How to Subdue a Woman You Despise 15

Chapter 15 – 015. Audio File (2)

I once heard my friends complain that a bad man’s attitude changes the moment he gets into bed.

At that time, I looked at him strangely, thinking, ‘Isn’t it your fault for not being able to take care of your own body?’

A fool would be fooled by a man who approaches her with the intention of seducing her.

Why are you being fooled?

If you look, you can see it, right?

Trash who only looks at the chest.

Idiots who only say boring things.

That’s what I thought,

I never thought I would end up like this.

⋯I didn’t even notice that I was being deceived.

-⋯Can I really do it?

The man’s voice comes out.

A low, deep voice.

That sound that disturbed my head over and over again.

– Answer me. ⋯Are you okay?

There’s no way it’s okay.

There is no reason to overlap with a man like this.

⋯I should never hear this voice again.

“Hey, you, you, what is this!”

“My drinking habit is recording. “If I do something stupid, I have to sober up and apologize.”

“That’s what you mean… !”

“Don’t complain, just listen.”

How can you say such shameless words and look at me with such shameless eyes?

I thought that if I left it alone, I would actually see it on the news, so I worried about it out of good will.

What came back was not gratitude, but only the desires of a dirty man.

-⋯Tell me if it hurts. It hurts.

-⋯Ugh, uhm⋯.

The man who is looking down at me right now doesn’t open his mouth,

3 hours ago, he was teasing me by opening his mouth in a gruff voice.

I, like a fool, foolishly agree with him without any sincerity.

“Hey, hey, turn it off! Erase it! You crazy bastard… !”

“Why erase it? It’s all memories and proof.”

I vaguely remember what happened after that, and I just wanted to push him away and break his phone.

But it can’t be possible.

To a man who didn’t show any sign of fatigue even after teasing me for three hours,

Because it was obvious what he would do if he revealed his hostility.

More radically than before.

Violently.

Because you will violate me.

-Ah… Evil, ah, it hurts…!

-Does it hurt?

-It hurts, it hurts⋯.

So I couldn’t stop the screaming that continued.

-Then I will caress you, so relax. Turn sides. That’s right. That’s right.

-Ah, haha, haaaaa!

On the day when I cried out in pain, I couldn’t stop him from gently soothing me.

No matter how much I hear it, it’s an acting tone. Why didn’t I notice it at the time?

You must have known very well that all men who talk like that are crazy about women.

Why.

Did this man show such pitiful eyes?

“Turn it off, you bastard!”

“You should know how much you cling to me. Looking at it now, I think I’m drunk and don’t remember.”

“What are you hanging on to, you bastard!” “You just made me drink and then raped me!”

“If you listen to everything, you won’t hear anything like that.”

“Let go, kinda…, Town…”

He smiled so refreshingly that it made me feel bad, and he started hugging me with a belittling face, pretending to be cute.

And then, as if there was no need for my sober voice, he covered my mouth with his dirty mouth.

In order for me, who was holding my tongue, to be able to clearly hear the 3-hour record, he held the cell phone to my ear and pressed down on me with his entire body.

I don’t want to hear it, so I cover my ears and run away.

It is also impossible to shout and overwrite it.

-Ugh…! Ha, ha… River, river, river…

-⋯You’ve never had sex, right?”

-No, because there isn’t any…! It hurts, it hurts, it hurts…

The voice of a lewd woman tickles my ears.

Moaning.

Nasal sound.

A sound I’ve never made in my life.

Even when I masturbated, I held my breath while holding my T-shirt in my mouth. I have never cried out so vulgarly.

-Are you okay. It doesn’t hurt when you’re excited.

-I, I want to have sex. I’m scared…

-Are you okay. Take off your strength. Lean on it. Because it’s okay.

He even acts cute.

A woman with the same voice as me is yelling at a man she doesn’t even like.

I’ve never tried to be cute, even to my friends.

I have never been angry with my family.

-Ugh…! Hmm! Haaaaa!

To a man I don’t know well and have no relationship with.

They are clinging to me, making all kinds of obscene noises.

Just like then,

Being crushed by him.

With the tongue held.

-Haaagh⋯, hehe⋯, ha, haaak⋯.

-Are you okay. It’s natural. Take a deep breath.

-Haaa⋯.

It’s still the same now.

Hands and feet.

Move as he wants, react as he wants.

Even struggling with your lips closed is the reaction he wants.

-It’s okay because we all make mistakes when we’re drunk. Once we get it out of the way, we’ll be okay.

At the time, I believed it was a mistake.

I hated Kang Joo-hyuk,

Kang Joo-hyuk also hated me.

Wouldn’t it be easier to cut off the tangled skeins with scissors…

As he whispered in my ear, I somehow felt like it would work.

-If you’re embarrassed, you can cover it up. If it hurts, tell me.

But when I heard that squishy sound again, it was definitely not a comfortable solution.

-Ha-eun, it looks like you are in pain. At first, I won’t wear a condom so it won’t hurt, and I’ll only put it in at the end. If I can’t stand it and add more, tell them to take it out right away. Because you only do it the first time so it doesn’t hurt.

It was a choice I should never have made.

-That’s right. Relax your hips. Take a deep breath.

Crude, foul-tempered,

Meanwhile, he is so tall that it hurts my neck to look at him.

The muscles his are so sticky that it’s unsightly, so it’s disgusting.

To the pervert trash person who pretends to make eye contact and steals glances at my heart when he’s bored,

I shouldn’t have given away my first time.

You should not nod your head even accidentally.

“Phew…, Ha… “Get out of here!”

“You don’t like kissing? “I heard you really liked it.”

“It’s heavy and dirty! Haa⋯, haa⋯.”

“Oh, then should I hug you from behind?”

Once the stockings come out, no matter how many times you apply nail polish, they will eventually tear apart.

This man, who was freely harassing me behind my back, had no intention of letting me go.

I have no intention of passing today’s mistakes as mistakes.

That miserable face you showed me earlier,

The sly attitude he showed at the bar,

The pure joy he showed when handing over the autograph,

Everything is false.

A lie he told because he wanted to hug me.

-Sigh, ah…

-Are you okay. Are you okay. Relax. Don’t be nervous.

-Huuuhn⋯, heet⋯, hehe⋯.

Zvt zvt.

Obscene sounds come out from the cell phone placed by his bedside.

It’s noisy, dirty, and nasty.

During the three hours of intoxication and pleasure, it became increasingly clear what had happened.

-Ah…, Ah…

-Okay, that’s all. ⋯Are you okay?

A voice I sometimes imagined.

I met a good man who understood me, and after dating, I got married.

After seeing each other naked for the first time on our honeymoon,

A sweet voice that whispers when you have your first experience of affection.

-Haaak, haha⋯, aaaaa⋯.

-Take a deep breath. Because it all hurts at first.

But his voice his his, while similar, was completely different.

Dirty, filthy, and black on the inside.

A soggy and sticky voice full of desire.

My beginnings, which should have been fresh, are being covered by trash that is full of skill and skill.

“How about it? Because I heard it myself. I was very considerate of you. Do you know how long I have endured?”

“What are you holding back, you… !” “You didn’t hold back!”

“Oh really. “It’s so cute that it’s obvious that you have no experience at all.”

From around the time I graduated from middle school,

I didn’t want to give up my breasts, which so many men had stared at and teased, to a man like this.

To this kind of trash…

It was a complex, but I didn’t want to squeeze my pride.

“Let go, let go!” “Bwaek⋯, come on⋯.”

“I washed my hands earlier, it’s okay.”

This time, instead of a tongue, thick fingers fill my mouth.

I wanted to chew it, but I felt like if I did, he would chew me up and swallow me mercilessly.

It’s scary.

I’m afraid.

I don’t like it.

I am being fooled by a man like this.

-Ha, ha…, Ah, it hurts…

-Does it hurt more than before?

-That’s not the case…

I’m annoyed by the sound of my voice being deceived by a man.

They say they did a good job, even surrendering their chastity and talking in a sticky voice.

What are you doing?

Is it okay to say I’m drunk?

Are you such a light woman?

-Then just hold on a little longer. If you scratch here, it will get better.

-Yes, ugh⋯! Haaa!

No matter how much I screamed inside or not, I was giving myself to that man, panting in pleasure.

I couldn’t deny what he said.

-There is almost no bleeding. Are you okay. For a first time, this is okay. Take a deep breath.

-Haa⋯, hoo⋯.

-I didn’t know you had no experience with men. Sorry.

-Huh…, Uh, I just happened to see it…

-Is it okay to have your first experience with a guy like me?

-No, it’s not okay…, Without knowing, that’s right…, Ugh…!

Obviously, I gave my body permission,

I cried bitterly,

I didn’t say anything to stop.

-Phew⋯, there you go. Because if you do this, you’ll be very wet. I’ll take it out for a moment. I’ll put the condom back on, so just take a deep breath.

-Yes, yes…

I nodded.

I begged you to accept my first time.

-⋯I’m going crazy. Really.

Much more vulgar than the dirty thoughts I sometimes imagine.

-Ah…

Give up all the initiative.

-Lift your waist. It hurts less if you put a pillow in it.

I entrusted my whole body to this man.

-Take your hands away. Because I want to see your face.

Raped by Kang Joo-hyuk.

– Put it away. Look at me. The man you hated.

I am raped by a man I dislike.

-Okay, open your eyes. You don’t remember because you’re drunk anyway. Look at me.

-⋯What are you talking about, really⋯.

At one time, I felt guilty towards the man I hated the most in the world,

-I’m sorry I’m worse than you, but my skin is fine, so please look at it.

I apologize to him with my body.

-Ha, ugh…, Ah, it’s really, a bit, too much… I’m out of breath, me, Kang Joo-hyuk…

⋯Like a stupid asshole.