Chapter 165 – 165. Reversal (4)
The pension looked eerie from the outside.
However, contrary to its appearance, the inside was a clean and comfortable space.
It’s a private pension where you can relax and rest if you’re visiting alone, but there’s just one problem.
“I bought mainly foods that won’t make you gain weight, so don’t worry and eat them.”
“Yes, brother.”
… Even if she came alone with Hina Mi, it would have been awkward, but she also came back with that man.
No matter how you look at it, it seems like he forcibly dragged me in while Hinami and Kang Joo-hyuk were having a secret relationship, rather than telling me and Hinami to take a break.
The taste is truly disgusting.
Are you telling me to keep an eye on you while you’re playing with your friends?
“What are you doing, you drink too. “I have to drive tomorrow too, so I can’t drink it for you.”
“…”
It made me angry, so I grabbed the beer can sitting in front of me, took the cap off, and gulped it down.
As long as Hinami is there, that man will try to touch Hinami rather than me.
… If you’re going to mess with it anyway, it’s obvious that you won’t care whether you’re drunk or not.
“Then, let’s have a drink together, then clean up and rest. “I’m sleepy so I’ll sleep first.”
“… Yes?”
“What is ‘yes’? I told you I had to drive tomorrow too. “I have to wake up and go home.”
However, completely shattering that obvious inference, Kang Joo-hyuk calmly announced that he would go home as soon as he woke up.
… There’s no way that guy would do that.
There is no way the person I know named Kang Joo-hyuk would just bring a woman like Hinami and me to a private space like this and then quietly leave.
“Oh, I will take you home early the day after tomorrow, so don’t worry. “I roughly heard about your schedule from Hinami.”
“I actually don’t have a schedule these days… , Lol. “Isn’t he busier?”
“… “If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t be this busy.”
Even if I just overheard the conversation between those two, there was absolutely no way I could just leave.
The same would be true for a man other than Kang Joo-hyuk, and even if I were Kang Joo-hyuk, I wouldn’t have just gone away.
I could have fun all day with a woman who can’t resist because her dog is on a leash, and a woman who begs me to put her dog on a leash.
Are you really giving up on this?
… If he were that kind of person, he wouldn’t even touch me.
“Anyway, eat well, chat well, and then go. “I’m going to sleep.”
However, Kang Joo-hyuk hid his dark feelings and even yawned as he left this space without any regrets.
… What kind of trap are they trying to trap me in this time?
You wouldn’t think that I wouldn’t know that we’re going to have sex after I fell asleep.
No matter how much I think about it, I can’t really understand Kang Joo-hyuk’s thoughts, so I take another sip of beer and pick up a tofu snack from the table and eat it.
“… “You’re gone, brother.”
While I was a little worried about the taste that seemed to make me fat no matter how much I tasted it, Hinami, who had also taken a sip of beer, sighed heavily, looked across from me, and spoke softly.
… When the two of us were together for a while, something that wasn’t mentioned came up, and I couldn’t find the words to respond and couldn’t do anything other than pick up the snacks and eat.
“Ha. I thought it would attack you. It’s a waste.”
“… Hey.”
“Why? … Still, it’s a sex friendship, so you can look forward to it, right?”
“Hinami.”
However, once he started saying things like that out loud, I couldn’t just listen to him quietly.
If they were just lovers, I would have understood, and as you say, even if they were sexual friends, I can barely turn a blind eye to it now.
However, since that person is her older sister’s boyfriend and the rapist who tried to rape me, I cannot admit it openly.
… I know you won’t listen to anything I say.
At least I had to show that I didn’t like it so I wouldn’t be mixed in with them.
“Ah, Jia, you hate your brother. Sorry. … I guess I thought too much about myself.”
“…”
“But I like you oppa. … Last week, my sister was so angry that we couldn’t have sex. We were both busy this week. “It’s hard for me too.”
However, Hinami complained to me several times more strongly than I could express her dislike of her, pouring out words about her her her her love her for Kang Joo-hyuk.
… No matter how much I ask, why do you have to tell me that?
Because I am the only friend I can confide in.
It was the same for me too.
“So, if possible, Ha-eun, her older sister, her older brother, and the three of us were planning to come and have some fun. … “I hit you because of someone.”
“What?”
“The boy who was trying to get rid of idols was annoying to her, so she gave up her precious weekend to bring him. … Do you know?”
… Anyone who notices that I’m tired of everything, too.
There was only one person.
“… “I don’t want to hear that from you.”
“Oh, of course I’ve had similar thoughts. I’m not qualified to say it, but… , Jia, you’ve been professional all along, right? “It’s different from a kid living in a barracks like me.”
“You used to work hard too.”
“It wasn’t that I worked hard, it was that I worked hard because I wanted to live. “If I failed, I had to go back to Japan and do well as a gravure actor, and if I failed, I had to become an AV actor.”
He takes another sip of beer with a face that shows no signs of intoxication, and this time he speaks clearly without even putting a snack in his mouth.
It was awkward because her serious face she did not look like Hinami at all, but her serious attitude her her was familiar because it was like seeing Hinami when she was young.
That’s why even more,
The words coming out of my friend’s mouth were even more scandalous.
“… “Is there any difference between you and an AV actor now?”
“Wow, that’s harsh…”
“You sent me a sexy picture the other day. Entering a man’s house right in front of my eyes. This time, they even tricked me into a pension. … You also filmed a sexy video, right? “What’s the difference?”
“… “I only sleep with one person.”
“How long do you think that will last?”
Whether it’s because of personal preference, sexual desire, or stress.
How long will the feeling of being completely in love with a man last?
I wasn’t saying this simply because I disliked or disliked Kang Joo-hyuk.
It’s difficult for even a healthy love to last more than 2 to 3 years.
How much longer can a relationship that relies on pleasure marinated in dopamine go?
You know how much I sacrificed for that.
“… “It’s up to me to decide how long it will last, not you, Jia.”
“Yeah, it’s not up to me. … “It’s up to Kang Joo-hyuk to decide.”
“Hey.”
“Do you know why I do things haphazardly without any motivation to practice? If that person makes one mistake, he or she will be ruined, so everything will be in vain. You will go to the gallows, get all kinds of people telling you what you can’t hear, then retire, and our group will fail without you. Why do I have to work hard?”
“…”
Hinami’s attitude of trying to preach to me, causing an accident that could destroy the castle I had built so far with just a single gesture from an outsider, was extremely pitiful.
… If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t have come to this place.
Even if you hadn’t played around with Kang Joo-hyuk, you wouldn’t have been in a situation where you were swayed by that person and had your weaknesses exploited and you had to run when he called.
“At least a person with a straight mind would not know. You know what kind of man that guy is, right? … Since you outright told that person to bring me, I guess you heard it too, right? What did you do to me? … “Don’t you think it’s conscienceless to drag me and that man to the same place when you know everything?”
“Jiya.”
“Shut up. Do you know how annoyed I am with you? Even if you tell me not to smoke like that, I smoke like I do. Even if you are told not to drink, drink. I always brag that no matter what I eat, I don’t gain weight. Even if you only practice roughly, you dance much better than me.”
“Seo Ye-eun.”
“Isn’t it so disgusting that a kid like that always whines about not wanting to be an idol, then she gets so excited that she met a guy and the fans do something? You don’t even like fans, do you? “To you, being a fan just means using it as a laughing stock when you have sex with Kang Joo-hyuk, right?”
… Me.
I would never have to reveal to my face the story that I had kept in my heart for years.
Because the moment you spit it out, you can never pick it up again and you can never go back to the way it was.
But the moment that annoying, disobedient bitch came to preach to me first, I couldn’t take it anymore.
It may be people who help me, such as the team leader, higher-ranking people, coordinators, or trainers.
… At best, a crazy stalker who has faith in me like my old manager will still hear it with one ear and spill it.
At least I didn’t want to hear it from him.
90% of the reason I ended up like this was because of you.
“… “Yes, Eun-ah.”
“Noisy. Don’t call me by my real name. Why are you acting friendly?”
“…”
As I randomly spewed out a sticky, foul-smelling lump of emotion, Hinami, who was looking at me with a serious expression, was quite embarrassed and blinked her eyes.
Saying my real name, which I haven’t called since I was a trainee.
He jumped up from his seat, gulped down the remaining beer, and wiped his lips.
I let out a long sigh, filled with the scent of alcohol.
“… “Do you think you wouldn’t be annoyed if I were you?”
“…”
Tuk,
Tuk.
Buttons of pure white pajamas one by one.
From the top, it started to come loose.
“He’s really tall and sings well. … Her breasts are also much bigger than mine. Even if I don’t show cuteness, female fans squeal and love me. Do you think I wouldn’t hate you?”
Revealing the breasts covered by a cute bra,
He trudges to my side.
“… Still, Jia, you told me to work hard. You’re working hard no matter what. If it weren’t for my brother, would I have died a long time ago? They don’t let you smoke or drink. Even if you just eat candy, they’ll give it to you.”
“…”
“You blocked me from getting out of that damn place, so why are you trying to escape first? … If that’s going to happen, why don’t you just let them beat it up a long time ago.”
With that small body.
Looking down at me with hateful eyes as I sit.
