Chapter 36 – Suspension
Although it was a break due to unilateral notification,
The other side didn’t really show much reaction.
The answer that came back was just to rest well and come back.
I do not know.
Human emotions are very complex.
Having faced only those that had answers, was it perhaps that I was taken aback by a problem without an answer?
I couldn’t control my own mind.
I don’t know what I want or what I don’t want anymore.
Refuse? Accept?
The arrow in my heart flies back and forth like crazy.
The options were gradually moving into the realm of reservation.
Perhaps it is an escape from an invisible answer.
There’s nothing to be said for being indecisive.
A conclusion has been drawn.
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It came out unilaterally, but in fact, it was definitely the reason for the contract.
But do you really not care on the other side or do you understand?
Didn’t hold me accountable.
The mansion that had returned was now even slightly uncomfortable.
Class started.
It seemed that now was not the time to talk about it.
It seemed like he said more than usual, as if he wasn’t going to think about it.
She was still in her sophomore year, but she had just started her third grade content.
Three hours passed without me even knowing what I was talking about.
And that time has come.
What is this tension?
What to do with luck
Are you sorry?
Or thank you?
The only thing that came out of my mouth was a really stupid ‘uh’.
“I don’t know what to say.”
She was looking into my eyes
It was burdensome.
“Should I say thank you?”
“I’m really happy that you like someone like me who has nothing special.”
She just laughed.
“So I did some thinking.”
Now it was the main point.
“I don’t know why someone like Miss Seria came to like me.”
Could it be that she ignored her too much?
It is said that there is no distinction in love, but looking at it objectively, it seemed that the word “Why” Could come out.
“I’ve been in the hospital for months. I’ve been thinking about this and that.”
My appearance was not much different from that of a child who has just realized love and hesitantly expresses his feelings.
It wasn’t this.
“It wasn’t long after I broke up, so…”
It seemed that it would be an excuse to extend it further.
“Actually, to be honest, I’m still confused. So I don’t think I can answer right away.”
I was ashamed of myself even as I spoke of her.
It’s like she can’t even make her own judgment and procrastinate.
“Therefore…”
“Are you okay.”
She was about to say her last words when she cut her off.
As if she didn’t want to hear her last words.
The conversation ended there.
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Trembled
Her teacher is finally giving her own answer.
It was her heart beating on its own without following her own control, but she decided to leave it alone for today.
Will she finally be able to answer her own feelings?
“I don’t know what to say.”
You’re starting
“Should I say thank you?”
I’m more grateful. Still, I’m glad that you think the same as me.
“I’m really happy that you like someone like me who has nothing special.”
There is nothing. You are the person I cannot be without now.
I hope you don’t be so self-deprecating.
“So I did some thinking.”
You are here now.
“I don’t know why someone like Miss Seria came to like me.”
“I’ve been in the hospital for months. I’ve been thinking about this and that.”
“And recently I’ve come to know Miss Seria’s heart.”
“Actually, to be honest, I’m still confused. So I don’t think I can answer right away.”
Something was strange. It shouldn’t be like this.
For some reason, the words that came out after that seemed different from what he expected.
“Therefore…”
Can not be done. I couldn’t let him say more than that.
I had to cut him off.
“Are you okay.”
It was really good.
The conversation was cut off, but it seemed like I shouldn’t listen to that answer.
I felt the need to work harder.
If you can melt his heart a little more, you will be able to achieve the results you want.
She was the one who thought so.
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Was this the answer everyone wanted?
Probably not.
It probably wasn’t even the answer she was hoping for.
The thing is, I wasn’t satisfied with my answer either.
There would be nothing more absurd than that to be unable to answer your heart and procrastinate.
I lay in bed and started thinking.
These days, the frequency of recalling memories has increased.
It was to remember the cut off memories again, but I suddenly had that thought.
How does Miss Seria know about my condition?
She knows they broke up, but how she broke up.
Wasn’t she oblivious to why they broke up?
But how could she have said that she would be very disturbed?
We parted ways with good feelings, but it could have been that I collapsed there and went to the hospital.
I remembered what I said earlier.
‘Two women brought them…I can’t remember the details, but one had blue hair.’
Two women
One definitely knows who it is.
Blue-haired woman
But then who is the other person?
I didn’t know who it was because there was no description of her other, but fitting her into her other made her a horse.
If that one person is Miss Seria, how far has she seen?
Did they meet after I was unconscious?
Or did she come to the space where we were?
The latter made no sense.
How did you know that place and that she would come?
It was impossible without following every move.
And even if I had known, I would not have been able to hear it if I had to open the locked door and come in.
Then there was no way I wouldn’t have heard.
How could she do all that when she was still an academy student?
Even so, it was physically impossible.
She must have been at the academy at that time.
What if it’s real?
What if she really tailed me and came all the way there and ran into Heina?
What if that was why she stabbed me?
Wounds that should have healed hurt again.
Sparsely placed memories.
Absence of truth.
And her unknown emotions.
These three things were confusing my mind more and more.
What if the love she shows is actually ‘heavier’ than I thought?
There were still things blocking that thought.
‘Why’
Why is she who has nothing to regret about me?
Aside from that, there were a lot of suspicious things.
Why was it me who was looking for a private tutor?
When I was admitted to the hospital after tutoring, the house instead of paying for my hospital bill
Was it a condition of extension of tutoring?
I don’t know what else, but her medical bills weren’t quite enough for her to pay.
She might have enough money to spend, but
Just pouring all that money into the private tutor?
It didn’t make sense.
If so, she must have had help from the family.
As far as I know, she wasn’t on good terms with her father.
Even if my mother helped me, it would be impossible to spend that much money without leaving a trace.
Then what am I supposed to do?
Decided to quit
It was nonsense.
I felt weird.
It was strange that I was having strange imaginations, as if it had finally led to paranoia.
Doesn’t ‘common sense’ make sense?
Even if you think of it as ‘reasonable’, isn’t it right?
I had to brush it off quickly.
This kind of doubt, once started, eats up the head endlessly.
That she knew the place and came and stabbed me in a rage?
Make sense.
It seemed right that a woman passing by helped Heina take me to the hospital.
It was easier to think that way than to give possibility to a delusion.
My head hurts.
Is it because I was trying to recall the memories of that time?
Decided to go to sleep
“I don’t know.”
Those were my last words of the day.
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Seria, who forcibly blocked Edward Weiss’ unanswered answer, was concocting her plan again.
It didn’t seem like he was caught up in some ‘accident’ and remembered bits and pieces of memory.
Had to start over again.
From the name to the end of life together.
Call each other by name
Holding each other’s hands
Kissed
In the end… We spend the night together
It was like climbing stairs.
But there was a little problem with her plan.
One was that she hadn’t come of age yet.
Another thing was that there had been some ‘impurity’ around him recently.
In a little while, a new year will come.
And she herself becomes an adult the moment her own birthday passes that year.
A sigh came out.
She was the one who hated that her birthday was in the second half of the year.
Until she comes of age, she excludes all ‘threats’ around her and protects him.
She was the one who thought it would be a tough fight indeed.
However
Some will question it.
If you’ve already followed him, what’s stopping you?
If she were to ask such a question, she would most likely respond like this.
‘I’m sure the teacher will hate me if I do that.’
Of course, such a method was not excluded in her mind.
She’s like the fox bitch now gone
She, too, would dare to throw herself at any time if her work went wrong.
It was a night where love grew deeper and deeper.
