Chapter 91 – 091. Beige, and White (1)
Late at night.
Time to take off ‘Seo Ji-ah’s’ clothes for a moment and return to ‘Seo Ye-eun’ wearing just a T-shirt.
To be honest, I have no idea how many more years I will have to live like this.
A place you can barely maintain even after the sun goes down and you have to sweat for a long time.
This won’t disappear overnight like a bubble.
Sometimes I think it’s like a bird gliding with its wings spread out.
Should I say that not everyone is fluttering vigorously?
The feeling of not aiming higher.
All of them are alcohol, cigarettes, and men.
… And sex.
It’s been a long time since everyone left behind the passion they had when they debuted in their old dorms.
Hinami, who was the most annoying, looks better.
“Ha.”
The funny thing is that it is hundreds of times more popular now than it was back then.
A hat and mask are required when going out.
I guess it’s a good thing that I’m so busy that I don’t have time to wander around alone.
Well, even though you’re so busy, you still meet someone.
… He was also in a bit of a strange state these days.
Please, I’m asking you to just date me.
I’ve known since I was young that the entertainment industry is the animal kingdom,
But I don’t want to see people around me meeting a lot of people.
As the relationship broadens,
It’s also dangerous.
“…”
Be polite to people you don’t like.
Get rid of those who are not helpful.
How did you climb up to this position and how did you achieve it?
Is everyone less responsible than me, who is only 20 years old?
Sometimes, when I see people calling me senior, I feel a sense of unnecessary pressure.
Well, it’s good not to be past of your colleagues just because you’re popular.
Now, I keep thinking that it would be better if I did the right thing because it would be better to be jealous.
Even though I don’t believe in the dreamlike stories that fans always tell me about growth, hard work, idols, etc.
At least you have to match your stride length.
“… Ah.”
I brush my tangled hair, lie down on the bed, and stare at the ceiling.
My upstairs.
I don’t know who they are because I’ve never met them, but they are definitely similar to me.
Turn your body over and put your nose into the bed.
What lies beneath this dark vision is the floor below.
… Completely different from me.
Where my sister and that strange man live.
We ran into each other just now.
Slightly tight clothes.
It’s a choker I’ve definitely never seen worn in my life, but ever since I brought a man into the house, I’ve been wearing it every day.
And,
“… Again, again.”
It’s noisy at night.
This vibration.
In fact, it’s not so loud that it’s annoying or you can hear people talking.
Just because I know what happens down below.
Even the shallow vibrations are just translated naturally.
… Really. I’ve never even seen a relationship in my life.
How did I become obsessed with such a man?
Although I was in good shape.
I’m sure my sister didn’t like that.
“Ugh it’s frustrating…”
You have to listen carefully to feel it.
Something that I couldn’t even say was audible was unbearable stress to me.
Well, it’s natural, right?
Even a middle school student before awakening to sexual desires would know this.
I know for sure that it’s my older sister panting.
The body of that scary man I saw that day,
I can’t forget the image of her sister her her her trembling her as she fell into her bed her.
Well, if the trauma is quickly forgotten, it is still trauma.
It would be less uncomfortable if I just kicked that guy out, but looking at that sly look, it looks like he has no intention of leaving.
“How did that happen… ” .”
Was he bitten by a gangster?
Even though I have a good body, I don’t know if my abilities are good.
Face… I honestly don’t know, but since there are no flaws, let’s just say so. I guess that’s her older sister’s taste.
But I just can’t understand that shameless attitude.
The feeling that anyone can see it as a relationship of superiors rather than lovers.
My older sister is important to me, and I don’t really care about her, but that doesn’t mean I don’t, right?
I am confident that if my older sister, who is always begging me, meets a good man and becomes independent, I will welcome him with both hands.
But… ,
That man is not very trustworthy.
He apparently quit being a baseball player and became a fitness trainer.
It’s definitely not a stable job…
-… ! … , … ♥
“… Ha, really.”
… This time I really heard it.
How loudly you shout.
How hard you hit your body.
I can hear the noise downstairs.
To be honest, it hasn’t gotten to this point.
I don’t even want to imagine her being overwhelmed by her pleasure and forgetting even the bare minimum of courtesy her her her her.
What on earth is that that makes everyone around me look like this?
They were definitely pure and kind seniors when they debuted.
How does it happen that everyone takes after their older sister?
Oh, isn’t it?
Is her older sister taking after her predecessors?
… Maybe even Hinami.
Maybe we’re starting to resemble each other.
Even that smart kid who acts stupid.
“I feel dizzy.”
Bad pressure.
When you’re tired from work or when you’re about to do something important.
That strange feeling that you feel at such times.
The frequency has increased these days.
It could be because of the scenery of that day floating around in my head.
It could be because of this sound that is ringing in my ears right now.
It might be because of my name that I looked up earlier.
Face, neckline.
A curve that continues from the hair.
Shoulders that are often exposed.
The collarbone is clearly exposed when wearing a dress.
It’s easier to cover up your chest if possible.
My waist tightened while I was hungry.
Hips and thighs that do not shrink no matter how hard you try.
Hips, calves, and even ankles that are constantly floating around on the internet.
It doesn’t matter if it’s seen in a sexual way.
However,
If you include me in your sexual fantasies, I get a little nauseous.
A little different from the feeling of being dirty.
“It’s disgusting.”
People who are greedy for pleasure are not disgusting.
Even people who are consumed with pleasure are not disgusted. It’s just pathetic.
However,
I would be so disgusted if I became just like those people.
On stage, smiling without knowing anything.
While casually hiding my dark inner thoughts.
The thought of him sweating and giggling makes me so nauseous that I feel like throwing up.
When I think that I am becoming the same as the dirty comments that strange people often make to me,
… Honestly, I’m scared.
“… Really.”
It’s scary.
This manager is so kind to me… Uncle too.
He looks nice on the outside.
Sometimes sneaky… ? Because he looked at me with one look.
Even if you hide it quickly,
That’s more scary.
Even a person like that harbors evil intentions toward me.
And,
To such a kind and sincere person,
… I really can’t find a single charm,
I often find myself disgusting.
I kind of hate it.
I also don’t care about what’s inside,
I think I’m a similar person to my sister.
**
Is it morning?
Maybe it’s the night with the lights on.
I can’t remember much because her head her her her her her hurt.
However,
The traces left on the body clearly remembered the events of last night.
“OMG…”
Perfect naked body without a single thread.
The choker that I had been wearing for as long as I could remember had suddenly disappeared.
It’s not sore, but my lower back and lower abdomen are slightly throbbing.
Remaining sticky inside,
Even his semen his his his.
Sleeping peacefully next to me,
Kang Joo-hyuk too.
“… Sleep?”
Likewise, I touched him with his bare shoulder, but there was no response.
He pulled the blanket to check, and found that he, too, was not wearing anything.
Even underwear.
… Looking at his cock, which had clearly become smaller due to the loss of erection,
Gradually the memories of yesterday come back.
Oh, what should I do? This.
I think the bed and blanket must have been soaked in the smell.
In the meantime, I always put towels down and… Even if it’s cheap, wash it right away.
I wrote it quite neatly.
… Of course, he always cleaned up after himself.
“…”
Is it because I still feel sleepy?
Yesterday, emotionally and physically.
Is it because I consumed too much energy?
I didn’t want to wake up like this.
Again, cut his arm
Lying in his arms
With your eyes closed.
If you sleep until he wakes up.
I thought he would do anything for me because he woke up before me.
And above all,
… It might be a good idea to say something to Kang Joo-hyuk first.
“… “I’m crazy.”
… Yesterday,
Okay. I’ll be honest.
I was blinded by jealousy, so I went a little too far.
I was out of my mind.
Even though I didn’t order it, my mouth…
… There.
While squeezing my chest… Ask me to fight.
Sometimes he begs me to kiss him.
When I think about it now, having sex outside is crazy.
… Really, you’re not stupid. What are you doing?
Even if you don’t go that far.
I won’t throw it away.
“…”
This man.
As long as I’m wearing this big thing.
As long as I have these big breasts.
Because he can’t help but fall for me.
So, I don’t really need to go that far…
“… Hey.”
“Ah. … Are you awake?”
… I didn’t have to.
Kang Joo-hyuk wakes up,
He turns around and looks at me with sleepy eyes.
“What are you doing this morning?”
“… “My, what am I?”
And then,
Hold my hand that was unconsciously touching something naughty.
… Just put it next to my head and climb on top of it.
“Why are you touching someone who is sleeping? … “Wasn’t it enough to do that yesterday?”
“No, that’s not it…” ” .”
“… How many times do you have to cum before you feel sexual? Ha-eun.”
“…”
To him like that.
Unlike yesterday.
With a sound mind.
Once again.
Gently touching my chest.
… It strikes again.
“… “I want to wash and then do it.”
“… Anything.”
“Then get up. … “Do it while washing.”
Because I was tired.
On the head that built a magpie nest.
To him who has even lost his voice
Now I feel my heart pounding.
“Ah, but. Joo Hyuk. This is a blanket…”
“You can wash it. If you suck it. … Will the blanket be dirty? Are you and I dirty?”
“…”
Now,
His bodily fluids
He didn’t feel dirty at all.
“… Let’s start with this. Because I stretched it out the same way I did yesterday.”
“… Yes.”
I cling to him as he puts his hand on my shoulder and massages his chest.
I step into the bathroom at the same pace as him.
… The first time I was attacked by him.
In that bathroom.
In the future too.
To be violated.
