Chapter 348 – 348. Sister Rice Bowl (1)
Just because I like tightrope walking doesn’t mean I like bungee jumping without a rope.
No matter how thrilling it was to enjoy it, I had to buy it when I had to buy it, and now was the perfect time.
Now that I’ve already met someone at the level of a director, any plans to follow their schedule are immediately discarded.
I sent them both back to their rooms before sunrise, and I enjoyed a nice sleep alone with Ha-eun before returning home late in the day.
After finishing my short break, I was looking for someone to sell the gym as quickly as possible.
A message came from Seo Ji-ah.
… With a pregnancy test with only one line drawn.
Actually, I knew that getting pregnant wasn’t something that happened all at once.
But when I saw that it didn’t happen even though I did that, I felt a little confused.
… Maybe it didn’t happen ‘that way’.
Should I have handled it more gently?
Could it be that it didn’t happen because I stimulated it too much?
If I thought about it with common sense, the most likely possibility was that it simply wasn’t conceived, but I felt a strangely sticky feeling of guilt.
If we had to be honest, the one who got pregnant should feel more guilty.
Moreover, with this result, even the plan was distorted.
To be honest, I want to leave Korea as soon as I sell the gym, but no matter what, I can’t put a pregnant woman on a plane before she stabilizes.
I stayed in hiding in Korea for about three months, then secretly escaped to Europe.
The original plan was to hold out there for as long as I could, then return to Japan, and give birth at the hospital I had found in advance.
One of them is Japanese anyway, and the other would have already received a visa, so it shouldn’t be a problem if they stay for a long time.
It’s okay for me to just go back and forth between Korea and Japan, or just register my marriage with Hinami.
However, once the pregnancy was delayed by a month, it was very difficult to schedule a departure date.
By the time Seo Ji-ah can safely leave the country, Hinami’s stomach will have swelled to the point that she can’t hide it.
No matter how much you cover your face, even ordinary people will notice you when you are about 4 months pregnant.
In that case, it would have been better to manage everything in Japan from the beginning, but the problem was that they were too famous there.
Although it’s not as bad as Korea, everyone who knows it.
No matter how rural it is, there is probably a hospital and internet access.
Is it really possible to hide there without being detected?
I’m sure their agency isn’t an asshole either, but wouldn’t they be able to find what’s hiding across the water?
However, it was impossible for her to stay in Europe or the United States forever.
Even if they already have a visa, I don’t.
At most, I can stay for half a year, but you leave two women alone in a place with no acquaintances?
That’s crazy.
In that case, even if I get caught, I end up staying in Korea.
In the end, when I thought about everything, I came to the conclusion that there were holes in the plan from the beginning.
Hinami was the one who thought deeply from the beginning, not me.
Anyway, the final destination is either Korea or Japan.
It is very easy to find it at the agency.
They only made noises about taking responsibility, but the reality was that they had not properly prepared anything.
… Still, you probably have plenty of funds, so let’s think about it some more.
Anyway, Japan is bigger than others, so if you live in different locations from time to time, it’s okay –
“President. … Are you okay?”
“Uh? Uh oh. It’s okay.”
Suah spoke to me with a worried expression, probably because my complicated mind came out through her expression.
… Now that I think about it, I guess I should at least let him know.
Even if you can’t run away with him, he has the right to know what happened.
“Hey, boss. Gym…, I heard it was selling, is it true?”
“… Uh. I’m going to sell it.”
“Hey, by any chance, I said something strange last time because of my uncle-“
“No, something like that.”
In the meantime, he’s having some strange illusions.
I didn’t know where to start or how far to explain, and I wasn’t even sure if I could really say it, but I couldn’t just hide away without saying a word to the woman I had just wanted.
Even if not right now, I have to explain it someday-
“… No way, boss, that…, Pregnancy… “Did you order it?”
“Push…”
Fuck, how much does he know?
“Oh, really? … Uh, congratulations.”
“… “What?”
“Ma’am, no. I’m not saying Ha-eun is pregnant… ?”
“No, something like that.”
I was so startled that I squirted out the water I was drinking, but it seems I was the only one whose feet felt numb.
… Yes, no matter what, you wouldn’t think you’d get an idol pregnant.
He also has quite good taste, but it’s not at the level where he throws away common sense.
“… “Oh.”
… Of course, since I reacted in confusion, I would have guessed whether I had common sense or not.
You just can’t ask it with your own mouth.
“I’ll tell you everything later, so just stay still for now. “I’ll let you know when the gym sells.”
“Yes…”
First, securing Toe came first, so I had no choice but to postpone the matter of Su-ah.
… Yeah, fuck it. What should I do?
It’s all my karma.
In the end, there was no choice other than ‘I will take responsibility no matter what happens.’
Whether you get caught or not.
That’s not important.
I just wanted to be by her side, I had to be.
… As long as she wants it.
Continue.
**
… It didn’t happen.
Unlike Hinami, his seed did not take root in me.
Why?
Simply luck?
So was I lucky or was I bad?
I don’t know.
It was a pain in the ass to have to choose again.
“Ha…”
Today again, in the hotel bathroom, I get hit by a stream of water and get lost in my thoughts alone.
… The choice I thought was over was presented to me again.
When he told me that he would even sell the gym and run away with me, I was honestly a little happy.
But it seemed like the choice would never be smooth.
If only Hinami is pregnant, all you have to do is smuggle her to Japan and hide it.
There is no problem for Japanese people to stay in Japan.
But the moment I got involved, the story became complicated.
Whether I give birth in the United States, Europe, or Japan.
All of them are a bunch of problems.
He assured me that he would somehow take care of it, but…, I honestly didn’t think he would have any great methods.
I know that this is an expression of your intention not to abandon me no matter what happens.
So I wanted to lean on it,
Since I woke up from a dream for a moment, I didn’t want to add more luggage.
“… Let’s quit.”
… Yes, it’s okay if it’s not now.
There is plenty of time left, and there is no need to rush.
I can no longer escape from him, and he can no longer abandon me.
As for Hinami, there is nothing we can do about it since she has already been created…
I’m fine.
… Since the contract ends next year anyway, let’s do it next year, next year.
I really don’t think that would be a problem…
“…”
Drop, drop.
A stream of water ran down my cheek and onto the bathroom floor.
However, I couldn’t tell whether this was water pouring from the shower or water flowing from my eyes.
It all got mixed up anyway and went into the sewer.
I didn’t give up anything, why?
Is it difficult to even stand upright like this?
… It’s not something that was created and then lost.
It’s just unlucky that it didn’t happen all at once.
“… Ha.”
If you think about it, it’s not like you’re unlucky.
There are still contracts and activities left.
Even though the contract doesn’t clearly state that you have to pay a penalty if you get pregnant, it’s definitely not something you can just laugh about.
It’s actually a good thing, but why?
Why like this… Am I getting short of breath?
“…”
… Did I really want to have his child this much?
No, that can’t be true.
Never once did I imagine how the child I gave birth to would grow up.
Then…,
Am I still scared of being abandoned?
… Because I gave everything,
Is it because I have no way to hold on to it anymore that I am so afraid?
In the end, there was nothing I could do other than change the temperature of the water pouring on me to be a little warmer.
Now I couldn’t do anything without leaning on him.
I was too scared to stand alone in the world because of the mistakes I had made.
… I was no longer afraid of being abandoned by the world,
I’m so scared of being abandoned by him that I can’t bear it…
-Is the time okay?
Wow.
… The cell phone that was placed on the sink vibrated.
I rushed to check without turning off the shower, and found out that it was a call from him.
I quickly wiped the moisture off his hands and called him right away.
-Hello, Jiaya.
“Brother-in-law.”
-… What do you want to do?
“… “I don’t know.”
I didn’t call right away after thinking about something.
I just wanted to hear your voice.
Because it was so lonely to be left alone.
Anything is fine, so I wanted you to say anything to me.
But explaining it with my own words was not an easy task.
-Let’s change the question. … What do you want to do next?
“I will do whatever my brother-in-law tells me.”
-Then please wait a moment.
“… “How much?”
-Next month…, No. Until next month.
“…”
… Because I was embarrassed.
Even though it’s not in front of him,
My heart is pounding like this.
-The plan has changed a little. I won’t stop by Europe or America, I’ll just stay in Japan forever. You will be more comfortable there too.
“Yes.”
-Probably, the agency will definitely get caught. If you’re not lucky, you’ll get caught by a reporter…, You can handle it, right?
“… Yes.”
-… Then, when you come back from your schedule, come straight to my house. … I’ll do whatever you want.
“… Yes.”
Because it was disgusting.
… Just ahead of the fan meeting tomorrow, my hands are shaking at every word he says.
It was so disgusting that it made me vomit…,
I didn’t hate myself for that.
… That’s me.
Because he taught me.
