## Chapter 66 – Torn Between My Childhood Friend and Her Mother
I’d committed a terrible act.
On the way home after the deed, I was struck by a wave of sobering reality.
I’d slept with Jung Se-in’s mother.
I’d heard about it from Se-in before and had thought about it, but I never imagined I’d actually do it.
And it wasn’t just doing it. I had a special connection with Jung Se-in’s mother, mentally as well. Not just my ego talking, it was real.
‘…Could I…do it again?’
Not just a physical relationship, but sex where we shared our hearts.
Only after it was all over did I realize the magnitude of what I’d done.
Of course, sex itself is a big deal. But isn’t there a huge difference between a purely physical relationship and one where you share your heart? It was a serious affair, not only for her but for me as well.
Sympathy for Se-in’s mother… should I call it pity?
I know I’m not in a position to pity anyone. But there was definitely a tragic side to her.
Struggling to protect her family, wanting to be recognized as a mother by her daughter, trying to maintain her position as her husband’s wife… yet unable to control anything as she wished, that kind of tragic side.
If I really felt sorry for her, I should step in and help. It’s that simple.
The problem is that it directly clashes with my friend Jung Se-in’s stance.
Jung Se-in isn’t just a friend to me. She’s the woman who took my virginity, the first virgin I ever had, the mentor who taught me how to handle women, and the benefactor who brought light into my life.
That Se-in regards her own mother as an enemy.
To be precise, she’s not her real mother. She’s the stepmother who remarried her father after her biological mother passed away.
Se-in called that stepmother the enemy of her real mother. Se-in believed her stepmother had killed her real mother.
I don’t know how serious she was about that. She’s never really told me the story.
But it’s not something you’d joke about. I had to assume that Se-in had that kind of feeling to some extent.
But… is that really the case?
The biggest reason I’m so confused right now is that I’m torn between taking sides with Se-in or her mother.
If you think about it, the reason I ended up doing it with her mother was ‘because Se-in told me to.’
I can’t deny that everything, from meeting her mother, to meeting her separately, to having sex, to having a good time during sex, was all thanks to Se-in.
That’s why if Se-in told me to kill someone, I’d kill them, and if she told me to be a dog, I’d be a dog. If you’re a human who knows gratitude, that’s the natural thing to do.
But I betrayed that Se-in.
What Se-in ordered me to do was, ‘Seduce my mother and take a picture of the evidence.’
But I didn’t take the picture. Even though I had the chance.
After the sex, her mother was exhausted and didn’t have the energy to take care of herself. Seeing that, I remembered. That Se-in had told me to take a picture.
Her mother lying there, with my semen dripping from her vagina, perfectly matched what Se-in had ordered. Even until I was fully dressed, her mother was lying there, unable to move. It was the perfect opportunity to capture her mother’s embarrassing state in a photo.
But I didn’t take the picture.
Because if I took the picture and handed it over, it was clear that not only would her mother’s life be ruined, but it would also create a decisive rift in this family.
“Ha… fuck….”
I even had sex with her mother as Se-in ordered. I even had the chance to take a picture.
But I still didn’t take the picture. I betrayed Se-in.
I betrayed Se-in, who took my virginity, gave me my first virgin, taught me about women, and even fed me countless women.
Even a dog doesn’t bite the hand that feeds it. Yet I, a human, betrayed Se-in, who gave me women. I was worse than a goddamn dog.
All the way home, I had to fight that sense of guilt.
Of course, I had excuses to make. But whether the other person would accept those excuses was another matter.
I learned that one of the reasons why the death penalty isn’t carried out in Korea is that if someone is wrongfully executed, there’s no turning back.
The picture Se-in ordered is the same.
It’s like a social death sentence. There’s no one in the country who doesn’t know Do Hye-jung’s name and face, and if such a picture were to spread, her mother’s life would be as good as a death sentence.
I couldn’t do that. Even if it meant betraying my benefactor Se-in, I couldn’t destroy her mother’s life with my own hands.
There might be misunderstandings. Above all, as they are legally family, it was an issue that could also harm Se-in herself. Knowing that, I couldn’t take such a picture just because Se-in told me to.
“Kkuaaaa! Fuck!”
I screamed in the middle of the street. My head was so messed up I felt like I was going crazy.
People looked at me like I was a madman.
I don’t care if they treat me like a madman. Because I am a madman. Damn it!
“What am I supposed to do!”
In frustration, I slammed my head into a roadside tree.
Bang-!
My head throbbed like it was going to break.
The tree shook, and leaves fell in droves. And bugs too.
“Ew!”
I quickly brushed off the bugs that had landed on my head and shoulders.
Goddamn it. Nothing’s going right.
Who the hell was it? Slamming their head into an innocent roadside tree. Fuck.
Still, it’s a relief I didn’t hit a utility pole. I’m already a dumbass, I’d only get worse. Damn it.
Vibration-.
As I was grumbling to myself, my phone vibrated.
I didn’t want to check it. Because the person who would send me a message was obvious anyway.
When I checked my phone, sure enough, there was a text from Jung Se-in.
[How was it?]
[Did you go to our house?]
“Kkeueung….”
I clutched my head and squatted down.
What should I do? Should I tell her the truth?
But I wasn’t ready to do that.
To Se-in, I’m a special person. I didn’t know how she would react if she heard that I had betrayed her.
Right.
There are some truths that are better left unknown.
I decided to hide what I did with her mother.
[Yeah, I’m on my way back now.]
[But I failed.]
Se-in knew about the plan to meet her mother itself.
I told her that I met her, but the plan failed.
In the end, I ended up lying to this girl. The guilt was overwhelming.
[Really? Oh well, can’t be helped.]
[It’s okay. You can do it next time.]
[Good luck, Dick King!]
Se-in lightly believed my words and even cheered me on.
Keuk! Damn it! What am I even!
[But then you wouldn’t have been able to do it yesterday or today?]
[Should I come over to your place tonight? Wanna do it?]
Se-in’s message is heartbreaking.
She’s saying she’ll come over because I haven’t been able to do it yesterday or today. Where in the world is there a friend like this?
I’m the one who betrayed this kind of person? Even I think I’m the worst son of a bitch ever.
[No. I’m tired today.]
How can I face this girl in this situation?
I’m not good at lying. If it’s Se-in, she’ll know I’m lying just by looking at my face. So, I decided to avoid Se-in for now. I also didn’t have enough semen to lie about saving it up for two days.
[Really? Then next time.]
Fortunately, Se-in didn’t make a big deal out of it.
Hmm. The atmosphere is surprisingly not bad.
Since we’re not talking face to face, you can lie in a text without it showing.
Then, while we’re at it, should I talk a little more?
[But hey. I talked to your mother.]
[She didn’t seem like a bad person?]
[Why don’t you try resolving things through conversation?]
As I was typing ‘If it’s too awkward, I can mediate between you,’ the phone rang.
Needless to say, it was Jung Se-in.
“Keuk.”
I answered the phone with a nervous feeling.
“Hello….”
-YAH!!!
Before I could even say ‘Hello,’ Se-in started screaming.
“Oh, jeez. You’re gonna make me drop my baby.”
-You little shit, are you taking my mom’s side right now?
“No, I’m not taking her side….”
-What do you mean you’re not-!!
“Keuk….”
My ears are ringing.
She’s screaming pretty hard. Was Se-in always like this?
“No, listen to what I’m saying.”
-Say that kind of thing one more time! Then we’re breaking up, breaking up! Got it?!
“No….”
Click.
Se-in hung up before I could say anything.
I didn’t even have a chance to bring up the important stuff. It’s a relief that she didn’t catch me lying, but that’s about it.
“Ha….”
I couldn’t help but sigh.
The situation was more serious than I thought. I didn’t expect her to get this angry just from me trying to mediate.
It seems that to Se-in, her mother is an irreconcilable enemy.
…What should I do? Now that it’s come to this, I can’t tell her that I did it with her mother, even if my mouth gets torn apart. And I couldn’t take a picture either. In the first place, it was irreversible from the moment I first lied.
Hmm… I’ll have to get through this somehow.
I can’t break up. I can’t imagine a life without Se-in anymore. All the women I’ve been with so far are related to Se-in. If they knew that Se-in and I were on bad terms, there’s no way the women would want to be with me.
Then what should I do?
For now, her mother won’t show any signs of having done it with me in front of her daughter. And Se-in won’t exactly grill her mother about it either.
In the end, I’m the only one who needs to be careful?
Hmm. How can I avoid making it obvious?
I worried all the way home, but no good ideas came to mind.
I can’t guarantee anything until that situation actually happens. That’s the only vague conclusion I could come to.