Chapter 29 – Subtle Rage
“Where is Parsley? All you have to do is finish it!”
“Serve it with the grilled onion!”
The busily exchanging words and the busier hands holding and moving the tableware. In this place full of people sweating all over the place, Siana was sitting on a chair in one corner.
No one cares about her Sianna tried not to show her shrunken side, but her nervousness and sense of alienation involuntarily made her shiver.
Alone with her little fingernails torturing her, Cianna couldn’t help but chew on Isabella’s words.
I am really incompetent.
She wasn’t treated as an invisible person from the beginning. After Isabella assigned her Sianna to her kitchen, she tried to do her best, but cooking for her family’s family was a different matter than cooking in her normal home kitchen.
Not to mention many mistakes, I couldn’t keep up with them physically. At first, there were people who stopped her like that or taught her kindly, but soon after learning that Cianna was her ‘friend’ of Isabella, her attitude changed.
Even the few people treated her as if she were a difficult person and gradually began to distance themselves from her. When she was unable to touch her hard work or her dirty work, there was nothing her Shiana could do. In the end, Shiana, who became a mana-only being, had no role for her.
As if rumors had spread about her in her mansion, even the mere janitors stopped talking to her before she knew it. After a few days like that, Shiana was treated as a perfect invisible person. No one of her ever made her do her job or came forward.
Except for one person.
“I…”
Shiana hurriedly lifted her head at the sound that suddenly came from in front of her nose. A red-haired girl, stunned by her reaction, comes into her eyes. A girl with freckles, who is still a little girl better suited.
She speaks in a friendly voice, trying to give the bewildered Sianna a smile.
He was the only child in her mansion who spoke to her.
“I think the lady is looking for you, would you like to go with me?”
Jennifer Robinson… Did you say She stares blankly at her face for a moment. Jennifer’s face flushed slightly.
“He asked me if he could bring me…”
Hesitantly, she stood up from her seat, shifting her gaze to Jennifer, who hesitated on what to say. She follows her out of her kitchen.
All eyes of the people in the kitchen are directed to the back of the head. The eyes filled with discomfort, rejection, and criticism turn into sharp thorns and stab me.
It stings. Sick. Dark red blood gushed out from her stab wound. Like her hedgehog, with thorns stuck all over her body, her entire body is drained of blood and dying.
I felt tickled.
“… Sheep.”
I scratch her left wrist, feeling her tickle. Lack. It keeps tickling
“Miss Siana!”
She comes to her senses when she feels her right hand snapped. Jennifer’s bewildered expression is the first thing that catches her eye. Then I felt a stinging pain in her wrist and a gooey sensation in the tip of her right hand.
“…”
“Are you okay?!”
Jennifer’s urgent question echoed in her ears, but Cianna only looked at the wound on her wrist that was no longer healing.
For the past few days, the convulsive scratching of the wrist has been getting worse.
“It bleeds!”
There is urgency in his voice. Sianna looks at her Jennifer as she trembles alone and drags her to her dormitory for her servants.
Why does this kid care about me?
As if familiar, the girl applies medicine to her wound, takes out a clean bandage, and wraps it around her wrist, a gentle touch.
“… Thank you.”
It was the first sincere expression of gratitude after coming to this mansion. The expression of thanks, now awkward, came out bluntly and coldly, but the girl smiled.
“No. That’s me. Thank you. If you hadn’t helped me then-“
The girl who was briskly trying to tell her story stopped her words abruptly. She dyed her face red.
“Ah, um… That, that.”
That day, she must have been because of the girl she saw in her bath. Sianna pretended she didn’t hear, but she couldn’t stop recalling the situation to herself.
The long, long kiss I shared with Isabella.
“So, Isabella found me?”
Upon her Cianna’s questioning, Jennifer looked at her for a moment, then again, her face blushed in an instant.
“I’m sorry. That is… You’re so pretty, I’m stunned without even realizing it…”
After a little stuttering, she spoke shyly,
“Sah, it’s actually a lie. That she was called by the lady.”
“… Yes?”
A slightly embarrassed smile appeared on Jennifer’s face. She smiled Betsy and played with the tips of her hair.
“Well, Miss Sianna seems to be having a hard time in the kitchen… Just like you helped me back then, I wanted to help a little… Oh, don’t worry about me! I’m a housekeeper, so I go to the kitchen and do other chores as soon as I can! No one will come looking for me secretly smoking nonsense!”
That day, her own little whim, which she had pampered in her bath, returned to her favor.
There was a time when she lived in goodwill and goodwill that was blindly given.
She realizes its value only after she is deprived of everything.
“Si, Miss Siana are you crying?”
Jennifer notices her tears flowing without her knowledge. She is startled by her words and she closes her eyes. Moist feel. It was real tears.
“Ah…”
She looked for something to say, but she couldn’t find it. She felt that saying something out of her mouth would hurt the meaning of how much Jennifer’s little act meant to her now.
Siana continued to weep. She received the little girl’s awkward pats as she was farther than he was.
Isabella put her letter down when she felt satisfied. Little by little, the little plan she was preparing for Sianna was being completed. Suddenly, I count how long it has been since Shiana came to her mansion.
More than half an hour. Isabella has been training Siana every day. She is in her kitchen during the day but no work is given to her. She was the perfect environment for making herself feel worthless.
The more she did, the more actively she coveted her pleasure. She was showing signs of losing control little by little when she began to take pleasure in herself, although she didn’t like what she was asking her to do.
“… It must be because the satisfaction brought by physical pleasure makes it difficult to feel an unstable mental state.”
Even though it’s only a temporary prescription, like a drug, the pain that comes back later will be even more difficult.
Isabella thought of Cianna as she pictured her delightful smile. She suddenly misses her little toy and pet dog.
“Isn’t it bad to visit and see for yourself sometimes?”
Cianna hummed and headed to her kitchen. The servants rushed to greet her sudden appearance. She gives them a light smile and quickly scans the kitchen.
Does not exist.
She forced herself to frown slightly and looked again slowly.
Even though he wore the same plain clothes as the other servants and had his grayish-white hair neatly tied, there was no sign of his own slave that should have shone even in the gap.
“I can’t see Cianna, do you know where she went?”
Everyone looks at each other in bewilderment at her question. It was clear that no one was paying attention to Sianna.
“Ah, if it’s Ciana, I think Jennifer took her with her earlier?”
Jennifer? Jennifer Robinson? The kid you saw in the bathtub then?
When Isabella sees her Sianna, she leaves her kitchen after begging her to send her to her room.
“… I don’t even know the subject.”
No matter how much I thought about it, there was no reason for Jennifer to seek out Sianna. Other than that she was thanking her for what had happened in the bath.
“I have no reason to leave her kitchen…”
Isabella muttered to herself as she walked down the hallway and turned the corner.
“…”
“… Ah, lady.”
Wow, should I call this lucky?
We encounter Jennifer’s frightened figure and Sianna’s still empty eyes.
“… Siana. What are you doing there You found it.”
He smiles and speaks in a soft voice. Sianna’s dark green eyes contain herself for a moment, then she averts her eyes.
“Come on.”
Isabella holds out her hand. Siana slowly approached and took her hand. Jennifer’s restlessness catches her eye.
“Jennifer. I heard you took Siana with you?”
Jennifer flinched, squirming like a frightened mouse. Her eyes twitch
“Oh, that’s…”
For an instant, Ciana squeezed her hand a little tighter.
“… I hurt my left hand, so I just helped bandage it.”
Saying that, watching Cianna show her wrist, Isabella smiled at her.
“Thanks for helping my friend, Jennifer. But I was looking for you in the kitchen. Shouldn’t we go soon?”
“… ! Yes, then excuse me!”
Jennifer hurriedly bowed her head to her and hurriedly headed for her kitchen. As Isabella heard Jennifer’s footsteps disappearing around her corner, she turned her head to Cianna.
“Did you scratch your wrist again?”
“…”
It was a habit of Sianna, whom she had already seen many times. She can be seen scratching at the wounds on her wrists in a fit of stress when mentally cornered or stressed.
Isabella quietly grabbed Cianna’s left wrist and lifted it up. Even when she bathed, she partly turned away from the little blemishes on her sculptural body. It was an ominous crack.
She gently placed her lips on her wrist, which was slightly stained with blood through the pure white bandage. The smell of bandages and medicine and fishy blood passed her nose, but she didn’t care.
I felt Cianna wince for a moment at the sensation in her sensitive wound.
“… Let’s go up.”
Isabella grabbed Cianna’s hand and pulled her, feeling the subtle feeling of her boiling inside her chest.
