you to meet? You can just live like you’ve been until now. Since we live far away anyway, it would have been more troublesome to meet constantly?”
She seemed to need to lighten the burden on Ranna, who seemed to be struggling a lot.
I didn’t know you were having such a hard time, and you were thinking about going on a trip together.
I needed to reflect.
“Is that really okay? Everyone else travels together, so… What if my children are alienated because of me?”
It seemed that in my head, everyone except her own family was haha.
“To begin with, everyone is busy with their own work. We don’t meet that often. Even if we do meet often, maybe we should meet once a year?”
“Once a year…?”
I cried because I couldn’t do it, but I don’t know why they were so tempted when they said it was once a year.
She said hurriedly, wondering if she would do anything to her group.
“Wouldn’t it be more comfortable to think of them as relatives? There are relatives with whom we do not interact.”
Just because she doesn’t interact doesn’t mean they aren’t related.
Being connected by bloodlines was more like being connected by a sticky string than I thought.
Even if the parents’ generation doesn’t interact, wouldn’t it be possible for children to interact naturally when they get older?
“So you don’t have to force yourself to be friendly.”
“Is it really once a year?”
“Honestly, I don’t think we’ll see each other more often than that.”
Joanna and Mei Lin, who are working overseas, didn’t even have a wedding with me in the first place, and she is busy with her own work.
I still felt more like a lover than a family with them.
When they have children, wouldn’t it be possible to put them in the fence called ‘family’ only then?
“If that’s the case…I’ll go with you.”
“I don’t want to force you to do anything difficult.”
“I can bear it once a year…”
“I’m going on a trip to have fun together, but that must be a painful time for you. I hate that you have to endure those times.”
Did the fact that it was once a year relieved a lot of the burden?
I showed my will to do it, saying that it seemed like I wanted to try for my children, but I didn’t want to allow it.
Everyone must be having fun on the trip, but isn’t it painful to spend time alone?
It’s better to live as if we don’t know each other’s existence.
“When the children grow up and can express themselves clearly, if they want to be introduced to the older brothers and sisters, then I will take them and introduce them so that they are not alienated.”
“Other girls don’t do that, so wasn’t I the only one disappointed?”
“On the contrary, I’m sorry. This introduction is forcing you to be considerate in the first place. You’ve worked hard, and I’ll take you to the hotel. Come out.”
“Are you going to see me off?”
“How can I leave you alone? I’ll take you to the hotel.”
“You’ve been drinking.”
“All you have to do is wake up from alcohol. One pill of this can get rid of alcohol.”
I drank alcohol at most, but it was a bit unfortunate to drive away all the alcohol, but I felt like I wouldn’t feel comfortable sending Lanna to the hotel alone.
After she takes the medicine, her hazy mind quickly returns.
As she quickly sobered up, she felt a slight headache and nausea as side effects, but her aftereffects did not last long.
Her family, who were drinking her, spotted Lanna coming out and asked.
“Let’s go?”
“Yes.”
Yeon Yeon-nim got up from her seat and she gave a short farewell to Lanna.
– It’s been a lot of trouble. Go and get some rest
-Thank you.
-Yes?! Are you leaving already? Why? Are you very unwell?
Joanna felt sorry for Lanna, who had drunk a lot of her alcohol and left first.
I said I was afraid that Joanna would say something useless.
-She said she arrived a few days in advance and was very tired from traveling. Maybe it’s because I drank too much, but I felt exhausted all at once. Will Joanna stay longer? She has a lot of room here, so she can go to sleep.
-Oh! Could it be? Can I go to sleep
Fortunately, Joanna sold an eye on my story and took her ranna out safely.
