Idols Around the World 557

Chapter 557 – #83. In Action (7)

It doesn’t matter if you go to a contest and win first place or last place.
What mattered to me was that I would be able to get back in touch with Shin-ae through this incident.

‘Am I really okay?’

Shin-ae, who tried to give up her feelings for me.
If it weren’t for special circumstances, I wouldn’t have let Shin-ae give up.
Rather, I would have tried to hold on tight.
However, with the overflowing schedule, director Yeon Hwa-jeong’s homework, and the aftermath of the press conference, it was impossible to pay attention to Shin-ae.
After the press conference.
It was nice to open up my heart, but there was also a movement to dig out who my women were.
As a result, I had to check the safety of my family once again.
Hearing about her press conference, Joanna called her and she had to soothe her whining, asking her to join her family too.
She naturally considered her family.
However, it was only natural that she couldn’t live with her because the space she lived in was different.
It was impossible for Joanna to come to Korea and live with her because of the growing company.
He complains just because he wants me to know how sad he is about not being able to be with him.
Anyway, if she expressed her disappointment like that, it would be more effective to visit her directly and enjoy her date than to let her go, so she split up the time she didn’t have to go to see her.
As such schedules piled up, I had no choice but to bury my feelings for Shin-ae.

‘I did… I thought he would call me as soon as he saw the false report that there was an accident.’

I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t impressed.
It means that you were still thinking of me that much.
Somehow, the topic of drawing came out first and the conversation started toward the webtoon contest, so I couldn’t ask anything I really wanted to ask.
Around the time when I wanted to look at the picture in moderation.
I told Shin-ae first.

“Is this the first time we’ve seen it since my press conference?”
“!!”

Shin-ae’s bright eyes hardened, and her expression instantly became gloomy.
It’s only natural that I brought out what I wanted to avoid.

“I-I’ve been a bit busy. My schedule is getting more and more… Also, seniors are busy like you are.”

Shin-ae brought up her past title after a long time.
At first, she called me sunbae-nim all the time, and that hasn’t changed even after I’ve been in class for quite some time.
There is an effort made to remove the sound of her senior from Shin-ae’s mouth, but it is changed with the word press conference.

“It’s sad. Am I a senior now?”
“Ah! Brother…”

Shin-ae hurriedly corrects her title.
But it was after I had already confirmed the unconscious sense of distance in her words.

“Let’s stop talking about the picture, shall we talk?”
“…”
“You can’t keep ignoring it like you are right now.”
“…”
“The distance between us has grown enough that you have to call me senior again.”

Shin-ae, who was hesitant, soon nodded her head in agreement with what I said.

“… I cut off contact first, but I think you were confused because I contacted you suddenly. Sorry.”
“You don’t have to be sorry. You called me because you were surprised when you heard that I was hurt. Of course, I was surprised to think that he would have given up all his feelings for me. I didn’t know you were still thinking of me. You must have disappointed me at the press conference.”

The man he was flirting with suddenly went to a press conference and confessed that he had a woman and that she even had a child.
This is what makes the human heart so deceitful.
Even though I feel sorry for Shin-ae, who has become less and less in touch after the press conference, when I think about it from her point of view, I also feel that it is my fault for not being able to comfort Shin-ae, who was shocked by the press conference.

“Yeah, actually, I tried to fold my mind after seeing the press conference.”

Unlike the first time when Shin-ae was hesitant, she seemed to have made up her mind and began to speak her mind in a trembling voice.

“Brother… I didn’t think it was just a relationship where I was taught painting. I was thrilled with my brother, and my heart went out. The moment we were together was happy and precious. But I realized that day that it was only my own illusion.”
“…”
“It was a shock to me that there was another woman besides me and that she had a family. The law allows it, but I don’t have anything to say if you ask me to be angry about something like that. But the human mind is not governed by the law.”

If the man you love has another woman, and you don’t know it at all.

“But when I thought about it again, my brother and I weren’t even important enough to talk about that. You haven’t even started anything yet. Because only I was excited, and only I was happy.”

Folding my heart was something I had to do alone.

Listening to Shin-ae with a tearful voice, I can’t hide my pity and sorry feelings.
While I was busy and slowly forgot Shin-ae, Shin-ae must have spent a tearful night trying to forget me.
Even after spending so much time, in the end, he called without hesitation when he heard that I was hurt.

“Is your heart still the same?”

Is the current meeting also one of the means to organize me?
If not.
If I still have a chance.
This time, I will actively approach Shin-ae so that she will not have a hard time.

“… No.”

As expected, the reason Shin-ae worried about me was because she was kind…
It was at that moment that Shin-ae’s attitude, which seemed like she would dump me at any moment, changed.

“It has changed. I’m just going to be stupid. I want to hear from the members that I am just stupid. Being with oppa is the happiest thing in the world, but I don’t think I can give up on this.”
“!!”

I thought it was a negative meaning because I answered no to your question about whether my heart is still the same, but it wasn’t!
Shin-ae replied that she changed her mind from trying to give up on me.

“Muh, of course, if I still have a chance.”

Shin-ae’s voice, which had been exclaiming with excitement, gradually diminished.
Shin-ae has the quirky yet lively charm that she used to show in variety shows.
But why am I being so lazy?

“I really did a lot of bad things to you.”

It seems like it’s been a long time since Melissa that I made such a big mistake even though it wasn’t my fault.
Shin-ae looks puzzled as if she doesn’t know what she’s talking about.

“Yes?”
“I am really sorry. From now on, I will tell you.”
“Ah…”

Shin-ae put on a frightened expression as if she had no idea what I was going to say.
First of all, he held Shin-ae’s hand to mean that there was no need to be scared.

“Since I lost contact with you after the press conference, I thought you had completely given up on me. I’ve been hiding too big a secret, and compared to you, who has a bright future, I lacked a lot.”
“Brother… !”
“So I thought it was better. Because I thought that you would come to me with a lot of women because you lacked something. But when I heard that I was injured and contacted me first, I was very shaken. I was very worried about whether I would be able to let you go if I met you again. But you confessed to me first.”

Even while I was talking like this, Shin-ae’s eyes watered when I said that I didn’t know if this would be good for you.
But those tears weren’t sad.
Shin-ae noticed what I was going to say from now on.

“I will do really well in the future. At least you won’t feel lonely when you’re by my side. I will do my best to love you so that you can continue to be happy by my side.”
“… I never imagined that I would receive a confession from that oppa, so I don’t know what to do.”

How lucky are you to wear glasses?
If it wasn’t for the glasses’ ability, there would have been an uproar to take pictures of us.

“Just tell me your honest feelings about my confession.”
“… Hee hee… I don’t know… Great. I mean my brother is so good. I want to date my brother Wanna date… Hehe! I don’t care what anyone says. I’m good, but what’s the use of everyone else?”

I don’t know what people around me said, but it seems like I’ve heard a lot of negative things about dating me.
It must not have been easy to ignore the advice of those around me…
She said, promising not to hear such words in the future.

“Okay. Don’t listen to other people It’s important that I like you and that you like me too.”
“That’s right. I will love you for the rest of my life.”

Shin-ae’s expression, which had been depressed, gradually came to life.
Like a fish out of water.
Shin-ae, whose eyes were watery, begins to smile as if she had never done that before.
And she kept asking if she still didn’t realize that we were lovers.

Hehe. So, are we lovers now?”
“Huh. I am a lover.”
“Ahh! Oh my god! I love it. Isn’t this a dream?”

I laughed at the happy Shin-ae, then got up from the other side and sat down next to her.
And he held Shin-ae’s hand tightly.

“It is not a dream. It feels so vivid.”
“Can I cross my arms? I really wanted to try this. Uh… Am I too pervert?”
“What is a pervert? Between lovers. Fit freely. You don’t even have to ask.”
“Oh my god… Is this real…”

Seeing Shin-ae’s increasingly happy expression, I felt that I wanted to do something for her.
It’s a visible lover who likes me this much, so it would be a waste to give anything.
And.

‘The early days of dating are definitely fresh. It’s been a while since I felt like this.’

It’s not that I don’t like the feeling of family now, which gives me a sense of security when I’m with them.
Even when I was with them, I was still lovable and happy, but it was inevitable that it would be different from the fresh and tickling feelings of love that were only in the early days of a relationship that was just blooming.
What can I do for Shin-ae, who went through a lot of heartache because of me?

‘That’s all I can think of right now…’

Could there be a better whimsical gift than the first thing that comes to mind?
Even after thinking about it for a long time, nothing seemed to comfort Shin-ae like the first thing she thought of.
Furthermore, listening to the story today, it seemed like I told the members about what had happened and consulted with them.

‘If I said we were dating, what would the members say about me as a hogu?’

I didn’t want to let that happen by dating me.
I wanted Shin-ae to proudly and proudly boast about dating me.
And in order to do that, this gift will be able to help Shin-ae.
Moreover, isn’t today the day you became lovers for the first time?
My conscience hurts a little because I felt like I was cheating, but if it was a great comfort to Shin-ae, would it be a big deal?
I let go of Shin-ae’s hand and took out the ring case I bought at the store as if I were taking it out of her inner pocket.

“Huh?”

Shin-ae, who had been smiling at me clinging to me, pouted her lips as if feeling sorry for me when I removed her hand.
Then, when I checked the item I took out of the inside pocket of my jacket, my eyes widened.

“… What is this?”

The gift I bought in a hurry was a ‘ring’, the most meaningful gift for couples.
The ring case was clearly visible even in Shin-ae’s eyes, but she didn’t pretend to know right away, she pretended not to know.
Even so, he was 100% sure that this gift was his.

“I’m a bit embarrassed that I didn’t think I could give this to you. It may feel burdensome, but I hope you accept it as a commemoration of our relationship today.”