Chapter 34 – Confession
What room was it
It was a very simple room with only a single bed.
There was nothing around.
The only thing that caught my eye was the door.
Step towards the door
Grab the handle
At the same time as the meme, the dream ended there.
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I had a dream today too.
Since that day, the number of dreams has increased exponentially.
Does that mean don’t forget?
If you mean don’t forget, what do you mean don’t forget?
Her?
Her memories with her
Or not
What did she do to me?
Maybe it’s all about not forgetting.
I started looking back at yesterday’s events.
Since when did you look back a lot to the past?
I never looked back at my childhood or when I took a leave of absence from school and left for the East.
Hey I don’t know what she was thinking then
One thing is for sure, she will probably be in a corner of my heart for the rest of my life.
I’m not sure what emotions it’s based on.
It was time to go to work.
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Miss Seria wasn’t in a good mood today.
She must have said to be happy the other day.
A crooked ego pops out.
“What’s up?”
“Ah, sir, are you showing off?”
No one said that anyone would know.
She just agreed to listen.
It was a thought I had since I lost something because I couldn’t hear it.
“That is…”
After some hesitation, she opened her mouth.
“There’s something I had my eye on, but it wasn’t mine at the time.”
“Then the original owner recently abandoned it. So now I thought I could keep it.
I think someone I didn’t know at all was interested.”
The first season I saw Miss Seria was winter.
It was already the season for winter to return once again in a little while for her, but she still couldn’t catch her.
Sometimes she seems like she’s been through it all
At times like this, she still looked like a girl of her age.
“Then why don’t you try talking to him and her?”
“I’ve never spoken to him before…”
She had no experience and she thought she would stick out even though she was serious.
What else do I say
“Since someone said it wasn’t in the state, then why don’t we just bring it?”
“That’s right, right?”
She started laughing as if her troubles had been resolved.
“Thank you, sir.”
“Have something like that.”
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The last time she did it, she unexpectedly made a lot of progress, so I ended her class a little early and talked about this and that with her.
Maybe it’s because things have changed a little since then. I felt a bit at ease.
Did I just want to meet someone?
I thought so too.
Laugh and sympathize with the little things.
If someone hears it, they’ll say it’s really boring, but it was fun in its own way.
It was a change that would have been unthinkable in the past.
If that change starts…
Messed up again
You were the one who changed me and left me.
Could this be what it means to say that it cannot be undone?
It wasn’t long before the comfort started to break.
“Teacher, are things going well with him these days?”
It wasn’t to the point of being overbearing, but it was enough to make me uncomfortable.
But since she wouldn’t know what had happened, she didn’t even notice her.
So she decided to simply tell the truth.
“We broke up.”
She was silent for a moment, then she put on an apologetic expression.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t know that and dug the wound.”
“No. Life is like saying goodbye.”
“You don’t have to be sorry.”
It really didn’t matter.
Was it really okay?
“Did you love me? You don’t have to answer me if it’s burdensome.”
“I loved you.”
“It wasn’t a good breakup, but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t love you.”
Why am I telling her this story of her.
Did I want to tell someone my story?
The horse, once started, continued to roll.
“We ate together because we loved each other, went to bed together because we loved each other, and we fought because we loved each other.”
“The funny thing is, he said he really loved me but he didn’t know what he really felt.”
“Then I got emotional and broke up after something big happened.”
I decided not to talk about the last one.
It wasn’t something I couldn’t say, but I just didn’t want to.
“Not too bad.”
I decided to turn the subject.
“Isn’t Miss Seria like that?”
No matter how prestigious it may be, there are still people who like it.
It was such a simple question.
I don’t know if that will happen.
And there was a really stupid thought that I was the only one talking about it.
“Um… Me too.”
I thought for a moment that she was unexpected, but I thought that she could be like that, too, as a human being.
“May I ask what kind of person she is?”
She hesitated for a moment, and then she started talking.
“The first time I saw it was around the beginning of this year.”
“To be honest, when I first saw it, it was ambiguous to call it love.”
It could have been enough so did i
“I didn’t see it every day, and now I’ve been seeing it sparsely, but it’s nice to talk about it.”
“I’m not a very active person, but I liked the manners and considerations that were kept secretly.
Sometimes we even study together now, but he says he studies well. To be more precise, he taught me well.”
We could have studied together, but from a teaching standpoint, it was a bit bitter.
“Time passed like that, but I didn’t feel like I was ready to speak my mind yet.
To stand next to him.”
Are you a pretty good student?
It was reasonable for her to think that way if she was at the academy because she wouldn’t be pushed anywhere in terms of her appearance.
“Then one day I saw that he was now with someone else.”
The story started to twist little by little.
It didn’t seem like a good ending.
“At first, I didn’t really like it, but then at some point, it seemed like we were dating.”
“At first, I didn’t know. Why did it feel weird when someone I was just close with was dating someone?”
“Then I knew. Oh, I am in love with this person.”
“But what can I do? This person is already in love with someone.”
“It’s okay. You’ll be able to meet someone better.”
It was a good enough thing.
What can I do, the choice has already been made a long time ago, and if it was a mistake, it would only be a sin of being late aware of my feelings.
Calling it a sin itself was strange.
Any other way would be to divert his attention to himself, which wouldn’t be a very good picture.
“However.”
The mood has changed.
“But they said they broke up recently.”
For some reason, I felt a slight suspicion.
You can say it’s not an excessive guess, but I couldn’t help but think.
The situation was too similar to say no.
There may be cases where the situation is really similar, but it will be a really low probability.
“Should I say I’m happy or should I say I’m sad?”
“I was happy that I could stand by him, but thinking that he would be sad over a broken heart made me feel sad too.”
“In the end, however, my heart leaned toward courage.”
“Teacher.”
“Miss Seria.”
My words were short, but they had many implications.
There was also the meaning of dissuade to go there.
“That’s right, sir.”
“I like that teacher.”
“So I might be hated, but I took courage.”
“I like you, sir.”
Why didn’t the word “Someone like me” Come out?
It would be correct to say that he could not speak.
The fact that she had these feelings for me hit her hard in the head.
“Since when the hell…?”
“I told you. Ever since I saw you dating him.”
“I know you’re having a hard time, sir.”
“But I didn’t think I would have time to tell you how I feel if it wasn’t now.”
“I studied hard while thinking of the teacher. Thanks to the teacher, my grades also went up.
I liked the teachers who made my grades go up and made me happy like it was my job. Therefore…”
The words stopped and silence filled.
It wasn’t that she didn’t like her humanly, but she didn’t know what to do.
“It can not…”
It was an indescribable feeling.
I was so lacking in love again after being hurt by love.
She hung her head, perhaps taking my silence as some kind of rejection.
Choosing neither side was the cruelest thing, but that was not the case.
When something completely unexpected came to me, my head was full of confusion.
She started talking again, which soon caught her mind a little.
“I know you are very confused.
“But my heart is sincere. I just said it today because I thought it would be now or not.”
“It’s okay even if you don’t give me an answer right away. It’s just nice that I was able to speak my mind today.”
“So, please tell me when the answer is decided someday.”
“No matter when, until we end our ties.”
“I’ll wait. Until the teacher understands my feelings.”
After that, the conversation ended.
She left the mansion as if running away.
