Chapter 166 – 166. Reversal (5)
To be looked at like that by one of my closest friends was a truly horrible and bizarre experience.
I wanted to look away, but I couldn’t.
The moment I run away from here, Hinami will forever look at me twisted.
“… “Tell me something.”
I don’t cry.
Me too, Hinami too.
When Hinami begged her to say something, she just kept her mouth shut and stared.
I don’t know where and how far it went astray, and I don’t even know how a friend who clearly had a similar life trajectory could have his common sense distorted to that extent.
I knew this from the time she and her older sister played together.
The more she feels it in front of her, the more frustrated her heart becomes.
“Whoa…”
She pushes the beer into her tight chest and sighs.
This isn’t a matter of saying I like Kang Joo-hyuk or that he hates me.
If you love him, you can hang out with him, and if he hates you, you can just keep your distance, so why bother putting me and him in the same space?
Do you really want me to become one of the women that Kang Joo-hyuk has?
… What does that mean to you?
My sister can understand.
It’s so unfair that it makes me go crazy, but I can at least understand why you’re jealous of me.
What on earth do you want from me?
“… Are you crazy?”
“… Uh.”
She could no longer look with rational eyes at Hinami, who gave a simple answer to a truly honest question.
Is this how you feel when you see an acquaintance who is into a pseudo-religion?
His way of thinking is completely different from mine, to the point where I feel an instinctive sense of rejection.
Maybe it’s because they have different nationalities, but in all the time we’ve been together, she’s never felt awkward because Hinami is Japanese.
The more I look into my friend’s utter madness her her, the more distant her I feel from her.
“I’m doing this because I’m crazy.” … Because I can’t do it without going crazy.”
Even resentment and painful emotions flow from the crazy eyes.
… Something you can’t do without going crazy.
It’s not that it wasn’t so hard for me that it made me crazy, but until you became like this, it was never so hard that I wanted to hit you.
“And what’s wrong with crazy? … Isn’t it okay to work hard even if you go crazy? I try my best to say hello to annoying guys. I regularly shake hands and sign autographs with fans who show up. My thighs and breasts were always filmed and I was treated like a girl by men. I get scolded by other idol fans for pretending to be cute. … Still, you persevered and worked hard, right? “Can’t I enjoy my life now?”
“… Do you think it’s different for me?”
“So, Jia, I’m talking to you too. … Don’t act arrogant and don’t think about hitting me now.”
I never pretended to be arrogant.
I definitely had the intention of hitting him, but I never had the courage to do so.
If I had the courage to do that, I would have gotten rid of Kang Joo-hyuk first.
The reason I’m here like this is because I don’t have the courage to hit them all.
No matter how much Kang Joo-hyuk threatened and cajoled me, it didn’t matter if I ignored him if I had the courage to give up.
I was brought here because I couldn’t give up the name ‘Seo Ji-ah’.
“… “What will you do if I tell you to hit me?”
“I’m going to hit you too. … Jia, if you leave, who will sing the song?”
“You can call me. “You have a nice voice.”
“Ahaha, are you kidding me? You? Looking at me?”
Even though you have the name ‘Hinami’ completely to yourself.
What are you so dissatisfied with that you’re yelling at me?
… If we had talked to each other alone, they might have listened seriously.
“You’re good at joking.” “I thought it was so fucking boring.”
“Okay? I also thought you lived a really rough life. I thought I would run away as soon as I got a chance to hit an idol. … “I never imagined I would work this hard.”
“Okay. I think so too. I was going to hit him whenever I got the chance. … There was a bitch who tried to run away before me, so it was such a waste. It’s a job that gives you money, fame, and popularity as long as you get all kinds of criticism.”
“You gave all your money, fame, and popularity to one man, and now you think it’s a waste?”
If it hadn’t been for him putting me in his car and dragging me away.
… Even if he didn’t give his dog’s leash to the man and start barking.
“You didn’t give it all? “What did I give to Joo-hyuk oppa?”
“Entire. … Now you might think that I only gave you your body. Don’t you still know that if that person threatens you at any time, your money, fame, and popularity will all be thrown into the gutter?”
“Why? Why do you think you’re being shut out? … “Do you think I’ll be ruined if my brother gets tired of me and is disappointed in me, and releases sex videos and all that?”
“Then that… ” .”
“That won’t ruin me.” I was already swearing. I was already experiencing sexual harassment. … I could make money by taking naked pictures just like I do now. “Nothing will change, right?”
“… Crazy bitch.”
Disparaging your job to this extent.
… Even if he hadn’t degraded himself this much.
You could have listened seriously.
“And, … It’s all thanks to you that I met my brother. Even if you hadn’t made your brother retire, do you think you would have a chance to meet him?”
“What are you talking about all of a sudden?”
“Why are you pretending not to know? … I heard you asked your father to kick you out of the team because you said your personal life was dirty. Did you hear everything from your sister? “You said it was your fault that my brother got hurt?”
… Criticizing my only friend like this.
Even if I hadn’t taken his side and not mine.
“Why is it my fault that he got hurt? … “How could I, a high school student at best, hurt that person?”
“Ah, Jia, you said you don’t know much about baseball. … When people use their shoulders that much, they usually get damaged. “If you hadn’t told your father nonsense, I wouldn’t have used it to that extent.”
“… Is it okay to threaten someone and rape them for that reason?”
“That reason is so funny, Jia. … “Are you going to let Joo-hyuk spread a rumor about your agency, make you work until you broke your ankle, and then retire after a year?”
“…”
Making ridiculous analogies.
Even if they didn’t try to put the guilt on me who did nothing wrong.
“Why did you do that to someone you don’t even know very well? What did your sister say? … But Ha-eun said she was wrong back then, she apologized to her brother, and she is doing well now.”
“That’s what’s strange about you. Common sense tells her that she did it because she fell in love with the person who raped her…”
“According to common sense, isn’t it strange that her brother still hasn’t taken revenge on the woman who ruined his life and is leaving her alone? If your brother was as trash as you think, you should have started…”
“You threatened someone and put your dick in her mouth and used it however you wanted, but you just left it alone?”
“You left it alone, right? Even if you didn’t argue. … That’s when you called me to your house. Why did you do that? “You even lied about the manager’s arrival?”
“How could you…” ” .”
“At that time, my brother called me and suddenly went upstairs, but he said there was nothing he could do because of the manager. But the manager was actually caught in the parking lot. … “Unni, I don’t know because I’m not in charge. Do you think I don’t know?”
“…”
Everyone noticed.
Even if I didn’t pretend not to know.
“When I heard my sister and brother having sex, did I get jealous?”
“Don’t talk nonsense.”
“Then why did you lie and call out my brother who was just playing with my sister?”
“… So, if a man breaks into my house and has sex with me in full earshot, am I supposed to just watch that?”
“Oh, I don’t want to see that. Did you really bother to call my brother and persuade him to play with you?”
“Hey… !”
… Me.
Even if you hadn’t just said bullshit about being jealous of your sister.
I wouldn’t have had to stand up and look down at you, holding on to my pajamas with the front unbuttoned in both hands.
“… Why are you angry? Really? Were you really mad at your sister and trying to seduce her brother?”
“It’s nothing like that.”
“Then why did you invite my brother into your house?”
“… Because it was shit.”
“What?”
“A man I don’t even know. I sat down at my sister’s house on a whim. … They even prey on you, and no matter how much you tell them to go away, they won’t eat you. “You might want to fuck it up, right?”
“… I’m a little more honest now.”
… That day.
My dark feelings that I had forgotten.
I could have never thought of it again.
“Jia, you broke your brother first. You brought me home first. … You tried to hurt my brother first. Right?”
“… Is that bad? You ruined your sister’s life, and you’re trying to ruin yours too. “What’s wrong with getting rid of pests?”
“How did your life get ruined? … Isn’t it actually doing well? You went from being unemployed in a corner of your room to becoming a YouTuber who makes a lot of money. I also became more popular after meeting my brother. What’s more, if it weren’t for my brother, I would have died a long time ago?”
“…”
“I saved two people, but if all I did was take some sexy pictures and hang out with a girl, wouldn’t that be a bad thing? “Why are you criticizing my brother because you are moral?”
Even with my mouth torn, I couldn’t say that I was a moral person.
… Because I was a woman who had already been immersed in the entertainment industry and lost my conscience.
I thought it would be nice if all the people who were obstacles to me disappeared, and in fact, a few people did.
Even the former manager thought it would be better if he disappeared before our eyes rather than throwing him in jail and attracting media attention, and he actually evaporated.
Rather than allowing Kang Joo-hyuk to be properly judged by the law, he planned to use all the people around him to exploit their weaknesses and silence them.
“… Still better than Kang Joo-hyuk.”
… But.
For that reason, I didn’t even want to hear people say that he was better than Kang Joo-hyuk.
No matter how twisted I am, I’m not a worse person than Kang Joo-hyuk.
“… “The fans will be disappointed when they hear what you said.”
“What are you going to say?”
“Well? “A lot of my fans are perverted bastards, so I’m sure a lot of people would like it if I told them about me having sex with my oppa, right?”
Hinami is not a worse idol than you.
I don’t know if other people are admonishing me.
I don’t want to hear anything like that from you.
“Why is it so loud? “Are you two fighting?”
“Ah, brother…”
“Why are you dressed so casually? Are you drunk?”
“Ahaha…”
… As soon as I saw Kang Joo-hyuk hurriedly walking in.
Just for you, who puts on a mask and acts nice and cute.
“Still, I think I finished a can of beer. If you’re drunk, go into the next room and sleep. “I’m going to sleep downstairs.”
“Yes.”
“…”
I never wanted to lose.
Like that day when I felt like I would go crazy if I didn’t shatter the relationship.
The mask has come off and you are pleading in an ugly way.
I wanted to laugh at him until his belly button fell out.
… No matter what number you use.
