Chapter 305 – 305. Sex Friend (1)
A lot of time has passed since Ha-eun’s birthday, and the months have changed.
Not much has changed in over 15 days, but that was quite a turn-off.
The employee who witnessed me and Su-ah has kept his mouth shut so far, and Hinami and Seo Ji-ah have not been released from the agency.
The only thing that has changed is… The point is that the public has gradually lost interest in the drug issue and has moved on to other interesting gossip.
Their fandom still had a portrait-like atmosphere, but they didn’t particularly raise their voices too loudly.
Perhaps thanks to all the threats and cajoling from their agency, Hinami and Jia’s group did not come close to disbanding.
Instead, it seems like the contract period has been shortened…, I didn’t tell you that in detail.
-I think I will be released next week
However, I was told that we would be able to meet soon.
Well, we won’t be able to meet in person like before, but I’ll be able to see you soon.
It seemed like half of the tower I had built was destroyed, but in fact, it was doing well enough.
Baseball players lose everything if they don’t play baseball, but their profession means they lose everything if the public loses interest, regardless of whether they are good at singing, so they can’t stop their activities forever.
Personally, I would like to see those two on stage again.
… To be honest, I was more excited about the accident that would happen after that.
I’m not saying that Ha-eun is sick of it, but…,
Since that day, there hasn’t been any new stimulation.
“Ah, you are here. Hey, boss…”
“Uh.”
“I’m going to get off work. Thank you for your effort…”
“Okay.”
After that day, Su-ah’s attitude did not change dramatically.
At least he doesn’t look awkward in front of other people and looks like the part-time worker he always was.
However, I have become a little more embarrassed when we meet alone.
I didn’t attach any meaning to Su-ah’s appearance like that and pretended that nothing had happened that day.
… Honestly, I can’t even handle him.
“Ha…”
The reason I was able to work so hard with this inefficient body was purely because of desire.
At first, I want to make a lot of money and be successful, I want to be famous, I want to meet a pretty girl.
A thought that a child wearing only his school uniform would think.
She then briefly tasted the sweetness of success, was caught up in the desire to rise higher, and only after hitting rock bottom did she realize what her instinct to live was.
When she got used to crawling around on the floor, she realized that she was so broken that she couldn’t even struggle.
Just before she was sucked into the swamp, she met Ha-eun and used her feelings of revenge as fuel to live her life.
When she was about to burn out, En Seo-jia threw her new firewood, so she could burn a little longer.
After burning it all, I felt so empty.
… That’s probably why I’m obsessed with sex.
It’s not that it feels perfect, but…,
Other than that, I have no other goals anymore.
Anyway, there was no way to fill my reputation anymore.
Money…, The moment I crossed a certain line, I realized that it wasn’t that important.
What difference would it make if I had 10 billion in my pocket now?
Maybe you can travel more often and buy a villa instead of staying at a pension?
Those minor conveniences change, but the essence doesn’t really change.
… Also, I am trash.
Someday, I will have to take responsibility for them.
“… “What is it?”
“Oh, no. Just…”
As she sighed and was lost in thought, which was unusual for me, the part-timer who had just left work suddenly turned around and stared at me.
There was an accident, but it didn’t turn into a big incident, so I hope people can just forget about it, but he still looks like he has regrets.
“If you want your salary advanced, let me know. “I’ll give it to you now.”
“No, no, that’s not it… !”
“… Otherwise, get off work quickly.”
“…”
I know that he wants to continue his relationship with me.
But there are things I can be responsible for, and there are things I cannot be responsible for.
Su-a was a child outside the scope of my responsibility,
I knew painfully that day that it was my fault that she touched me.
… I knew very well that she was an idiot and couldn’t stand it.
“Boss.”
“Why?”
“… “Are you uncomfortable?”
“… Wouldn’t it be uncomfortable?”
… Wanting to touch something even though I know I can’t take responsibility,
It was also my true intention.
In the first place, when I touched Ha-eun and when I touched Hinami.
Likewise, when he touched Seo Ji-ah.
She didn’t really intend to take responsibility for them.
Somehow she wanted to take responsibility and was in a position to do so.
But this one…
“It’s so…, Don’t feel uncomfortable. … Because I was wrong that day…”
… If I took responsibility clumsily, I felt like I would really be screwed.
I felt like if I continued the relationship ambiguously and tried to end it too late, something in my body would be cut off.
But if that ambiguous relationship continues…, I didn’t think I could quit even after she found another man.
“It’s uncomfortable because you come out with that attitude.”
“But…, It’s real. I, for no reason, seduced the boss…”
“… “You don’t keep doing this because you feel really sorry.”
“…”
Because he was a kid who could do that well.
It was a little different from Hinami.
If she was waiting for a prince on a white horse, she was just looking for a useful dildo to fulfill her fantasy.
“Why. Is it because you want to do it with me again?”
“… “Can’t I say that?”
“No, of course not. “I made a mistake that day, but if I make it twice, it’s not a mistake.”
“… It has to be a mistake?”
“Under…”
… Look at that brat, shamelessly talking about a subject whose ears are red.
It might be okay to do something stupid right now, but someday it won’t be the case.
Could she be satisfied with not dating any man for the rest of her life and just enjoying an occasional ‘secret relationship’ with me?
Or even if I make up my mind and take responsibility for him too, will he accept it?
A man who is already seeing three women?
“Don’t sigh. The boss is also me…, Even if you don’t like it. … It sucks.”
“If I had always been causing trouble just because I felt bad, I would have been in prison already.”
“You go around causing accidents all the time. … Is it okay to touch an idol who has a girlfriend, but not me?”
“… “They touched it because they could take responsibility.”
“… “Because I’m the boss’ senior nephew?”
“Uh.”
“It doesn’t matter, that kind of thing. … “If you just keep your mouth shut.”
“… “It’s not that kind of problem.”
Although he said this, the fact that he was the nephew of a close senior was not that important of an obstacle.
… The biggest obstacle was that I was trash.
If I were a healthy human being and a man with a clean relationship with a woman, there would have been no problem whether I went on a date with her, had sex with her, or got married and had children.
But…, Isn’t it?
Even though I want to pounce on Su-ah, I never want to live alone with Su-a.
Even though I have such a trashy mindset…, What should I do?
No matter how unique Sua’s taste is, and sometimes her quirkiness is cute.
When I get home, Ha-eun is waiting for me.
“… I’m not asking you to take responsibility, too. It’s just that I’m young anyway. I have no intention of ever having a boyfriend. But, sex… “I want to do it.”
“You should get a boyfriend right after your vacation ends.”
“Because it’s not! … I don’t want to be in a relationship in the first place. Just, sex… Suman.”
“…”
“Anyway, the boss is dating Ha-eun, so I just…” Sex… It’s enough…”
… Hinami comes back next week.
I can hug Seo Ji-ah too.
Do I really have to cross the thin ice?
“… I’m not doing this because I like the boss, it’s just that. As comfortable as the boss…, No, because there is no man I can safely meet. Because I’m doing this…”
Do I really have to cross the crosswalk at a red light?
He’s not particularly prettier than the other kids I can hold.
“Oh, and. Boss, I like cosplay… ? If you look at Ha-eun’s Instagram, it looks like they’re all like that… I can do that for you too… ?”
My body isn’t that great either.
I definitely don’t have big breasts.
But still.
… Should I touch it?
“… Please answer me, because I’m saying this at the risk of being embarrassed…”
“Tomorrow.”
“Oh, … Yes.”
Of course, the correct answer was NO.
I was someone who always chose the wrong answer.
… There’s nothing you can do, right?
If I were a person who only chose the right answer, no one would have been able to get it.
Even though the end of destruction was clearly in sight, I felt like an idiot for choosing this path.
I really couldn’t help it.
“… Thank you.”
… A female who is desperate to be eaten right in front of her,
Wearing loose-fitting clothes and showing off her small cleavage.
Feeling my hand, moistening my lips.
As long as it gives off pheromones like that.
To consider morality and common sense first,
I was so close to being trash.
