Chapter 246 – 246. Travel (16)
One becomes two.
As two became three, including me, a thought occurred to me.
How long will Kang Joo-hyuk be able to accept them?
Thirty years old? Forty years old?
Or until you get old?
Is that really possible?
To three women.
No, even if it’s just the two of us without me.
Is it possible to satisfy both of them like we are doing now?
I thought it was absolutely impossible.
Looking at him now, he didn’t seem particularly shaken.
“Jia.”
“Why?”
“Come out.”
Rather than shaking, it seemed like it was becoming stronger.
Are you trying to fit me into the axis so that I can stand on three legs?
Hinami looked at me as if she felt sorry or pitiful and gestured to me.
One man loves several women,
A bizarre relationship in which multiple women support one man.
No matter how balanced it seems right now, it will definitely shake at some point.
“… Ha.”
No matter how much I thought about it, I didn’t think this relationship would last forever.
It’s no joke since we’ve come this far.
Those two are so broken that Kang Joo-hyuk can conceive a child whenever he wants.
He must be trying to do something similar to me somehow.
If it goes that far, it becomes truly irreversible.
Even if I somehow manage to get out on my own, those two have no intention or will to do so.
Sincerely.
You fell in love with Kang Joo-hyuk.
“… Brother-in-law.”
“Uh, why?”
“I’ll come back after getting some air for a moment. … It doesn’t matter if I’m not there anyway.”
“In pajamas?”
“No, I’m not going out. “I just got some fresh air in the hot spring.”
While my sister and Hinami looked busy choosing clothes to wear, I quietly whispered to her and walked towards the open space.
Then, I walked as far away from the hot spring water as possible and smelled the leaves.
Perhaps because the sun had set, the cold air I had felt all day clearly cooled down, and a chill soaked my cheeks.
Thanks to this, his mind cooled, and he became calm, but the more he did it, the more his doubts became deeper.
Hinami longed for a man she could rely on due to her past trauma, and she fell in love with him.
Even though her past karma made her feel guilty, she fell in love with the person she hated so much.
Under the pretext of the karma that even I was tied to, she took advantage of each other’s weaknesses and gave him the leash.
As a result, where does this relationship end?
They form a big family of three men and three women, and live a happy life haha?
I have to say something that makes sense.
It would be impossible even if Hinami and I were ordinary people, but it is even more impossible since she is a celebrity.
Every time we walk down the street, everyone will look at us and point fingers, and if we have children, even our children will hear us whispering.
Even if the three of us did something similar without me, the results wouldn’t be much different.
So, if the relationship comes to an end one day, how does it end?
His cell phone, camera, and computer were probably filled with all kinds of different photos and videos.
Even if just one leak is a weakness that could end your life, there are sure to be hundreds of them piled up.
If they say they get tired of Kang Joo-hyuk and leave, is there really a guarantee that he won’t use that?
You’ve already used it several times to threaten me.
Even the opposite is true.
When Kang Joo-hyuk gets tired of them and leaves, will they really be willing to let him go?
Would she be able to let go of the man who took away her virginity, recorded all her weaknesses, and colored all her moments when she should have sparkled with his own colors?
No matter which side I thought about, it wasn’t realistic.
Now I wasn’t even confident that I could convince any of the three.
Besides.
If you think he only chooses one side.
… It didn’t seem like he would stay still in the abandoned area.
That’s why the relationship between them and Kang Joo-hyuk seemed so strong.
I would really be grateful if he abandoned me…
“Hey. “What are you doing?”
“… Ah. “What is it?”
“I asked him what he was doing while standing on the stone.”
As soon as I thought I wanted to get out of this complicated relationship, Kang Joo-hyuk came out behind me and gently grabbed me by the shoulder.
… With eyes as if they were worried about me.
The reason I came to a place like this.
The reason why I think this.
You probably know better than anyone else that it’s all because of you.
I don’t know when I even took off my clothes, but I was only wearing underwear.
“You said you were going to get some air. Well, since I called you brother-in-law, did you think I was flirting?”
“It’s not like that.”
“Yes, no. Go back and play hard with your sister and Hinami. Come to think of it, didn’t you say you were going to take medicine today? Since I have no intention of getting involved, I’m satisfied with those two… Wow… !”
He looked at me with an unhappy expression, lifted me up in my pajamas, and dropped me into the hot spring.
I didn’t throw it away, and it didn’t completely submerge his face, but my pajamas got soaked, so I reflexively glared at him.
“Are you crazy?”
“I feel a bit strange from breathing in the cold air, so I told you to take some warm air.”
“What is that… Wow…”
He took off the only pair of panties he was wearing, entered the hot springs, and walked right next to me.
Then, he unbuttoned the wet pajamas one by one.
“What. I’m not wearing a bra. “I thought you wore it.”
“… Town…”
He used force to violently remove his top, which was difficult to remove because it was stuck to his body.
He grabbed me and covered my mouth, and carefully pulled down my pants.
… Holding his underwear in the same hand,
“Pha… Hey, Kangju…, Brother-in-law… !”
“Why do you think so much? … What happens if you just enjoy it?”
“…”
He dragged me down, stripped me of my skin while floating me in the water, and threw me on the stone floor.
As soon as I was naked, I hugged him from behind, grabbed his chest, and whispered the same thing I had whispered to him earlier.
“You can just think about it comfortably. It was hard because I had to sweat all day and walk around taking pictures and signing autographs. When I come back, I secretly do things I can’t show to other people and take a break. Honestly, it’s fun, right?”
“… Just because it’s fun doesn’t mean anything happens.”
“Why? Who gets harmed when we have fun together? Or are you committing a crime? “Have you or I ever taken drugs?”
“It’s not like that… !”
“Tell me exactly what you don’t like so much. … “I don’t want to giggle and fuck with someone lying depressed in the room next to me.”
And then, stroking the top of my head that wasn’t wet yet.
He moves the back of his hair and kisses the back of my neck.
I bit my ear and brought out my true feelings.
“… “It’s not normal, something like this.”
“In what way?”
“Common sense, me, my sister, and Hanami. We all know each other. Have sex together… Starting with doing it. Before that, you alone with several women…”
“So if I only have sex with you, it’s okay? Or, just have sex with Hinami. Is that OK?”
“…”
“If you do that, you’ll say this again. It’s not normal for idols to have sex without fans knowing. … “It’s all just an excuse.”
“It’s not an excuse… !”
But even after hearing what I was thinking, he seemed not to be satisfied and continued to wet me.
“If that’s not an excuse, what is? … Are you saying you’re a moral person and can’t hang out with a guy like me? “My fans are so important to me that I feel guilty when I have sex with men, is that so?”
“… Something like that…”
“If it’s not this or that, what is it? … To begin with, you were an exhibitionist who used your own hands to post sexy pictures on Twitter. If you don’t have sex with me, you’re going to do it again, right? Shall we make a bet? After half a year, you will sell a new back account or not.”
“…”
I kept stroking my private parts, which were soaked with hot water, and kept shaking my head, which was so full of warmth that it didn’t move well.
… If it had been full of cold air like before, I would have been able to refute it a little more convincingly.
I was barely able to open my mouth, holding on to my increasingly dazed head.
“… Or is the future scary? I’m afraid someone will find out. Because it’s obvious that it will be exposed someday. … Is that because you’re scared?”
“…”
He stole the words I was trying to say, grabbed my heart, and whispered cruelly.
… Even though I know everything.
I hated him so much for trying to humiliate me.
“Why are you so scared? … Are you scared of receiving malicious comments? Are you scared of people looking at you strangely? An arrogant and selfish bitch like you?”
“Such a simple problem…”
“No, it’s a simple problem. … You’re afraid of being criticized because you think you did something wrong. “Because you think you will be punished for making a mistake, you are afraid of the consequences.”
“…”
So much.
… It was scary.
Like.
It felt like taking out my heart and looking into what emotions were inside.
“Well, wouldn’t it be really convenient if I changed my mind? … You never did anything wrong in the first place, and you don’t deserve to be punished. Isn’t that a strange thing to say? Is it so wrong to have sex with someone you like?”
“I… To you…” !”
“Then you just have to change your mind. Do you know that if you think that you and I had sex because we liked each other, everything you’ve done so far becomes cute? … Including my shoulder becoming like this.”
“…”
My sin.
… In fact.
Karma that I never thought of as a sin throughout my life.
It feels like they are buying it.
“… The choice is yours. Will she become a foolish bitch who betrays her fans on the topic of idols and gets swayed by a man she once took advantage of? … Or maybe I’ll just become an ordinary girl.”
“…”
It’s dizzy.
Dreamy.
Worries that feel like my head is going to explode.
… It feels like it’s being cut with a single knife.
“They’ll say something if I stay too long, so I’ll leave first.”
I am.
I followed him with my eyes as he left me alone and left.
… A face that isn’t wet yet.
Wet both hands warmly.
Slap, slap.
I stepped on the stone I was standing on earlier.
After letting the leaf you smelled brush your cheek.
I put a towel on my wet hair like a veil.
I followed him out.
If I breathed more cold air.
Because I had to ‘think’ again.