Chapter 48 – Compromise
Eventually the offer was accepted.
I wonder if it took about a month to make a decision, but I think I thought about it for quite a long time because it was a matter of life anyway.
I wondered if there would be better conditions than this even if I considered other options.
Above all, it was the result of the intense desire for stability in the mind that arose at some point.
Although I wasn’t someone with an overabundant appetite for knowledge or an ambition to rise to the heights of power.
Still, with the support of Fellowes, I thought I would be able to stay stable.
Perhaps it was because the memories of the hardships I had experienced over the past two years were strongly imprinted in my brain.
I thought of my parents.
What will my parents say when they see me now?
Would you say that your children have worked hard so far in a situation where they are about to jump into the rapids of society in earnest?
The emptiness of questions that can’t come back lingers in my heart.
I guess I’ll have to see you soon.
It was time to go back to reality.
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After accepting the offer, all I had to do was get a letter of recommendation.
A letter of recommendation was more of a formality, but since it was needed externally, I headed to the professor’s office.
Knock on the door.
A person who doesn’t seem to have much chance to see now.
The only person who has looked at my thesis positively since I first went under her.
No matter what I say to the professor, I will not fully express my gratitude.
“Are you here?”
“Yes.”
“I already know what you came for.”
The professor soon listened to a letter and said so.
The letter with a luxurious-looking seal was shaking in the professor’s hand.
Perhaps the request to send it separately is written in that letter.
“Thanks to you, did you succeed?”
It was half a joke, but not wrong.
Thanks to the professor, I started tutoring, and a relationship was formed, and I have come so far.
Of course, it wasn’t just the flower path.
At the same time as a new relationship was formed, the old relationship disappeared.
And that loss was still lingering in my heart and gnawing at parts of my heart.
People say that it is impossible to be happy all the time, but in the midst of happiness, we do not live with unhappiness.
This is a bad mind and action for us, so living thinking that we shouldn’t do it would not be living.
Living in anticipation of everything is tiring.
“I see.”
Bitter feelings stay and disappear.
“It’s not like I haven’t been asked to write a recommendation letter like this, but it’s the first time I’ve been asked to write one from the sponsor side first.”
“Did you seduce a student you were tutoring for?”
The professor said it as a joke, but it was real to me, so I flinch momentarily.
“…Really?”
I didn’t know what to say, so I just sat there stupidly.
“Even if I say that this is because of a woman, I won’t have anything to say.”
Do you think it’s not wrong…?
“It’s a joke, a joke. I know all your skills, but it’s strange that such words come out.”
It wasn’t wrong, but it could be a problem.
But I don’t know who will complain about the Feroz family.
“Still, you’re talented? How did you do it? What did she fall for?”
It seemed like he was just teasing, but there was a hint of regret behind it.
“I’ll write a letter of recommendation without a problem.”
“Thank you.”
Our conversation went on like that, like people who don’t tell each other the truth.
“Something feels strange.”
“In a big way, you are also one of the students, but it feels special. Is it because you brought something novel to the subject?”
I decided to just listen in silence.
“But I’m proud of it. I think I raised a disciple properly.”
“The first time I saw him, he seemed like someone who was fascinated by something and didn’t look anywhere else, just looking straight ahead.”
“I haven’t seen you in years, and I feel like I can look around.”
I don’t know, but the people around me seemed to have changed me.
Calm to the professor.
Feelings of separation for Heina.
A feeling of will for Seria.
The professor is probably the person who changed me after my parents.
There were a lot of things I wanted to say, but I couldn’t get them to come out.
“Thank you, professor. You’ll learn a lot.”
He bowed his head.
There seemed to be a little bit of water around the eyes.
“If anyone sees it, they’ll know that they won’t see it for the rest of their lives.”
“Congrats on your graduation.”
The actual graduation ceremony was a little later, but our own graduation ceremony was being held at this place.
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It was a few days ago.
I visited the mansion again.
At this point, I thought this was my home.
Her grades had improved only recently, so she came about once a week, but even in the early days she came more than 12 times a month, so it wasn’t strange that she felt that way.
She didn’t know if it was a personal proposal from the family head or a proposal from the family level, but
It was the point at which I accepted the offer and finished the story because he rated me highly.
“Well thought out. It will be a good outcome for both of us.”
It’s a thought I sometimes have, but I also wondered what the hell these people saw in me to make such an offer.
If you search, there will be many people who are smarter than me, but why me?
However, there was no need to strike a candle now just because I was talking about this.
It seemed appropriate to ask after a while.
After filling out a semi-formal contract, he grabbed me and stopped me as I was about to go up for the tutoring that had started it all.
“Didn’t Seria talk a lot?”
We were just talking about what we always used to do.
It was the result of my thinking that if she was going to talk seriously, it wouldn’t be right for her to do it after graduating from her academy.
However, as far as he knew, there was nothing to come out other than tutoring, and we didn’t talk separately anymore.
In the third year course, only the parts that were likely to come out of the exam were pointed out, so the time did not change, but instead, it was frequent to dig deeply into one topic.
So, while wondering what the heck both of them knew, he said.
“I guess you haven’t told me yet.”
“Go upstairs and listen to it yourself. I’ve already agreed to what Seria says, so don’t pay attention to my opinion.”
I didn’t ask a riddle, I finished the conversation that was confusing and left the room.
She went up to her room, greeted by workers who now greeted her almost as if they were part of the family.
I knocked on her door and opened the door.
She told me there was no need for that, but she did it because she felt that the minimum manners should be followed.
There’s nothing to hide between us anymore.
That was a little later, so after being told to come in, I opened the door and went in.
“Are you here?”
She brings me
At some point, this kind of meeting became a daily routine.
The repetition of physical contact becoming routine and distances getting closer.
Am I becoming indifferent to this repetitive daily life?
She feels the line between her and hers drawing closer and closer to me.
“Ah, Seria.”
“Yes?”
She had something to ask, so she decided to ask the question before she started class.
“The head of the household said you would say something, what is that?”
Although her titles were mixed up.
However, it was somehow awkward to call him father, so he was just calling him the family head.
“Oh is that it?”
She said cheerfully, as if she had just remembered.
“Let’s go on a trip!”
“Travel?”
“Let’s go after a party to commemorate the birthday.”
“Where?”
“West.”
There was no problem with the direction itself because I had to go west, but the question still remained.
“How much?”
“I was thinking of leaving around Friday and coming back on the weekend, but is it too short?”
Being short wasn’t the problem.
“Among us?”
“Yes.”
It was the devil’s suggestion.
It wasn’t that I didn’t know the meaning of traveling alone, but as far as I knew, her birthday hadn’t passed yet.
She brought her mouth to my ear and within seconds she started saying things she couldn’t refuse.
“Is that day your birthday?”
It was a bonus that I couldn’t pay attention in class.
###
In fact, I told Edward Weiss as if it was the first time I brought up the story of the trip, but it had already been discussed.
“I’m going on a trip soon.”
“When did you ever listen to me?”
“I’m holding him as I please. Is there anything you don’t like?”
“How far are you planning to use it?”
“Anything.”
Indeed, she was in a state where she had the idea that she could give him her body as much as she wanted in order to hold him.
What he thought was her toss, as soon as he looked into her eyes, he knew she was wrong.
She was sincere
“Fail or not.”
“Yes.”
With the words to go out, he turned his attention to his work.
She was in a good mood when she thought of her upcoming trip.
‘What color should I wear? Red? Black color?’
It doesn’t matter what clothes you wear.
She was the one who thought this trip might be a turning point.
A small whistle was heard in the mansion where everyone was asleep.
