Chapter 25 – 025. Failure to Excuse (2)
I run to the bathroom attached to the bedroom and quickly spit out the impure liquid in my mouth.
The body fluid, which has become diluted by mixing with saliva but still retains some viscosity, is sucked into the sink.
⋯Disgusting.
Dirty, dirty, dirty!
“Shoot, shoo, ugh⋯.”
I guess I should say I’m glad that the amount was less than I expected.
If I had cummed in the condom I found when I was cleaning up my room yesterday after coming to my senses, I would have filled my mouth with more.
It wasn’t as sticky as I thought, so I quickly rinsed my mouth with water, and the slippery feeling quickly disappeared.
However, the fishy, concentrated male body odor does not disappear easily.
⋯I don’t want to do it again.
It’s disgusting.
“⋯I want to die.”
It may be rude to give a blowjob, but I came to my senses while biting on his dick and it made me want to die.
The pleasure that had been crawling through my veins and tormenting me has quickly subsided, with only a little grumbling in my stomach.
It didn’t hurt as much as I thought, but why was I so scared that I followed everything the man told me?
I wonder what good it is like to have a cock in my mouth that was violently prodding inside me, and to receive ejaculation in my mouth.
No matter how scared I was, I should have chosen something else.
Like the chest, the hands, etc.
Even if I had to bend my pride and be fawning, it was a hundred times better than being treated with a harsh ejaculation.
“Ahh! 진짜, 개짜증나, 개새끼⋯.”
I screamed out loud out of discomfort, but when I realized that he was right beyond the door, I cursed loudly.
⋯Really, you fucking bastard.
How far are you going to tease me?
Why are you so crazy about me and doing such things?
No matter how much I think about it, I’m not bad…
“Haeun, what’s wrong?”
“Hi…”
The moment I was grumbling internally, he stormed into the bathroom behind me.
I was surprised and gasped, wondering if I had heard someone swearing, but looking at that shameless face, it didn’t seem like that.
⋯Just now, you were cumming in my mouth without saying a word with such a merciless face.
Now that I see you pretending to be worried, my murderous intent rises.
It’s not a joke, really.
“Why are you so surprised?”
“You know what I can do and do whatever you want!”
“You went there to spit out semen. “If it had been anything else, I would have locked the door.”
“⋯.”
I hate him for not losing his shamelessness even though he knows how I feel.
I don’t want you to treat me kindly.
Just leave me alone.
I wish I could have enjoyed it so much.
How far are you going to play with me…
“Do you want to gargle? Did you happen to take it from my bag?”
“Give it to me.”
He pretended to be friendly until the end, then handed me the gargle that he had been hiding behind his back for some time.
I snatch it up, stuff it in my mouth, and erase the fishy smell that still remains.
My mind is not refreshed at all, but a pleasant scent fills my mouth.
But even that fresh air quickly disappears when you smell that man.
The body odor of an unclean and dirty man.
It’s not uncomfortable to wear, but it’s a smell that makes me dizzy in an inexplicable way.
“I sweated a little, so let’s take a shower and sleep. “You won’t feel uncomfortable if you stay like this.”
“It will happen even if I don’t say it…” ” “
“Then I’ll get some water. There is also a bathtub here.”
“Hey, wait… !”
I wanted to wash the body odor off of my body and fall asleep quickly, but when I saw Kang Joo-hyuk calmly taking water from someone else’s bathtub, I could clearly see what was going to happen.
⋯It means we should go in together, that is.
It’s more obvious than it is inside.
How much they will tease me in the water.
“What?”
“⋯.”
But when I look at his straight face, the words “Don’t talk nonsense” Are stuck in my throat.
I know that every time that man threatens me, if I curl his tail, he will be dragged away, but I hate myself for instinctively flinching.
Still, it can’t be helped.
It’s really scary.
The eyes are scary, and the angular body is scary.
There are surgery marks on my shoulder, so I’m ten times more scared.
⋯I was actually raped.
It is too much to ask that you not feel fear.
“If you soak for just 30 minutes, you won’t be able to sleep well when you come out. Let’s get some warm water. Okay?”
“⋯Okay.”
In the end, I couldn’t say anything unpleasant to him and could only nod his head.
⋯I only stole a cell phone once and searched it, so how did it end up like this?
Even if it was a mistake to get into trouble while drunk, being swayed by Kang Joo-hyuk this early in the morning was definitely not a mistake.
This man is playing with me.
Insidiously.
“I’ll sit down, so get on it. Wow, this house even has a large bathtub. “I have to bend over to sit in the bathtub at my house.”
“⋯.”
However, when I see Kang Joo-hyuk innocently and happily stretching his legs in the bathtub, I wonder if this man is really that shady man.
What’s wrong with this man that he’s become such a trash?
Was quitting his baseball career with a knife mark on his shoulder something that was so heartbreaking?
If I quit being a singer who barely debuted for similar reasons…
⋯There are things I know and things I don’t know.
Because I have never debuted.
“Sit down and don’t just watch. It must be cold.”
“⋯I understood.”
Looking at his slightly shrunken cock, I enter the bathtub feeling anxious.
The water has not filled up much yet, so his thighs feel rough as he sits down.
But as soon as my butt touches it, the hard cock becomes slippery and soft.
A completely different feel than when rubbing with a condom on.
I think I now know why when I was violated by him earlier, it was more overwhelming than painful.
“Ha-eun, you should sit opposite. Face me The bathtub is also spacious.”
“Huh?”
“I gargled, but you’re not going to kiss me anymore?”
“Stop playing around. Because I’m not in the mood… “
“Okay okay. ⋯It’s before bed, so let’s just wash ourselves. Yes.”
Fortunately, because she did not see her face, her fear, her lessened her, and she was able to muster up the courage to say something she did not like.
Fortunately or unfortunately, he held my heart and accepted my request in a pleasant voice.
Obviously, being touched in the bathtub isn’t a good thing for me, so why do I feel better just because I’m being asked for such a small favor?
Because the warm water is gradually rising?
I hope that is the correct answer.
“⋯The house is nice. “I was very motivated because I wanted to live here when I was a player.”
“⋯.”
“I want to live in a house like this for just half a year. ⋯It’s better if I live with a woman.”
“Don’t be scary. ⋯I’m really scared.”
“Why? Are you afraid I’ll lie down here?”
“If you think like that, I will report you. Really.”
“I’m really going to lie down if you say that.”
It’s a childish joke, but the content isn’t childish at all.
A shady conversation between the rape perpetrator and the victim.
⋯It’s clear that I’m avoiding it, so why do I have to go along with that man’s words?
He deserves to be reported, but why are you so proud?
How do you know so well that I won’t be able to say anything?
As if you looked into my head.
“Well, it’s half a joke. Don’t take it too seriously. “It’s just wishful thinking, wishful thinking.”
“Don’t joke like that. “I’m really scared… “
“…Are you going to search a scary person’s phone so openly? “Did you think I didn’t have a backup?”
Now, I’m not surprised at all when he says something like that.
Oh, of course you will.
Since he was the guy playing on top of my head, he probably knew what I was going to do.
I become desperate.
I feel endlessly defeated, and I just hope that he will show me mercy.
I won’t say anything about you molesting me while submerged in this warm bathtub,
Please don’t do anything worse.
“I know what you’re thinking because the recording is so dirty… But it’s just for self-protection, so don’t worry too much about it. Uh? You know. “I’m not crazy enough to mess with something like that.”
“⋯How can I trust you⋯?”
“I didn’t record it because I don’t trust you either. If you hadn’t, you would have reported it right away. No?”
“If only you hadn’t done something strange afterwards!”
“I was hanging around because I wanted to do something strange, but you can’t argue with that.”
“⋯Really, you bastard⋯.”
“I really like it when you swear. ⋯It was a bit dangerous earlier because I was begging you while I was kissing you while swearing. “If I was too picky, I would have stuffed it inside.”
“⋯.”
“I’m kidding, I’m kidding. It wasn’t like I was going to cum, I just wanted to cum. ⋯I was curious what their facial expressions would be if I just picked it up, shoved it in, and stuffed it inside.”
His dirty language That rapes my ears and brain with his tongue His His is shameful, but I can endure it.
No matter how much I violate it with words or touch it with my hands, it is better than the unpleasant pleasure and fishy smell I experienced earlier.
I just hope that as the day goes by, this guy will lose interest in me.
“But, please look at it because I didn’t do that because I was thinking of you. I looked after you too. Ha-eun.”
“I’ll look after you, so can you please leave me alone?”
“If you promise.”
“I’ll make a promise or whatever, so please leave me alone… “
Out of desperation, I promise to forgive him.
You can never forgive, but you can forgive a hundred times a thousand times with your mouth anyway.
If you wanted to get out of this sticky and unpleasant feeling, I could promise you that much.
“⋯Is it true?”
“Because it’s real, kinda… “
“Okay. Okay. It’s a promise, so I won’t touch it. ⋯Let’s warm up.”
“⋯.”
⋯ I didn’t want anything from a piece of trash who wouldn’t even take his hand off his chest when he promised not to touch it,
Just by not talking to me, I feel at ease,
Leaning on him with a sagging feeling,
I doze off.
My body and mind are all submerged in water.
