## Chapter 166 – (6)
“Hoo…”
The tedious talk finally ended, and after finishing today’s broadcast and advertisement schedules, I could finally breathe a sigh of relief.
I was now living alone, having moved out of the dorm.
I initially made excuses about wanting to live alone, but the real reason was that it was difficult to film various videos for the site while living in the dorm.
“Finally, I can watch it…”
Even during breaks from broadcasts and ad shoots, people kept asking about Hanna’s boyfriend, so I couldn’t check my notifications.
I don’t understand why they’re so interested in someone else’s boyfriend.
Of course, I know Hanna’s popularity is immense.
And Hanna’s boyfriend isn’t exactly ordinary, but it’s not like it’s something to make a fuss about.
Eunhye, a member of the same group, was even excessively worried, asking if she was being threatened into dating him.
“He does look a bit rough around the edges, but…”
He doesn’t seem like someone who would forcibly hold onto Hanna.
And Hanna isn’t naive enough to let that happen.
“I wanted to watch it right away…”
I wondered how my special subscriber, Hanseong, would react to my video.
I was so curious that I kept spacing out during the shoot.
This was the first time I, who loves filming, had been so unfocused.
“Hanseong… I wonder if that’s his real name?”
Just like I use the fake name Noah, it’s likely a pseudonym.
Even if it is a pseudonym, I like the name.
Maybe I’m already smitten.
It sounds masculine and resonant.
Anyway, with a trembling heart, I hovered my finger over the notification and stopped.
“Hoo…”
All sorts of thoughts ran through my head.
What if.
What if he doesn’t like the video?
What if he thinks the stage outfit is bad, or that my acting was lacking this time?
Having received so many hateful comments during my idol life, I was trembling with fear of hateful comments for the first time in a while.
It was a strange thing.
Even when I received death threats for standing next to a male idol on a music show.
Even when I was criticized for using a foreign phone as a Korean celebrity.
I didn’t feel anything at all.
But now, I was afraid of one man’s comment.
“Please…”
Praying that Hanseong would like my video, I touched the notification.
Immediately after touching it, I squeezed my eyes shut.
Taking a deep breath, I slowly opened my eyes, and—
“Huh…?”
What appeared before me wasn’t the comment section I had expected.
The main message window opened, and there was a record of Hanseong sending me a file.
A video file, no less.
“What kind of video is it…?”
I don’t usually look at these personal messages.
Some members of my group have had traumatic experiences from opening these kinds of personal messages.
And I’m not particularly interested in other people.
But I couldn’t ignore this message.
“…Should I watch it…?”
What kind of video could it be?
I swallowed hard.
If my members saw me now, they would tell me it’s wise not to watch it, but I couldn’t suppress my curiosity.
I carefully touched the video, and it started playing.
The first thing I saw was a laptop.
It was a video of someone filming a laptop with their phone.
“This is…”
The laptop screen was playing the video I had uploaded this time.
The video of me lifting my stage outfit and caressing my own nipples.
Then a man spoke, deliberately lowering his voice awkwardly.
[You fucking bitch… you’re so fucking hot…]
“Heup…”
I covered my mouth with both hands at the vulgar words coming from the video.
‘…Fucking hot…’
He had a foul mouth.
He was using the most lewd words and making his tone as provocative as possible, deliberately using the most lewd voice he could muster.
I was reminded of what happened to one of my members in the past.
A man whose fan sentiment was twisted sent her a masturbation video.
I vividly remembered the member’s scrunched-up face as she told the story.
“Could it be…”
Holding my breath, I watched the video as the screen tilted down slightly.
The screen was showing the man’s lower body.
I felt nervous, and my hands became a little clammy.
The camera focused on the man’s lower body for a while.
Then, the man suddenly lowered his pants.
And it was revealed.
“…Wow…”
I let out an exclamation without realizing it.
I was a little embarrassed that I had exclaimed instead of screaming, but I couldn’t help it.
It was an instinctive exclamation.
It was bigger and more menacing than any dildo I had ever bought.
[You fucking bitch… if you were in front of me, I would fuck you raw.]
Why was that?
The man lowered his voice to an unusual degree and used only the most obscene words.
There was a subtle acting tone to it, as if he wasn’t usually like that.
As someone who acts in front of the camera every day, I could tell.
I could tell that the man was deliberately acting that way for some purpose.
Whether he enjoyed acting out this concept or was trying to scare me.
I don’t know the exact purpose.
But one thing was certain: my heart wasn’t moving the way the man expected.
“…Naughty…”
Strangely, I didn’t feel unpleasant at all.
It was different from the story I had heard from my member.
She had said it was a terrible and disgusting experience.
But I liked this video, with its vulgar words, the man’s acting, and the sight of his large penis.
To be honest, I was quite excited.
“Haa…”
I lowered my hand and caressed my underwear, which felt a little damp.
As if to prove my excitement, my body was much more sensitive than usual.
My nipples were hard and erect, visible even through the thin clothes, and I started to feel a little hot even though it was cool indoors.
The moment my hand touched my underwear, a shiver ran down my spine as if an electric current was flowing through it.
The man also slowly grabbed his penis and started rubbing it up and down.
“I shouldn’t…”
I moved my fingers without realizing it, matching his movements.
I shouldn’t do this.
It was as if I was the one who had received the video.
Masturbating while watching a video sent by a subscriber.
It was as if the relationship had been reversed.
“Eueut…”
Knowing that, I couldn’t stop my fingers, which had already started moving.
[Eueuk…]
“Haa…”
I moved my hand to match the man’s hand, listened to his moans, and sighed at the same time.
It was as if I was having sex with the man on the screen.
Is this why men watch my videos?
For the first time, I felt like I understood the subscribers’ feelings.
[Eueum…]
And the fact that his real voice was gradually leaking out whenever the man let out a faint sigh or moan.
It was quite exciting.
I engraved the man’s voice in my head.
Even if I don’t know this man’s real voice, I think I’ll be able to remember his moans.
As the video headed towards its climax, the man’s hand quickened.
I stirred my pussy with my fingers, following that speed.
My body felt like it had become a fool trying to keep up with the man’s rough and fast movements.
I reached my climax so easily with the violent hand movements.
“Gaa…gaat…♥”
My back trembled, and my stomach tensed.
It felt like my entire stomach was pressing down on my uterus.
It was the first time I had come so easily.
Even in my dazed mind, I had to do what I had to do.
“…S, save…”
I saved the video that the man had sent with trembling hands, in case he changed his mind and deleted it.
And I thought, breathing heavily.
“…I wonder if he’d sell the video…?”
I wanted to buy the video instead.
***
“Sigh.”
I sighed.
I’ve filmed and photographed many women, but masturbating myself while acting like a perverted fan was a bit…
I was experiencing a moment of clarity.
I felt the urge to kick the blanket out of shame.
“…Still, this time it must have been a warning.”
I would be depressed if it didn’t work after doing this much.
If she knows that the subscriber who likes her is an abnormal pervert, she will have realized it by now.
“…He’s late.”
But this time again, the quest completion window didn’t appear.
Just when I was starting to feel anxious, a personal message arrived instead of the quest completion window.
That meant—
Even though she watched the video, the quest wasn’t completed.
“Why?”
At this point, I was starting to feel anxious about completing the quest, regardless of whether it was a hidden quest or not.
Still, I decided to read the message that had arrived.
“…What is this…?”
It was quite a long message.
But most of it was flowery language.
Starting with asking if I was doing well in the hot weather, saying that I was the first special subscriber and that she was very grateful for that, and that she liked my nickname.
There were compliments all over the front, but the key was in the very last line.
[…So, if it’s not too much to ask, could I buy the video? I don’t care how much it costs…]
“…Where did I go wrong?”
I felt like the difficulty of the quest, which I thought was easy, had suddenly increased by several levels.
